Lily Gates

Journals
Journal #1
What is my WHY? My WHY is to succeed and overcome. I want to live my life without
worry and anxiety and do things Ive always been scared to do. I want to go to school
without worrying something bad is going to happen every second, and go to places like
amusement parks or parties.

Journal #2
Goals
a. Get a B or above in all classes
- study everyday for 1 hour
- do all homework
- look over textbooks/notes
- review in class work
b. dont miss any class
- mentally prepare the night before
- dont get sick
- dont do the anxiety thing

Journal #3

1. These videos made me think that in order to feel confident and be able to work hard I
have to put my brain into this type of mode. If I reward myself for the process of learning,
and how I work through my assignme-nts/studying, then it will show my brain the more
important parts of learning and make it more efficient.
2. My most challenging academic project is math, Ive always had trouble with it because
of the way I was being taught. I need to be taught directly with clear instructions in order to
fully understand and my earlier instructors never understood that.
3. I think they helped me understand what I am doing wrong. I keep pushing myself too
hard and in the wrong areas of studying. If I want a more efficient way of learning I need to
take my time and reward the process rather than the stressed outcome.
4. I am definitely more confident about school and my grades this year than any past
years. Ive always taught myself that school was an unsafe place and that I didnt belong
there, but for the first time I want to belong and show myself I can succeed.

Journal #4
My goals were:
-Dont miss ANY class
-GeT above a B- in all classes
Definitely my parents and siblings can help with me and my attendance, but
personally it all comes down to me and my responsibility and a student. I can get help with
coping with my anxiety and stress from them, but all in all I need to be the one to push
myself through these hard times and make the decisions on my own.
Same goes with my grades, I can get help from my advisor and teachers but its my
decision whether or not I want to put the work in to be successful.

Things that could get in the way of my attendance could be my mental health,
when Im feeling down of anxious I dont feel safe leaving my house most of the time. As
well as illness cause who want to leave their bed when they feel achy and sick.
When it comes to my grades, it would have to be my confidence in how I do my
work. If I dont believe I can achieve a good grade, then whats the point. I need to trust
that I know what Im doing and work harder to achieve this goal.

Journal #5

My EI weaknesses would be how I address myself. Im not very confident and

dont set goals I believe I can achieve. When it comes to my emotions I tend to ignore
them and pretend like Im ok when I know I should just address them and get help.
My strengths? Im not really sure, I do look out for people more then myself
especially my family. Im very good at knowing when someone is down and how to make
them feel better. Im not really sure if that would be considered a strength but to me it
should.
I want to improve on how I react to my own emotions, and how I help myself. I
need to push myself more so I dont get into this slump I cant get out of.

Journal #6

Experiences:
-Taught art to children (ages 3-8)
-Babysitter (all types of children and all ages)
-Taken art camps and classes including anime drawing, basic drawing, comic art, and
studio art. As well as some pottery.
-I have sewing and construction for costumes from cosplaying, I can make weapons and
armor out of basic materials like foam, and paper and cardboard. As well as sew stuff.
-I have acted in some plays but I am mostly self taught in acting.
Skills
-Teaching
-Construction (building costume props)
-Comic art and studio art
-Presenting
-Cooking
-Sleeping
-Babysitting children because I am a child
I want to gain more social skills because people are hard to talk to.
Journal #7

Goals:
1.
2.

Not miss any class (3)

Get above a B- in all classes (3)

I feel a little disappointed in myself for letting myself miss class. But I am not allowing
myself to give up just yet.
I could keep telling myself the things I have accomplished that day instead of focusing on
the things failed at.
Journal #8

What relationships have you gained since starting here?

Ive definitely built relationships with my professors, especially when it
comes to my anxiety. I kinda have to build a good relationship with them when this
affect me on a daily basis. As well as my fellow students in my classes. Its very
weird to be 16 in a class of people 20+ most of the time.

List relationships you have that are supporting your college experience
-friends
-students
-instructors
-core advisor
-principle
-counselor
-parents/siblings/family
List relationships that do not support your college experience
-bad ones (?)

How can you maintain your positive relationships?

Actively talk with my family and friends and professors, etc. Update people
on my mood and make sure they know I appreciate them.
How can you change your negative ones?
Maybe talk it out, and see if we can at least get to a basis where we dont want to
glare at each other when we are in the same room ( I dont have any of these atm)
Journal #9
Im about a 5, because Im not really responsible for myself financially but Im pretty
good at saving my money and budgeting for stuff.
I could use my parents as support, and some of my older friends who have this
responsibility already.
I learned how to use credit and debit cards efficiently so that I dont have interest
debt to pay.
Im not sure, I still have time to think about this type of stuff and learn about it too,
but more on how to budget money and pay bills would be great. ALSO JOBS BECAUSE i
NEED ONE!

Journal #10
Its kinda weird, I never thought i would get this far in the first place so Im very
nervous but excited.

I thought it would be similar to highschool but its not at all. Theres more mature
people in most of my classes and the teachers are really chill.
Nope
I feel prepared and ready!! Also excited for my art classes!!!!!!!!