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EDITH O'GORMAN,
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ST.
JOSEPH'S CONVENT,
HUDSON
CITY, N.
J.
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nsTTEODUOTOET NOTE.
narrated.
at the
The author of
this
book had
suffered great
wrongs
Here she
Here, a
little
more than a
unmask
evils of the
Romish Church.
With
sincerity
had
sufficient
courage.
woman who
simply
tell
This story
the
is
among
American
life,
public.
As
eventful
which
VI
INTRODUCTORY NOTE.
The book
is
deserving
me
the author
is
to
to the
favor of the public, and to express the hope that her candid
story
may
fulfil its
mission.
Respectfully,
Henry A. Cordo,
Pastor of
the
CONTENTS.
PAGE.
Preface,
CHAP.
I.
My
....
....
.
II.
III.
IV. V. VI.
VII.
VIII.
Convent, Madison, N. J., Three Months Experience as a Candidate, Rules and Daily Routine of the Sisters, The Vow of Poverty, Vows of Chastity and Obedience, A Mission to St. Joseph's Orphan Asylum, in
St. Elizabeth's
17
22
27
32 36
41
IX.
X. XI.
XII.
XIII.
XIV.
XV.
XVI.
XVII. XVIII. XIX.
Paterson, N. J., Continuation of my Experience in Paterson, Some additional examples of cruelty to the Orphans, The Convent School System, My Sister Visits me in Paterson, My Profession and Mission to Hudson City, Sister Agnes, she leaves the Convent, Insanity of Sister Virginia, and Rebellion of Sister Ann Elizabeth, Rev. Wm. M. Walsh,
.
. .
49
57
65 70 75
82
86
92
99
My My
Brother Visits me
Escape,
in
Hudson City,
106
117
XX.
XXI.
Sick among Strangers, My Voyage to Ireland, Alone in a Foreign Land My return, * The Arrest of Father Walsh, .
:
125
. . . .
130
135
CONTENTS.
XXII. XXIII.
Abduction to the Convent of Good Shepherd, My Journey on foot from Baltimore to Philadelphia,
163
167 174
181
XXIV. XXVI.
Assassina196
XXVII.
XXVIII.
The efforts to
slander,
silence me
in
by unfounded
204
the Conversion of
211
XXIX.
XXX.
XXXI.
216
.232
236
243
PREFACE.
I do not
exciting
grateful,
solicit
sympathy or seeking
can do
;
Sympathy, though
or
to
little
to repair misfortunes,
redress
some wrongs as for vengeance, if it be proper to consider it at all, it must be left with Him who has said, that it is His, and that " He will repay.'* I write because I feel that I ought not to be nay, cannot be silent, knowing what I personally do of the wrongs and errors incident to the Romish system of
religion
and knowing
never be given
who can
In laying
I do not
this
am
guided by truth.
I give
object
make
challenging contradiction.
My
purely charitable.
discipline,
conventual
and al>o
to arouse the
ferent
and unsuspecting among Protestants whose daughters may be attendants of some convent school, where they are being enticed from them through the intrigues and cunning of Jesuits
and
Sisters of Charity,
who
IV
PREFACE,
all
who
weak
bitter experience, so
it
will cause
many
to
exclaim, " Is
woman
trials ?"
Few
bless
and I now
Hand
that
way
by the purifying furnace Through the gate of suffering I have come out of bondage, and entered into the blessed " liberty of the
dross of Catholic superstition, than
of tribulation.
children of God."
Praise be
to
This
book
trust
is
it
my own
will
it
grant that
meet the approbation of my readers; and may God may be the means of saving one immortal soul
!
from the slavery of Romanism and the living tomb of convents If only one soul should be saved, I shall have accomplished a
noble work!
Edith
0' Gorman.
CHAPTER
am
I.
was born
in Ireland,
My
mother be-
her maiden
garet Byron.
she was
known
"Rose" of
Roscommon,
Ireland.
She married
my
to
America
the year
Island,
From my
mother,
my
good
who
my soul
a deep reverence
and
traditions of the
Roman
Catholic faith.
I was educated in
Protestant schools, and there bravely confronted every opposition or reproach offered to
I
my
religion.
I defended
its
tenets;
my
life
of
reputed purity, as I
am now willing to
to prayer
unmasking of
impurity
and
errors.
was inclined
my
early
fol-
childhood.
8
lies
empty
vanities of a sinful
and ungodly
world.
"As
the
hart
my
of Eternal Truth.
the void in
filled
my
heart,
by
Mary and
the Saints,
and
My
senses were
the worship of
intelligence,
Roman
my
Were
I a
mere being
I.
I sought
among
became
The 15th
of
August
Assumption of Mary
in the
Heaven.
Mary's
I attended
beautiful
Church, of Newport
in the
Father
J.
New-
in poor health.
In obedience
to the teachings
i>
being, I confided to
my
my religion.
no benefit from
my
Communion
that I failed to
etc.,
and that
He
manner,
to enter a
Convent, as
in
evidently was
my
vocation,
my
soul.
He
ex-
God
telling
me
I could re-
me
man.
me
could not
He
pictured the
life
of a
Nun
as the
of the
cloister, aided, as I
to
ample of
my
sister nuns,
who were
human
love,
and
would
God.
tion
fa'.l
live in the
He
that
told
me my
human
affection
to
supply
my
fect consecration
my
life
to
God would
secure for
me
the
He
advised
me
"
to
St.
Alphonsus Liguori,
especially the
Nun
10
happy
nun
is
subliiiie,
men
women
subjection to friends or
age, an age
when
the heart
is
most susceptible
to those impressions
ro-
mantic or sentimental.
enthusiastic nature, I
was
;
filled
with a desire
to
make some
to the adlife
;
great sacrifice to
vice of
God
my confessor.
I took great
my
in
visions,
and
My confessor flattered of my great desire of self abnegation. me in my delusion, telling me hat the Lord had endowed my soul with His highest gifts, and lie had designed me from all
I
eternity to
become a great
saint, "
and
all
visions, ecstacies,
and
self-annihilation,
sanc-
tity."
At
the
my
entrance
God
me
those heavenly
gifts.
11
my own
self-righteousness,
And
humble.
it
instance, as
some
filthy
of a servant.
now
In the true
now
lation*
was
me.
I thought I
light of
God
and knew
it
not.
and
all
the time I
rudiments of true
sanctity.
However,
deluded
souls, I
of
my
true condition
elty of
light
my new
me
;
given
my
tie
Kfe on
human
which
bound me
to the
world.
Naturally
deep attach-
12
my
home.
The
love I bore
my
to
idolatry,
in itself.
face,
How
but
my mother,
never
It
would break
my
heart to leave
my
own dear
gentle mother.
om my
beloved
my
soul
Why
God and
?
arrive
"Why
was un-
me
if it
me
to exercise
Why
must
I crush
and blight
Cloister
?
my
life
and
Why
bury
my
Why
shut out
hand of
arbitrary
Was
not such a
?
God more an
God
and
as in
tell
to
my
confessor.
He
would
devil,
me
who would
me
of
my
holy calling
and per-
by attacking me
in the
weak-
severely
my ardent my weakness
mother.
affection.
My
spiritual
director (hided
me
God and my
and
if
made
my
immortal
soul,
and be
or
father
13
disciple."
not worthy to be
my
my
My
I
my
in
bndy
in
to give
up
;
earthly mother,
her place
my
soul
it
must save
holocaust
cost
what
made
choice of God.
The
to
Him
should be complete.
it.
I thought
He
rifice,
and I made
"
The
the merit."
every natural
tie,
affec-
my
heart,
and bid an
little
eternal
farewell to
my
beloved parents,
my
darling
brothers and sisters, and every thing I held sacred and dear,
and
to devote
my
young
life
to a perpetual
crucifixion of the
nature
my
Poor slave
that
that I was, in
my
blind delusion
the
merits of
my
salvation, independent of
my
self-im-
posed merits
The next
sent of
difficulty to
my
parents, which I
My
disposiall
my
friends,
my
parents
;
who looked
the
upon me
as
sunbeam
" of their
home
therefore,
In
had recourse
to
my
to be consulted
on every occasion.
The
advice
him was,
to
go without
my
14
des-
allegiance I
owed
to
God and
"
my
sin.
under penalty
He condemned my
them
" agents of
God
of
my
soul.
seeing
my
luctantly gave his consent, comforting himself with the reflection that I
elect
fighting the
good
fin-ht
in prayer
take,
when
from
of
happy and
my
The
innocent gir'.hood.
first
last
day spent
the society of
my last my dear
day
at
home, the
parents,
my
I
little
my
beloved associates
the
last
day of
cannot
now
did I
recall that
first
Oh, why
Why
alas
!
did I impose
death
Why
?
my
heart,
and of reason
But
too late
now
to
revoked.
I must
now
home
circle.
All
moments one
will
be absent, never
I kneel at
among them.
my
father's
knee
to
him
for-
15
to
Tremblingly and
in
my
bowed head,
unspeakable
as
me
with an
grief.
my
and
ing with sorrow as she clasps to her embrace for the last time,
her.
first
born
child.
Dear
heart,
shall I
my
more
liter-
Farewell,
my
little
you
to sleep
with
my eyes must rest upon you for the last object well, my beloved associates, and bosom friends
longer share each other's joys and griefs.
Farewill
all
we
no
the
Farewell, to
me
if
you annoyance or
forgive
all my
pain.
faults,
and pray
me
my
my
my
me
so full of sorrow
and tenderness.
for
you
16
and
me
me conveyed
to the grave,
me am
in the liv-
The
tie is
broken.
The knot
is
severed.
with you
no more.
Farewell home, happiness, mother
all
of earth, Farewell
\jy&<j
CHAPTER
st.
St. Elizabeth's
II.
j.
Convent
is
delightfully situated
on the Morris
and Essex R.
R., nearly
midway between
the stations of
Mad-
surrounding country.
" Seton
The main
is
building, formerly
known
as
Hall College,"
The Academy
a separate
building, as also
The
schools
there
skill
and
to the
nuns, of whose lives they see only the fair and poetic coloring
which hides from the world the privations, intrigues, and horrors within.
Of
more
at length in
another chapter.
is
a beautiful
Gothic cottage,
fitted
The grounds
are shaded
The
buildings
by
and
17
18
st.
n. j.
a branch of Mount
established in the
in the
was
diocese of
New
Jersey,
year 1859.
Among
the
Newark
diocese
was
sister
Mary
Xavier, for
whom
Bishop
his devo-
"
for
life,
notwithstanding
it is
contrary to
hold
office
sisters.
is
She
the
medium
and polished
in
The
St.
Vincent
1812,
near
Emmettsburg, Md.
St. Vincent,
There
sisters
is
a division
among
the sisters of
and the
rules
and
dress.
The costume
of the Sisters of
St.
Vin-
cent consists of a grey flannel habit clumsily made, and singular looking "
in the
form of wings
and presenting
The
Sisters of
attired in a blark
woohm
habit, with a
collar, tastefully
turned
down over
the cape
by a black cam-
ST.
N. J.
19
brie cap,
drawn
tied in a neat
bow under
the chin.
The
is
chaplet of beads, to
which
is at-
to
The
habit of novices
fessed nuns, with the exception that novices wear brown in-
stead of black.
of
The
Sisters of
Mother E. Seton.
On
first
A. M., I beheld
for the
fair
and
I was un-
which
was thenceforth
to
The outward
me
the
human mourner.
There
was a profound
my
heart
still
Had
me
more
that
My heart and
vague un-
walls.
of me.
knew
must leave
my own
will,
guidance of superiors.
I was
tempted
to turn
20 and
st.
n. j.
warmth
my
father's
home but
;
my
hands
fit
to the plough,
and
if
would not be
the
Kingdom
of Heaven."
bell.
A sad,
pensive looking
sister
my summons
in a
at the door,
and ushered
me
into
She expressed
my
appearance
and manners,
in ihe
telling
me
Lord sending me
much
in
need
She portrayed
in the
my
holy
me away from
in the
convent
;"
assuring
if I
me
fold of
heavenly
gifts
my
my
country and
my
father's
house
because
those,"
is
the body quit the world, the heart also mu-t quit
off all
and break
attachment for
it.
"All
our holy order must not only consider that they quit father,
mother, kindred, friends, and whatsoever they possess in the
world, but must believe that Jesus Christ addresses
these words
ters,
:
them
in
"
He
my disciple."
faith
!
st.
j.
2\
Him
and spontaneous
tion,
desire, crushing
affec-
CHAPTER
III.
was treated as
sisters.
At
and
was stripped of
my
worldly clothes
my
disposition
was
sent to
work
refectories,
all
a custom established in
convents
employ
freely, candidates
and
toil,
pation
didate
tured,
known
to
hard service,
work
in the convent.
The manner
of the sisters
at first
seemed
to
2t>
I found
among them
wounded by the
the sisters,
tories I
least
In the dormietc.,
and
me
to
undo
my
Also in
sisters
my work was
commanded
on
my
me,
task
deli-
Nevertheless, I performed
my
Moreover, being of a
cate organization,
difficulty,
me a
it.
manner chided me
my
laziness
snatched
the brush
the
from
me
palm of
my
hall,
me
to re-scrub the
in less
time than
woman
work
all
her
life,
while
the task
my
hands,
This
is
a small specimen of
24
sor-
rows.
On
all
kettles, and scour all the knives and forks in the establishment.
My
Having remarked
in
my
"
simplicity
am now
thin,
ashamed of
I'll
my
hands
!"
Well
be afther
Accordingly
she called
me
washing the
walls,
and commanded
me
to dip
my
hands into a
certainly she
ear-
could not
mean
None
of yer airs
now
but do
tell
I put
my
hands
down
For
tion.
several
weeks
my
The
causing
me
suffer the
forced to
and cold of
my
made no comto a
penance
in silence,
remarking
it
sympaproud
for being so
and vain of
I
my
hands.
to wait
25
and while
there, I conversed
a few
moments
my
Sister Cleophas,
my
obliged
to
community- room,
other sisters. I could give
be walked
many more
upon
which were
visited
me
mentioned must
have
when
in one
volume I must
relate
an experience of
'
ix years.
Had
life,
tL^>se
three
me
to fly
back
to
my home from
by unforeseen
that cruel
1
am
sufferings,
The
re-
intimidate me.
To every
tecl.
had become
imbued with a
spirit
of
self-
sacrifice that
my
road I had
too
begun
to tread,
hard, no
for the
tive
it
amount of
great to be endured
slave, a cap-
atonement of
my
sins.
was a dupe, a
a captive under a
and binds the
holiest ties of
fetters
affections,
and
Through the
false
zeal
to over-
26
gan
to seek them.
My
superiors soon
became
satisfied that
my
religious life
me up
to the
Final-
on the
brown
my
feelings
on
New
life,
Year's day,
when
old
And
oh,
how
reflection
to
!
lost,
lost to
!
me
forever
Never again
its
loved ones
!
Never
breathed
melody
in
my
futile
now.
I had
down
become
pised,
his bride,
and
live like
him while on
and
self-sacrificing; henceforth
Little did I
dream, when
it
would con*
duct me.
CHAPTER
Before
rules.
IV.
my
At
the
first
four in the morning, every sister rises hastily from her bed,
prostrate and kisses the floor.
Should a
if ill
the
first
sound of the
bell,
even
or indisposed, she
re-
each other.
half hour.
make
At
five
is
rung, and
all
repair to the
community-room or chapel,
ers to the
for prayer.
morning meditation
then read.
The
meditation
generally
some circumstance
is
made on
(27)
28
it
often happens
is
many
over.
The
"
We
fly to
thy patronage,
holy mother of
danger,
Amen."
The
sisters
and the
On
sisters
which
is
the priests,
and
and recreation
sisters repair
whenever they
like
it.
when
for school.
At
in prayer
and
is
This
is
with porter,
ale, etc.
who would
" to "
recreation or play
till
when
At
saints, etc.,
and school
is
dismissed
church or chapel
29
is
Supper
Any
ters to
observation or inquiry
is
sence of sisters
prohibited.
The
together alone
Sisters
the
school
evening.
At
from Rodriguez's
At
eight o'clock the bell rings for Chapter, which I will try
:
to explain as follows
The Superior
sits
and
My
too
sister,
I accuse myself of
of making too
much
noise in shut;
of giving
;
my eyes
much
liberty
of running
down
in the
first
;
morning
its
of kissing a
fant for
beauty.
I spent too
much
also
all
and
they
also request
my
sisters to point
out to
me
may have
ac-
SO
and
if
she
is
actu-
ated by jealousy or envy, she will keep the sisters on their knees
two hours
faults
at
them of
commandments
of
God without
reprehension,
while the least insignificant offense against the rules and cus-
toms
is
The
and
different cells.
(Chapter nights
sisters retire
about 11 o'clock.)
The
ment
the priests,
when they
wee
sma' hours."
Sisters are obliged to
go
to
make an
rite
extra con-
The
of confession
freedom
to
they
may
entertain.
to
are
empowered
lips of others,
would be deemed
must
listen to
indignation,
esty,
which
the
tiful gift.
is
Roman
Catholic Church
its
centre.
The
is
Confessional
;
is
the priest
in its
God's legate
own
Si
he
is
Omnipo-
woman
drawn
to the
proper
toils.
of this
sional
!
is
carried on and buried in the cess-pool of the confesSisters are obliged to regard the voice of their confes-
sor with as
therefore,
much credence
them
no
officers
There are
fac-
and party
;
feelings.
The
it
triumphant
consequently
becomes a
and envy.
from the evil
who
human
frailty.
Neither
is it
to
be wondered at that
many
by thus
ture, while
many
away
life
others
vent wrongs.
are pining
cape such a
they
of mockery
;
made
their choice
until death
claims
them
as his own.
CHAPTER
THE
V.
VOW
OF POVERTY.
A sis-
to
have no dominion
property
thing
a superior
first,
that the
vow
of poverty obliges a
nun not
any temporal
it,
make use
of,
or dispose of
in
vow of
poverty, not
when
from
whom
is
it
is
a sacrilege
to conceal
anything;
therefore no limit
selfishly
who
monopolize
A sister commits
trivial obligation
ter,
of her
Vow
of Poverty
THE
til re,
VOW
OF POVERTY.
;
oO
bepro-
Neither can a
anv other
vow
of poverty.
cacy, or
any memento of
it
it
to
another
for
it
as
much
for
one as
it
of the
vow
of poverty, as
from
his
superior, he
is
says,
For
is is
who
receives or keeps
anything in private
guilty of theft
and
sacrilege.
In order
to
by
relating frightful
religieases
who
sisters,
I will select
is
daily read to
Sisters of
We
to read a
little,
and, desirous
34
to learn
THE
VOW
OF POVERTY.
he had got
it
this
;
book, asked
him
for
it.
He
not
the guardian
pressed him to
to live
tell
it,
of his
said,
sick,
vows
Not long
for fear
after this
he
fell
dangerously
state,
com-
manded him,
tell
book or
but
this
hardened in his
night after he
The
was
buried,
when
saw a
frightful ghost
and hearing
fell
down
The
religious,
first
;
peal of matins,
to himself, told
them
word
so clearly as to be understood.
The
af-
commanded
God
it
to tell
who
To whom
replied, I
am
?
whom you
in
buried yesterday.
Then
the guard-
him if he stood
THE
to
VOW
OF POVERTY.
35
whom
Since, thereservice, I
guardian,
com-
mand
you, in the
name
Lord Jesus
Christ, to depart
us.
These
after."
Examples
like the
is
here practised by
their unfortunate
dupes,
who
much
avidity as
a prattling
Nights."
child
accepts
"Arabian
CHAPTER
The
less
VI.
whom
in
Jesuitical casuistry
and
doctrine are
unknown
pursuits of study.
sister
;
breaks the
vow
raise
of chastity by looking a
man
to
the face
her eyes
when speaking
sister's
she
touched by another.
cannot take his hand
;
all
curiosity,
never
when opened
and
to see
who
enters.
in the cloister
street with
nition to
an acquaintance.
sister longer
than
is
necessary,
the children.
acter I
On
account of
my
was a particular
and scholars
in general, consequently
my
pupils
were very
affectionate to-
ward me,
circling
by taking
kissing
my
my
feet,
(36)
37
would be reported as
my
and sympathy.
would be
who
Should a
sister's
with reference
priest,
she must
make known
him of
sional.
with a priest
it.
she
is
bound
to tell
it,
and obtain
Should a
sister,
on a mission, entertain an
she can inform the superior, and ask for a change of place.
A sister
chastity
;
is
bound
to
accuse herself of
all
things relating to
less
must
disclose
than
that,
A young
the
i
may
feel inclined.
Sometimes
if
he have an
unsuitable
deem her an
On
heart suggest to
him
how
accomplishment.
In the
38
be permitted
to enter the
The
have
It
is
devil,
fallen ;"
parlor
neither
is it
visit
a priest alone
yet she
may remain
him
in his
own room
time
The
nor
is
to
room during
When
time, she
is
told to
withdraw at once
nor
is
St.
soul."
St.
priest.
many
It is
him
in
him
to
recommend her
to
God.
When
this
from her.
to
remember me
in
your pray-
'69
"
No !"
vow
beg of God
to
make me
nevermore
to think of you."
is
By
a
the
of Obedience, a sister
Her
superior,
woman
feet,
and
listen to sister
her com-
mands
as
must obey
to the dif-
promptly the
sound of the
bell
which
calls
them
ferent exercises of the day and night, and instantly drop every-
thing she
is
engaged
in.
Even
if
e.,
obey without
to
and understanding
is
commanded should
it
even be criminal.
This obedience
is
so a sister
to
no matter
sister
must
which
is
to
walk with.
tion but
sister
A staff goes
it
;
wherever
it is
it
has no moit.
what
hand that
controls
When
sister receives
40
a
command from
is
taught to be-
more
God
in obeyto
Her
is
the
way
that leads
to salvation.
The vow
of obedience
supreme
God
there-
fore, if
chastity, or
any
vow
of obedience
premacy.
A sister
Her
is
conscience
its
is
stifled
the sin or
consequences,
when
to
she
is
bound
to think the
vow
way
heaven.
what delusion
upon
May
their poor
misguided
and
let fall
their darkfeel
error,
know and
Such
is
life.
the
earnest prayer of
tion.
my
heart for
all
like myself,
by the
light of Jesus,
it
means.
CHAPTER
A MISSION TO
ST.
VII.
ORPHAN ASYLUM,
N. J.
JOSEPH'S
IN
PATERSON,
I
have
Sisters
my
readers
can more clearly understand the nature of the obligations enforced upon
sonal
my
per-
after I
Paterson, N. J.
At
Orphan Asylum,
conflict-
my
soul
was
filled
my
feelings
gave way
to to
community room,
my new
companions,
whom
I will
now
Sister
Mary
unfeeling
woman, well
my novitiate
one of
unmitigated tyranny.
She received me
manners, and
also
my
affectionate
They appeared
Sister
like
mere
statues,
without
feeling,
without heart.
Gertrude, a
(41)
42
A MISSTON TO
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
years,
was next
in office to
Ann
woman
of thirty years,
Mary
less
was one of
those
faults
by
their neighbor's
her companions to
it.
sister
Mary
for
Lastly, sister
woman
of thirty,
filled
whom my
still
desolate
was destined
to
become
On
my
arrival, Sister
Mary Joseph
me
This
beheld these
and shivering with the cold, presenting altogether the most forlorn
daily
The
rise at
as follows
They
and repair
to the
A MISSION TO
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
43
;
then to a
coffee,
made from
table
is
The
to
orphans'
is
each child
the coffee
is
Their appetite
;
is
never
satisfied
and they
it.
It
is
most painful
to
The
is
perform
the
work
;
in the
asylum.
They do
all their
own
and
refectories
make
and wash
dishes, etc.
At
half-past eight,
to attend school
and tattered
clothes,
At twelve
o'clock
by two,
to
the refectory,
where they
that of
partake of a meal,
the morning.
if possible,
waxy remnants
of the
to
them
in cups,
I never
saw a
and
fork,
on the orphans'
table.
At one
o'clock
44
three,
A MISSION TO
when
school
is
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
is
dismissed.
At
five
o'clock they
consists
invariably of
buttermilk.
mush and
molasses,
mush and
and on
Ann
Joseph, the
house-keeper,
nauseous food
or else
my
arrival, sister
to
Ann
them
the
snow
and
who stopped
or hesitated.
This
telling
sister ridiculed
my
tender feelings
me
I would soon
poor
she
replied, " to
lieve in
making hot-house
winter and summer, and that I must enforce the same discipline.
me
in
regard
them
tion
in love
and kindness.
sympathy of
my
heart.
I spoke to
A MISSION TO
upon them
affectionately,
ST.
JOSEPHS.
45
to tremble at
my
approach.
They
the verv sight of one would send them, shivering and crouching
sight.
I assisted
the
young children
in all
combed
sores
and scabs,
;
office
I ever performed
how-
This treatment,
to
my
feet,
They
to
sit
at
my
and by
my
side, vieing
with each
them
I was only with the orphans in the morning, before school, and
after school in
But
this
state of things
was not
to last always.
Sister
De
it,
Sales, the " reporter,'' seeing the affection and, as she called
me
to sister
called
me to account
for
and forbade
me
I
su-
my
them of
my
love,
and that I
I
the
kindness in
my
power.
was sub-
46
A MISSION TO
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
De
Sales.
It
to
her
why
Mary Joseph
that
and
ought
to
me
Mary
Joseph, commanding
me
to
inflict
a severe chastisement.
I called
Mary Grey
aside,
and
chided her for her fault by -portraying to her in vivid colors the
sin,
and
in
punishment I told
her,
her
to
God
to forgive
which she
child
was not
to escape so
sister
Mary
side
the room,
manner asked me
child.
why
I did not
I replied
to
I had.
ish her,
To which
teach you
how
pun-
you are
the sisters."
command-
ing
me
to follow her.
which
my
cheeks at
But
the sight of
my
turning to
feelings,
me
at
I'll
and
once
!"
commandI re-
ing
me
the same
on that occasion.
large clothes-
A MISSION TO
stick
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
47
and gave
that the
me
way
a blow with
it
"
was
to practice the
vow
of obedience, as a supe-
rior's
There was no
must obey.
God,
my
life
I raised
my
hand
to inflict pain.
Oh,
it
was a
terrible trial;
and I can
never forget the agony of that day, and the reflections which
followed.
was sacred
to
me
on earth,
what ?
To
labor as I thought,
and
afflicted,
of
my
soul,
pected
to
me
stick,
and
compelled me
to act
inhumanly.
my
spirit
resented
But
my soul was filled with bitterness toward my conscience reproached me with sinwho
I humbled myself, and knelt at her
represented
feet,
God
to
me.
me
me.
for
She
me
My
soul
my
I
was plunged
and
despair.
retired to
arms of
me
with inexpressible
48
A MISSION TO
ST.
JOSEPH'S.
this
to
my
my
mother
to
me
in that cold
froze
What, break
my blood, and an invincible terror parmy holy vows ? cause so much scanso
many
graces
and
blessings
become a spectacle
?
and an exe-
cration to the
to
community
Alas
What, damn my immortal my holy vocation ? I could not, I I must save my soul at every cost. No matter how could not. much and how great were the sufferings inflicted in this life, my
brave so formidable a disgrace.
soul? become a traitor to
reward would be
eternal.
Such
reflections
were a
foretaste of the
many fearful
struggles
my heart endured for weary years in the convent. I had of my own free will commenced a life of unnatural warfare against
all that
instinct
must be
my
dreary tomb
my
forlorn orphan.
CHAPTER
About
four
VIII.
step-ladder, about
Not being
up
far
from under
my
feet, precipitating
me
to the floor,
and
as I
fell partially
upon the
steps,
;
My back
injuries,
my personal
get
was the
knew I would
Tremblingly I gathered up
I carried
tremblingly
to
them
Mary
asked a penance.
me on
it
that oc j
yester-
my
mind
as if
were
unlady-like expressions, so
will
give
them verbatim.
its
You
you
ing flat-fish,
just like
will
50
MY EXPERIENCE
IN PATERSON.
make another
Had
she
commanded me
difficult to
me
than
to
make a pair
I had never in
;
my life
performed
me
to remonstrate, or offer
will,
and a
will with-
out an intellect."
was no
school, so
Emma
axe,
my
to
as-
saw,
hammer and
while I repaired
who was
a carpenter, to teach
me how
to
make
the steps
St.
my
task.
But
to help
me
as I superstitiously expected.
succeeded in getting
Again
work-
if
my
manship would
suited,
suit
her
me
to
put on
my
per.
me
however, I
succeeded in begging
Mary
MY EXPERIENCE
Joseph kept the
five dollars
IN
PATERSON.
51
for herself,
were
in
use
when
left
now kept
Chantal.
One morning
in
May
all
ging with a
earth
little fire
shovel,
worm
flew
up
in
my
face, causing
me
to scream.
It be-
Sister
De
answered that
it
was
me
to
take
eat
it.
command, and
she re-
it
To which
kill
I was sure
would
me,
it
was
my
ate
if
me
who
worms out
I ever expected to
fication.
in
!
my
hand,
was unendurable.
sooner taken the
sitiveness, I let
J.
But
to eat
in
it,
ugh
disgusting
I had no
worm
my
my
into
sen-
it fall
At
this Sister
it
M.
my
until I
became
violently sick at
is
it
to ask, Is
So
far
from
this.
52
believe me,
it
MY EXPERIENCE
falls far
IN PATERSON.
for
no language
it
To
you,
it
may seem
of,
a bitter
it,
fact,
Joseph
to contradict
and she
in the
community of
Madison.
I have seen sisters, voluntarily and without any compulsion,
eat
worms and
bugs.
Sister
De
worms from
apples, or
any other
me
with great
such performances.
benefited,
I would
set
and
had she
me an
A great number of
and on such days the
among
in
the nuns,
the convent,
of the rule, which allows only certain hours of the day for recreation.
On
managed
to steal
away
to the
Mary Joseph,
to
whom my
piety
was a stumsisters,
me
to
to act differently
and commanded
if
me
remain
at recreation
A number
sisters,
in the
community-
MY EXPERIENCE
room.
IN PATERSON.
bare.
53
run-
The
floor of this
room was
A large insect
Ann
foot,
Joseph,
who
it
with her
causing a
floor.
!"
how
cruel
to the
to
Sister
Ann
me
a look
you
However, the
evening passed away without any reprimand; but the next day
she
sent a child to the school after me,
ordering
me
to
her
presence at once.
to mortify
me by
mere novice
sisters !"
you
to
presume
me
take the knife and cut the head off the hen.
and commenced
to
me
to
I told
was impossible
it
me
to kill
it,
suffer.
She
insisted,
and
same success
till
as
before.
after
who
54
#
MY EXPERIENCE
Mary Joseph
;
IX PATERSON.
to take delight in inflicting
Sister
for she
seemed
was
made
to suffer accordingly.
frequently
tell
occurred
on the
Mary
Joseph would
me
form for church, and just as they were ready, she would enter
the class-room,
violently strike
or push
me, demanding
red uniform."
green.
know why
me
the
min-
etc.
The poor
children were obliged to change their clothes in about five minutes to be in time for church, causing the greatest confusion
among
order,
and so keeping
me busy
until
noon
in restoring things to
was unusual
to hear Sister
civilly to
the
sisters,
all
smiles
and amiability.
sister."
To
was a
Wirago.
little
higher.
orphans.
Fearing
lest I
should forget
it,
and
MY EXPERIENCE
IN
PATERSON.
left
55
class in the
my
where I expected
there.
was not
noiselessly
went
to
door fearing
to disturb
name
now
wrong them
in a
manner very
in accordance
with conall
girl
who judged
things
at
my
me
the
stairs.
The
fall
was
one week.
other sisters
She was
;
me
to
her
room, apologized a
for throwing
me down
stairs,
and
begged of
me
the afternoon.
plausibility she
put a
unquestioning simplicity.
that Father
D. was
ill
upon
his resting
the
mind draw
I
its
own
inference.
do not accuse
;
all
moral
many
sincerity labor to
become
which
What
56
MY EXPERIENCE
IN
PATERSON.
who
are
?
Poor
of
of
creatures,
is
there no
remedy ?
None
free.
unless the
power
God
them
From
the depth
;
my
heart I thank
God
that
;
He
has set
me
free at last
free
free
and regulations
free
from
its
But
it
required
the deep cuts of the chisel, and the hard and heavy strokes of
the hamn*er to sever the chains of
my
captivity.
CHAPTER
An
but
orphan's fate
is
IX.
so is
if these
among
hearts never throbbed with maternal love and joy, and where
mode of
living
them
to
human
tie,
every womanly
What
?
is
ment of
facts
determine
In the month of March, 1863, in company with Sister Joseph I attended the dying bed of a poor
Stanton.
Mary
Mrs.
woman named
killed
on the battle
field,
and
to
Troubled
about the fate of her dear child, she sent for the Sisters of
Charity, and with her dying breath
to the
commended her
little
one
Sister
Mary
(57)
58
to
Him who
saith,
my
me.*'
Annie Stan-
name
of this
one,
Young
as she
and
it
cries of "
Oh, take
me
!
want
my
mother
want
!
my
mother
to my mother I O my mother, my
!
mother 3"
Ah, poor
fill
child
how kind
they
may
care.
for
me
to analyze,
much
emotions of
my
heart,
when
to
Sister
this
my
my
power
from
suffering, of
Alas
the
unhappy
mother
to
truth, that
However, I resolved
much
as I possibly could.
Annie would go
leave
it
I often unobserved
shared
my own
alert,
De
Sales
was ever
on the
Sister
M. Joseph my
made
to
consequently I was
Neverthe^
Sisters'
less I
from the
59
to the
weak and
delicate
it.
among
the orphans.
for
arouse the younger of the orphans and see them to the water
closet.
Some
of the
little
ones
in
therefore I
my
sisters to
One
cold night I
was
and give
me
the
manner
which I
The
Ann
to
The
and
began
her mother.
to
Touched by
coax her.
this
appeal I went
Sister
Ann
Joseph
pushed
me
and blue
if
she meant to
kill
the child.
My in-
child
till
The
shrieks
to
smother her
in the tub
$0
her under
out as
if
it
became
body
stiffened
dead.
As
Never
can I forget the cries of that suffering child, as she pleaded for
mercy from
that heartless
woman, a woman
too,
bearing the
name
Mother "
to the
mother-
less little
On
girl
Mary
Carrigan, a
up
in a
dark
eight
this
o'clock in the
sister
morning
and when
in
an
ment had
and
intelli-
In the
beat
fall
Mary Joseph
naked
des-
Mary Gray
r
with so
much
stripes.
This poor
child,
made
;
usage, ran
away from
the
Asylum
was
picked up in the streets and taken to the poor house, where she
/vas discovered,
to the convent.
Sister
Ann
fears of age
that she
also ran
away
Lizzie Madden,
ill
away
twice,
on account of
treat-
ment, and
the second
time, Sister
Mary Joseph
and
61
little
be
two
way her
face
was
disfigured,
by the
many
in
readers attention
placed
one more.
in
Mrs.
the
asylum sometime
18G3.
These children
Berry.
Sister
Ann
her
to the orphans,
marked
and
in every possible
way caused
Joseph
to suffer.
One day
Ann
ordered Sarah
Ann away
to the in-
knew
Ann
never
that
morning
having been
after
ill
Sarah
Ann
"
my
Ann
breakfast,
Emma
me
in breathless
agitation, calling
Sister,
Sister
come
quickly, Sarah
Berry
is
dying."
on the
floor in mortal
agony.
On
taking her
in
my
arms.
was a
lifeless corpse,
all.
ing terror
to
the hearts of us
Ann
Jo-
seph
who came
and agitated.
62
I said, " Sister, what medicine have you given this child
she
is
See,
salts,
!"
dead."
She
?
authoritatively replied, u I
gave her
"Yes,
sister,
was
salts
Looking her
that all
little
was not
ful task of laying out the little corpse in its pine coffin,
by the undertaker,
No
physician
was
called in
slightest inquiries
poor
child.
Even her
to see
to look again
her dear
away
forever
vision.
and true
St.
facts
with regard
in
to the treat-
ment of orphans
in
Joseph's
Asylum
Paterson, facts
public, if I
Romanism.
Orphans cannot complain
not see them alone
is
;
to their friends,
sister is
day
set apart
63
and
warned
if
in regard
to their
every
word, look,
know
in
to
make known
is
those grievances
them be anathema,
of
Rome.
I have dared to
curses which
may
made
in this
Having mentioned
in
some of
my
of the
Asylum
a controversy with
me
for
the public.
He
Sarah
Ann Berry
heart disease before she entered the Asylum, and I told her
live long."
Mrs. Berry,
After the lec-
was
in
my
audience.
witnesses,
ture she
among them
number of
ladies
me
64
any other
Quinn
in
her
life.
Mary
sisters,
and
when
away from
the good clothes her child had brought to the asylum, and "sent
her out of
it
whom
I mentioned as havill
away from
treatment,
was
my
girl
audience.
She
too
young
me.
She publicly
of
my
statements about
the orphans.
Thus
it is
CHAPTER
The
can rod
X.
"When a
child fails
little
correction.
is
to
keep delinquents
tion
awe of
who
all
parents
who
to
withdraw
their children
public schools.
who
tion.
The
is
more time
than
and saying
"
Hail
Mary "
who
6G
engage the
to teach,
It
is
impossible
often happens
that one
who
are ignor-
ant themselves.
learning
how
to spell
words of one
syllable.
The
spend
young
sisters,
offices,
is
spent
mumbling Latin
Note.
ters'
In treating of cruelty
to
incompetency
teach, I do
Academy
any
do
by
Sisters of Charity.
The
sisters
fifty to
annum.
ness
shown
than
is
who
are
open
to conviction in the
way of
Catholic dogmas.
Such pupils
They appear
to
aim
to give a superficial
show of accomplish-
may
be
satisfied
at the
is
G<
win the
affections
pupils so
that their
Roman
fail
Catholic Church.
in creating at least a
theatrical forms
strong
showy and
and cere-
And
no attempt
will be
made
to indoctrinate their
Romish
religion
errors.
is
those
sis-
outside
its
and that
every
conversion
it is
the reto
sult of indifference,
and
it is
a moet serious
fault in
to
them
be
so thoughtless as to send
their daughters
Roman
Catholic
itself,
Convents
to
be educated.
Is
it
not a contradiction in
it
in their chil-
dren
it
children
to
Why
then
own
institutions ?
liberally
encouraged
is
a fact
And
do
Roman
Catholics support
?
If they
to
68
which
is
me.
Yet
arm
to build
up and support
coun-
and a
number
of Protestant
young
it,
ladies
its first
from
different parts
of the
from
foundation in 1859,
is
who
made
to impress
;
and
is is
who
whose mind
the
Church of Rome.
am
more or
are
less
inclined to
The
in.
sisters
pleasing
in
the charms
and
machinations necessary to
graces,
and
to gain
them over
blandly
finally to popery.
The
will
sisters will
tell
make no
of their children, and that they will be perfectly free to practice the precepts of their
own
religion.
compel scholars
the " Christian
to
69
They must
in the chapel,
which
hung with
pictures,
when they
left
your homes.
is
the
mind of to-day
in the Catholic
Will Prot-
estant parents
children
way ? These
them, but I do
make an
by themselves and
their principles,
To
as
subject that
I,
an ex-nun, can
an
impossibility.
CHAPTER
MY
Fifteen
SISTER VISITS
XI.
IN PATERSON.
ME
long,
home
or
I had written to
my
every letter
sent, or received,
riors,
I never
;
knew whether my
the Convent
all
my
home.
still
Although I had
of-
my
heart yearned to
who had
so tenderly
watched over
me
it
in the
past,
and from
whom my
Oh,
how
my
and remorse,
the step I
!
my own hand
had clasped the chain which I then thought nothOh, the nights of
conflict
and
of remorse
Oh,
how keenly
my
in-
MY
fatimtion
!
SISTER VISITS
ME
IN PATERSON.
71
bountiful God, I
had
cast
them
all
from
me
to follow
a path
an easy prey
to the sophistries of
my
spiritual guide, to
whom aspiration of my
young
heart,
and who so
skilfully
my
that subtle
and keeping in
Extreme
It
been
my
characteristic.
my my
entrance on conventual
soul,
and infatuated by
in
self-atonement.
it
mon
my
spiritual pride.
by the great
I had
made of my home,
self-satisfaction,
my
I
friends,
and
my
sake of
felt
that I
must
;
finish the
to
forget
them
earthly
made
more
it
Despite
72
MY
SISTER VISITS
if in
ME
IN PATEKSON.
stoicism
to
The
drawn
sighs
still
prompted declared
me
to
be clothed
love,
panoply of
;
human weakness,
affections only
of
human
earthly
new
life
on the
slightest occasion.
It
was the
feast of the
Sister
me
in the hall,
me
to
These were
and
I,
think-
me
in regard to her
But
oh,
how
can I picture
trude
!
In
my surprise to meet there my oldest sister, Germy joy, forgetting every restraint, every obligation
make any demonstration of
threw
their relatives, I
on meeting
my
arms around
her neck and kisse*d her fondly, holding her for several moments
to
my
throbbing heart.
dearly loved.
Before
my my
home
I hastened to sister
Mary
Joseph, and on
my
me
little
my
sister.
She refused
if
me
she
MY
would
SISTER VISITS
ME
IN PATERSON.
73
not, at least,
very weary after her long journey from Rhode Island, and besides
gone
Madison.
This
little
She
sharply told
seeing
if
me
my
sister at all,
it
my
"
proud
'
sister,"
who
is
steadfastly
refused to go
to describe
away without
seeing me.
Language
powerless
turn
away
caress.
Oh
God, what a
trial
so dearly loved
at last,
without
sister
and then
when a
comes
to see
me,
who
w,ere anxious to
know my
fate, I,
am
obliged to send
her away, powerless to offer her even the least act of courtesy
or kindness
;
to
my
darling mother,
my
many
ab-
my
My
sister,
Mary
Joseph, asked
me
if
I was happy
With convent
was
?
dissimulation I
we
uttered
sister,
and, unable
74
MY
SISTER VISITS
ME
IN PATERSON.
to the chapel to
to longer restrain
offer
my
my
bleeding heart
anew on
The
my
separa-
tion at the
to
my sorrow.
could
Oh,
how
my
Where
in
my
strug-
Not
Him
alone
seemed
to find a
spiritual pride.
CHAPTER
My novitiate
less
XII.
CITY.
and
five
many
1864, I was
summoned
to
retire-
whom my
colors.
fertile
human
restrial
ture God.
On
my
me
to
Him whom
the angels
and cut
me
off entirely to
In making these
God
renouncing riches by
earthly affection,
by
my vow my vow of
and
(75)
76
erty
MY
by
the
vow
of obedience.
nard
calls it
It
is
is
It
a martyrdom
which God
One Mediator
is
ejected.
is
And
God
this continual
martyrdom, ana at
faithful to
nevertheless, inasmuch as
any
state of existence
human
me
out of the
religious liberty.
my profession
company with
sisters
to.
establish a
Convent in Hudson
City,
N.
J.
My
when
"
I arrived
my new
August day.
it
Future events
cast their
shadows before."
Was
heart aches, the fierce conflicts, the wild temptations, the awful
MY MISSION TO HUDSON
despair,
CITY.
77*
which awaited
me
an undefined
dread over
my
St. Joseph's
Our
task of establishing a
sisters
new
The
and patience,
to gather the
However, on
obliged to
we were
Sister
De
Sister Josephine
sister-servant.
She
was another
edition of sister
trials
Mary
Joseph.
Sister
Agnes was
I
was next
from
sis-
I never witnessed so
that parish.
ple,
much
My
and questioned
why
there
was no remedy ?
visited
them
in sickness
and
affliction, in their
and
scrubbed the
filthy floors
of their shanties
when
women
were
ill
way
misery as far
tor,
lay in
my
power.
was a passionate
Italian,
who never
On
the rich,
He
his
the
78
sisters to
style,
MY MISSION TO HUDSON
beg
for
CITT.
him
me
in his peculiar
when he wanted me
beg
"
Ho
seesther,
My
money from
who would
Sister."
Holy
to the priests
and
than the
rich,
are
more
enlightened.
vestments
whom
they
Catholics build
up elegant houses
own poor
shan-
A priest will
flock unless
for each
among
his
he receives one
By
them to each other. an " intention " I mean the arrangement made by a priest
sell
latter,
to say fifty
perhaps
the
week
or
month following
MY MISSION TO HUDSON
" intentions," which, he could not say,
priests.
tie
CITY.
79
sell
would
to other
A priest can
days,
yet he
is
more
If he
honest he will
applications.
them
to
priest
who
has not so
many
But what guarantee has the applicant that the masses are ever
said
?
is
The mass
mass
Now,
they say
?
if
?
the
so very holy,
why
all
and
why do
extort
Priests will
money
in every
way from
and
it
whom
demned
to eternal
damnation.
My
as I
now
was once
my
faith in
a fearful
struggle.
what I
sisters
may
worship of Christ.
alone.
I desire you
is
behind the
80
paintings,
rosaries,
MY
and martyrs,
their
accompanying indulgences
and chrism.
There are
and
ficial
gold and silver ciboriums, ostensoriums and chalices, candelabras and vases, crosses and precious stones, costly laces, fine
linens,
ceremonies.
get to
my
Christ.
You
to
we
Christ, so
we send
priests."
;
Now,
Christ invites
all to
come
to
and humility
readily
we might go
to
Him Him
the
more
He
We all
we
we
it
to
an
ambassador, no matter
selves to the
how
trustworthy, but
we
will
go ourwill
Fountain of
will not
then
we
be
sure that
we
be deceived.
of
God
until
down
which hid
Him
from me.
But
away of
my
in
my
MY MISSION TO HUDSON
mnermost heart
for
CITY.
81
now my
it,
only
my wonderful deliverance. I am now covI am no longer the same Jesus Adored Lord increase my faith, perrefuge.
;
!
fect
crown
it.
pit
and borne
me
at last to
Thy
me
in
Thy
sweet pastures
And lead me
to eternal life.
CHAPTER
Sister
XIII.
months
in the
Hudson
;
City.
Her name
McGehan
I.
resided in Brooklyn, L.
her face
my
me
to
to
become
be married
one
whom
but death deprived her of the beloved one, and a hue as of the
life.
She came
to the
convent
to seek balm for her anguished heart, and rest for her troubled
spirit.
The
dull
monotonous
life
of a
A
;
Agnes
work
and perform
the hard
and menial
powerful
house.
Sister
it
Agnes possessed a
self-will,
strengthened as
83
in
who was
in every
way her
inferior,
Sister
Her
to
friends
often visited
alone.
see
them
They
and
to her,
De
Sales.
Sister
to
me
the great
fearfully she
was tempted
sisters.
She
God
and
me
De
my
heart,
I counseled her to
bear
all trials
our
relief,
One day
Sister Josephine
commanded her
Sister
to carry a large
basket of clothes
down
stairs.
Agnes
replied they
were
to
Sister
vio-
from the
step,
bottom of the
if
stairs.
Agnes
dead.
Agnes
fired
my
and I threatened
Sister
84
McQuade*
of. Sister
Agnes,
whom
an
My
me on
I turned to her
my
my
head
dress,
and
dragged
not
that
me
know
how
moment
down
to
him
to
"
Son
She
if
told
me
by the action
At her
Mrs. Devane, of
Brooklyn, imploring her to come and take her away from the
convent.
In
a few days her friends called, and with great joy took her
away
Her
friends wrote to
Madison
and
Poor
Sister
Agnes
* Father McQuade was at that time Father Superior over the Sisters and President of Seton Hall College, in South Orange, N. J., but sinct that time he has been made Bishop of Rochester, N. Y.
'
*$'>
I fear I
am
lost,
and that
my
soul
will
be
damned
help
it.
my
Poor misguided
she thought she would find love, and calm, and rest, and
with
all
who embrace
this
life,
she
had found only unkindness, coldness, suspicion, jealousy, and instead of peace she had ceaseless strife and unhappiness
:
instead of
physical
toil.
;
Happy
would
to
girl
to
ventualism
God
Romanism
Christ
also,
and
in
CHAPTER
XIV.
ANN ELIZABETH.
Among
O' Grady was her worldly name, and she had, before she
the world, resided with her mother in Newark, N. J.
She
entered the convent a few days after myself, therefore she was
beautiful, highly
life
whom
time.
There
was a
drew us
trials.
together,
and
to
each other
we poured
felt
Her
refined
trials of
convent
life.
Among
Academy.
So
after
when
the sisters
all
meet
in
Madison
treat.
(86)
I ;
87
The
last
Never
will I
spoke
to
me
as I
again for
Hudson
City.
She clasped
my hand
which I
it
!
feel I
mad.
I feel
I feel
it !"
replied, "
It
is
Dear
Sister, drive
true that
we have
a system
and
talent,
;
and root
neverthe-
dear
sister,
too late.
We
my
must persevere
welcome angel of
She
my
dalize
you
you
my
convictions
for to
no one
else in
community would I
'
utter them.
The
enormities which I
my
nature cause
my
reason to totter on
lose
its
throne
and I
feel
know, that I
shall
my
mind."
most
affectionately,
begging
me
to
pressive blue eyes filled with tears, and her beautiful and sensitive lips
"
Good
bye,
my
soul's
companion
Good bye
went
forever
If you pro-
see
me
mad."
How
When
to
the mother-house
88
Mount Hope,
Maryland.
Sisters never
make
any
me
the fol-
lowing account
Academy,
that
Sister Virginia
was
"When
Sister
Madeleine spoke
!
to her, she
!"
began
cry and
scream, " I
am mad
all
I'm
mad
During three
days and nights she was unmanageable, and in her ravings re-
proached the
sisters
with
manner of
crimes.
When
she
and con-
to the
This Asylum
Charity.
The last
;
hopelessly insane
its
beautiful seat,
and
another of the
many
Poor Virginia
could she
when
she
first felt
which came upon her, and returned to the love and care of her
mother, she would have been saved from mental shipwreck
but alas
tiously
of reason.
89
However, several
Sister
Ann
in
Elizabeth.
This
first
candidates
when
the
community was
Sister
Newark,
1859.
Ann
Elizabeth
is
well
known
in Jersey City,
Madison, a council
settling all
is
purpose
of-
in these councils
sentence
secrets
is
sisters,
and
all
the
of the community
The
council consists of
the reverend
office,
sisters
next
to
her in
who
at that time
Ann
who
She was an
When
member
of the coun-
mem-
knew
summer vacation
She came
where
the novices and young professed nuns were assembled, and thus " Sisters, I advise every one of you to leave this addressed us
:
am
God
will fall
upon
this
Community on account of
member
know.
here."
Sisters, if
you knew
from
Sister
Ann
all
much
spoke, and
we
Mother
90
in
the most
your
saying
she
is
crazy."
Ann Elizabeth, who insanity. Do not notice what Sister Ann Elizabeth was not
demanded
to
insane, she
was
in possession
powers
I
be
dis-
money
it
she
she went
Several
sisters
followed' the
example
of
Sister
Ann
The
following
convent in
less
Sister Ignatius,
Scholastica,
Ann
and Sister
Paterson.
I introduced to
my
readers in
ses
voeux de chastete
enceinte.
and
others,
for.
accounted
who
left
know
culties
life,
them
to
surmount the
diffi-
and even
own
INSANITY
AND REBELLION.
;
91
which
is
a disgrace to civilization
there will
entanglements.
hearts of priests
That day
will
unmask
to the
world the
false
strictly just
God
I leave them.
,-
-~v
YYY *
sA,
/-y
CHAPTER XV.
REV. WILLIAM M. WALSH.
in April, 1867,
he turned
to
new
priest to-mor-
nice
young Irishman."
Why
my
soul,
and with
my
announcement?
"Why was I
evil ?
by an undefore-
fined weight of
impending
Ah
it
bitter
trials
ever pierced
show.
On
the
Sunday of
When
he was presented
to see,
to
Father Walsh
priest,
company with
brother, Rev.
Thomas Walsh,
also a priest.
(92)
93
At
the time of
my
tall,
and
dignified, possessing a
handsome
face,
and a most
fascinating
He had
St.
such a
meek and
Dear
this
him the
Aloysius."
readers, pity
me
in this
person.
his
treachery
is
The Roman
Catholic church
composed
society,
wreath of
flowers for
human
the grave of
infamy,
where
the'
perishes.
Father Walsh
might have been a bright ornament to society and the world, for
He might have
been a kind, loving, and devoted husband, a tender and indulgent parent, for his temperament was most ardent and affectionate.
When
inflict
man
tried
to
The man
Him who
;"
demn.
Father Walsh,
after his introduction to
94
in
my way
daily, often
my
class-room.
while he treated
attention.
me
One
saw him, he
was reviewing
handed
my
me
my
hand, and
:
" Sis-
I love you
I love you
At
O God
better than
my own
soul
do
my
and
myself on
strength to combat
my cell, bolted the door, my knees in an agony of grief, prayed for O this, the greatest temptation of my life.
;
God
than
you
more
inmost
my
!
soul I love
you
!"
my
being
an anointed priest of
guilty of uttering
a spouse of Christ
for
It
was a crime
to
me
to listen to
faith-
I had
made vows
my
For
Walsh by
it.
retreating from
Finally he called
me
in the
to help
parlor.
Tremblingly I went
me.
When
to say,
speak
it
quickly,
of you repeat the words you uttered last to me, for I cannot
95
!
dearest sister
I
forgive me.
my
heart
He replied, a Oh Sister know my words trouble you, but is breaking O my God why
!
Dear
Sister,
when
first
saw you
and
known
a happy
moment
since,
am
fearfully tempt-
ed
my
thoughts.
In
my
masses,
me and
my God
you, and
sister,
I do worship
to be married
Oh,
if
a priest
!"
bitterly,
In
my
to
girlhood
pro-
had listened
many
my
heart had
felt
was capable of
a pure
loving,
in such
light, that in
sponsibilities I
whom
I could give
all
;
the
deep love of
my
and
all
now when
human
it is
too late,
when I am
am moved
by the
man
an appeal which
called forth a
my nature. I could have loved that man, but it was too late. When his emotion had in a measure subsided, he said, " And now, dear love, tell
me
that
you love me
:
also."
My
him thus
" Father, I
am
my
96
path.
ItEV.
WILLIAM
M.
WALSH
!
Would
to
God
that
And now
that
we
*.he
have,
we must
separate.
sinful for
us to remain in
same place
we can never be
?
than
we
salva-
immortal souls
and
us, or
if
we
lose our
shall
'
souls
what
what
we
give in ex-
am
sorry, Father, if
is
my
know
that
my
heart
will
love to
me
again.
to
beg of her
we
will not
father, let us
hope that we
left
will meet,
and be united
left
in heaven."
I then immediately
the parlor
tened to
my
cell,
and there
in mortal anguish
God
can ever know, I cast myself at His feet and His holy
trials
that
human
an unlawful
love.
endured
On
one side
my
human
heart was
pleased to
know
that
to love,
and was
beloved in return.
On
conflict
meaning.
97
my
me
to another city.
it.
much
Thus
called
possibly
could,
when I was
Madison
to
make
and
went on
my
Christ's sake,
my
soul's salvation,
not to send
me back
to
Hudson City, because Father Walsh loved me, and I loved him.
I told her, " I ardently desired to be faithful to
my
vocation,
trial,
and
if
my mind."
She laughed
honored
you ought
to feel highly
have won
and
if
tried
you
will
those
'
who
love danger
it
shall perish in
and
if
wood
is
thrown
in the fire
will
burn."
She
replied, "
?
to dictate to
your superiors
have you
three
Is that
chapel,
prayer to God, that heart was mine as I cast myself at the foot
of the cross, and begged
my
my
98
to place
me where
this
my
strength.
in
made
"
prayer with so
much
faith
and confidence
in
God,
He would
the
not place
me
danger of losing
my
The ways of
things well."
My
soul
fiery
crucible of tribulation.
lost,
God would
my
soul to be
my
fearful desolation
and
des-
struggle, reproached
truction, but
God
my
which proved
in the
end
my
salvation.
After the retreat of July, 1867, I was the only sister sent
back
to
Hudson
City,
who had
I was
office,
superior in different cities for over seven years, was that year
sent to Trenton, to
fill
Her
weeks afterward
she
left
the convent,
went
to
office
of housekeeper to Father
attached,
whom
little
she was so
warmly
scandal to the
community.
Sister Aloysius,
were the
sisters sent
Mother Xavier
by the sequel a
soul
in
Mary Clare, and Sister Ann Maria me to Hudson City. The action of sending me back to Father Walsh, seemed
Sister
with
vile plot
on her part
my
me
than a thousand
CHAPTER XYI.
MY BROTHER
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
in contact with
My
duties
now more
me
Father Walsh.
my
entreaties to be
removed from
there, with contempt, the only hope remaining was for him to go
to
This he refused
to do.
conscientious scruples.
how he
when
me
He
me
Convent and
go with him
to
some
by
He
me
that I
for
was dearer
to
soul's salvation,
and
my
I
sake he would
and
his
hopes of heaven.
was
strictly
faithful to
my
vocation.
even
my
great love
my mother
or
to leave the
Con-
(99)
100
MY BROTHER
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
my
salvation
depended.
prizing
it
Purity was
my
standard above
all
virtues,
and
in-
more than
my
life it
was
in vain
ducements.
At
by a Protestant minister
no marriage, a
appeared
to
me
and
void, consequently
Moreover, as a
strict Catholic,
I believed an anointed
"
woman.
Once a
priest
always
;"
and I being
clung to
my
church with
all
sincere Catholics
who
think there
;
and
throw
off a religion
instilled into
my
become
as
it
vine grace which at that time I neither looked for nor desired.
it,
but I
of degradation.
virtue.
No
me
love could
make me
my
honor and
felt it
for
to
go to confession and
human
word
restraints placed
my
writhed under
its
weight of temptation.
also troubled about
At
the
some
articles of
MY BROTHER
tion."
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
101
the
An
my
faith in
Eucharist to waver.
and
One Sunday
and the
priest,
there
was
a large
number of communi-
The
was
the people.
I after-
ward apologized
to
which he
"It
is
just as
is
know
the difference."
And
there
any difference
my soul
with doubts.
Was
God and
true
stantially present
unde
Was
with or with-
out consecration?
The
taught
priest said
it
made no
difference.
Yet
my
faith
had
me
words
of consecration, the
was born of
same
sits
upon the
cross, that
was
and
ther
that in a
God works
this miracle
only at the
moment
102
MY BROTHER
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
priest,
who had
the
power
to create a
God by
was not any difference between the consecrated and unconsecrated " hosts."
This was a great blow to
it
my vivid faith in
as
the Real
To doubt an
is
more
griev-
ous sin than the commission of a murder, because for the mur-
derer there
absolution
;
the
priest's
no salvation.
trembled at
this temptation,
me and
hell,
delivered
me
God He
!
He
to a clearer, truer,
and more
glori-
ous
Added
was an
to the
assailed
me
my
soul, re-
me
in the path
Assailed by temptations,
difficulties,
and contradic-
disgust, torpor,
and reason
my daily
which I
it
was sweet
in comparison to that of
was
The cup
of bitterness
trials
I received
from
my brother
John.
On the
MY BROTHER
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
103
I was called into the parlor to see a young man, without any
idea that
it
was a brother.
I did not
know him
at
first,
he was
I
whom
my
brother
John
and then
my
thoughts of
member
my
family.
in
had found
me
him
unrestricted, for I
was then
He
questioned
me
about
my
him was
King of kings.
How
to
in the
very depths of
my heart
I despised
too,
when
seemed
be
lost in
by thorns and
briars
from
which I
tried
to extricate
myself only to
!
more entangled,
pierced,
and torn
no ray of
tell
my
brother
I was
me
of
happy.
Brother spoke to
spoke to
I
me
of
my
home, and
all
its
loved ones
my
me
of
from me, and of her anguish that she could not see me.
Oh,
my mother
if
my
temptations,
my
my
difficulties
at that time,
you might
104
MY BROTHER
VISITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
have saved your daughter from the precipice upon which she
fearful
tem-
head!
John
sailed
The
following letter
to
my
me by my
sister
Gertrude
St.
Nicholas Hotel,
New
Dear Parents. I wish to imform you that I have seen my sister. She is in Hudson City, N. J. I went to Paterson,
and the
ago.
sisters told
me
an hundred fold
trouble
have been
sufficient
reward.
She
me
kissed
my own
She
is
dear sister
my
beautiful sister
She
is
really happy.
was not
a task to come
at
all.
company
that time.
They were
picture, mother's,
and
my
own.
picture.
Dear
parents,
she looked as beautiful as ever, with her large deep blue eyes,
MY BROTHER
VITITS
ME
IN
HUDSON
CITY.
105
looking
She
is
and
rosy as ever,
and there
is
nothing feigned
!
it
is
so real.
describable
place,
charm with
her.
am
women
of the
her, kneel
blessing.
Let
it
third person.
Gertrude, in Boston.
to
She
come and
see her,
Joseph's Convent,
love to
all.
Hudson
N.
J.
If nothing happens I
sail
Good-bye,
and pray
for
your
Affectionate Son,
John Sarsfield
Farewell for a few ocean weeks."
O' Gorman.
From
it
is
plainly seen
how
well I
him my true
still
condition.
Although I suffered
brother
my
know
that I
happy
And
thus
it is
that
many
prison
friends
and
relatives
;
who
home
know
CHAPTER XVII.
MY ESCAPE.
Almost driven
to desperation
letter to
:
"Hudson
Dear Mother Once again I address you in order to beg of you to remove me from the terrible temptations which sur:
round
me
here.
My
soul
is
pity
Walsh
How
my
sacrilegious love?
to
I avoid
it
as long as
you permit me
my
soul's sake, to
remove me from
this
awful danger.
my
vocation,
and I beg of
this
you
to
listen
to
my
me from
heavy
cross.
Yours
and Mary,
Q06)
MY ESCAPE. To
this letter I received
107
:
Madison, Dec.
28th,
1867
My
priest
Child
Your
is
last letter to
me shows
a very rebellious
is
and unresigned
spirit.
a holy
of God, and
will
he knows better
not.
am
more
Remember,
will
of your superiors
that of God,
and they
you
to
remain
where you
are.
Your Mother
in Christ,
my
Every day
I entreated
he loved me,
to
me
at
me
I pointed out to
him
very
lightly, as
he so often urged
me
to leave the
convent and
go With him.
However, a
crisis
was
at
my
life,
it ?
how
recall
it ?
how
ex-
suffering
I afterwards
close
my
being torn
away from my
108
MY ESCAPE.
in the Catholic religion, a religion
membership
The 19th
forming
of January, 1868,
came on Simday.
I was per-
my
it
early mass.
and
knelt
down on
He
then came
behind the altar where I was arranging some flowers into bouquets,
to
Dear
sis-
which
is
a sure remedy
am
confident
it
it
will
now, dearest."
At
the
an
me
to drink.
With
the simplicity
In a few moments I
than the would-be destroyer anticipated, and thus he was prevented from carrying out his base design of accomplishing that
viol.
!
what an awakening
!
A mar
I had
daily
who had
trusted, a
man whom
who
man
handled,
ate,
MY ESCAPE.
of Jesus
Christ, had, in the very
109
presence of the Blessed
Lamp of the Sacrament, before the holy Tabernacle, under the the most atrocious Sanctuary, in the house of God, attempted
of
virgin
Oh, what a
!
dis-
grace to humanity
my
brain was
crazed.
frenzied, distracted,
What No wonder I rushed from the church mad. No wonder I became deranged in
All
is
a sacrilegious crime
No wonder
my memory from
sciousness.
on that
into the
terrible
that I afterwards learned from Sister Aloysius, Sunday evening, at about eight o'clock, I rushed
community-room with the most heart-rending look of there gave way to despair and horror depicted on my face, and She grief she had ever witnessed. the most incontrollable told her I was Dr. Hays, Senior, of Hudson City, who
called in
shock. She threatened with insanity, the result of some terrible Xavier, who sent back a immediately telegraphed to Mother
dispatch ordering
me
!
to
be conveyed in a carriage
to
Madison.
I
Heartless
woman
me
at last.
became
Orange; and compelled to stop at the Orphan Asylum, in South the 25th, when I awoke again was there I found myself on
it
to consciousness.
effect of the
The horror
enough to but the agony I endured, the injury I sustained, was been, bederange almost the strongest mind, situated as I had
HO
MY ESCAPE.
me
making such a
what he
because a
man was
not
responsible for
it
did
when
to heart as one.
my
one himself.
destruction.
seemed
my
On
the following
me
said,
" Well,
Why, De
Indeed,
it's
making
believe crazy.
Well,
You
are
The
me
to
some
accompany
;
me
to
Madison
woman
me back
again to
Hudson
City.
Could anything be
?
this action
of
Mother Xavier's
Can
into the
to thrust
burned and
blistered,
fire ?
Thus my
On
come
ceremony walked up
stairs
MY ESCAPE.
into the
Ill
The
sight of
him
so
it
maddened me
said, I think
live
I ordered
him out of
my
presence
called Sister
go down
to Jersey City
and
tell
Mother Xavier,
if
I would
night
came up again
to
Hudson
City,
and
for
the
first
who
me
Newark,
for
until I
became more
back again because the people of Hudson City could not get
along without the " leetle Seesther.''
day, the 30th, Mother Xavier
to
left
Accordingly, on Thursin
me
Newark where
tranquil."
I was
remain
"
until I should
become
"
more
Man
proposes, but
God disposes."
Newark Convent.
with
my
brain on
fire,
my
heart bleeding,
I teach
agony
My
I condemned
I could not
!
was unendurable
would
fly
escapebut
if
where
my
soul be
!
eternally
damned
abandoned
if
my
vocation
All
and
?
would
it
If
so I would rather be
damned
112
MY ESCAPE.
my
bonnet and
my
class,
and turned
my
fas-
back on convent
life,
forever.
On
me
with &
good morning,
Sister."
He
was
must always
the affa-
Of course
I was running
away from
to depart
permitted
me
him
farewell, at least.
Goaded
to desperation
priests
five
which a servant
gift,
girl
gave
me
in
Hudson City
as a
New
Year's
shelter,
without protection
life
vipers and a
of
sin.
knew
I cared not
O, anywhere,
accompany me
train,
to
on
board of a
without a
me
Philadel-
Not
until I
Philadelphia, where
my name
is
registered as
Sister EditL
De
money and
in
my
my
true position.
MY ESCAPE.
the day
113
by an unnatural
when
that had
passed away
tent my desolate, destitute, and miserable condition. my room all night my heart seemed rent asunder
;
I paced
with constep
flicting reflections.
by one
had
thrown
me
by
for so
many
suffering years.
to perdition.
was
so doing
doomed
Thus
it
If I
remember
was the
my face
!
in a
and
what a change
I did not
know
that Edith
is it ?
O'Gorman ?
is it ?
Sister
What
Am
in
knew nothing
in,
What was
I to do
Where
who
could I go
me
perish.
and then
me
to write to
letter to
him
in
afternoon I saw him, and under the seal of the Confessional (he
me
114
MY ESCAPE.
who
I was, and
Owing
to the fact
that Bishop
Wood had
tried
me
kindly
and he
to
persuade
in
me
to
go back
to
one
would try
my
no condition
Bishop
Wood
gave
me money which
;
enabled
also
me
to
change
and he
recommended
me
to
a Redemptionist father, belonging to St. Peter's Monastery, corner of Fifth Street and Girard Avenue.
I had an interview
with the
latter,
who
sent
me
to
Father Schnuttgen
me
never to
tell
he do
must pass
for a "
widow."
that inasmuch as
the
He
for
certainly
He
and
then counseled
me
to pass
fate could
as such
he introduced me,
February
of Catholicism
How
MY ESCAPE.
work
115
A priest, by
;
his
vow
of Celibacy, cannot
illicit
pleasure
port to salvation?
The world
and abstemiousness.
health
;
may be
suicidal to
if
he breaks
there
is
teaches that
God
but
who can
recogto de-
nize a
God
is
a most suitable
how
amount of sympathy
with
is
human
is
nature
warm
affections
his fate ? It
and
at the
who
inno-
him
nay, worship
him, that
are
His hypocrisy
may be
and
116
guilty conscience, a
offence,
MY ESCAPE.
clique of
men become
copartners in his
by the protection
him
and themselves.
Ah
if
brow of Rome
CHAPTER
SICK
XVIII.
AMONG STRANGERS.
convent I was prostrated on &
so oppressed
Three weeks
bed of sickness.
My heart
had been
it
and crushed
by
its
terrible weight of
grief, that
me
to death's
door.
My
illness
and, dear reader, language cannot express the woe, the hopeless desolation
my
my
life.
Only
selfish
world.
among
strangers, without a
!
hope of
salvation,
O God how
!
vain appeared
oh, those long
self-
my
!
and
My
life
no
certainty, no
hope
in death
all
dark
Where
then was
my
heavthe
whom
Where
all
Q17J
118
SICK
no.
AMONG STRANGERS.
Ah!
had
so long clouded
my
What
in the
strangers, far
from
my
home,
from
my
mother,
who
my
my
no
dying agony
But there
me
in her
;
arms
no
father's pres-
me
sister's face to
smile upon
me
my
And
no looking
vary's sacrifice.
terror,
dismay, and
hour
the
God had
keeping of
my
immortal
soul,
and
in
His
infinite
mercy he
my
yawning
gulf.
One day
scious
awoke again
to
life,
and the
first
object
my
con-
Walsh standing by
strength
to
my
I
bedside weeping.
When
I could
rally
sufficient
enquired
come near
me ?
from
whom
I boarded, discovered
in
my
Hudson
die,
whom
whom
had telegraphed
him
that I
to behold her
he had caused
strangers,
take refuge
among
and
his heart
was saddened
to
SICK
see
AMONG STRANGERS.
had
suffered,
119
my
misery.
He
said he also
when he
learned
that I ran
away from
my
whereabouts, and he
tion, until three
months
Willt.
my flight
tele-
I will do this
I say
and
at-
deplore his
tempted wrong to
me
he passed for
my
uncle.
He
to attend
me,
And
widow
num-
Sullivan,
who
St.
in comfortable cir-
I think her
967
corner of
Carpenter Street.
During
my
convalesence 2
me twice
a week,
me
to his
sister,
me
went
me from
summons.
going to that
Monastery again.
large
fleshy
German
brother opened
I asked to
my
The
brother told
me he was engaged
There are
hall is the
120
SICK
AMONG STRANGERS.
is
allowed to cross
its
threshold.
The
brother conducted
me
into
me Father
me when
dis-
engaged. o"o
The
me
in several
if
I had been
ill,
him
to
pray
for
my
vocation,
will
be saved.
He
replied, "
!"
yes
you
go to heaven, you
aware of
his intention,
down and
tried to kiss
me, at
in the hall.
hall,
Father Schnuttgen
and asked,
pointing
''
What
the
!"
the matter?"
I responded indignantly,
to
brother
who
Ask
was
that brother
me
and
in the
He
said I
too particular,
and that the brother meant no harm, and that I had sinned
grievously
into the
Monastery.
With an audacity
all
him I
to
was not
be discovered.
absolution,
and turned
my
me
and reside
I declined to
left
He
sister,
you have
the con-
SICK
vent,
AMONG STRANGERS.
;
121
free
come with me
to
known, I
Professor.
We
in a life-long love
fearful suffer-
him
lighfe
than as degradation
and as
woman
in
beings, I
would rather
live
and die a
fugitive.
life
I would
of debasement.
I told
him
to drive
never see
me
Nunnery
in Killarney, Ireland,
go to her
if
he would supply
me
in
he
truly loved
me
him
at the
same time
up
to
God
arid religion
we would
meet
gave
He
in
unwil-
lingly
ations to go to
Ireland,
Murray,
her to meet
me
and
in the Jersey
at the request
She
did,
122
SICK
AMONG STRANGERS.
me
to the Pacific
House, in Greenwich
in that hotel,
New York.
called to see
me
me
I told Father
Walsh
without seeing
my
If they
were ignorant of
my
Having request-
ed him to engage
ton boat for
my
passage to Ireland, I took the Stoningthe evening of the 11th of June, 18G8.
home on
Words cannot
that
describe
my
feelings
home
to
which
thought forever.
in that
home
at
my
return.
aration, I
my darling
Mother's arms
and
my
he thought,
earth)
daughter.
meetmg
left that
home
and innocence of
my
hope
fled, but,'
With
had learned
everything from
forbade
my
parents.
My
conscience as a Catholic;
me
to
make any
disclosure
on priests or
religious.
My
even from
my own
lips,
They were
consoled
SICK
AMONG STRANGERS.
was content with convent
;
123
life
and I
moreover
as
me dead
than have
me abandon
ially called
by God.
Whatever
that, in
had permission to
retire into
had come
to see
them before
;
and then
Ah,
my
parents
why
to
me
your home,
of defa-
be tossed about
foresee
which were
my
de-
who
me ?
sister
Boston
to see
my
I learned
after she
ten
to see
She
for
called at St.
Sister
and inquired
Teresa de Chantal.
Sister Aloysius
were forbidden
My
sister replied
demand
to
was
determined not
to
Sister
and
finally told
her that
it
was impossible
me,
124
SICK
AMONG STRANGERS.
and because six weeks before I ran away in the nun's dress,
they had not the slightest clue to
my
fate.
My
sister
was
to
be a com-
to false-
go
to
Almost stupefied by what she had heard, she could not her home and tell her parents that the daughter who had
" chosen the better part," was not in the convent, and no clue
to her whereabouts existed
therefore
!
without letting
ance.
my
parents
She
suffered alone
who w as tormenting me
T
my
me
on
cousin
her.
to advertise for
their
No
effort
was
hanging over
it all
but
There
is
nothing hidden
They who
shall
become a
spectacle to angels
and
to
men.
CHAPTER
From Boston
XIX.
MY VOYAGE TO IRELAND.
I wrote to Bessie Murray,
who met me on
the
me
to
the Stevens
me
my
saw him
sad,
he was very
told
and
suffering
face*
He
me
Dr.
Hays,
Sr.,
of
Hudson
was going
to Ireland
on a
visit,
Steamer
would be over
for
in the
morning
saying he
the check
my
baggage.
On
and informed
me
that Father
and
it
was
him
to
me
on the steamer.
$100
Inman
line.
(125)
126
MY VOYAGE TO IRELAND.
foul play, I
me on
took
me
to
me on
of Baltimore, assuring
me
that
Not
boat,
which was
woman had
upon me.
Boston, the
my
appetite,
and I
felt
weak with
hunger.
From
the time I
sat
on the
my
many
priests
word
sister
gave an
The
priest, noticing
my
see
confusion, laughed
and
said, " I
were a
sister in disguise,
r
whom you
,:
it
He
sat
down
me
as
Father Flannery of
visit to
New
me
he was going on a
He
then
MY VOYAGE TO IRELAND.
gave
127
me an
introduction to Bishop
Walsh of
New
to
London,
Canada.
I finally became so faint that I went
saloon to have some lunch.
down
the ladies'
The
in,
me anything
number of my
it
I handed her
my
ticket,
me
same time
calling, "
James, take
this
woman
dirty
to
the
steerage."
number of
men, dirty
women, and
tin
And what
tin
mean
I could not
understand
why
I should be thrust
down a
steerage, without
cup necessary
to the
passage.
away
and made
my way
ticket.
back
to the
treat-
cabin deck.
I told
my
He
us,
informed
me
that the
and then
went with me
give
me some
lunch.
Walsh, he advised
me
to
if
Father
The
me
among
gers
the Steamer.
One of them
nized as Father
When
I arrived in
New York
128
I
MY VOYAGE TO IRELAND.
to
went back
He came
to the hotel
Monday morning,
;
in the parlor
me
that
Inman
line
the
Anchor
line,
chased a steerage
He
it
had caused
trouble,
sum
of
money
in gold
New
York, for me, on the City of Baltimore, as Bessie had told him
the
name
Murray
told
me
had put
afraid I
me on
would
the
tell
wrong boat
Dr.
was
come
to
I was anxtherefore on
the
first
steamer that
sailed,
to the hotel
and gave
me
He
promised to meet
p. m.) at
me
on
twelve o'clock,
and give
it
me some money
in gold.
I had lost
my
baggage, as
desti-
tute,
me
MY VOYAGE TO IRELAND.
129
On Wednesday,
the hotel in
About one
Oh,
moment
clothes, nothing
In
to
my
wild grief I
man
I met,
if
who happened
or else send
to console
me
me, assuring
me
that
my
money
I
company
in Liverpool, England,
and
would get
as soon as I arrived.
He
sailed before the appointed hour, but it could not be avoided, etc.
The
captain introduced
me
to the
I went
down
into
my stateroom,
and nights.
it
I believe I should
William Matthias.
God
bless
him
he was
Out on the
anguish
Oh, the
terrible
alone I
CHAPTER XX.
ALONE
IN
On
The passengers
left
I was
What was
Where
to
go
me and my
few
friends.
There was
no help
for
it.
my
tale of
woe would be
my wants
felt
relieved.
Gentle reader,
may you
Heaven
lips
!
never
feel
what I then
may your
appeal to
in prayers so hopeless
and
my
overwhelmed me.
The
my
man
I
tour children
depending on him.
To him
made known my
(130)
ALONE
intentions.
IN
A FOREIGN LAND.
131
my mental
tomb.
I was filled with only one thought, one desire, and that
to
was
in
to return
my
me
back
to
Boston, as he expected to
of August.
However,
in a
orders to
sail into
my new
make known
my
nished
me
with a carriage
and I proceeded
the Isle of
and that
To
made known
him
my errand
he refused
to give
me money
for
my passage
remain in
either to Ireland
me
To
"
to
this I partly
left.
Beggars can-
me
in
way^ at
least.
I returned to the ship and told the chief steward the decision I had almost made.
me
to
132
fered to pay
ALONE
IN A
FOREIGN LAND.
my
passage back to
my
friends if I
it,
would accept
a steerage berth.
He
said, if
he could afford
he would gladly
send
me back
in the cabin.
From my
that good Christian man, and gladly accepted the steerage ticket
which he secured
nard
line,
for
me
in
and he
also replenished
my
sadly deficient.
William Matthias
;
charitable motive
he
as
his
reward from
Him
to
reward
On
embarked
in the Siberia
r
and
turned
my
face toward
home.
knew him
to
be a priest by
his hypocritical
and down-looking
countenance.
No
He
also recognized
me
life
human
He
was
in-
troduced himself to
me
as Rev.
in the course
for
He
showed me a
from
his Bishop,
recommending him
and he expected
to get a
church there.
MY RETURN.
133
fearful
We
Who
can describe
human
?
moment
to
On
we were
the hatchways were open and the water poured into the steerage, drenching us through
;
shrieks, the
German
children, the shouting of the sailors, the roar of the angry waters,
paint
felt so
calm.
had no
fear of death.
made one
for death.
God and
calmly prayed
abated,
But
this
was not
to be.
The storm
and
a
its
hundreds of human
filthy aspect.
souls, presented
know
not what
of
me
if
me
in
who was
returning
Turkey
to his
home
in
Portland, Maine.
This gentleman
was
me
"
Madam,
your refined and delicate appearance indicate that you are not
he will permit, I
assist
will take
is
you
you may
my wife, who
134
MY RETURN.
And
thus I passed
The
me
ashore,
placed
me in
I answered to
her
own
woman's sympathy,
shield
me
from renewed
to the
manism.
cKj^t*^
j <^?r,.
^t^gr^^
CHAPTER XXI.
THE ARREST OF FATHER WALSH.
It is painful
for
me
to
make
the
not a Christian.
test Protestants,
and de-
God and
the
man
!"
will
convey
my
was the
last
one
after
to
A few days
dise
whom I my arrival
my
sorrows.
me
my
father
in his
my name
to
After
home
visit,
Gertrude went
Hudson
City,
and on
in
his
Walsh
his
own
parlor,
attempted
crime.
He
made
arrangements to enter
St.
Kentucky.
to
13G
He
told
my
and
satisfac-
tion
up
to the
time of
my
had
" manifested
symptoms of
in-
At
the
make
inquiries if I
my
to
home.
Bishop McFarto
my sister's
charges,
Bishop
from
his priesthood.
She went
to the
of Starkweather
St.,
&
Sheldon, criminal
lawyers, at 33
School
my name
and with-
my
consent.
7th,
On September
and
failing to find
him
Hudson
City, she
went
to
Father
Walsh
Wost.
at
Mount
Holly, Burlington, N.
where he w as
T
stop-
to see
him before he went away, as she owed him a debt which she
Wished
to pay.
re-
in fact that
137
by
to Burlington,
8th.
to
and wished
to
see him.
happened
in the interim
he would be
in
Boston
pn
the
day appointed.
Owing
to
circumstances which he
She again
set out in
She
Walsh went
Mount Holly
to
make
to
all right
with Father
McGahann
means
for the
telling
McGahann
his destination. in
to the his
Street,
where he registered
and
at the
to all
Adams House.
it
A writ,
after
contained,
was placed
in the
this
rill.
She accompanied
deputy to the
and conducted
to the
138
Boston Jesuit
of the Jesuits
made Provincial
New
York.)
In the mean-
Court House.
your poor helpless
My
friend
!
Oh come
how
to
am now
seeyou.
They
re-
my
appearance, but
is
cuted one to find bail in a strange city to which you alone have
attracted me.
Oh
sister
remember
let
my
the
All,
acted
too well
Come and
me
I cannot realize
write.
my dread!
ful position,
Oh,
my God
in this
give
me
yet a
!
little
Lord
Thy
will be done.
sister,
Come and
and
.
see
me
office
immediately dear
of'thieves."
to do.
Come, dear
is
This
his
now
one."
May
God and
into
am
your unfortunate
friend,
W. M. Walsh."
When
139
I could not
weep although
my heart was
weep-
to the
sheriff's
office,
me
in that trying
my
life,
I entered a sheriff's
and found
it full
of
stared at
What
in
!
me
and
man
whom
I had forgiven.
;
he was going
the austere
to
make a
atonement for
;
his sins
among
order of
Dominicans
Heavenly Father
Who
to his
is
" ever
ready
to forgive all
who
trust in
Him, and
re-
nounce
I told Father
Walsh
I had nothing
my
consent to
at all to
The
sheriff said I
had nothing
do
with
as
it
was
my
sister
against him.
Gertrude,
whose
plans
to
substantially
thwarted by
my
consequent appearance
and
in
present, ordered
"
me
Shame on
you,
bold
woman
You
140
iate
let
Do you
?"
think a true
woman would
true
woman would
He
disgraceful imprisonment.
Monastery
to
forgiveness of
God
And now
Gertrude, I
am
not a minor,
and I
am
I'll
forgive him."
!
She replied
he must go
that
is
and where I
Edith,
trust
fifteen years.
&
Sheldon.
These
The next
day, which
was
and
of
sum
$300
into
the hands
of the
lawyers.
I did not
released until
so enraged with
me
be-
suit,
if
mark
and
have revenge
wade through
his
hell to get
it
I'll
go to
my
will
father, secure
in the
criminal court of
to. interfere."
New
Jersey,
have no power
I was not
my
141
arrest of
to
it
Father Walsh.
if
My
father
he had known
her intentions.
her threat, and actuated by the one motive to save the church
fifty
tell
dollars
in hand, I
went
in pursuit of
him
New
sur-
Mount
Holly, Tues-
September 22d,
Father
McGahann was
me, as
it
failed to recognize
was
had met
escape.
me
and was
not seen
ignorant
of
my
Father
McGahann had
Father Walsh since the 18th, but was expecting him back
New York
make arrangements
I saw Father
for his
departure west.
McGahann knew
next day, and
if
had taken
place,
He
asked
me
Mount
of
all
night suffering
much
anxiety
ques-
mind
The
tion
which troubled
me
was,
why had he
not arrived in
Mount
me?
me
About
we were
Walsh made
Father
and unshaven.
surprised
by the deplorable
aspect Father
142
here
is
Sister de Chantal
What
to
kept
me, I
have been in
" In jail,
jail."
!
William
jail,
and
what
"
self
jail
w ere you
T
in ?"
truth,
is
To
;
tell
you the
tell
James, I hardly
that I put
know what
Boston
jail
my-
all I
can
you
up
in the
jail Sat-
my
ac-
or
is it
dreaming I
I
am ?"
said
are
both dreaming
think,"
Father
McGahann,
" Will
sure,
it's
falling
tell
back
you
me
what
in the
you
to
Boston
at all ?"
me
there."
the
little
brown
silk
walking
suit."
Arrah
Billy
Musha, may
off to
Boston
but we
all
are
it,
all
now
in earnest
Come
William,
tell
me
about
Father
143
why
New
ried
Both the
remain in Mount
Holly
Father
McGahann
returned.
However,
at
the
who were
down
New York
Tribune.
They
house,
newspaper.
facts
My
paragraph
From
"
the
New York
22d, 1868.
Remarkable Suit
in
a Boston
Court.
Boston, Sept.
2lst.
A few days
last
August
of Miss
New
Jersey
to
which
institution
On
of
girl's
facts, at
that time,
life
and at once
from her
of shame.
She now
in
144
from Liverpool
her wrongs.
recital of
She wrote
once to Messrs.
Geo.
C. Stark-
weather
case.
&
Sheldon, well
known
that she
to
Boston
art she
With
true
woman's
jail.
enough
It
is
to
now
out of Massachusetts.
his"
priesthood by
his Bishop."
Dear
readers,
what
my sensations
who had
en-
"the
girl's sister,
life
of shame."
And
then too,
"
She now
lives
in
from Liverpool
of
!"
Oh,
how
false
as
my
family
knew nothing
my
dream of making an
She did not even
effort
toward
my
know
The
was sent
to Liverpool
on
145
Walsh
to Boston,
and received
! !
damages
to the
amount of $5,000.
False
false
my
sister
in the case,
dollars
was the
Sheldon,
Starkweather
&
which sum he borrowed from Rev. Father Supple, of Charlestown, Mass., and which was not even sufficient to pay the
" costs " of suit.
I could
this
new
suffer-
wounds of
my
harrowed
heart.
Father
McGahann
prepared a contradiction in
my
name
to that inaccurate
many
of the false
statements.
It
was
as follows
City.
Sir
in a
Boston Court," you say that the Rev. Mr. Walsh has been
suspended from priesthood on charge of seducing Miss Edith
O' Gorman, otherwise Sister Teresa de Chantal, while she was an
I,
am
arti-
cle is
my
life
by anybody.
my
spiritual adviser.
It
me
to
146
as I then thought,
my
dying request.
It
is
false that
he ever
I left
sent
me
to
Liverpool
except by my own
to
earnest request.
the convent
unknown
I
my superior,
to
and
ed in
this
world.
went
Ireland of
have no
sister married,
my
sister.
I have a sister
named Mary Gertrude O' Gorman, living at No. 48 Essex Street, Boston, who has brought a great deal of misery upon
me.
I have never written to Messrs.
George C. Starkweather
&
such scandal to
for his conduct.
my
Walsh
to
Boston,,
my
it
No
matter
how opposed
am
to
duty I owe to myself, to the holy community to which I belonged, and to the Rev, Mr. Walsh,
who
my
account, to send
this contradiction
will
Edith
Alias Sister
O' Gorman,
Teresa de Chantal."
New York
Father Walsh,
in the presence of
me
to
woman he had
ever met
147
all
the suffering
lie
present
confessed he loved
me
then
if
possible,
more than
ever,
and were
imploring
my
pardon,
we
parted forever.
The
priests
moved
hearts,
to tears in
witnessing the
it
separation of two
human
which were
The 25th
of September,
left
McGahann
me
to Balti-
me
that
city,
I could get a
some of the
priests.
September 28th I
by the
North Cal-
vert Street,
where
per day.
was
supplied.
My
money nearly
fol-
McGahann, and
received the
Mount Holly,
Dear
pained
N.
J.,
September
31st, 1868.
Sister
and really
it
me
very much,
God
away
faith.
Oh, dear
girl
pray to God
I would suggest
" thirty
days
prayer
"
that
God through
148
Lady might
mence
you
in
this
prayer
masses.
me know
my
a school I think
too
You
and do everything
7
You
find
can
remain where
ou are for a
week
or two,
till
you
some
suitable situation,
Do
thank
God, he
out
;
on
way
to
will give
him grace
to repent of the
path
suffering,
and
in bring-
much
me
me
at the
papers
affair.
He
make an
affidavit in confirmation of
You
will
then please
swear me.
to the truth of
written,
to
Do
without delay.
I will send
will
you
letters of
be time
enough
for you.
You
When
will
more
retired
I hope
you
Father Renahan
149
is
is
inconsolable.
Father Hogan
has written to
me
Oh, dear
child
it is
many
hearts.
Write
sal-
often to
me and
Your only
vation
is
in prayer,
McGahann."
with the
compliance
more Sun:
"
An
eness or
North Calvert
door,
Agnes Barry.
my
advertisement,
from a
Roman
She replied
Your
face
is all
to
in her
carriage,
thanking
God
in
my
ting a situation.
We
ing neighborhood.
The
lady,
affable,
conducted
me
into a luxurious
me was
150
to be mine.
some
rest as she
would
not require
my
room.
fortable
I knelt
down
to
thank
God
com-
home.
No
suspicion of
after the
wrong crossing
left
my mind
At
until about
one hour
lady had
man
enter
my
I thought he
was the
lady's
my
However, I
the sofa
down on
arm around my
tingling
made use
through
my
and demanded
to
be thus insulted
that I
but a sus-
to a
my
my
it
by me he
!
had sprung a
secret spring
when he
O God
have
save
me !"
down
"
Remember,
Oh, come to
my
assistance
Remember,
most holy
151
am
Son
me
!"
While
man
Roman
Catholic priest.
I arose from
am
are a
Roman
am
am
out on the
!
and
oh, sir
if
you
there
is
you a
me
He
looked at
me
put
moved
My
to this ? child
you came."
it
He
then accompaout,
me
to the hall
at the
pray for
priests."
to
North Calvert
Was
my own
is
sex could
fall
so
low
Woman
woman.
work
of thy
152
I resolved never
left
Baltimore, and as
I went to Father
McGahann, whom
New York
Tribune.
fifty dollars to
and the
New York
Tribune was the only paper which pubIf the statements had been only truthfelt
such poignant
it
grief,
but the
thought that a
whose duty
was
to shield
and protect
bleeding
my
was overwhelming
chiefly
in itself.
to
Her aim
in
making the
show up
her
sister's
sake at
least,
why
?
were truthful
No
one.
matter what
to
be baset by new
sides I
was overwhelmed
in an accumulation of sorrows.
New York
made "
Let
my
readers judge
by reading
this report,
how
153
injustice
and calumny-
my
unprotected head.
Qth,
1868.]
BOSTON.
The case of Edith
the affair
0' Gorman
the events.
Documentary proofs of
This
Narrative of
A card was
has been generally copied, and the Tribune denounced for publishing false news.
We now
respondent,
together with
the
which
his
statement dismiss
the subject.
Boston, Sept.
28th, 1868.
In the Tribune of the 2 2d September, there appeared a paragraph which narrated briefly and imperfectly the seduction by
Rev. William M. Walsh, a Catholic priest
a Sister of Notre Dame, by the
as
at
Hudson
City, of
name
On
your co-respondent
at
among
First, a cer-
copy
of the
writ,
Edith
154
TIIE
in
Kev.
Win. M. Walsh
is
To
this writ
Count
her,
And
plaintiff says
defendant
made an
as-
upon
and by
force debauched
her,
whereby the
plaintiff
was made
she
was subjected
mind.
Second Count
And
plaintiff
was
and administered
is
and potions
to the plaintiff,
which she
unable
more
particularly to describe,
was enabled
to
was made
for
And
plaintiff says
her,
and
ill-treated her,
for
one year.
'
On
the 19 th
inst.,
Walsh was
arrested in Bos-
155
committed
to jail.
p.
m.
Mr. Walsh
suit
settled the
case,
by paying cash
into the
George C. Starkweather
&
N. Sheldon.
a sworn
affidavit,
to the effect
illicit
that
inter-
Teresa de
affidavit
Chantal
of Miss
and
to lighten,
if possible,
her
sister's
his priesthood
on
New
Jersey.
In Mie
it
stated that
sues a
man
for seduction,
that
By
aftef
some means or
again
the
in fact,
Boston together
N'ow York.
The
sight of the
man
|56
and
she,
it is
believed,
toils
he
by
his
Church
know
a professed bride of
the Church,
vowed
celibacy.
The
the 25th,
and
not of the
she
is
velain in character.
The
facts in
M. Walsh
was a
sister of
:
The
He was
to him,
not, in
spiritual
adviser.
On
When
violated.
Her outraged
by the mother
to a
convent at Newark, N.
On
the 31st of
to the
and went
Philadelphia.
He removed
her to the
During that
times,
New York
at
at
various times.
On
the
THE ARIIEST OP FATHER WALSH.
Pacific
157
Hotel,
on Greenwich
street,
New
This
is
from eye-witnesses.
15th
she
probably on
Out of
the
sailed for
England
in the
Steamer Propontis, as
his
by Mr. Walsh.
sight she got over her infatuation for him, (as she did lately in
Boston,
when
He
back
2 2d
Steamer
Siberia.
relatives
She arrived
Boston on the
of August, her
father, mother,
and
sister
Between
to her
shame
to obtain reparation.
The
parents of
Rhode
Island,
He
it is
wrote to
believed
New
Walsh then
went
N.
J.,
to reside
Mount
Holly, Burlington,
sister in Philadelphia.
Ger-
trude found
him
to
at
Mount
Holly,
when
company her
being necessary to
him by law.
He came
is
remarkable
affair,
and there
In so
documentary evidence
to support
every allegation.
158
base a recital as
to the foul
heroism of
is
about
2G years
old,
Mr. Walsh
priest.
is
about 30,
and looks
is
like a
It
will
is
Walsh
be allowed by
The
We, Geo.
ton,
Starkweather
Suffolk,
&
County of
by us
That he confessed
to us
and that he
by a cash payment.
Geo.
C.
Starkweather,
H. N. Sheldon.
Suffolk,
ss.,
Starkweather
&
Wm.
A. Herrick, Justice of
the
Peace.
ss.
duly sworn
depose
my
sister
Edith
O' Gorman
&
Sheldon to
I
M. Wal&h.
159
O' Gorman.
28, 18G8.
ss.,
September
Wm.
Now,
ment
A. Herrick,
me
publication,
The
state-
" in the
man, or
Chantal.
as she
was called
the convent,
Sister Teresa
cle
On
never belonged
Notre
Dame
nuns, which
;
is
an order entirely
and as
to
was seduced
in
my
life.
The word
seduction implies
parties,
me
than to
such consent
It,
neither
is
dear readers,
it.
Again the
herself
160
on the 15th
in
W. M.
another
Walsh
is
base calumny.
" taken out
no such writ
Gertrude O' Gorman, but on the 15th of August I knew nothing of the existence of such a writ, for I was then only a few
is
full^
of false charges
The
"And
plaintiff says
ill
made an
assault
space
of one
consequence of which,
plaintiff
one year."
it
How
vent ?
could Father
Walsh imprison me
since I
Walsh ever
was
struck or imprisoned
me
on the contrary
his treatment
respectful.
it
damages,"
reader, not
which falsehood I
if
me
I do not
know
met
as
know
that Bishop
whom
Bishop Bayley
not.
to
suspend
"
161
The correspondent
is this.
has ob-
Boston together.
The
sight of the
man
and she
is
toils."
What
against
injustice!
Never
any
one,
and
suit
not
Walsh
him
neither did I
know when he
the 2 2d,
until
Wednesday
"
when
And if my
weakened
intellect
was unable
to resist him,
for
running
my-
many
The correspondent
facts,
which although they contain many falsehoods, yet strangecount" contained in the
sheriff's
He
at the
months before Father Walsh found me, and then only through
the telegram sent by Mrs. Willt that I was dying. did I see Father
Walsh on
Hotel, as
it
depot
Jersey
City
and conducted
me
there.
Dear
two
New York
1G2
Tribune.
His
tri-
everlasting arms,
Who
umph
over
all
my
enemies, and
my
exaltation exceed
the
He
permitted
me
to wade.
tJSLSLSL
CHAPTER
Father
XXII.
McGahann
advised
me
to
go
to
New
to
York, and
St.
my
letter
Peter's
Mount
me.
done
ing
for
Accordingly I went
I engaged a
New
at
much money,
room
Being known
in advance.
my room
wrote
again.
to
I wrote
no reply.
why he
should
thus abandon
|
me
without
money
week
pay
or friends.
at the
not
money enough
and
left to
for another
meal
in the restau-
rant,
me some money,
as I
was
starving.
did not think she would act so unsisterly as to refuse the ap-
Instead of
money
how
I dared apply to
(163)
164
her for money, and
ABDUCTION.
why
"
?
my Bishops
and Arch-
bishops of Babylon
all
hope
I had not tasted food for two days, and was I lost
all
hope or
is
faith in
God
my heart,
"
There
no God, there
no
justice,
no eternity
!"
tion,
by writing
letters to
Father
McGahann and
in
and put
scription,
my
"To
be opened when I
am
dead."
borrowed
twenty-five cents from the clerk of the hotel, crossed the ferry
into Jersey City,
went
into a
for arsenic,
to give
me.
dead
in the
Sanctuary.
much
Murray,
to give
whom
them
I
to
asked
for the
She refused
It will
She ran
in dis-
may
left
to
who
I were
But
God
me from
myself, although
ABDUCTION.
in that
1G5
existed,
moment
He
else I
would
it
main
in
my
stomach
sick,
known
there,
and
it
on the Church.
was sent
to
South Sec-
ond
in
my
sickness
me.
Mr. Halliard of
me from
to
in Manhattanville,
N. Y.
happened
me.
be visiting
me when
first
coffee.
whom
I had
Hudson City
jail.
Oh, what
me
to
When
she took
me
to her
me
with great
to
go to
Cincinnati and join her order there, which I refused, for I had
lost faith in
Convents, and
infidelity.
my
soul
seemed plunged
in
into the
darkness of
Every hope
God was
dissipated
166
that
BDUCTIOX.
trial
of
!
all
hell than to
be without
God
me
go
free.
me
ten dollars.
At
I went to see
first
him
he was the
whom
Catho-
He
wished
me
its
to
throw
off the
lic
and
let the
world know
hypocrisy.
I told
him
if
truth, neither
"
who
build
its
train of errors
and supersti-
Lord severed
the chains.
At
a
the time I
God
or eternity.
my
all
down
into
all
The
sham, a
farce,
and
so
were
religions.
my
As day
man
without a
God
is
an endless
hell.
AlI
infidelity,
and
could
efforts
man
were
save
me from me
that
doom ?
fruitless.
But there
up, up,
out,
and
it
dragged
not
last,
all at once,
and I
am
saved at
and
rejoice in a
new
existence.
CHAPTER
Weighed down on every
side,
XXIII.
knew
all
forsaken me.
I could not
go
to strangers, they
I could
not go to
my
home,
its
and hope
in
Him.
was
my
bleeding heart.
In the midst of
sort,
my
whom
I had I was
Church
and
bishops were
false, therefore
for
me
to earn a living.
When
my last
my
But
the discovery
In
1C8
the
in
America, only
rottenness
to
the core.
He
would do nothing
me
enter a Convent.
To
this proposition
immure myself
in the
tomb of a Convent.
He
as
language in addressing
me
will
resent.
sneered
"
Ho,
ho,
you
night,
and
you cannot
live
me
with greater charity than did this head of the " only true,
infallible
Church."
if
he can,
me
to
go out from
What
woman
May God
help
and
friendless
women who
selfish
world
heart became steeled against the Catholic Church.
it
My
had put
to the test
and
it
I would rather
die with hunger, or perish with cold, than again seek relief or
protection from
its
hardened
priests.
With regard
babe
;
to seeking
employment I was
as ignorant as a
knew
scarcely any-
knew
how
With a hope-
169
aristo-
bell of
an
wanted a servant.
"
No, we do not
be
me from
one
menial
silently closed
all
the response
my
wandered
through the city like a lost sheep, and at length, with an awful
sense of desolation, a total prostration of hope, I turned
away
become of me.
To
die of starvation
and cold
is
when
the
soli-
upon the
on a
me an
To
inviting
and I
felt
that I
would die
in the depths of a
wood
the for-
I turned,
and on that
chilly
autumn night
I found
my
down
to rest
opy of heaven.
less
With
stars,
myriads of
and
of
Him who
and
of
?
hope and
faith revived in
my
that
God would
save me.
"
The Son
why
Him? and
Man had not whereon to Was I not more like When the soul feels peace.
170
isolated
often
draws nearer
to
God; and
which
earth, I experienced a
dim
flash of that
Heavenly
light
was afterward
to
irradiate abundantly
my
entire being.
Morning dawned.
I arose from
The
and sky.
Every-
my
The
autumnal hues.
it.
and
never leave
the tree tops.
main there
Where
should I turn
;
To
Philadelphia.
I could then go
to
Mrs. Willts
me and
way
thither.
fail
assist
me
to find
employment.
But
to
it
to Philadelphia,
pay
my
expenses
What was I
do
I would walk.
nevertheless, I
I could only
try.
would
me
on
is
to Philadelphia.
all
Reader,
it
me
to recall
the incidents of
they would
nutely how, in
many
places, I
hunun-
which
to sustain
my
happy
life.
to
my
appeal with as
;
much
while
abundance give
171
me some
little
To
the latter I
made
all
me
to a cottage to
my
!
face with
we
God
with what
poignant arrows
my
sensitive soul
When my hand
for aid
We
how
who
little
Where
seek the
The good
their palatial
"
Come
unto
Me
practised
But
it
says, "
Come
unto me, and I will heap upon you opprobrium, reproach, and
recrimination, taunting, reviling, deriding,
Is
it
;!
]72
it
!
my
its
depths
my
eyes
have watered
out from
my
soul in despair.
at
When,
footsore, I arrived
its
and
town where
I succeeded in begging
my way
how
often I
!
sank by
how
body down
energy
itself
to
die,
my weary my sinking
was
in
to
Each
trial
I suffered
heart.
some human
To be
cast out
to
and
suffer a living
and highest
confidence misplaced;
earth
merited persecution
ing, starving,
to
amount of sorrow
one weak
woman
to
endure
lation of sorrow
Ah, dear
readers,
how many
Truly the hand of God was laid heavily upon me, but
done
in love.
it
was
As
there are
173
My
God
recollections
of
life
so that
my
and
it
now
holds truth
more sacred
for
its
scarcity.
I would not
have
it
Hand winch
hath chastened
me.
And
He
hath permitted
me
and
He now
permit
me
to see the
peace and
but to the God-born heart, and to the soul that has passed
from suffering
to sanctity
from
tombed martyrdom,
standing."
to the perfect
CHAPTER XXIV.
MY CONVERSION.
"Weary and way-worn I at
last arrived
in
Philadelphia,
1336 Coates
Street,
who
kindly took
me
was able
to
Being afraid
to advertise after
to
was advised
go
to
an
in-
was directed
to
Street.
wrong
building,
surprised to find
myself in a Phreno-
logical Gallery.
An
affable
and
to
know
if
I desired to
of character.
To
same
and
I told him
my
errand,
was about
quested
study
He
then proceeded to
different qualities
he
of oratory, elocu-
(174)
"
"
MY CONVERSION.
tion,
175
penmanship,
etc."
After
lie
had
of
my
was
ill,
and
Accordingly I engaged
with Professor
W.
my
to all the
All the
money
my
board.
At
table I
was subjected
;
to the
principled
and
con-
venient to
women, who
I was
friends,
!
were so anxious
often pained
about every
:
new comer.
"
Have you no
!
no
acquaintances
"
"
No
"
" Strange
very strange
And
had no
me
wrong
Unable
to
my little
table.
and without
friends, but
how
could they
know
or underfilled
my
all
creatures
However, I was
at length fortunate
enough
to get
17G
lady,
MY CONVERSION.
who had met
made
with
many
war
was
home during
the remainder of
my
stay
in Philadelphia.
My
heart had not as yet been touched with a live coal from
My
soul
had not
as
light,
but
;
went
to the Catholic
Church
it
I felt
my
soul.
I could not
in
kneel or
bow down
to those
empty forms.
One Sunday
Wood,
in his
golden vestments,
With
its
new
light I
looked
upon the
falsity
and hollowness of
they appeared to
me
gorgeous pastime of
fools.
denominations.
finally
began
religious systems
its
were vain.
Thus
from
infi-
infidelity
my
Who
MY CONVERSION.
saw myself
like a lonely
177
mariner far
off
at midnight,
when
heard
my
" Peace, be
still,"
My
by
conflicting thoughts
and
ineffectual
but
over me.
to
withdraw
my
feet
me
to Boston.
It
was while
my
conversion took
in
place.
Not
in a church, not
my
and
His
God
alone,
my
throne in
my
heart, filling
it
The
deliverer
came
as
my
defense,
my
shield,
!
and
strength,
and
salvation, in this
God
hath saved
feet
my
fall-
soul "
ing."
from death,
my
my
from
the death
Sun of
wonderful
the
my
soul
The day of
"
178
MY CONVERSION.
for
Lord dawned
me on
the
awak-
my
aridity.
me
to arise
floor of
my
I
chamber.
reproached
just
My
soul
murmured and
Him
had suffered
I called
Him un-
and tyrannical.
In
my
curse
my
I,
pletely
What
my
Creator
to rebel against
Thy
upon me
deliver
!
me
from darkflash of
ness.
Hear me
fire
my
God,
"
Like a
burning
my
heart,
and instantan-
through
my
Daughter of sorrow,
arise
and
shine.
!
Go
forth
been taught
I trembled with
light of
awe
God
my
weary,
darkened
it
spirit.
A thousand
!
and heavenly
flooded
my
my
MY CONVERSION.
Jesus pressed
179
me
to
me
forever His
own
Not only
did
my
soul
my whole
de-
new
creature,
every
was renewed.
my
heart
that heart
which had so
that heart
sacrificed
on the
altar of self-immola-
at last filled
it.
my
new-born soul
Reader,
it
is
the joy and peace of the soul which emerges from darkness
into light,
and
is
such happiness
is
far bet-
my
mind.
I thanked
God
long,
for
every
trial, for
every persecution
suffer as
and
is
in
whatever manner,
my
Master
pleased.
With Jesus
it
sweet to
alone with
atoning
a dying
God
it
warm
to
life.
My
God
and goodness
to
me.
His heavshall
enly strength
to heal
filled
my
soul in
go out
and save
others.
180
MY CONVERSION.
!
every affection of
my nature
it,
absorbed in Thee
Hush,
my soul, I cannot
speak
tongues
ment
in Jesus.
Christian reader,
how many
there are
who have
not realized
we
again
And how
beyond
many
there are
who say
Him
Him
How many He
how sweet
is
hidden from
!
superstitious forms
and ceremonies
the
Which
Lord
is,
can
think but with sorrow and anguish of the blind, cold, comfortless
the treasure
Dear Catholic
weary with
Christ
;
sin
is.
me and
taste
how sweet
Throw
off
approach
in
wrapped
His
weary hearts
contentment.
will
!
heavenly
how
consoling,
!
how sweet
harassed soul
It is instant peace,
CHAPTER XXV.
MY
One
"WORK.
is
a great
zea?.
to
convert others
felt
and with
this
desire
my
heart was
filled.
my
me
was
to
be
me
in a
My
fested in me.
Peace illuminated
my
my
mouth.
Heavenly
heart-wrung
tears.
A few mornings
whom
I
after
my
friend
was
my
happiness was
for years.
At
last I
in
my
soul that
my
To
sins
were
all
Christ alone.
that 1
had a great
work
do
?"
to do.
am
I
going to lecture."
my own
words.
Lecture
(181)
182
impossible.
I,
MY WORK.
a
weak
timid
face assem-
bled multitudes.
was surprised
It
should occur to
my
mind.
was
my
more I
posterous the
more
vividly
if
me
as being
its fulfil-
so I
would hazard
my
life in
ment.
God
in
all
weak ones of
the
I
all
knew
do nothing, but
" I
could do
things
through
for
Him who
His work
strengthened me."
do His
will.
My
what I
felt to
The
res-
seemed con-
sumed with
Gertrude at
the desire,
first
and accordingly
I prepared a lecture.
regarded
my
finally
was brought
a good
request
me
On
a helping hand.
She went
at
my
his interest in
my
at
undertaking.
home
MY WORK.
about twenty persons in the town
small,
hall.
183
My audience, although
literary
lights.
R.
W.
Emerson and
known
Women
ence.
;"
town of Concord
remarkable, encouraged
me by
to continue the
ability
work
I had
undertaken, assuring
to
me
that I
had the
and knowledge
impart instruction to
mankind.
to
my
ar-
my
former co-relig-
my
convent
I gave
my
second lecture.
had I money
enough
about
in me.
to
pay
for hall or
advertisements.
However, I was
it
my
and
to
my my
ary.
object.
He
encouraged
me
in
it,
and directed me
to the
it
to place
is
at
payment
in
advance as
custom-
The
humane
give myself no
if
the lecture
any payment.
So
my
first
lecture in Jersey
184
MY WORK.
hundred persons
in
Cooper Hall.
them were
friends or enemies.
sionally interrupted
by Catholic servant
sion
number
of newly
made
me by
the hand,
and begged
me
continue
those
in
my
Among
olic
who
many
Cath-
young
City.
ladies,
formerly
my
Hudand
son
These embraced me
statements.
hall,
most
affectionately,
indorsed
my
In leaving the
to "
lynch
'"
me,
mash my
umbrellas.
However, aided by
friends I escaped
unharmed.
many
persons, I consented
Jersey City.
In the meantime
it
in a priat the
was
unsafe for
me
to
remain
was introduced
St. Paul's
Rev. L. R. Dunn,
;
who was
then pastor of
M. E. Church
he kindly recommended
lady,
me me
to
Mrs.
H. M. Dunning, a Methodist
doors to shelter
me
from
my
enemies.
home
who swore
Mrs. H. M. Dunning
is
woman
of sterling
'rt*n
When
MY WORK.
I was friendless, obscure, and unknown, she took
185
me
it
in with-
at a time too,
when
was haz-
when
me
lics.
shelter at
any price
mob
violence of Cathoto
Words
are inadequate
to
do justice
the Christian
She
is
the descendant of
N. Y.
He
planted the
societies
of Tarrytown, Nyack,
all
Haverstraw, and
privations of the
many
local
the early
John
Y.
J. Matthias, established
Methodism
in Staten Island,
N.
many
uncles
is
and cousins
Rev. B.
noble
to
the
M. E.
ministry.
Among
her cousins
Adams
of the
New York
home
East conference.
one year.
With
this
woman
I found a
for nearly
She was
and
me
companion
life
by accompanying me
of Catholics
wherever I went.
Many
falsely
represented.
Her
me
home
free of compensation.
The
My
live
and while I
first
place
among
pray
friends in
my
heart of
the re-
and I
shall continue to
God
to
make her
cipient of
many
gifts.
18G
MY WORK.
to Jersey City,
I con-
my
entitled, "
Convent
Life,"
and delivered
hall
in
weeks
ler
after the
first.
The
was crowded.
to
was
there,
the audience
by the
time
first
met
and
free speech.
The
now
thoroughly awakened, I
made
was refused
for fear of
mob violence.
beset me.
The
fol-
some of the
u
difficulties which,
In
this
public, not for redress, for that she cannot get, but to
expose
the sins
institutions
She
is
tell
be heard, she
is.
Yet
in tins very
for
of Protestant
churches
may be
MY WORK.
187
refused.
We
ardice
of
ashamed.
Not only
this
in a public hall to
whom
This also
we must characterize
What decent
show of sympathy
for this
girl,
who
ence of the crimes and persecutions that are the fruits of the
Why
To
reformed
gambler
like
readily
Yet
they,
noble reformers as they are, have not half the claim to christian
has, for
victims of their
own
follies,
own upon
her.
The
evils
to
they any more terrible than those which this brave girl ex-
poses?
to
which
to
conventual institutions of
refused
is
simply a shame.
We
188
that the trustees of the
MY WORK.
North Baptist Church, have granted
the use of their church building to Miss Edith O' Gorman for
the purpose of giving her next lecture.
ing noteworthy
applications
at least
in this
were
it
made
for a similar
The
lec-
turer of course willingly pays the price demanded for the use
on
finan-
We
cause those
lence,
who
mob
vio-
broken windows,
moment.
Romanism and
find a
We
mob will
we
we
up any church
on that account.
on their
and
to protect
free speech.
glass, in
They should
risk the
the sacrifice
of a lot of
window
thing.
We
North
Baj)tist
Church have
Protestant
it
who
is
MY WORK.
desirous of giving testimony against error
189
and wrong-doing,
and
for truth
and righteousness."
The Audience In She Invited to Repeat the tensely Interested evening Lecture. The North Baptist Church was
"Miss O'Gorman's Third Lecture
is
filled last
From
intelligent audiences
the lecture
by Miss
Roman
it
and what
Among
many
the audi-
ence
we
of our most
we
Every
in
was occu-
interest
the lecture
was manifest
throughout.
The
effect
may
be
esti-
repetition.
was
offered
Miss 0'-
Gorman, who
is
and very
little
occupying
s*
applause, etc."
From
Our ref-
remember
190
O' Gorman on the
in the
'
MY WORK.
Romish Priesthood/ a few evenings
since,
North Baptist Church, gave so much satisfaction to the large and respectable audience which listened to it, that an impromptu meeting was held at the close of the lecture, and it
was voted
to request
to repeat
it
in this city.
The
16, 1869.
Miss Edith
O Gorman
At a meeting held
that
in the
Chapel of
this
was adopted
you be
requested to re-
peat the same, and the undersigned were appointed the committee to convey to you the request.
di-
you the
desire
we have
that
it
compatible
We
is
With
great re-
Your
ob't servants,
Lewis Neil,
Wm.
Z. K.
A. Lewis,
Pangborn,
Committee.'
W.
B. Dunning,
A. D. Whyte,
MY WORK.
191
<
19, 1869.
I most
gladly comply
The Roman
day next week that the committee may deem advisable. Thankin or the o-entlemen
me
fresh heart
and strength
my
undertaking,
I am,
Edith O'Gorman.'"
Thus encouraged by some of the most prominent
Jersey City,
citizens of
me
in the pulpit,
my
enemies, I pre-
The
in the largest
church in the
city,
out any further difficulty after the Baptists had bravely paved
the way.
Many
very
faces.
Among
whom my
readers will
remember I met
on
my return
this susassist-
making him an
192
City.
MY WORK.
Bishop Bayley seems
to
for all
renegade
known
to himself.
I exposed
Father Owens
to his face,
and
his expulsion
was the
result.
My
success as a lecturer
was wonderfully
show
loth.
From
December
Few
things
more
re-
ed her
own
thoughts.
fixed purpose of
making known
to the public
She
came here
because
it
after
and here
if
if
She
by any
The
to the criticism of
Ralph Waldo
advised
in pub-
Emerson
and
was
who
it
But up
to that
mo-
ment
ceived.
The
false
made by
the
MY WORK.
193
This statement
we
know
to
be
false.
is
The
language are
all
her own.
Her
Her
third lecture
drew
delivery,
it
and an equally
;
was
in attendance
when
was repeated
and
we complete
to-day, at-
any other
first re-
B. Gough's included.
chilling enough.
Yet her
was
It
lecture
tain
was given
first
at-
her, or
were
afraid
in-
dorse a friendless
who had no
;
helpers but
God and
her
own
conscientious purpose
in short, the
at first
coldest kind.
this
We
spoke, as
we
felt
we
ought, in rebuke of
it.
indifference
As we expected
has
now no
194
has chosen.
MY WORK.
The malice and
slanders of her enemies have
may
who
We
cannot venture
what the
has had
may
be.
The Church
she has re-
of
Rome
many
powerful assailants
whom
sisted with
The
attack
It
of an unprecedented kind.
wronged
woman,
ed and wronged her, and choosing the free public assembly and
lecturer's platform
on which
to
fiance to her
public,
The American
courage.
ability
When
and
commenced
in this city."
I lectured
seven
months.
my
labor I
made
Al-
my
weakness
and
to
Him
be
all
the glory.
though I encountered
many
difficulties
my
in
God.
One
of the effects of
rebellious,
my
conversion
is,
that
my
heart,
now
experiences a perfect
MY WORK.
resignation to
all
195
assail
trials
me.
can
now endure
and
same equanimity of
Silently as
field
ation
praise.
the dews of
Heaven descend
to give forth their
^Hfe ^ffc&tf^
CHAPTER XXYI.
THE MADISON RIOT AND ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
The North
first
in that church
I did not
my
salvation depend;
ed on
it
no,
my
salvation depends
on Christ alone
neither
all
Christ,
and New-
reference to that
March
26th.
Newark M.
E.
Conference
Edith
0' Gorman
to overflowing, not a
standing
gain admittance.
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
197
conference met, and the deepest interest to hear the " Convert-
Dunn
to
known
in this city.
She has
time,
of convents.
come here
this
Romanism.
We
know
me
me
N.
J.,
which engagement I
fulfilled
Through
Protestant
made
in
my
in
lectures to
Academy
Protestant support.
resolved to silence
So when I
visited
olics
my
"EDITH
O'
GORMAN MOBBED.
lectures
and
the
lec-
gave lectures at
198
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
this
was created by some of the Roman Catholic populaand an attempt was made
to shoot
Miss
O' German.
first
entered the
Roman
The
headquarters of the
located there.
order
lectures
"
is
Convent
" for
Thursday, that
last evening,
delivered in the Methodist Church before audiences that completely filled the building.
Many
On Thursday
eve-r
by Catholics
in the audience,
cre-
was
offered.
Roman
done
for."
filled,
room during
mob
made by
When
came out of
company
to get
and went
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
the mob, a frightful yelling
199
of abusive
was
raised,
and
all sorts
The crowd
Drew Seminary.
difficulty
The horse
attached to the
carriage
ran, but
a pistol shot was fired directly at her, but fortunately the ball
missed
its
aim,
head,
and the
carriage
by both
and the students and other persons, who were Miss O' Gorman's
friends.
On
it
mob, and stones were thrown and violent language used, but
Miss O' Gorman was safely escorted into the parsonage.
and nearly
all
ing in repelling the mob, which did not disperse until midnight.
The
till
this
on the train
in this city.
Miss
home
"That she
is
any
man or woman
we
think even
one
woman
in
as
were made
at
200
"This
affair
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
has created intense excitement in and around
is
Madison.
of the
It
not
known who
mob
God
being
my
by the
at-
tempted assassination.
if
laboring in a
my
Master required
for the sake
rifice it
me.
I felt
In three days
after the
an engagement
enthusiasm.
Of
"
Washington Hall
and
last
filled
by a very
to
select
and eager
hear
Indigencies/
Her
style
humorous colloquy,
and
"At the
close a few
under whose auspices the lectures were given, who took occasion to publicly thank the citizens of
Morristown
to the
Grand Army of
the
money equal
persons
to
who
desired,
whether
Roman
Catholics or Protestants,
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
were cordially invited
ally presented to
to
201
come on
Many
companied by her
escort,
notwithstanding the
trary.
Her
express a unanimous
desire
to
nowhere
dial
will
Morristown, whose
Miss
first
0' Gorman
as
among
the
of her sex.
She
doing a great and noble work, and the prayer of every lover
is
of truth
that
God
will
He
and exposure of
guilt
and corruption.
By
manner
who met
her."
riot the
Newark
Courier
would be found
which
woman.
is
good name of
New Jersey,
and which
202
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
Let each and
to justice;
all
the
let
and
extent,
and we
shall certainly
be disappointed
if
the responsi-
Roman
only disavow
all
and punishment."
heads of the
the responsible
every
who
were
when
called the
to hear them,
and the
rioters
set free
Dear
readers,
Is
it
Rome
it
ends of justice by
carries with
insidious
outworks
A creed too,
which
"
Gunpowder
plots," "
" St.
rides the
And
name
of humanity,
why
any
discussion even
of their creed?
American Protestants
Romanism
government ?
?
to prevent
it
and
Will
ever be writ-
by the future
ATTEMPTED ASSASSINATION.
ferred from
203
Rome
to
government ?
The
Roman
to
an
issue,
so solemn
and momentous as
to
to their foundation
Roman
own.
Catholic
church.
I have
no fear
God
WU^
CHAPTER XXVII.
THE EFFORT TO SILENCE ME BY UNFOUNDED SLANDERS.
" Blessed are ye
when men
all
shall revile
manner of
evil against
you
falsely for
My
sake."
There are some men who can only war with deI will particularly classify
fenceless
me
in base
contemned.
My
voice of truth
by an attenrpted
most
of the
New York
Sun, charges
me
&
dealer.
My
this charge,
this
new and
malicious
attack fired
my
and Turgis
it,
Sun
office
re-
porter to accompany
me
to those houses
false
205
and
meantime I returned
my
residence,
where I found
to the
Sun
office
at the ap-
Securing a reporter,
we
visited
the
Catholic
who
by our
visit
and the
result
upon
own
Their Charges The New York Sun published on the 25th an futed.
"Miss O'Gorman's Slanderers
was
in
Re-
article
which
it
New
York, Sadlier
&
Co.,
and
Turds
double
&
Co.
There was a
nor got
the Convent
to
She
if
know
They disavow-
ed
to
'
all
entreat her
cease
by refuting the
'
20G
false reports
be
false.
At both
places the
result
that Miss O' Gorman was never before in their houses except
in the nun's dress,
and pictures
for the
So the slander
in the
Sun was
solicited a re-
porter of the
Sun
to
accompany her
was
paid,
and
after
much
hesitation
and dodg-
by the
Thus
latest
What
no one can
but whatever
it
is
it
will
be promptly
met.
An
incident reported
by the Sun
&
'
Teresa
was reported by
letter to
Mother
to them, requesting
Sisters, as she
them not
to lend
it.'
money again
to
any of the
Now
At Miss
207
Mother Xavier, who, of course, knew nothing of the interviews with the New York Catholics, and inquired if she had any
such correspondence with either of these houses.
She
told
Rev. Mr. Parsons that she never received nor wrote any
on any such subject,
letters
Rev.
Sun
We
The
parties
can
settle
We
have given
account of
this
affair,
show the
she
is
how ready
meet
Another
son
riot,
slander, in
which Catholics
Madi-
was malicious,
This
al-
was
so stupid that
falsity
though he did not sign any name, I have no hesitancy in pronouncing Dr. Quin (he who was so ignominiously defeated in
his controversy with
me)
as
The
Some
among
the
Roman
mob
Catholics
violence,
seemed determined
and the attempt
son,
to assassinate
forgeries
and stupid
letter
lying.
The
N. Y. Sun of
morning publishes a
dated at Paterson
208
foolish
Roman
Sun
Catholics
who
The
letter in the
is,
from beginlies.
The
riot,'
Sun heads
it
'
The Roman
be a
Roman
Catho-
But
word
in reference to
Miss O' Gorman's lecture at Madison, nor does the writer venture to say a
that
word
Roman
writer
Catholic
and attempt
this
is
to
:
murder a woman.
'
The
son,
commences with
sentence
The
riot at
Madi-
denunciatory
raised that
Well,
it
mob and
But
riot that it
murder
her.
their intention
was
foiled.
'
The
letter in
the
Sun
states that
That
is
The
letter
Hoboken.
her
to
life,
Now
But
liar the
Paterson
Roman
Catho-
lic is,
we
'On account
of what
had transpired
Hoboken Miss
we next hear
209
The incensed
to
read
Not only
is
and word,
It
is
a willful
lie,
made up without
But a score of
the faint-
shadow of
fact to originate
it.
similar lies
have been concocted and told here, none of them receiving any
credence in this community, even by the Catholic population.
Who
and malicious
lies
we
don't know,
know
how
mob
rant,
violence,
and
assassination, to
class of
to take naturally."
My
my
fair
Master, and I
knew
He would
add
to
take care of
it
and
if for
a time
He
permitted the
it
my
name,
was only
to
my
future glory
my
enemies,
who
are
is
they
the
who
kingdom of heaven,"
lips of the
the
fell
from the
Man
of Sorrows,
who was
reviled,
calum-
210
niated,
He was
the
King of Heaven.
Although
my
en-
me
about on every
side, yet
because
the
Lord was
my
defense.
"Yea
no
evil, for
Thou
art with
me
CHAPTER XXVIII.
GOD BLESSES MY WORK
There
that my.
is
IN
my
readers
work
of
God and
blessed
In Newark, N.
J.,
two Catholic
religion,
families
were brought
through
City,
Hudson
my instrumentality, and others in Jersey and New York. Many Protestant parents
Amonof other
City,
have
catholics
my
influence,
is
my own
;
brother
also
who has
M. E. Church
two young
one of
fate of
pupils,
these
were trying
to entice
and
to
whom
come
to
my
my
lectures in
different
menced
to lecture,
and
my
practical success
(211)
212
exceeds any of
field.
MY WORK BLESSED.
my more
sixteen
times
City,
in
Newark, twice
in
Madison,
Bayonne
SuiTrens,
once in
phia,
and Cape
:
May
making sixty-one
months
Cleveland, and
many
this
work.
through the
Press,
especially
the religious
my
The
Phila-
M. E. Home Journal
May
:
14th, in an editorial
on
my
"
The
week
to the citizens of
O'Gorman, the
escaped Nun,
astic
who on each
premacy.
hail the
Having
we
are prepared to
appearance of
to
Popery.
MY WORK BLESSED.
tasted practically the imaginary blessedness of convent
213
life.
She
fied
from
its
that which
;
is
her
purity,
but with
remembrance burned
iniquities.
soul-repose
in seclusion,
multitude of Saints,
she
and
with her former heart idols, and the faith she entertained in
Mother Church
all
With
the
is
new found
light,
heart, there
With
who grope
and
and are
Her
possesses a fine
fairly blazes
filling
Her
214
takably cordial.
the
MY WORK BLESSED.
Repeated bursts of applause almost shook
the absurdity and folly of
dome
Romish
mumbling mode
Oc-
of her
assail
is
own
That her
life
in
arm
no
evil.
She stands
sword of
Jesuitical malice,
to Protestant parents
and
tireless
and land,
to sub-
The
topics
many
features of the
embody her
think she
is
we
competent
to
do
this as it
and
unscrupulous
hierarchy
that
now
Empire
tion,
for the
a domain where
again.
human
liberty
must
die,
come
our
visit
and speak
in
city,
those
who
occasion of her
MY WORK BLESSED.
we have no
She
is
9,15
God
and grace
in the dangerous
Dear
readers, I
press, extolling
my work
manner
tical,
in
God
has blessed
labors.
my
Lord
is
my my
Shepherd
Him who
hath made
me
to lie
down
in green pastures,
me
10
CHAPTER XXIX.
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
In June, 1870, a creature signing himself Thomas Oscar
D.,
came
to the
Third Reformed
He
Rome
an
official in
d' Andrea,
Roman
Court
and
an
Index Expurgatorius.
in
He
wrote
in
Ten Years
This
it
a production
In
Cardinal
d'
Andrea
it is
as having occurred
on the 2 2d of March,
1865
nal
whereas
d' Andrea
died in
Rome on
the 14th of
years and two months after " Dr." Keatinge had him dead and
buried.
The
The
secretary of a Cardinal
is
an
ecclesiastic.
When
a lay-
man
chosen to
fill
that place he
is
Cardinal
d' Andrea,
from
Cardinal,
down
to his death,
em-
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
mau,
217
whom
and who
still
lives in
Rome.
filled
li-
Rome, and
am
sure from
Hecker
all
false!"
For
LL.
of him.
in
man by
to
in
June, 1870.
riot,
Gertrude,
who came
visit
me
after
the
Madison
at the
same time.
and
home
in the
in Scraalenberg,
N.
J.,
where he was
assistant minister
is
the pastor.
much
is
surprised
by
this action
on her
very cold
woman who
pitiful tale
of pov-
218
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
erty and persecution to which he " Dr." and she were subjected,
and
in the
sympathy of
my
heart I
my
wardrobe be-
On
Mrs. H.
M. Dunning' s
hos-
I treated
them with
politeness,
sincere
and
truthful,
Rome.
lie
is
sallow in complexion,
He talked
The couple
and
his
him
to
be
all
he represented himself
in Scraalenberg
returned to their
home
on Saturday, Gertrude
The
much
was
he
alone,
the folding
doors which divide the parlors were open, and Mrs. Dunning,
who was
Keatinge appeared
singularly pale
tions
and
agitated,
and
after
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
"
219
My
deah Miss Edith, I have bad news for you, very bad
news indeed."
Thinking something had happened
if it
to Gertrude, I
asked him
her.
is
"
no
it
if
it
brought
to
against her.
my
deah
child,
how can
bear
it
I break
you
will
woman
you
are."
out, sir, I
Speak
am
listening."
sworn
affidavits of
two
priests,
who
has
New York
you
in their
papers."
if
he was in
his
me seemed
I re-
I don't
understand you,
sir.
No
against
my
sir?"
220
" But,
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
my
clean, don't
if
will per-
jure themselves
They
have
failed
to
assassinate you,
effectual
means
cannot
to silence
fail to
you
is
to blast
do by their perjury.
They
con-
And
is
now,
my
Your only
safety
to leave
As a
you by
literary
man
we
God
reigns,
and
in
Him
I trust
leave this
preposterous.
It is
who
flee
but conscious of
my own
innocence
I have already
who
seek
my
destruction."
my
of the plot, nor the vile things they will publish about you
my
anxiety to ward
it
off to
some ex-
" Sir,
it
me
much
"
in
not understand
why
!
Oh,
my
deah
know
that
it
Catholics I found
Dana
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
and Mr. Beecher of the Christian Union, who have
for publication,
it
221
ready
to
me
the
sworn statements."
is
"
it.
Very
strange, sir
is
but
if
God
"
my
defense."
all.
Now, my
for
I have
more
fear
bad news
will pain
you coming
and which I
to
you most.
I heard that
be
the
well, deah,
when
to
so,
my kuovvledge
made
it
I thought
interest
to
to save you, I
my
business
your danger.
him he ought
honored
to
but,
my
him and
to the
Rev.
stop
I cannot credit
?
all this
who
authorized
you
"
to
go
to Prof.
Auffray
he
is
a stranger to you."
Now
is
my
I
deah
girl
Professor Auf-
fray
know him
you
to be a
French
vil-
to
speak thus of a
man
whom
know
to
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
222
me
to
in-
re-
my
deah
girl
listen to
am
friend,
;
this selfit
Frenchman
and
you of
this
man's perfidy,
to-day,
me
to
come here
his
and
to release
him from
as
engagement, as he
are.
woman
you
He
does not
letters,
wish to see you again, but requests that you return his
portraits, all."
it
never oc-
me
words were
all false
inventions,
and I replied
" Indeed,
all
sir,
am
to
me
to-day
and I
must
self,
make."
!
My
!
deah, he
is
Oh,
if
hesitate one
mo-
ment
"
And
until I
compelled him to
same time
telling
him
In
Oh
no,
my
you
will
you
either
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
write to
223
him or
see
him
Now, deah
girl,
for
your reputa-
sake follow
will
my
advice,
which I
" I
send to him."
am
too
much
astounded, and
need some
"
No,
do
it
now
before I
it."
go.
Be
a true
woman, and
live
without him.
Give
to
me
He went
my
13, 1870.
will not
visit this
morning you
be surprised to
with you.
my
letters
and
portraits,
upon the
Any
fur-
unnecessary.
Respectfully,
Edith
0' Gorman."
it
to
him,
which
my
my
distress,
and
said
"
tears,
to-day to Scraalenberg, to
that
it
my
house.
Do
it
free
was too
Oh,
my
dawling, I wish
were
my
power
224
to
offer
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
you a husband's protection.
My
my
know
her.
that I
am
to
wife
do not love
I never loved a
woman
as
who was
I do love
at-
another such a
Madonna
you
O dawling
it,
Edith
my hand and kissed tempting to kiss my brow. 'I could scarcely credit my senses at
language and action. CD
"
at the
same time
but
'fully
an explanation of his
replied
My
;
deah
child,
I kissed
willing to protect
tell
you with
the secret
and
it is
in the purest
sympathy I
you
love of
my
my
unhappiness
may modify
your own.
all
But deah
I
child, I
would not
the world.
am
my
life.
Oh,
do
not, I pray,
sir
!
misunderstand
me
!"
Leave me now,
I must go to
my God
in prayer, I
am
I knelt
down
in a corner
my bowed
deah
head, he
commenced
this
afflicted child."
When
came over
me God
;
it
seemed
to
me
that a fiend in
with prayer.
to
my
knees, request-
ing
him
go away as I wished
be alone.
Mrs. Dunning,
now made
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
from Keatinge.
225
to save
He
told
me from
friend to
the plotting of
my
enemies, and
if
me
me
to see
Professor Auf-
work of making
call
He
promised
statements.
Keatinge
is false,
is
know every
and I
is
know
so silly as to copy
gagement ?
Don't you
know he
you
to
what
is
to ruin
your reputation."
it all
!"
means
am
mental trouble.
ing,
He came
to see
me
early
Wednesday morn-
and told
me some
dense.
Keatinge went on
Monday evening
to
the Institute
night.
He
never ceased
to slander
me
from eight
Mr. Lewin.
He
told
of the earth
called
22S
I
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
had gone on
my
fessor Auffray
He
tried to
get Pro-
me and
break
off the
engagement
between
with me.
us,
would marry
I
me
was a
true,
pure woman.
I clearly
if
saw
his
fiendish
in his
work out my
destruction
he had succeeded
me
to
go
to his
home
in Scraalenberg. to
come
again.
the interview.
him away
At one
Mrs.
where
Keatinge, with
a diabolical smile,
to greet
me
sir,
"
No
to
my
hand
I have discovered
you
shall
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
227
upon
me
in
in the presence
of Professor
AufFray,
whom you
thank
The only
your own
evil
heart.
God."
He
color,
and made
a stammering
his wife
to say something
and said
says,
"
Your husband
madame,
offer
'
that he
is
me
a husband's protection
he
me
his
'
darling love
he approached me with
penetrated the
fiercely shouted
flesh,
his
hand
so
my
face
he
!"
to
him and
said,
No
Sir,
she
is
not a
liar,
you did
kiss her,
to her, for I to
and
you dare
deny
With
You
are
all
damnable
liars
plotters
."
and wretches.
Come
sir
!
den of
inquisitor."
his clenched
hand
in threatening attitude
my
am
head, he hissed
a
!
Roman
Inquisitor,
and I
damn you
all
and
strip
you of
to the public,"
228
"
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
You
Sir.
He
all
manner
accom-
panied him.
I can only
compare her
to a faithful
dog followMrs.
my
Dunning. Mrs.
I have never
seen him since, but I heard in a few weeks afterward that Dr.
liim
as an impos-
and a humbug.
thing I heard of
is
The next
in Boston,
accompanied
by signing
their
names
to
in the
1870, expressing their satisfaction with " the letters he had in his
possession, with the great seal of the
testifying to his faithfulness,
Eomish Church
attached,
ability."
How-
toward the
Boston Clergy,
his true
full
ac-
count of Keatinge's
J.
falsity to
who
is
When
ton, she
Mrs Dunning's
letter to
Keatinge happened
be in the
office,
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
229
and the ministers charged upon him, with the contents of the
letter.
Humiliated by
this
unforeseen turn of
affairs,
Keat-
ma
of being guilty of
all
manner of
;
crimes,
and indulging
in
he called
me
Very unbecoming
were
revile
To
all
me
am
his bitter
them
but I do
know
his evil
slanders can do
me no
real
harm.
whom
fail to
no credence to be placed
authority that he was
Cliff,
upon
his words.
on the Hud-
son River, so has he also been turned out of the Dutch Re-
formed Church
in Scraalenberg,
N.
J.
He has never
practices
thorough-
ly connected himself as a
Christian Church
Romish Church.
I
He
consummate
body
deceit
upon
all sects.
know
I
not
among what
sure he
religious
at
he
a
will
am
was
some period
Roman
Rome,
"
Once a
priest,
always a priest
is
on a par
230
with, "
order.
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
Once a
rascal always a rascal," according to the other
office
of the Christian
now denounces
1870
was published
in the edition of
November
5th,
An
"
ies
Impostor.
from persons in
New
England, who
felt
themselves ag-
More than
three months
all
an
editorial paragraph.
As we
however, that he
still
We
we
Keatinge
an impostor and
unworthy
of trust.
We
is
The
atten-
New
England papers
ment, as Keatinge seems to be at present carrying on his operations in that section of the country."
The
last I
is,
that he
is
getting sub-
scriptions to the
amount of
paper he
is
now warn
the public
FALSEHOOD UNMASKED.
at Briar
J.,
231
Cliff,
N. Y.,
to
to
Rev. Henry
Ward
who have
suffered
from
his treachery
and falsehood.
I
unmask
this
man from
truth and justice, and not from any petty spirit of vindictiveness, because I harbor
In
my
very soul I
this
pity
him
as
an intelligence
to all truth.
still
is
Although
man may
mend him
revile
to the
as a christian I
com-
Him
in spirit
and
in truth.
CHAPTER XXX.
MY MARRIAGE.
'"'
?.<zk
ye
first
the
all
"ta
Of all human
as
it is
is
the sweetest,
to offer
more charming
Love, when
in
harmony with
the enlightened
and
It
sanctified conscience,
is
is
Paradise regained.
my
My
heart,
wildly
had
ceased to regard the whole sex, nave in the most distrustful and
almost bitter
light.
my
heart,
and
in its secret
enter to disturb
My
heart
selfish sen-
in a word,
my
which was something brighter and nobler than the world had
(232)
MY MARRIAGE.
ever exhibited to me, and I had ceased to think
such.
it
233
possessed
my
ful
in
an ocean
delight-
me
new and
and
human
existence.
and
filled
my path, my heart,
new
beautiful.
his honest
permeating
my
is
being with a
new
life,
new
love, a
happiness.
His
and
His naturally
culture,
and developed
and
scientific at-
Rome,
in
His strong
intellect,
keenly
tem
as the
Romish
makes vows of
yoke
of Rome, with
its
train of evils.
after
which he came
to this country,
He
Sem-
New
New
York,
and
he
is
an assistant
in the
French Epis-
copal Church
is
Du
St. Esprit,
pastor,
and
Twenty-
234
Second
at
St.,
MY MARRIAGE.
New
York.
However, a mind
any form.
home among
which
ritualism in
William AufFray,
first
at
me
the
my
II.
him I was
Jersey City.
Dear
ly
is
readers,
how
beautiful,
how
real,
!
how near
the heaven-
us.
The
I <ord's
is
Church.
The
center and
home
of
wedded
of
life
bliss
love.
is
And how
can
it
he
To
the truest
and tenderest
a living and
controlling piety.
He
is
and
simplicity,
and a Christian
in his
daily
life.
To me he
is
green leaves
anc*
purple
Powerful
and handsome
and gentle
in manners, winis
MY MARRIAGE.
well calculated to
235
tender,
band.
me when
to
he gave
me William
little
guide
my
frail
bark
haven of
rest
of love, I
am
my God
CHAPTEE XXXI.
CONCLUSION.
In the
Roman
Catholic Church,
foot,
Holy Scripture
tradition,
God's
man's
word
trampled under
and
which
is
word, becomes practically and substantially the only and conclusive rule
of faith.
What was
it
that brought
all
wreck upon
its
ancient
to the
grandeur
men
commandments
do
so,
to
contagion to
ecclesiastical
authority,
outward
ritual,
sanctity,
the
law and
the promises.
to
but
to the
in
an
evil
man
commandments of God,
church which
of
the
God
own bosom.
When
?
how
(236)
CONCLUSION.
237
Away
and at
last
he was con-
Most High."
?
crushin
judgment followed
dumb
And why
hewed out
!
broken
hold no water
My dear readers,
national ruin
;
if
and
tor-
to inundate
sacred teachings.
It
is
has no foundation in
sacred volume.
it
If the
Church of
Rome would
The
late
adopt
this
process,
would
IX
to
be
infallible
now stripped
at the change.
This
is
a severe blow
how
precarious
is
the foot-
God works by
238
bility of a diligent
CONCLUSION.
and
faithful use of the
means which
He
has
let us
Let
j>arents in their
truths,
and keep
their children
away from
Catholic influence.
Let
me remind
you,
You have
sanctified,
when
The
On
this
point of free
education, your children cry out to yield not one inch to the
demands of
up your cherished,
prin-
their characpriests,
None
Roman Catholic
;
They
are
making bold
efforts,
bolder, in order to
free-school education.
this
Again,
legislature enact
may be open
now
exist there
crimes.
CONCLUSION.
thrown open
to
their deluded inmates, so that they
life
239
may
re-
in society
Dear
reader,
you beheld me
with
all
girl.
You have
seen
me
sever every
sacrifice
of self-immolation.
with
me
when
fearful temptations
me
in the con-
vent prison.
You have
me
world,
flying in desperation
faint picture of the
persecution,
grief
and heart
struggles
which followed.
At
last
after
and sorrow,
incredible,
you have
re-
my
my
God-born
soul,
and in the
;
to enter
my my happy home
labors
and you
bliss,
of wedded
and partake
panying
in spirit of
my joy.
me
is
my
What
I have related
is,
plain, candid,
which cannot be
11
240
refuted,
CONCLUSION.
and of which the testimony
is
accessible to
all.
I have
remove
evil,
and
felt
in this
have neither
just indignation
may
my
language
my
sufferings.
my
enemies, and
to
all
those
who
so
God
open
may
see
which I
at-
tribute all
my
sharp experience.
readers,
Dear Catholic
you must
all feel in
the
and superstition
to
been developed in
my own
experience
Oh,
how
I yearn to
draw you
Jesus,
all into
where
like
me you
will
be fed at
last
of
life,
sanctified
by the prec-
How
all
be so cruelly
to
your
who minsense
you
at
CONCLUSION.
should impress you with the truth that no mere man,
less
241
much
selfish,
The utmost
a minister can
do
for
you
is
to
counsel,
is
and example
and
this is all
;
There
God
the
Roman
the
notwithstanding
great company of
You have
a right to
and your
for
you
to
yourself: " Search the scriptures, they are they which testify
of me,"
is
The' cunning
Roman
clergy,
results of
it
keep
beyond
its
your reach
teachings;
followers
!
pure
blinded, superstitious
readers, sad
and sorrowful
it
as has
been
my
ex-
otherwise.
now
bless the
me
Dear
readers, I will
now
lay
down my
pen,
resume
it
again
when Providence
directs.
242
hath drawn
CONCLUSION.
me up
my
feet
upon a
rock,
my lips."
was but the
My
Dear
to
Saviour
too,
was
crucified,
And
dying, he forgave.
accompany me
my
God be
accomplished in me.
is entitled,
The History of
in
Auricular Confession
was written
French by a
;
it
was
and
it
was published
re-
spectability,
Her
Majesty.
The work
is full
spect to
Roman
The
relation to moral-
and the part here reprinted, comprises the 4th and 5th chapters of this book, which are derived from
authentic and
official
records.
the develreprinted
oped
fruit
of the papal
system.
They
are
word
for
and the
insertion,
of Latin and
French expressions.
(243)
244
APPENDIX.
DEBAUCHERY AND IRREGULARITIES INTRODUCED BY MEANS OF CONFESSION INTO THE NUNNERIES OF TUSCANY.
It is easy for
priests to seduce,
by the
means of
confession, especially
in the
among
who
live
world
more
so rela-
tively to the
De-
fatal,
according
less
uncommon than
is
sup-
w here
the priests,
and principally
much
influence,
of the people.
is
Most of
what
remain unknown
still
to the
public,
results,
more
positive
ecclesiastics,
authority
the
thinks
impunity
many
causes that
;
prevent
it
from coming
to the
which,
of course, renders
it still
more common.
APPENDIX.
245
said,
We
could
cite,
in support of
and
in
and
we were
et
We
shall, therefore,
remain
satisfied,
known
by the
inves-
made on
this
subject
We
derive
facts,
Ricci,
The monachal
Tuscany by means of
and a
half, the
The
spiritual
practiced
dissipation,
and vicious
habits.
We
find, in
1642, a
24G
petition addressed to the
APPENDIX.
grand duke of that period, and signed
{gonfalonier),
Even
first
this affair
families
to
known by means
of the inquir-
by
that prince, in
tions of
who
Thus they
the nuns
monks used
to eat
whom
The
all
their
money and
life
goods, and
to enrich their
" I
do not
Ricci, " of
which I
He
also
and that
this
The
tells us,
Leopold caused
APPENDIX.
all the
247
nuns
to
those
who performed
It
was discovered
the
that this
monks
in the
We
find, in
women.
and
"
she, " is
direction of the
Franciscan
friars (recollets), or
minor ob-
and in ex;
to the provincial
for
this
monks
will
never
listen to
anything in complaints of
kind .... The nuns are obliged to allow such enormous sins to
be committed,
if
life,
under
them
be
at a time, or with
two
may
trusted,
few years ago, one was found in the convent during the
night,
to turn
This nun
name,
for,
she observes,
it
if
to
the
would be enough
to cause her to
vice.
be
248
It
APPENDIX.
may be
throughout Italy, the Jesuits were not the only monks whose
virtue
had remained
intact,
to
make
Accordingly, an
;
ecclesiastic of
Rome
it
" I
have
letters, that
had been a
know
he used
since they
that this
It appears, moreover,
was a practice
;
for the
some nuns
means
to
them by
Jesus,
their confessors
and
In
this petition
:
we
The monks
often
come
to
meet us
almost
all
the keys
and there
is
there an iron-grating
ciently large,
less
manner."
If,
"
vent, under
in the
them.
All of them,
APPENDIX.
even the provincials,
are,
24$
less,
more or
They
are not
ashamed
to take
we
They
give utterance
to brutal
feeling.
maxims,
They
are
we
are to
happy
in being able to
our inclinations.
is
They say
us.
ended with
They
committed in the
Though we
it
their
Ac-
cordingly,
this, that
Such
as allow themselves
by
every occasion,
gant caprices
sciences
;
and are
gratified
even
in
their
most extrava-
persecution.
us."
precisely
what
is
now
taking place
among
The
among
the
in
was
to confess nuns
made
to
by the
monks
250
APPENDIX.
with them
it is
added
" If they
mon-
the vestry-nuns.
but
it is
avowed
that the
latter
have been
guilty,
with
all
the friars
who were
these duties."
The
by the
letters
which
the
at
Pistoia,
named
To answer
time,
the ques-
and an excellent
memory
and
tilings
shall not
speak of
is
friars
who
are no more.
As
to the others
;
whose conduct
among
any more
among
so
many
is
whom
is
who was
They
all
profess the
conduct
the same.
Their inter-
When
the
monks come
to visit a sick
their
custom to sup
APPENDIX.
251
with nuns, to sing, dance, and play with them, and they sleep
in the convent.
Their
maxim
is
that
God has
forbidden hatred
and not
love.
not only the young and innocent, but even the most circumspect and
knowing
and, without a
The
priests are
and the
lay-
How many
who have
?
also discovered
immor-
never rooted
well acquainted.
spire
They lacked
to in-
some confidence
in the nuns,
whom
the
monks make
be-
who
reveal
what
speak from
ill-will.
God is my witness that I do not The monks have never done anything to
;
me
ing, that no
order of
men
is
would
they.
Though
tain, in
employ
to
description."
She says
him
within me,"
He
"
Must I
tell
you plainly ?
You
252
are a precious simpleton.
APPENDIX.
Follow
my
;
advice.
Only
try,
and
you
will
soon thank
me
for
my
lessons
will cease."
Whenever
this
When
the
to
assist
the sick
any pretence,
into the
They came
every day to the grate, and never spoke to us but in disgusting language, revealing to us the confessions they had heard/"
&c, &c.
"
There
exists
is,
choose a husband
among
the
scarcely
made
their vows."
What
is
affair
of the convents,
their female
compan-
nay,
;
to the vilest
The
facts
we
relate
probrium
tions
recoils
to such revela-
by
and
practices
It
likely to
is
nocence.
by concealing
public,
knowledge of the
provoke instead
The example
is
allowing
APPENDIX.
it
253
inflict
to
have
its full
it
upon
it
publicly
the punishment
as
it is
a chastisement the
more necessary
very
difficult to
The
who
inhab-
ited the
cording to the orders of Leopold, and was composed of a commission appointed by Bishop Ricci.
It
was written
entirely
by
the
Palli,
the female
convent, to the
sisters,
number of
fifteen
and
five boarders.
We
will not
mention the
irreligion,
monks
are ac-
and the
had endeavored
actions.
to corrupt the
nuns
More than
own
Sister Spighi
Portuguese Jesuit.
whom was
still
novice.
They used
to say to
that they
had learned
which
254
wretched nuns
;
APPENDIX.
they
made use of
(For the sake of decency, and in order not to shock the reader,
we beg
It
to
this interrogatory.)
is difficult
who
monks may be
carried, or to conceive
how such
Even
They
to light
far
by a virtuous
were seen
to
inable practices
and prosecuting
put an end
to
mystery of
have
these
of
The
obstinate resistance
made by
wretched nuns
life,
was owing
the monks,
and
They used
that, if they
and several of
them were
so
TVe
find
among
nun who
far the
"
Who
how
or
APPENDIX.
255
how many
resist
artifices,
;
of
all
every event
What
PreI
Every time
make
munion, in order
stating that
to oblige
we
here
is
orderly,
my
astonishment.
Have
not the
medium
of confession to
discover what
we had
Not
satisfied
managed
all the
to
this is
what we
find
express
"
Most of
effects,
of
all their
money and
life,
very necessaries of
But what
is
Rome,
means
it
had
in its power,
all
the de-
As
late as
1774, Bishop
"
Almost
all
the nuns
and bru-
The memorial
who complained
of
25 G
APPENDIX.
to the
had recourse
;
their
own
order
word of
consolation,
He
Pope Pius
which he
of the
Dominicans.
He
ex-
"
When
all
it is
enter into
communicated
them
to you,
would
fill
The
much
Duke
to put
an end
to
this
Rome.
The monks,
by
letter,
or through the
medium
of secret emissaries,
that, if
APPENDIX.
257
One
have read
to
young females
in convents, to
work
their
minds
find
and fanaticism.
We
in a letter
to conversations,
by
which they gradually led the nuns astray, either during confession, or in
the visits they paid them, even to the most imto practices the
moral
ideas,
and thence
most criminal. In
short,
we
monks tended
to
corrupt the
We
the
Jesus,
of
right to
make
what kind of
supersti-
may
when
endeav-
ages invented most contrary to the true sentiments and genuine principles of religion.
to the
258
APPENDIX.
him
"
Here
nun Buonaby a
t
The
engravings, here
She was so fond of them, and kept them wore them about
her.
so carefully,
that she
I will not
tell
your lordship
The
facts related in
this
We
to
among
the
who belonged
Tuscany.
This
and
what
It
is
is
worse
of
Jesuitism.
it is
be introduced at the present day into female contrue, the influence of the
have not yet attained the necessary degree of power for such
crimes to be committed with impunity, should they happen to
be discovered.
But
it is
from
this
APPENDIX.
dividuals than to the whole
259
society.
body of
For,
how can
we have
?
Moreover, the
facts
lately
transpired in
we have
although the clergy have lost their ancient privileges, notwithstanding the abolition of special and secret jurisdictions, and a
greater freedom of the press
is
;
and
that, as
not destroyed,
its effects
outrages
it is
solemn a manner.
fact,
related
by
1844:
girls.
He
ap-
avowed the
principal fact,
still
In accordtri-
Con-
years-.
260
APPENDIX.
'
We
work
so.
;
It
and
revolting descriptions
especially at a
institutions
making
to cause
public
oppose a barrier to
this
vade everything.
this confusion of
We
must
at length
against
power of a foreign
domination.
We
facts
we
were carried
when
name
of the
whom we
have received
them.
We
happened
in a
small district, and in a rather short space of time, what are the
immoral
results
monks.
APPENDIX.
of exceptions,
the
261
we
find
among
same
same morals.
We
have reason
to
we have
derived at
land of monachism.
The
cated
We
What
were possible
to
make them
acquaint-
ed with the
countries
quiries
facts,
!
facts
Here then
is
phemy,
witchcraft,
covenants, and
commerce with
the devil,
philtres to
A woman, thirty-seven
the wife of a
named Bartolommea,
had a very
man named
woman.
262
APPENDIX.
relates,
She
vent, habitually
made use
of licentious expressions to
women.
A nun, named
sion,
by
named Fortunato.
He
began with
used to
call
nun
and he
her his
little
sister in
We
see,
to
what a
state
seclusion
This
that,
that time,
recommending herself
to the
may be
Seeing that the prayers to the Virgin did not succeed, she
applied to the devil, saying
:
Diavolo,
fammi
to
all
venire qualche
The
devil
harkened
her prayers.
But
we
will
the things of
which
tion,
this
APrENDIX.
and the reveries of
2fi:
t,on
knavery of the persons manner that I could not selves towards her in a
offending propriety.
by the an imagination led astray them about her, and who conducted
relate without
years of age, declares that the Margaret Monti, twenty-two priest her in the confessional. This priest Turrini had tempted answered the 22d of June, 1791, having been questioned, on
convent of Saint had been a confessor in the confeshe had made overtures in the for three years, and that Fantini; that he to Sister Gertrude sional, by word and deed,
that he
Sebastian
the grating of the confessional, had often kissed her through her to commit shameful actions. and that he had commanded
He
a
woman
used licentious language to accused himself also of having she came to con named Ottavio Paolucci, every time
fess to
week or fortnight ; that he him, which happened every and him by calling her endearing names, solicited her to love
the grating of the confessional by kissing her through and after confession took place before, during,
all this
and
;
and,
;
He
had
behaved
in the
same way
to another
garet Monti.
A maid,
that her
Mattioli, declares aged thirty-three, named Giulia aged forty-five, had asked confessor, Felice, a monk,
her
(Here
follow, in the
original, &
such a nature, that more than twenty depositions of them in any language.) we would not dare to publish more abominable facts of the same We suppress several far
kind,
12
264
sition
5
APPENDIX.
being unwilling to detain the reader any longer in
this
which
may
result
evils
to
cation
These examples,
many
principles of Jesuitism.
ROMANISM AS
IT IS:
By REV.
SAMUEL W. BARNUM,
Illustrated with
Five
Beautiful
Engravings.
It is an exhaustive and This book is eminently a book for the times. standard work of the highest authority. Its facts are fully supported by credible testimony; its statistics are the best attainable; and its arguments are such as are actually used by those who deal with the living questions of
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Much
It
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standards of the
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Roman
entirely
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-
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fully
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the
proves
its
public schools,
never-ceasing hostility to civil and religious liberty, its opposition to its enslavement of the consciences of its subjects, its appropri-
powers of body and mind to its own its barbarous attempts to crush and exterminate, wherever it has had the power, all who refused to submit to Popish dictation; its destruction of the lives of millions by imprisonment, tor-
and
their
aggrandizement.
It
describes faithfully
work
and other modes of fiendish persecution. are treated with so much accuracy and thorough-
only
and so amply illustrated by authentic first-class engravings, as to make the one book which the American people now need on this great subit not It comes home with its principles and facts to every man's door tells him what the Roman Catholics are doing, and aiming to do in this
;
it shows their operations and influence in every state, and and clearly indicates the strong tendencies of their manifold and insidious influences to subvert our free institutions, and ere long place this country under full Popish tyranny. The author of this book is a well-known Protestant writer and scholar, who has for a long time made the subject, in all its bearings, his special study, and who tells plainly what he knows and can substantiate by abundant proofs. This book, therefore, Is without a rival in the extent and trustworthiness of its thorough adaptaits information on the whole subject of Romanism, and in
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tion to the
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topics of this
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1 Rise and Growth of the Pope's Power, Spiritual and Temporal. 2 Private and Public Life of Pope Pius IX. 3 The Cardinals, Who and What are They? 4 Cardinal Antonelli Described. 5 The Council of Trent, and its Important Work. 6 The Vatican Council of 1869-70 Particularly Described. 7 The Comments of the New York Tribune and Catholic World on said Council. 8 Celibacy of the Clergy. 9 Interesting Account of the Consecration of Three Bishops in New York. 10 Eise and Progress of Monasticism. 11 Cases of Forcible Detention in Convents. 12 Persons Become Nuns. 13 Edith 0' Gorman and other Escaped Nuns. 14 Character and Influence of Convents and Convent-Life. 15 Particular Account of the Jesuits in Europe and America. 16 History and Description of the Inquisition, its Tortures, &c. 17 The Inquisition Kept Up and Defended in the Nineteenth Century. 18 Roman Catholics Excommunicate all Members of Secret Societies, as Fenians Free Masons, Odd Fellows, Sons of Temperance, &c. 19 Recent Persecutions by Roman Catholic Authorities. 20 Position of Romanists in Regard to the Bible. 21 Romish Policy Respecting Education in this Country. 22 School-Controversies in Cincinnati, Boston, and New York. 23 How Priests Control some Public Schools in Connecticut. 24 Rev. B. G. Northrop's Plea for an Unsectarian School-System. 25 Rev. Henry Ward Beecher on the Romish Plan of Education. 26 Romish Immorality in Europe and America. 27 The Catholic Publication Society's Tract, "Is It Honest?"
Why
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37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47
48
The Mass Fully Described and Emblematically Illustrated. Honors Paid to the Virgin Mary, Joseph, and other Saints.
49 50 51 52 53 54
View of the Homage to Saints, Relics, Pictures, &c. Churches and Cathedrals in Europe and America, Illustrated. The Bishop's Ownership and Control of Church-Property. How Money is Raised and Managed in the Roman Catholic Church. Romish and Protestant Views of the Right of Private Judgment. Power Assumed and Used by Popes, Bishops, Priests, &c. Protestant View of the Moral Influence of Romanism. Hostility of Romanism to Libertv in Europe and America. Instances of Mob- Violence in Canada, the New York Riots, &c. Influence of the Romish Church in this Country and Elsewhere. Great Increase of Romanists in the United States since 1790. How? Rise, Progress, and Persecutions of Christianity. Rome under the Popes from 1278 to 1870. Panorama and Description of Modern Rome. St. Peter's, with a Fine View of its Interior. St. John Lateran, and other Principal Churches of Rome. Palaces of Rome, the Vatican, Quirinal, &c. Other Remarkable Objects in the City. Rome's Industry, Population, and Condition under Papal Ride. Protestant View of the Roman Catholic Church and System. Cardinal Wiseman's Account of the Roman Catholic Church. The Newly-Defined Doctrine of the Immaculate Conception. Vatican Decree of the Pope's Supremacy and Infallibility. Was Peter at Rome and Bishop there ? The Crusades and the Canon Law.
Protestant
55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67
,
68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81
82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89
Gregory VII, and other Noted Popes of the Past. The Popes of the Nineteenth Century Particularly Described. List of the Popes from Peter (?) to Pius IX. The Pope's Allocutions, Bulls, Briefs, Encyclical Letters, &c. The Roman Court, its Officers, Congregations, &c. The Twenty, or more, Ecumenical Councils of the Roman Catholics. Quarrels about the Supremacy of Popes or Councils. The Seven Orders of the Clergy, their Duties, &c. The Five Degrees of the Priesthood up to the Pope. Occupation of Rome by the Italians in 1870. Excommunication of the King of Italy, &c, by the Pope. Addi-ess of New York Catholics to the Pope, Decembei-, 1870. Resolutions and Address to the Government and People of Italy, from the Meeting at the New York Academy of Music, January 13th, 1871. The Various Articles of Clerical Dress Fully Described. Theological Education and Seminaries in the United States, &c. Oath ot Conformity and Obedience of Beneficed Priests, Professors, &c. Bishops, How Appointed in the United States, Their Oath and Power. Statistics of Romish Priests and Theological Seminaries in the United States. Names of the Archbishops, Bishops, &c, in the United States. Whole Number of Bishops, &c, in the World. Description of the Fifty or Sixty Sorts of Monks Nuns,&c.,in the United States.
Convents suppressed in Various Countries of Europe. Attempts to Regulate or Reform the Religious Orders. Ceremony of Reception among the Sisters of Mercy. Roman Catholic Missions in Asia, Africa, and America. College of the Propaganda, Leopold Association, &c. Roman Catholic and Protestant Missions Compared. An Auto da Fe Illustrated and Described. The Fourth Lateran Council's Canon on Persecution still a Law. Crusade Against the Albigenses of France. Massacres of the Waldenses Described and Illustrated. Graphic Account of the St. Bartholomew Massacre. Differences in Persecution by Romanists and Protestants. Opposition and Hatred Towards the "Protestant" Bible. The Vulgate and Douay Versions Described. The Douay Bible and Notes Compared with the English Bible. Bible-Burning in the United States and Other Countries. The Missal, Breviary, and Other Service-Books. Matins, Lauds, Vespers, and other " Canonical Hours." The Seven Sacraments. Baptism, Confirmation, and Extreme Unction Explained. Regulations Respecting Matrimony, and Form of Marriage. Description of a Procession with the Host in Antwerp. Church Terms and Articles Defined and Illustrated. The Rosary Described and Illustrated. The Carnival, Lent, Easter, and other Festivals, Fasts, &c.
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Alleged Advantages and Known Perils of Confession. Penance, Satisfaction, Mortal and Venial Sins. Excommunication in its Three Forms, and Absolution From It. Doctrine of Purgatory, and the Use Made of It. The Council of Trent on Indulgences, with Explanations. Four Specimens of Indulgences, granted in 1517, 1843, 1854, and 1862. Protestant View of the Theory and Practice of Indulgences. The St. Louis Church in Buffalo and Bishop Timon. 111 Legislation in New York, &c, Respecting Church-Property.
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pases of Galileo, Lamennais, Hyacinthe, Farrell, Dollinger, &c. Gallican Views of the Pope's Prerogatives Condemned. Does Romanism Favor General Intelligence and Prosperity? Comparative Prosperity of Romish and Protestant Countries. Romish Periodicals, Bookstores, and Publications in the United States. General Character of Irish Catholic Laborers. Liquefaction of St. Januarius's Blood, and other Miracles ( '?). Losses in the United States by Conversions to Protestantism, &c. Gains in England and Scotland, and Losses in Ireland. Losses on the Continent of Europe, in Mexico, Canada, &c. Loss of Power in the World. Full Statistics of the World, from Romish and Protestant Authorities.
What we Conclude after Hearing Both Sides. Elements of Strength and of Weakness in the Romish System. Duties and Encouragements of American Protestants.
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Cardinal in Full Dress. Authentic Full-page Engraving of a Bishop Taking the Oath. of the Archbishops of Baltimore and New York. Seven Engravings of Monks and Nuns. Passionist Monastery, opposite New York. University, and Two female Seminaries in the United States. Four Engravings of Different Modes of Martyrdom. An Authentic Copy of the Celebrated Bartholomew Medal, bought at the Pope's Mint twenty-five or thirty years ago. Thirty-six Illustrations of the Service of the Mass. Nearly Thirty Illustrations of Sacred Utensils and Articles, as the Bishop's Crosier, Chalice, Ciborium, Font, Ostensory, Pyx, Rosary, Scapular, Processional Cross, Image of Christ on St. Veronica's Handkerchief, &c, &c. A Correct Representation of a Confessional. Four Engravings Illustrating an Indulgence granted in 1843. Two Fine Engravings of Roman Catholic Churches in this Country.
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The
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Jesuits.
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IX.
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XII.
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XL The
The
Holy
Office of Inquisition.
Persecutions.
Bible.
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XV.
XVI.
XVII.
XVIII.
Churchly and Devotional Exercises, Articles, and Terms. Honors paid to Saints, Relics, Pictures, Images, &c. Holy Days. Confession and the Confessional. Offences and Penalties.
Indulgences.
XIX.
XX.
XXI.
XXII.
XXIII.
Church
Edifices.
XXIV.
Church-Property and Revenues. Denial of the Right of Private Judgment. Assumption and Exercise of Temporal Power. Educational Policy in the United States.
Relation of the System to General Intelligence and Prosperity.
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XXIX.
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