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TIBETAN
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LIFE STORIES
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Lamas
Biography.
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Spiritual life
Buddhism.
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BOOK DESIGN
DEBORAH KI-RNER
This book
is
dedicated to
and
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
these pages,
am indebted to my editor at Riverhead Books, Amy Hertz, for inviting me to take this journey; and to my friend and agent, Jill Kneerim, for encouraging me to believe could. My thanks, too, to those who helped point
I
the way:
owe
a special
"Jiilley" to Bill
and Adrienne
in
Ladakh; to
Lama
Rigzen
for his
dedicated translations; to
his family
Little) for
many
for
kindnesses.
Thanks
me
in
Ladakh and
many of the
Rinpoche's photograph,
I
am
Wandrak
for his
and
me
to Tsering
Choedon, whose
excellent
translations
Tethong, secretary to His Holiness the Dalai Lama, was most helpful in
arranging
my memorable
elders to interview
Jampa Kelsang,
am
grateful to
down
my travel to India.
ing transcriptions
and
editorial assistance,
with their help, as well as an enduring friendship. Both Lisa Leghorn and
Chokyi, of the
Wangdu,
the
monk-student
UCLA,
translated
of
more
difficult tapes.
Thanks
cheering
to
Adam Rodman
Adams
and to Anne
for
me
on; to Julia
warm
me
to
sane;
for his
I
me
some precious
which
am
Snow Lion
my
me
to
Salome Hangartner
in Zurich,
who
in
when
necessary, translaassis-
am
grateful to Jaqueline
Moulton
tance during
my
stav in Switzerland.
A C A
A"
Ur L
E D G
T S
owe
a special
to the staff,
who made
difficult.
am grateful
to Jeremy Rus-
in
Dharamsala,
for
permitting
And
on
my
lap as
write this,
my
who
let
me
have
As always,
Johnson
am
grateful to
Mark Robinson;
Bill
to Billy
and Anthony
Johnson for allowing me to my heart; to Wendy Johnson for her unending inspiration and encouragement; and to my mother, who has grown with me during the writing of this book.
for their
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
CONTENTS
FOREWORD
INTRODUCTION
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FOREWORD
Almost all the people who tell their stories in this book were,
like myself,
born
in Tibet.
Many
homeland
its
par-
ticular character.
The high
altitude
life difficult.
But on the other hand, food was plentiful and nutritious, and the water
little
and
air
were
clear.
The
soaring mountains
and
vast rolling
and freedom.
We
who
human
rise to
contentment, with
afflict
the lives of
many of our
Of
more
to
life
in Tibet
beautiful landscape.
Wherever we
live in
and whether we
and
free
From
these
we have
inner peace.
The
turbing emotions such as anger and attachment, fear and suspicion, while
love
The Chinese
More than
its
a million
buildings, literature,
its
and
artifacts,
has
largely destroyed in
living hold-
And
into the
freedom
of exile have
more,
both
in
Tibet and in
exile,
will
be
free
Throughout the
treasure has
last three
and
much
that Tibetans
been
lost.
Nevertheless, there
a positive side
even to such a
to the test.
I
Even
feel
I
though
my
life
as a refugee,
The author
ders," not
refers to the
is
"el-
because there
cause of the experiences they have acquired and the examples they set for
those
who
follow.
new
many
in
way
of
life,
both
as
it
was practiced
Tibet and as
I
it
believe there
medical
FOREWORD
of this
lives,
book
and hope
in
it
own
also
may be prompted
His Holiness
nfLyr V.
November 27, 1995
FOREWORD
The Book of
TIBETAN ELDERS
INTRODUCTION
In 1990
baffle
had an experience
me.
I'd
been working on an
historical
a point
was
My
resistance
crisis
when
it
bedroom
of
my New York
I
City
apartment.
Out
was
al-
not to learn the reason for that incident for some time,
though
in the
months
that followed
How
it
happened remains
I
Soon afterward,
to elders,
traveled to Native
in their
American
reservations to speak
who
told
me
own
own wounded
hundred
years ago.
came
man whose
had appeared
bedroom
my apartment.
I
The
stories
heard so captivated
my heart
that they
became the
fo-
of Elders:
The
Life Stories
By then I was
living in
many people
who
Lama came
to
New Mexico
meet with
tribal leaders
visit,
part of his
marked the
The purpose
Hopi
view that
spiritual leader
me
in
an
inter-
if
you dropped
it
plumb
line
the cen-
Lhasa in Tibet.
in
And
curiously, he'd
for
sun and
moon
are the
same but
are similar.
The Hopi
modern one,
"When
flies,
the
who have
lost their
will
land
will appear,
and the
Buddhism
eagle
flies
be scattered
over the earth and the dharma will go to the land of the red man."
Intrigued,
I
managed
to gain an invitation to a
meeting
at the
mod-
ern concrete
gymnasium
lama would be
ball
A platform had been erected between basketnets and scoreboards. A Tibetan national flag hung over the dais, and
speaking.
flags fluttered
filled
from the
rafters.
American teachers
front of
them on
up
their
gear along the walls, notebooks and jackets piled at their feet.
The
Dalai
Lama and
The
solemn, their arms held loosely in their robes, their sandaled feet moving
silentlv
down
Lama wore an
irrefig-
pressible smile.
ures,
but of a
man who
The
performance of
planting
when he
returns to Tibet), a
a smile as childlike
orsilk
Navajo blanket,
as theirs,
and
a bracelet.
I
With
His Holiness
Lama,
recipient of the
Nobel
Peace Prize in 1989 for his opposition to the use of violence as a means to
free his
homeland from
its
determination.
He
most important,
similarities
SANDY JOHNSON
Lama
ancestors
Central Asia."
The
in this
ters."
It
"What happened
to us
sis-
country
happening now
in Tibet to
a shawl covering
his
lift.
shaven head, was taken to the top of the Santa Fe Ski Basin on a chair
On the way up he smiled and waved to surprised skiers, and at the top
at the
he stood looking
local paper,
he said
wistfully, "It
reminds
me
of
uscript
similar
came from my
elders.
She asked
would
like to
do
book on Tibetan
I
"But
don't
culture,"
said.
"What
did you
my editor.
but
I
was
flattered,
it
take a person a
Buddhism?
the key
el-
How would
talk to
go about learning
who
ders are,
me? And
hashed
this over
I
with
once
got started
would have no
I
She had
several ideas
about
in turn
would
direct
me
sig-
From
nificant
the time
my home,
number
by the
many
friends
who were
I
traditions,
talked about
would
We marveled at
coral,
the resemblances: the small stature of the people, their cheekbones, dark
copper
skin,
braids. Their
ornaments of turquoise,
and
silver
found
a large
shopping bag on
my
doorstep,
it."
"Do
who
mystical
kingdom
a place
of peace;
its
of ex-
alted
wisdom and
Some
own
within
themselves.
The myth
on
their
own
strength, rise
up
Lama
If
Tibet
lost,
who
will carry
on the ancient
traditions?
and
Insight,
and marveled
SANDY JOHNSON
greatness:
If
a tradition could
it
it
must be
valuable;
must be
preserved.
who
survived
fled to India;
people
own
the tradition and teachings had existed for twelve hundred vears.
felt
stories
and
their
wisdom.
New York,
fornia,
Tibetan
elder, a
teacher,
My journey,
it
my own backyard.
in
his lovely
rustic
house
perched high on
Basin.
slight,
slender
man
of indeterminable age
fine-featured, with
brown almond-shaped
and
I
a captivating
manner
is
he
welcomed me with
a smile
whose warmth,
would
learn,
it.
universal
We
room, with
its
many of them
wrapped
and -embroidered
he explained,
is
in brilliant colors,
hung next
art
a traditional
Tibetan
The
figures depicted
on
it
He
softly
and spoke
and patiently
simple language
mv
stand.
drawn perhaps,
as
told
him I wanted
to
who
buddhahood, the
spirituality
Where
found
come from?
He
explained:
"Buddhism
in a creator
is
not
and
creation.
Buddhism
a class
life
by
itself,
way
of
complete process of
human
and
transformation. As such,
Buddhism espouses
and
reality. Its ra-
individual responsibility
tional
lems
cultivating
and perfecting
this
of Buddhist practice.
"Wisdom
mean
is
not true
is,
human
misery
is,
of things.
"The
Our
that
Wisdom
mind
can actually
the senses
by means
of meditation
beyond what
listen
show us and
continued to
"The
original
dharma
principles
SANDY JOHNSON
from the
moment he
first
saw these
sufferings.
You
are born,
is
every minute, then you get sick, and finally you die. This
ordinary
life.
sufferings.
"Buddha gave up
was a prince),
left
the king-
mendicant
in search of truth.
we don't need
it is
own
existence."
In
the summer
of 1994,
set
actly halfway
as far as
back
not
as a
as a journalist.
did not
know
if I
would
uncover any great truths or would come back with the knowledge that the
answers to suffering do indeed
my own existence. In time, though, meetings with the men and women of Tilie in
I
and to
each of the
As
had
for
I
my previous book,
how I would
less to
define "elder."
had
do
it
of
embody
the teachings.
LITTLE TIBET
Though
to begin there.
so
many
thought
had
to get
could
put "housewife" as
would not
a tape
I
even without
is
for fear of
once
sadly, "is
no more.
it
It will
So what
Tibet
really? Is
is it
piece of land, or
people, and
I
culture?
If it is
the
believe
it is,
then Tibet
I
are."
He and
which
first
where many Tibetans have settled during the Chinese occupation, and
is
and
culturally. Situated
high in
it is
the last
see
something of what Tibet had been before the Chinese invaded. Alas
most
off
is
reachable by a
main route
it
that
is
closed
by snow
months
its
on
the border where India meets China and Pakistan, Ladakh had been
closed to outsiders from the end of
World War
Ladakh.
II
until 1974.
Only
since
Buddhism came
bet
to
it
three
is
and these
country
writer friend
traveler,
Betty Fussell,
I
promised to join
me
would begin
its
my
particular
buddha.
the lotus,
is
Our task is
uncover our true nature. Vajravana abounds with methods and techniques
for
mud
crystal.
The
goal
is
to
It is like
imagining that we
all
could
become
Christ.
I
From Ladakh
in
northern India,
would go on
to Dharamsala, the
where
might
itself
as a tourist.
flew
mv
lives.
me
was ad-
carried a
10
port,
me
stern look
said,
would.
From
there
my
middle son,
Billy, lives.
We
spent the day shopping for last-minute gear, and after a farewell dinner
he took
a lens
me
my
night
flight.
As we unloaded
my
bags,
of
its
at
my glasses, as if propelled by some awful force my feet. Billy looked at me in dismay. How
journey alone
could
possibly
make
this
when
all
I
of
whom
are, of course, a
than
since
I.
became
single,
suppose,
my bout
sister.
me
like a
worrisome
younger
Mark, the
eldest, swears
my destination,
I
memoI
hung
When
was
in
was
like
upper
I
sky,
not
known
I
my peripatetic life, wondered how had told me was like the robin. Would my
on
I
if
he
coming
for
Sun-
day dinner to the house where they had grown up, instead of seeing
at airports
me off
dug
on Ti-
read, the
more ap-
became. In
spirit
Americans
call
on ancestors
in the
in the
Buddha
form of
in the hills
on
vi-
SANDY JOHNSON
11
men
seal
Lobsang Lhalungpa had pointed out, both cultures revere the earth and
all its
creatures.
The
teachings
the Way,
called
Dharma by Buddhists
are
refer to as the
Red Road.
similarities
beliefs.
Buddhism
is
humane.
It
a universal concern
"For instance,
when
the
Buddha was
alive,
monks
and
Even now,
branches or pick flowers. This strong sense of respect for the natural world
is
just a collection
ele-
Each
tree,
ment
a tree,
tree,
but
its spirit
as well."
To
Chi-
and
six-vear-olds, taking
them
away from
their parents,
to China, just as
American
12
six
"If
this
karma," Lobsang
said, "it
is
very bad
It
rise
seemed like
days after
my
Did
twice?
that
my flight to
all
Ladakh.
the faxes I'd been receiving from the travel agency were addressed to "Mr.
me in a chauffeur-driven car to a hotel an hour's ride from the airport. glanced up at the clock as registered. "What time's my flight
I
Ladakh?"
asked Kushor.
in at the airport at six,
madam," he
said pleasantly.
"Yes,
madam."
madam.
you
at five."
He bowed. "Have
and
I
good
had
just
enough time
call
lie
on the bed
thought back to
another
cation;
trip
had taken
was with
friends;
we were on
va-
we
I
caviar sand-
wiches.
flirted
Rolls
Royce met us
at the airport in
wondered
I
if it
all
was certainly
now.
The money
save
on
road.
SANDY JOHNSON
to
Ladakh
all
travel.
A ticket
on India
Airlines (otherwise
is it
known
Nor
guaranteed
week
into
Ladakh.) Taking just a short hop, only thirty minutes, the plane
rectly over the
flies diis
airfield
on
a plateau that
and
takeoffs can
be made
if
single runway,
uphill,
the
So the bewildered
traveler sits
of the
means
was
stale.
mothers'
saris wailed.
People dozed
fitfully,
aisles. Periodically,
Once
to Ladakh,
or twice
approached the
ticket
flight
accompanied by
ther questions.
end
to fur-
A lovely
woman
smiled back.
dry.
I
"It's a girl,
but they
let
me
My
to
mouth went
Finally, a
young
and
sat
Our
flight
was
is
and we lined up
Because Ladakh
14
Bat-
for
side
on the tarmac
prior to boarding or
it
plane.
The
seat for
aircraft
I
window
It
what
first
had been
was
mv
stared, breathless, as
we skimmed
looked
down
as
we
and
realized
why
so few pi-
on
Sand-
The
The
air is
first
thing
noticed as
light.
and the
seemed
to shimmer.
to
drivers asked
me
where
gave the
name
I
my hotel, Hotel Stok. Frowning, they shook searched my bag to produce a letter with the hoof
flight.
I
name on
r
it.
My
on the
was alone
found the
letter
and showed
it
to the
one remaining
"Oh, Stok."
"But that's what
"No, no," he
I've
been
said.
"Not
'Stahk.' 'Stok'
SANDY JOHNSON
The
is
fifteen miles
from
of
meadows
of dizzying green
I
wheat and
barley.
if
leaned forward in
my
seat
and
rain.
The
I
driver looked
sat
up
at the
and
said,
"No,
don't think
so. It
looks nice."
back
in
my seat. We
came
hundreds of prayer
is
flags,
is
which crossed a
the Indus River."
fast-flowing
"What
river
this?"
asked. "This
The
and
Indus, I'd read, originates near the holy site of Mt. Kailash in Tibet
is
this
seems possible on
earth.
in bright red dotted the
I
was excited by
what
it
out to the
driver.
He shook
his
hair, a
and
said,
"There
with
all
is
yak."
The
American
tribes
and
and
for boots
fuel.
for
stocked supermarkets.
A
down
The
driver
pounded
out of the window, and yelled at them, then nudged them with his
bumper
Finally,
we turned
same
is
a larger
version of the
to take
side
I
architecture
I
had been
seeing.
Two
my luggage;
staircase.
followed
them
wooden
My luggage
had gone.
it
means
to
be
a stranger in a very
wanted to
cry
"Tell
me you're
Bill Kite;
you have to be
Bill
Kite."
me
up the
he
stairs to
said. "You'll
knock
at the
door
announcing dinner
me, and
slept
till
After breakfast
his sheep, stick in
set
in the other,
which he spun
He
at the waist
with a bright-colored sash. His broad smile creased his weathered, nut-
brown
face,
and he
cried, "Julley!"
is
a greeting that
means
Hello,
Wel-
called out
a song.
Bordering the road was a long mani wall, piled up stone by stone by
those
who wished
to earn merit.
is
"Om
mantra of Tibet's
A garden with
astonished
marigolds
taller
than
me.
wall
An
oversized magpie,
and
its
felt as if
were
dreaming, walking through some otherworldly place where the stones and
flowers
and birds
are
air is so
think
it
prayers carfly-
SANDY JOHNSON
In
the afternoon,
Bill
and
his wife,
Adrienne, took
me into the
town
hotel.
of Leh.
The
uncle's
I
told
me,
is
Sitting
Angdu.
"Sitting, as in SitI
ting Bull?"
asked. "No."
He
spelled
is
it
out: "T-s-e-r-i-n-g."
shook
I
my
head.
noticed a
grabbed
for
my camera. My
is if
had
he explained.
sort of
charm,
its
one main
all
competing with
cars
and cows
laid
Women
sit
on curbs,
their fruits
and vegetables
out
beside
them on
run alleyways, warrens crowded with shops selling cheap sweaters, trinkets,
backpacks, bottled water, cigarettes, batteries, alarm clocks.
Bill
wanted
me
to
Ladakhi
Bill felt
monk
working on
excel-
his doctorate
would be an
town
to a three-story house,
monks
live.
Lama
man
for
in
the
That evening we
and
I
home to meet
Bill,
Adrienne,
THE BOOK OF
B E TA S
ELDERS
before on
my morning
walk.
large
and seemed
rich
comfol-
We
a large parlor,
We were
presented to each in
When
who resembled my
style.
sons,
my hand, Western
salt,
cups with
lids. Bill
stopped
me
as
cup to
my
The
tea
is
a staple in Tibet
took a few
sips, a
young
I
girl
it
im-
mediately
refilled
set
down
on the
drinks until
the teapot
empty."
Jigmet, the young king, spoke perfect English with only a trace of an
accent, while his
mother and
his
grandmother
not un-
manner
me
that this
is
a patriarchal society.
We took a shortcut through a field on our way home. Dusk, the grass
silvery
Above us the
the sun's
sky turned
mauve,
few
last of
me
the royal
now
still
without
its
SANDY JOHNSON
19
There was
let
hamRin-
Lama Duwang
poche, a great master from the Drikung Kagyu lineage, would attend.
Lama Rigzen
told
me
lama
is
man
of extraordinary powers.
His
name
(Meditator).
he
off in a cave,
of
He remained
in his
mountainside
cave
India.
the
festival.
He
couldn't promise an
do
Angdu
picked
me up just after a
and
dhal.
wondered
I
if it
that
made
I
asked seemed to
know
dragged
me
first
He
and
said
Lama Duwang's
prac-
SANDY JOHNSON
tices
Duwang
Rintrue.
When
he finished
his refuge,
he went to
teach. In this place was a stupa with a very old, broken prayer wheel that
As soon
as
Rinpoche
arrived, the
The
old
lama
minder of the
Then suddenly we
could
see.
But
for the
or,
tow-
for that
matter,
New Mexico. An
flowers defied the sand; overhead was the cloudless, impossibly blue
We turned onto another dirt road that led past a series of chortens to
the monastery. Built in the sixteenth century, the multitiered white-
washed complex
dieval palace.
sits
We
climbed endless
main prayer
hall,
moving our
shoes,
we entered
the darkened
hall, so
mo-
ment
in the
At the
far
end
more enorand
sitting,
mous
gold-painted
Buddha
2 2
fill
deities
were
in
We
Buddhas
representing the
On
five
branches of
buddha-nature
and
one
many
manifestations.
entering each of
the chapels
to walk clockwise
around the
be used
for the
Down on
dress
ceremonial
for the
and dozens
jostled
in front of cameras,
I
Adults too
monks
for
spotted
him
talking
and laughing
in the
mid-
seemed
to
He jumped over a
me laugh.
of the
"You
see,
I'm a monkey-monk!"
He
took
me
which had
good view
The
area
took
but also
number
of
hippies turned up, frozen in time from the sixties, in sandals, amulets at
their necks. Village
peraks, perched precariously atop long rich braids joined at the ends
way down
SANDY JOHNSON
They
appeared
who
darted back and forth with their cameras to find good vantage points.
large ancient-looking
The
man
approached
in a heavy,
wobbly walk,
saffron.
his great
On
his
head
bee-
was what
assumed to be
like a
He was
as
soon
as
The
moved
Lama
said,
handing
me
a carefully folded
"He
I
will see
I
you now."
I
"What do
do?"
asked, realizing
did not
know the
near.
I
protocol.
Lama Rigzen
the white katak, which the rinpoche took and placed around
my neck. He
Then he
nod-
my
motioned
ding, as
me
to
sit
at his feet,
I
and
listened,
Lama Rigzen
which
my
mission.
of his chest
and
all; it
was
his hair,
wound
loosely
on the top of
a leather thong.
hair.
Lama
Lama Duwang
archery contest.
24
Rinpoche
sat,
his robe,
on a bed draped
a gold-
him hung
Once
for
again
Lama Rigzen
prostrated
inter-
somewhat
up the tape
on the table
in front of
him.
my
spiral
Lama
me
where
come
from.
'America."
"I
Is
that true?"
sur-
"Yes."
to the
moon and
"What was
interrupted me.
his
name?"
I
"Neil Armstrong,"
said,
amused.
started to ask
my
question.
He
"What
does
it
look like?"
"The moon?"
"Yes."
I
"Ooh."
He nodded
his head.
'And
how big is
it?"
is
Was
really
How big
tell
the
moon?
"Well,
said,
do.
me
China
recently."
"Yes."
summit meeting
China.
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
"And
will
issue of
ing but was shelved, lost in the conversations concerning trade agree-
man and
I
feeling
ashamed
my country,
I
told
him
didn't
know but
that
sincerely
hoped some-
my
first
question
when
at
me
I
from under
I'd
answered,
living a
"I
understand that
life,
And on
a
good
so
good
life."
'And
how do you
all
other people
And
a desire to protect
them and
"Whom
love
right,
began to
tell
him about
who
share a
similar philosophy,
his granddaughter.
felt as if
left
"How do you
"Compassion
define compassion?"
is
caring for
all
"Okay
if
clearly love
"Wisdom,
suppose."
I
very depths of
my ignorance.
tell
"So, whatever
and
love, this
I
you."
looked to
Lama
Rigzen,
test
who sat
watching me.
No clue from
moment
him.
lips
began to gather
my things.
you want to know?" he asked
just as
I
"What
door.
else did
reached the
need to un-
how
to get to that."
this
I
my
reac-
What
was
did
journalist to spiritual
"I
seeker?
How
think
understand
I
how to take
don't
He
I
raised his
hand
to silence
me. "Then
down."
took
my
place
floor
and looked up
softly
at
him,
I
embarrassed by
my outburst.
which rested
on me,
thought
saw the
tiniest flicker of
amusement.
wheel of life. So what
is
"Now we are
the
main cause
He was
me after all.
"To learn what we didn't learn
"Yes. In this
life,
a result of
we have done
SANDY JOHNSON
good things
in
another
life. If
we have unhappiness
in this life,
it is
the
re-
that we've
done be-
life is
desire
and
my mother; This is my father; These are my children; This is my property; This is my country; This is " he pointed to the
ment, we think: This
tape recorder
All of this
This
is
everywhere. But
when we go
the
hair,
do any
is
there
only emptiness."
For
some reason
is
chose that
moment
"What
"This? This
my
camera,"
answered, wondering
if I
should have
first.
his
huge rumbling
I
Lama Rigzen
joined
in.
looked from
of laughter.
He dabbed
at
them with
a corner of his
blew
his nose.
of laughter,
Lama Rigzen
your camera."
"Rinpoche
I
is
it
looked at
him
is
"Just as
he
I,
And
a fresh
round of laughter
is
"Because he
samsara.
He
says
we may
think that
2 8
and
desire
this
is
not enough,
it
has to
become
part
of our lives
pirically.
on
a practical level.
There
are so
many
books.
just
has
all
You
happened
moment."
and not
act
on
it.
We
must
activate
all
our minds.
problems.
I
We must think:
will give
All
will take;
my happithis.
ness to him;
We must
think like
This
is
"Buddhism
difficult;
it is
a very
if
people
then they
It is
but for
it is
all
human
beings.
It will
sentient
beings, but
Moments
said to
I
Lama
Rigzen,
who
knew I was
I
magnitude than
for
could
I
comprehend;
found
dizzying. "I
might wish
enlightenment, but
wonder
if I
The rinpoche
"When
you put
this
you see
a person
who
is,
as
you
say,
it is
is
practice.
to think or to wish,
very, very difficult.
we must put
it
now
get
Many obstacles
our minds.
When we
run into
SANDY JOHNSON
<)
these obstacles,
we begin
more
more
this
difficulties,
do
this?;
Should
leave
into our
mind.
'At that time,
we must
think
is
true in sam-
things
like,
must
forget clinging.
And
begin to
achieve something."
"I
guess
my biggest obstacle
I
is
fear,"
said.
is,
we need
we experience
The word
mind
that
literally,
will
become,
So
it is
not renuncia-
much
as recognizing the
to,
shortcomings of
and
will, rise
beyond
that,
what
mean by
renunciation."
He
me
an indication from
me
that
realized that
Lama
or fixation
on
cyclic existence,
JO
state of being.
When
is
fears
and problems
arise,
lematic thing
is
we do
to
its
become attached
power:
arising.
This
what
gives clinging
fear,
there causes us
things,
causes us a problem;
solidity.
And
we
fuel
something.
"Overcoming
is
who has
more
straightforward, but
still it
very difficult to
rise to fear
move beyond
and problems
in the first
We
we
We dewe
are
no longer
it,
we have
a certainty
that
we have
from
this,
that
we view
fallen/'
we would
which we have
I
felt
strangely, there
me did not understand a word; yet, me that caught a glimpse now and
on the wing
of a bird as
it
soars
SANDY JOHNSON
"
"It is useful to
pit, a
stinking
at
swamp,
all
as a land inhabited
sides.
is
As long
as
we
nice, samsara
is
sweet, sam-
sara
delicious, samsara
fine,
we
be released.
And
as
it-
long as
self,
we have
will
sufficient or satisfactory in
we
We have
tion
and disenchantment.
'Are
you saying
it is life is
we want
to be liberated from?
thought Bud-
dhists believe
human life
precious."
He
his face
his hair.
"The
disen-
chantment with
to meditate
on impermais
ingrained
we
are, as a
is
subject to im-
is,
an
is
something that
to develop love
for
you
come
and compassion
because
you want
to.
and
this
really taking
account."
if
he had answered
occurred to
I
to another subject.
It
me
me
the information
thought
wanted.
is
in
some
lifetime, that
through countless
times. This applies to beings throughout the six classes or six states of
all
of these beings
all
of
another's parents.
this,
"Understanding
that there
is
is
no
distinction that
It
we can make
to
very valuable.
understanding.
are
"While there
more
in the details.
we
appreciate what our parents in this lifetime have done for us, and
contemplate the basic kindness that we have received from them. Then
we extend
that kindness to
all
beings. Thus,
it is
through an understandlife
that
we
gain an un-
He closed his eyes and began moving his lips. After several moments
he looked
I
at
said,
"That's
for.
it."
got
of the
self,
eons of practice, the idea of every being having once been our
.
parents
On
to Stok,
The
old lama
showed no
interest in
I
how an American
got to the
moon. Was
it
re-
membered
the
moon
for twelve
hundred
years.
SANDY JOHNSON
33
THE MOUNTAIN
tugged
at the
thin blanket
throat
but
My
and
lingered.
and my
a
power
in
Stok
is
eyes
had soon
tired.
But then
lay-
awake,
my mind
only led to
I
more imponderable
and forth on
his stack of
cushions
buoy
in a
stormv
sea.
me
"Where
is
your
arms; "There?"
me he was laughing at. T?" he taunted, pointing to mv head. "There?" my my feet. "Not there." His laughter echoed, filling my
dream
it
was
head with
a terrible roar.
felt
m\ self
disembodied now, grew larger. The toothless mouth widened, came closer
and
closer, as
if
to devour
me.
knew
it
would be
dry
It
ice.
have
if I
am
feverish.
did have
a flu of a
some
sort.
asked for
Jai,
the
Khatmandu;
was alone
to call
in a hotel,
no phone
I
and no one
in
if I
had one.
thermometer and took
a terrible sleep,
play,
fumbled
my
I
my temperaout.
drifted in
and out of
dreaming scenes
from
my life.
and spoke
When
Bill,
his daughters
As
Bill
the
girls
were younger
I
sisters as
much
Wendy,
a
the eldest, to
whom
made
was "Wick"
(for
Buddhist and
California.
her
home
at
northern
Two
years before
my
exI
just before
had never
fully forgiven
up the
family; worse,
my parents.
close through those years
and somehow
managed
We had develJ 5
SANDY JOHNSON
oped
ters,
his
daugh-
which lasted
insisted
until
he married
woman who
and
ended.
in
an un-buddhalike way,
Dad
is
And
it's
You broke
I
his heart,
you know.
I
it?"
I
was
then.
Gerry,
wanted
to
tell
my closest friend,
in everyone's
cost."
I
woke from
this
dream sobbing,
my heart pounding.
I
turned to look
at the
touch
began to form
I
became
six
faces.
months
before, leaving
whom loved and revered. He had died me desolate. saw his face, with its arched nose
I
mountain.
could make
out the hollows underneath the cheekbones, and the crevices around the
called his
name, then
finally
saw
my
me
I
re-
membered from my
the dais where
at
I
brother's funeral.
I
had
From
had stood,
saw her
me
me
asked her
if
still
36
shifting
shadows
as daylight
lost, friends
dead,
friends betrayed
in
moments
I
this
was not
then
prayed
it
The fever
the third night,
I
and
its
demons raged on
for
two more
days.
I
Then, on
had brought.
there in
Why hadn't
my case?
til
I
thought of them
or of the sleeping
pills right
took
them and
fell
late the
wide.
white
silk
offering scarf.
SANDY JOHNSON
3 J
LIFE OF
LUXURY
It
days since
my demons
had come to
visit.
My
antibiotics.
Too
quick,
flu.
thought,
was con-
had was
an ego cleansing.
My friend
up
early to
got
meet her
Angdu
material-
ized again
arrival
anticipated Betty's
I
with
realizing
how
very alone
had been
feel-
ing.
and
was eager to
talk
about
The
flight
it
finally arrived,
Betty
humor and we
schoolgirls.
is,
rest
and time to
unpack.
I
Then we
my room
and had
a beer
and
talked.
self
recalled
said
about the
before
left
Santa Fe:
"We
that
own life,
one's
own mind,
Therefore,
we
create
self.
it
"This central
becomes
and con-
different
from
me
which improves
humanity'
must exist. am concerned only with that my security, my well-being, to the exclusion of the rest of
I
"The
answer, then,
is
Work
with your
own
inner conditionings. Find out where you went wrong. You might not even
remember
so clearly.
But
still
way because
You can look
connection in
many
is
vironmentally. There
way we look
I
at
it,
things
seem
to be very real;
we
look and
Okay, what
is
see
is real.
But
it's
is it
really real,
What
only image;
real for
we lose
we assume them
Buddha
Open up
you'll
your
own
closed
Then
begin to understand
why we
whole universe.
SANDY JOHNSON
39
thing.
So we don't need to
we
tagonized.
I
Then we begin
Whatever
life,
but on
my envi-
ronment,
my
family,
my wife, my
my
friends,
my
society, every-
body who
this
much more
is
sensible.
And
that
is
the
beginning of a responsible
that
But
does that
how
What
mean
what we
I
my 'self,' what am
ever.
Betty and
of the
crone
who lives
in a cavelike dwelling at
the bottom of the mountain in a medieval village a day's drive from Leh.
Betty wanted to see something of the country; and
I,
with
is
all
the talk
exactly
I
my
lives.
In this
same
village lived
whom hoped we
them
in
Greek mythology.
trail
that climbs to
feet below.
live to see
it.
The
my birthday.
and barley
Never mind,
thought,
I'll
not
river valley
fields stretched
before us.
Then
the
tiny,
remote, eleventh-cen-
tury village of
time.
We climbed down
to join us.
We
seemed
to have collected
who
We
bent
The
tion
in the wall, a
window
which
dusky glow
day oven.
The
woman
sat
floor
and
looked curiously at us, bewildered by the sudden attention. She had seen
few Westerners
in her life,
and
certainly
a conversation
With
the cam-
had
set
on the
we caused
asked her
if
Dolma's eves
hands.
"I
was born
into a family
My
an-
both
my
sister
.
and
is
me
to a
man from
I
other house.
pily
He was
He
dead now.
lived hap-
my
sister did.
She
mar-
my sis-
and
winter,
"I
and sometimes we
also
work
in other houses.
had
We
had no
rice,
wheat,
I
flour, or
sugar.
used to go begging
mv meal
exchange
of the
day Sometimes
worked
in
the houses of
my
relatives in
for food. In
had
own
livelihood.
my
also
village.
Even the
sky has
changed.
It is
SANDY JOHNSON
people showed more concern for one another; they were more religious-
religious deeds.
made
complete
set of
my
occasions, a set of a
good fortune
but
I
and
silver
used to invite
the people of
Wanla
to gatherings,
I
where
used to wear
still
my younger days, my perak and my fleece hat, and my fur apron on my back.
I
have
wear when
go to
Lama
and
poche once.
off his head.
remember he had
farthest
I
on
is
wouldn't
fly
Now the
live
can go
I
to
Lamayura Gonpa."
"Do you
manage.
"I
here alone?"
asked, wondering
how she
could possibly
can
still
do
all
with
here.
I
my nieces
But
which
I
my own small house. water my fields, fetch my own water, and cook with the firewood my nieces and nephews bring me. They also bring me barley flour, tea, butter, and chang. My eyein spring
return here to
sight has
so
if
down from
her elders.
all
the folk
I
many
cannot remember
4 2
>:-
Skal^ang Dolma
telling stories.
at learning. In
They
say
was
like a parrot in
those days
we
either,
had
to grind their
own
flour
asked,
my country. "I don't feel lonely. spend most of my time saying, 'Om mani padme hum,' and another short prayer to Chenrezig. As get old, get my various lives mixed up and recite only the prayers know by heart. My bed
how dependent
the elderly are in
I I I I
is
go to sleep
prostrate to the
that
like
my wrong actions
On auspicious days
I
offer a
hun-
SANDY JOHNSON
4 3
Then
say
all
the mantras
with the
monks
My fingers
developed sores
my mala.
in their
"I hear that people in the outside world live comfortable lives with
tables
and
chairs
and carpets
rice
to
be happy
sugar and
I
and
I
all
am happy;
I
have no teeth in
I
my mouth
anyway.
see
you
in
am in rags. Yet hear there is much unhapCan you tell me why that is?"
"Do you have some thoughts about why
and
your furniture and
for prayer.
"No,
that
is
can't,"
admitted.
so?"
fine clothes
all
up too much
riches
of your time
Maybe your
But
I
have taken more away from you than they have given.
these things.
."
.
don't
know about
versation to a close.
As we got
window
u p to leave,
She took
it
to the
make
sure,
into a
We
them
Then
It
tain,
I
was nearly
dark.
realized
what I had
just seen
had less
to
do with
a life frozen in
time
4 4
than
it
did with a
life
Have our
strug-
gled to find
my
path,
and
. .
my own
"rich" years a
little
more.
Little
Angdu were
No,
doubt
ever
to climb a
mountain
to
who
Lama
on important matters of
These
whom
it
would see
Dharamsala.
was explained,
hundred
years, to the
time of Padmasambhava.
the townspeople than
They
with
are
lives of
politics.
SANDY JOHNSON
4 5
It
acle.
was d u s k
in
We were led to an
room
lit
by
oil
lamps.
Once
again children
in to watch.
The
on
bench
He greeted
us shyly.
to
him
that
oracle.
Would he
tell
us
of
[late
of them.
special,
He was
the reincarnation of
some
great hero,
power was
maybe magic.
to
Wanla on
foot.
When
he died, many lamas and other oracles said that he couldn't get into
heaven or
his spirit
hell,
state,
the bardo. So
wandered the
me with his power to tell our present, past, future, everything. This spirit speaks through me to tend
"Seven years ago
the or-
When
lives,
or
they have to
make
decision, they
come
to the oracle.
in their lives.
spirit
The
them
advice about
heal.
how
to have success
"The
first
time the
came
me,
felt
very uncomfortable in
my body. There came a sound, like a knocking at the door, and I was afraid. 'Who is that coming?' asked, and became very suspicious. The people in the village took me to Leh to talk to some lamas. They advised me to do certain things, make offerings to the monastery,
my mind
and
and
pray.
baptism.
am
the
Lhompo,
is
now/
never
re-
member
anything that
said afterward.
head lama of
his horse
Lamayuru came
to this village
We
nodded.
asked
if
spirit of
the oracle.
The man
in front of
He drank
as the
woman
refilled
it.
spectfully.
After a time his eyes closed. His head twitched sideways, then the
SANDY JOHNSON
4 J
his
epileptic in the
He
opened
he
his eyes,
lifted his
dribbled
down
his chin
and onto
his shirt.
startling us.
Then
from
his
looked at Betty.
eyelids.
need to consult
Heh!
scholars to teach
And
this
work
will
teach you
He
for
your true
so
still I
my
I
heart.
My
would deI
vote
that?
my
some
benefit.
Wasn't
doing
'And what
is
that,
is
can you
to
tell
me?"
as enlightened as
become
first
you can
in this lifewill
know yourself.
need
Seemed
being led to?
"Your
place."
Was
this
what
was
life is
move
to another
Oh,
no.
4 8
whispered.
rift
simply, "Will-my-broken-family-be-mended?"
The
them
all
go."
That night we
yaks.
Nearby
in
another
Lama
SANDY JOHNSON
4 9
Rigzen and
Little
Angdu brought us
we
set
a pot of soup, a
on
all
The
children
and giggled
until
fell
asleep.
Later,
when
I
the
moon was
silvery light,
had come
to.
Are our
somewhere;
are
we held
Was
moon on my
the people of
moment the
sun shines on
all
my own world?
I
wanted
to
make
a birthday
used to
I
wish for health, happiness, and the way to support myself doing what
loved best, but
to wish
for.
50
TIBET
IN
INDIA
would brave
'Air
States;
would
hire a car
I
and
would
for
had written
before, as
some months
soon as
knew
commotion
at the entrance.
An
entourage of red-robed
Lama
the
know what
said.
"Have you
inter-
Dharamsala,
Pradesh,
is
in
northern India,
in the state of
Himachal
It is
the seat of the government-in-exile and the present the Fourteenth Dalai Lama.
viceroys,
it
home of His
Holiness
British
hill resort
was to
Kangra
Lama and
ten thousand of his followers settled in 1960 following the Chinese invasion of Tibet.
We were
to stop so
I
when we
rolled
clicked away.
tossed a
in
paper to them.
picked
it
up
unwrapped
us.
and popped
it
into his
started toward
said,
and
if
he saw them
as
emanations of the
feared them.
hotel,
I
was
settled in
my
left a
I
was nei-
Buddhism nor
a devotee,
wondered
if I
me back with
the
told
me
Dharamsala
munity, with
its
is
two
sections.
Lama,
line.
is
in
just
Known
a cul-
tural potpourri:
an assortment of
spiritual seekers in
raggedy shorts,
5 2
sleeveless vests,
of
women
in their
kimonolike chubas
everything
stalls selling
skirts
beggar sat contented in the shade of a tree by the side of the road,
sitar,
playing a toy
a hauntingly lyrical
a mile or
two
away Attached
two mari-
strummed.
It
in town.
On the
They caught
level to
first morning,
of
my hill-
top hotel and watched two hawks glide just above the tips of the pines.
a
thermal and soared a bit higher until they were exactly eye
I
where
sat sipping
morning
is
tea
at the
hawk line.
me
a letter of introduction to
Unlike the
Wanla
I
oracle, the
affairs of state.
set off
down
the
hill
to the
Gadong monaster};
which
Wandrak
is
When Padmasambhava
of the "cannibal
demons"
new
reli-
of
them
in a se-
ries of
spirits in a
spirit
hierarchy
protectors in Ti-
The
last
of the deities
vanquished by Pad-
SANDY JOHNSON
masambhava came
to
him
in the
Padmasambhava touched
his
head with
on
Pehar Gyalpo
the
also hierarchical
of
access
the Gadong,
Nechung oracle
that his
spirit of
Pehar
it
will
And
the im-
on
his forehead.
When
in 1642,
Lama
he named Pehar Gyalpo protector of the now central governas a dwelling for his
official seat of
the state
who was
called
upon
prophetic ability of the protectors. Frequently Dorje Drakden, the minister of the
Western King
while he
is
of Speech,
is
the
spirit
who
the
medium
Pehar Gyalpo.
was Dorje
of an assassination plot
by
his regent and, as early as 1945, alerted Tibet to the also urged the Dalai
Lama
to go to India
in-
1956 to establish
lines of
who
lies
on
temple and
residence of the Dalai Lama. Tenzin Wandrak, in slacks and shirt and Eu-
more
a casually dressed
businessman than
5 4
He
received
me
graciously,
and
is
after a friendly
he placed
phone
call to
young Tibetan
me, and might
woman who
be available
Wandrak
after,
told
as a translator.
be of help. She wore the traditional striped apron and crisp cotton blouse;
raven-black hair pulled tight in a long pony tail.
I
asked
Choedon
if
we
a brief introduction.
"My
full name
I
is
was born
in
Gadong, Tibet.
am
There were
five sons
and four
wife died.
am
it
that you
became
state oracle?"
"My
him.
I
Gadong,
as
was
I
used to watch
I
my
have seen
since
childhood,
never thought of
is
as
anything
special. It
was
traditional.
The
is
mediumship
said to
down from
father to son.
Our lineage
have started seven generations back, during the time of great Fifth
Dalai Lama.
free to
One
son must
of
Gadong. Others
are
do public
service or
whatever
I
in
when His
in his en-
Lama
visited
China,
traveled with
him
staff.
When we
I
China, and
felt
made an
excuse to
my
I
mother;
told her
This
is
how
escaped, in 1957.
SANDY JOHNSON
5 5
Ten^in
Wandrak
ever,
my father knew that was going to India formy mother because we knew she would be against But on that fateful day as was leaving Tibet, my mother called me back. She gave me some tsampa to squeeze in my palm to make mv imprint.
'At that time, although
tell
I
we did not
it.
Then
she took
it
and put
it
in her
cupboard.
think she
knew
in
her heart
that she
"I
me again.
in Darjeeling until 1963,
worked
when
my
father sent
me
I
government. So
Village for a few
went there
work
I
in the office of
Tibetan Children's
Library. In
months. Then
1964
at a
meeting, His Holiness gave a speech about the difficulties in Tiin India
betan settlements
for
some
volunteers.
So
went
"During that
treat
year,
is
traveled back to
Dharamsala
for a
Yamantaka
re-
[Yamantaka
.
a meditational deity
as
of the Bud-
we were having
strange sensations.
thought
was going to
die.
That
few
was the
years,
first
mediumship. After
"Then
asleep,
I
as
if
inside
my
I
spirit.
to Dharamsala.
told
my
father about
my
experiences.
saw
several dif-
none
of
didn't work.
"One day
'Just
lights will
be
I
revealed.'
so
one day
went
to see
my
ance of
be revealed.'
tector deity
meant
that
oracle.
1
my
in
one of
of this monastery,
"It
is
and
in 1976,
was appointed
oracle.
how
first
experienced being a
in
sense
some uneasiness
my
nerves before
SANDY JOHNSON
am fully in trance. It's quite complicated. When the spirit is about to enter my body, start to shake. It seems as if all the channels, the veins of my body are
the onset of the trance,
I
don't
being
filled
up. There
is
is
a considerable
measure of discomfort.
if
"Since this
mediumship can be
taught or learned.
a tenant.
It is
more
like
That
is,
come
totally
"On
year,
first
and hold
ceremony.
(We
The
in the big
temple
hall.
During
official
ceremonies,
outsiders are not permitted to attend, but there are other ceremonies
reIf
someone wants
to get authorization
had seen
It
looked
like
which
and
are folded
and
wrathful deities.
Over
trance
On
top of
all
of this,
58
ringlets.
Something resembling
is
a backpack,
flags
and
the
left
padded
as for archery
silk
and
he wears
center.
a red, yellow,
and gold
front-
its
As the
golden quiver
filled
right.
Each
article
is
decorated
me
that
when he
is
The huge
headdress would snap the neck of a normal man. But once in trance, the
oracle leaps about,
bowing
part of the ceremony. Since the oracle loses consciousness during the
trance,
he must
rely
on attendants.
tie
If
it
could
kill
can't
be tied on
at all
because the
spirit
becomes
hap-
It is
mo-
ment the
spirit leaves
the oracle.
"While the
his head, held
on
then be
tied.
As
I
but when
am
not in trance
can't
move with
"We were unable to bring the original costume to India; it was lost to
SANDY JOHNSON
A new
made here
in India
say
is
not
so.
say, that's
I
believe
I
may
or
may
not be true."
if
spirits?"
asked, wondering
they were
refer
who people
West
call spirit
guides,
to as the Grandfathers.
spirits.
We
about the
pose
to the path of
the truth.
spirits are
It
that simple.
to
The
dharma
protectors.
We huto
mans need
in turn
need to speak
us and advise us, and protect our minds from hindrances and obstacles,
tell
the future.
who do what he
tells
them
his
The employee
makes
em-
ployer then
liness
and the
spirit
works
like that.
dharma
protectors
"To do such
spirits are
some one
year's, five
year's, a century's,
tell
are talking
about can
fore-
told Mr.
Wandrak about
the
Wanla
oracle
and asked
if
he knew of
him.
"No, but besides the state oracles there are others
to the general public."
who are
accessible
"Do people
"If
asked.
you ask
you the
right advice.
If
your question
I
is
beyond
spirit's ability,
he
spirit in
question can
tell
both
That
is
why we
and teachers.
here.
It is
would
like to
add something
important
for us to
know
if
how much
we
don't understand
say
And sometimes we
Nechung
big role
political system.
It is
Whether we use
of
totally
up
to us.
the nature
suf-
as a result of
our
fering results
depends
a great deal
on our
actions. It
is
certain that
if
all
the
is
come
how this
system works.
"The Tibetan
dhist belief
SANDY JOHNSON
fore,
it is
in order to
un-
was beginning
to see
how much
re-
sult of the
with
them
a fabric as ornate
and
intricate as
Was
it
realistic to
think
it
could be stitched
outside of Shangri-la?
PALACE INTRIGUES
the son of Gyalten Namgyal, tailor to both the Thirteenth and Four-
take Tsering
Choeden and me
to his
home.
tailor lay
on
his bed,
propped up on
was
He had been
ill;
head seemed to
skull.
I
float
Yet he
seemed eager to
talk,
and
promised
telling
he insisted on
set
on the opposite
side of the
set
among
and
"What do you mean we're out of Coke?"; two books, Gone with
Scarlett;
Wind,
an
ET doll;
a statue
of Goofy.
Sounds
"I
was born
in 1912, the
in that village
owed
Demo Rinpoche, the Thirteenth Dalai Lama's regent. Demo Rinpoche asked my grandfather to come to Lhasa to administer the estate. He gave my grandfather and his family a house. Since we had no schools at that time, my grandfather taught my father to read and write. "But a few years later, in 1898, my grandfather died. A few months
after that, the regent
was imprisoned.
the [pre-
vious] Dalai
Lama by means
of black magic.
written spells on a
the
Nechung
oracle, while in
one of
and
Demo Rinfa-
in
He
after.
Nyamo
Tsang. Her
who was
highest lama in Tibet] brought his family to Lhasa and rented a wing of
my mother
and
my
father.
My father was
to
and
head
I
"He taught me
sew when
was
When
was
ten,
my
father
was asked to make applique thangkas of the Sixteen Arhats, and allowed
me
to
work on them. He
also took
for the
no-
64
Gyalten
Namgyal
ble families,
for picnics.
The
round, in Mongolian
the walls.
"I
and thangkas on
became
skilled
enough
to
ther training.
The
tailor's guild
Fifth Dalai
Lama
in the
we were
in
government
service.
who were
allowed to slap
them
being
slow.
Lama
is
the Four-
SANDY JOHNSON
6 5
arts,
which
I
is
why
there were so
to en-
many great
painters
and
artists
Lama's
felt in
service,
When
he
him was
very careful.
representatives
who had
red.
remember the
first
time
He had come
to the
workshop to distribute
imposing
in his
his
annual
He was
he
it
when we had
if
finished a piece of
he asked
you to make
his
dirty."
day.
treasury,
the
Manchu
centuries.
When
betan national
flag
it
himself.
I
commissioned,
"My
when I was
seventeen.
My mother, whose
I
should take
work
to a
in addition to the
girl
"One
was doing
my
sewing in
my house,
all
heard shouting
Men must unwind their hair, and women should remove their ornaments.
6 6
The Thirteenth
Only
a
Dalai
Lama had
died.
It
me
if
the
for the
it; it
Kalachakra
assured
him
would.
He was
never to wear
was worn by
"He had
house
below the
Potala,
I
be fixed
to stay there.
didn't think
much
of
it
had
known
in Shol al-
ways served
Lama was
an-
nouncing
his
forthcoming departure
tailors of
for the
make the
in the
it
brocade decorations
Potala with the
for the
new
mausoleums
We
completed
in thirteen days.
"The construction
remains took about a
of the stupa
year.
The mummifying
body
fluids
salt;
I
then, after the drving was completed, the remains were covered in gold.
was among the fourteen people to go inside the golden stupa and arrange
the robes. Just before the remains were dressed, a protrusion in the shape
of the Chenrezig statue
Rmpoche, Ling Rinpoche, and Gyalwang Tulku were among the others
who
saw
this.
me had
I
would be serving
"My wife
stillborn.
when I was
My mother
saw
we should
give
up
all
worldly
and
all
SANDY JOHNSON
6 J
strictly to
became
monk
or nun.
took
my
my new
name,
Gyalten Namgyal.
years in seclusion.
She wanted
me
my
post as
Chenmo, but
to lead
I
promised
would
when
"While
Samye
became
deity.
watched him go
He began by
brandishing a weapon.
He blessed me
the renovations. Then, on the third day of the trance, the blind oracle ran
same old
man with no eyeballs, feeling his way around with his stick. "When work at Samye was nearly finished, we heard that
teenth incarnation of the Dalai
the Four-
recognized in
All
Amdo
[eastern Tibet],
officials,
and that
government
welcoming
celebrations.
at
Samye
to
make
tents,
the most important being the 'Great Peacock Tent,' in which the young
Dalai
Lama would
hold his
first
final
procession to
his throne;
Lhasa.
I
When
to
me
Lama
is
seen as an ema-
nation of Chenrezig
a living
buddha.
I
"When the celebrations were over, handed in my resignation according to my promise to mv mother. The cabinet, unwilling to accept my resignation, made me a monk official instead, so that could continue to
I
6 8
Gelong, personal
der
of
tailor to
time
for the
enthronement.
was also
responsible for
new
Nechung and
Gadong
oracles.
Lhasa.
We were given a
all
"On
the
monks and
Dalai
government
officials lined
up
The
Lama watched
window
retinue.
of the palace.
The Nechung
oracle
came out
in trance
with his
man
begging
for
game
game was
sup-
posed to determine
who would be
many
Two monks
collar, all
emony was
"Many
preparations needed to be
made
for
Gyalwa Rinpoche's
[the
We
worked
for six
months with
Namsa
treasury high up in
the Potala. Very few people were allowed into this storehouse of brocades,
chubas
first
An official
at the curtained
went
in or out.
The Namsa
treasury
named
Buddha
of
of
many
storehouses
SANDY JOHNSON
69
lit
among the
worked to
friezes
and
pillar
political
I
intrigue swirled
around
my head, but
things
didn't pay
much attention.
later,
won't
go into
it
now, but
many
including the
up
Ti-
making
it
The
tailor
then recounted
personally affected by
horror
much
so that
book to those
experiences, which begins on page 129). Finally he was able to leave Tibet
and
fulfill
his
JO
GLIMPSES OF
ANOTHER WORLD
Having glimpsed
Tibet, with
its
a little
more
rich brocades
and palace
I
politics,
women
in Tibet, so
asked
Choedon
we might
visit
the nuns in
tailor's.
the abbey
I
Although Tibet
of Tara,
is
tell
of the origin
one of the female buddhas. Her name was Princess Yeshe Dawa, Wis-
dom Moon, and she lived many eons ago. Her practices were so great and her
offerings so
numerous
come
back
in a
become enlightened in
Yeshe
to remain in a
woman's
and there
is
no more
Then,
after
of practices
was
finally liber-
Dawa would
she had freed a million beings from suffering; lunch until another million
still
became known
for Tara.
as
Who
name
Yet
had heard
Nuns
Project.
more nuns
fering
arriving
day,
suf-
beyond comprehension.
Before the Chinese invasion, there were eight hundred abbeys in Tibet,
largest
group of Bud-
dhist
nuns
in the world.
poison.
It
It
poisoned by
it."
In occupied Tibet,
deep
distrust.
is
Their resilience
and
torture in prison
viewed
who have
initiated
new marches.
It is
feel,
China and
7-2
THE BOOK OF
B E TA
.V
ELDERS
Newang Choezin,
is
the retired
its
neatly
on the bed
as she took
wooden desk
chair.
"I
I
primary responsibility
is
the
younger nuns.
"My mother
not hard for
died
when
was a
child,
and
felt
so alone. Since
a nun,
it
al-
was
after that."
told the
umze
was
difficult for
I
abbey must be
life
monk's
in a monastery,
and wondered
if
"Discipline in an abbey
And we had
morn-
that, lunch.
we became
dyed yak
handicrafts which
brought
in
money
to
top of the
hill,
went there to
the village.
study. History
learned from
some
Christians
had met
in
"My
My room was
only a
SANDY JOHNSON
J3
little
in.
constructed of
stone and
mud, and
all
quite comfortable."
I
'And did
of
asked, wondering
if
nuns
are im-
mune
dents,
women
all
is
'All
we
we were taught
human
some
Also,
women.
if
you
is
no
"Is there
And
to
"Confession
this
not
like
it is
in Christianity,
say,
'I
have done
and
this
and
this/
scriptures, there
a place
where vou
visualize,
regret having
done unfortu-
nate actions,
vow to
other things to purify any bad acts within the past fifteen days. You think
this to yourself,
"Was
dia?
Is it
it
a difficult
adjustment
to leave Tibet
and
"In Tibet,
we could do anything we
I
liked,
but
now in
exile
we have
to
depend on
in
others. Also,
have
I
here.
The water
miss
Tibet in 1961.
was either
flee
Tibet or be killed."
in the
months
people.
spiritual
7 4
Newang Choe^in
left
Choedon
hotel.
me
frequently in
my reading,
and
whom Newang
Choezin
had
told
me about.
I
was suddenly
a
felled
euphemistically seemed
tually provided
and with
a "Delhi-belly"
He
enough
relief to
buy
me a few hours'
Choedon
sleep.
Tsering
called for
me
as arranged,
On
the way
we met an
old
man
sit-
SANDY JOHNSON
7 5
under
few belongings
some
were
On
wrapped
smooth
stones.
fire
bag of tsampa.
We
stopped to watch as he
carved a mantra onto a stone, so deep in concentration he did not notice us for
some
time.
I
When
all
he looked up,
the stones.
"I
traders,
I
who
bring
them on
I
because
believe that
life
if
you
start carving
on the
We believe
it
paint
it
compare
with the
make
sure
it is
right."
Pleased that
we showed
he went on
tell
us
about his
life as well.
"I lived
on
farm
in central Tibet. In
I
my
became
monk at
but
flict
left at
involving a ceremonv.
didn't
know then
cook
com-
ing.
worked
as a
in a school in
Delahousie. After
that
like all of
I
then,
I
when
there was
no more work,
then
started doing
it
every day.
six
come
Sometimes
\
go to the
river to
wash
my
clothes.
Otherwise
ear round.
My daughter is a phannacist at
j6
get red
it
with water to
didn't
want to be
enough that
have something to
offerings for
eat
me
my
stones, but
river.
The water
them. Also the wind that blows across the stones saves insects and other
living things
from a bad
rebirth.
six
believe this
work
is
holy work.
I
pray as
carve for
all
those in the
burn three
of
make out
This
is
my
We
had
walked on
Not
all
in silence.
was
lost in
it
thought,
moved by what
just seen.
holy
seems.
When we
lane well off
lead
down
a dusty
McLeod
came
to stone steps,
which
down
to a
row of apartments.
size of cigars
are sentient
life
my
next
they
might be
Choedon knocked
a wide, toothless smile.
Hands together
to her tiny
Ani
Gomchen
to
sit.
bowed
to us in
welcome
We settled on the edge of the only piece of furniture, her bed. Ani Gomchen
sat cross-legged
on
a cushion
on the
floor.
The
Lama,
prints of
hung by
a string
SANDY JOHNSON
J J
Gomchen's
skin was
large
slab of
film of dust
and
grease covered everything in the room: the teacups, the boxes of food, the
iron pot
on the
stove.
I
seeming impolite,
la
declined.
brought out a basket of biscuits. shook my head and put my hand to my stomach to indicate my "problem," and the nun immediately handed me a small brown pellet wrapped in paper. Choedon explained it was a Tipill,
betan
but
Once more
sciousness that
is
it is
moment it was
all
could do to keep
concentrate instead on the clarity in her eyes and the pure joy of her smile.
"My
abbey
was
in
an
in Delahousie,
If
Grand Meditator.
This
is
how
got
my
ward he went
door to get
was. She
a
in to see
our temple.
Finally,
We
nuns waited
a long
time
at the
glimpse of him.
When
this
said yes.
'What
Then he
asked to see
it
my
prayer book,
it
and touched
to his
handed
it
to
me and
said,
'Thank
you.'
jS
am
My
father's family
Kham.
My mother comes from northern Tibet. When was would recite mantras in my dreams. When other girls would
mutton and exchange them
offer
for fancy things,
I
take skins of
would take
I
whatever
had and
them
in
knew
wanted to be
a nun.
I
Even
my
if I
next
If
life,
I
my
wish
is
to practice the
dharma, whether
if
am male or female.
nun
am male,
I'd like to
I
be
monk;
have
a choice.
But
given a choice.
"When was thirteen, my parents were going to arrange a marriage for me into a noble family, but begged them to let me go on a pilgrimage to Mount Kailash with a friend of my sister's. They tried to discourage me, telling me that the journey was very hard, that we would have to support
I
ourselves by begging
pleaded and
me go.
did pilgrimages
7
all
When
I'd
reach a monaster}
I
I'd
do
a full prostration.
At
it
like
did
many
full prostrations.
I
"When
was seventeen
I
would
deliver food to
sit
did
I
where you
with
in a
a pinpoint of light.
it
re-
quested to do
to
this
my
friend.
The lama
said that
would be harder
lie
do
it
we wouldn't be
able to
down
to
I
sleep; the
for
my
friend
and
wanted
to
do
it
together.
all
'After
around a
hill,
whole
day.
SANDY JOHNSON
7 9
Wk
Ani Gomchen
lightning.
We
it
sky. All
of a
sudden
filled
Guru Rinpoche
it
[Pad-
masambhava] appeared,
so big
the
sky.
Then
was green,
that.
it
saw
Green
Tara.
We both
seen.
saw
said
Rinpoche
bless-
told
He
was the
"When
dain
was twenty
me
as a
nun.
When
felt as if
from prison.
"Later on,
I
used to
I
start
the Tara rituals at about four in the morning. During those years,
vowed
8 o
Guru mantras
of
I
Padmasambhava: 'Oni ah
I
hung
vajra
guru
padme
siddhi hum.'
heard
bet and
would be better to
if
will
happen
in
you want to
Two thousand
of us
"Word came
as a tulku
me that my brother's
him
to
son,
recognized
Chinese
tried to get
abandon
his faith
as well
kill
at the
"We came
ing in the
directly to
in,
The
Dalai
Lama was
liv-
Old Palace
at
audiences, and
we
all
would go
Guru
mantras in Tibet, so
had the
same
my
retreat, a very
buy things
for
me."
I
of a renunciate.
"I
don't have any other belongings, just what people have given me.
They
ask
me
to
do pujas
for
me
offerings.
my
more
space."
SANDY JOHNSON
Si
if
you became
all
ill?"
Dharamsala,
became
ill
for a
month.
thought
my
poche and
a
sent
to
two members
of his staff
came
me to take me to him, but wasn't even able to get up. So the two men picked me up and carried me to the Dalai Lama's residence. When they put me down could hardly see. His Holiness came over and stroked my head and asked, 'What has happened to you?' He recited some mantras and blew three times on me. got well right after that. Now if ever get sick, visualize that His Holiness is blessing me and get cured."
get
I I I I
I
"This year there was a big prayer going on in the Palace. His Holiness
invited
In Tibet,
par-
ticipate in
said during
for
From the time was a small girl, used to write my wishes in my diary. My cousin and would make lists on our birthdays and again on the New Year we allowed ourselves exactly twelve wishes. When Ani GomI
I I
chen was
bra (and
thirteen, she
wished
wished
for a
bosoms
to put into
it),
who
always
mud
with me
if I
in the sad-
and
Later, as
an adult,
I
wished
for a
home
I
in the
for
and when
all
wished
an apartment
But
Ani
Gomchen
needs
is
82
is
He
lives in
an apartment on the
attendant showed
I
A monk
I
room
Champa
to Rin-
upon
entering, Tsering
Choedon
floor,
pouncing on a
ball of string.
She
performed these prostrations three times with such simple reverence that
I
tears.
Denma Locho
child's.
presented
invited us to
explained that
I
was
occupation, and
asked
him
he would
talk
life.
"
was born
in eastern Tibet, in
Kham.
am
My
and
mother married when she was eighteen, but did not have
the family a great deal, so they did
years,
many prayers
I
was born.
between nomad
territory
and farm-
From
the
My
and
my mother
and
a cow.
the
fields.
"I
remember the
pastures
full
of wildflowers in the
summer, and
SANDY JOHNSON
83
watching
ran through a
saffron flowers.
'Another
of seeing
many
my
speaking in
hushed
voices.
distress.
The Thir-
teenth Dalai
"I also
Lama had
remember
passed away.
that
when
would
take
on the
house.
would
them
stick
then
dhamaru
[ritual
drum]
to play with."
In Tibet,
when
a child
drawn
from a previous
become
of ice,
its
abbot. Thus,
created a ritual
drum out
he revealed himself
"When I was about six, people began to say that I was a reincarnation of Gen Locho, a well-known scholar from a nearby monastery called Selkhar. This did not please my uncle, who wanted me to become the
leader of the family. Anyway,
when
they
came from
I
me Gen
Locho's robes,
was
initiated as a
I
spent
When
else
was eleven,
my
uncle
told
me
our two-
month-long
'At last
journey.
I
was able to
settle in
84
Denma Locho
for the
Geshe
degree.
Most
of the student
monks
basically the
topics for
one
year,
the per-
fection of
for the
wisdom
I
Way
next two.
lived in a
room
me memorize my lessons thoroughly and never He would beat me at the slightest provocation, always believing he was doing it for my own good. After he died of pleurisy, continued to persevere at my studies, eventually taking in students of my own. tried to find dedicated, serious stumaking
allowing
me
dents
who would
human, and
was during a
on the de-
SANDY JOHNSON
8 5
ity
Yamantaka
in the
room
of
my principal
teacher,
set-
tled
down
offerings in front of
just lay
still
me.
and
listened.
Then I heard
later,
When
we used
was
left in
I
the cup.
still
who took it
maybe
hungry ghost
I
but
can
remember
dark.
"Once,
in Lhasa,
to a
it
as
soon as
but
was
ported on either
side.
could
do anything
when someone
I
is
asked the
spirit
who was
possessing
who
it
was, but the spirit refused to answer. I'd heard that spirits can
enter and leave a person's body by way of their ring finger, and that tying
a string
on the
from escaping. In
it
this way,
you
can trap a
son alone.
spirit in
'After
woman's
finger,
mustard from
substance.
I
a powerful
burned
in the
woman's
face.
She beI
gan to
the
was standing
in a
thornbush.
When
from
asked
spirit
who
woman
a village
near Drepung.
When
met
this
neighbor
who
wouldn't speak to
Out
woman's body."
I
who was
relaying
all
this
without expres-
86
sion.
utterly
unremarkable to
her. It
seems
way
we
this
was
witch
body
when
trapped
made
Palden
Lhamo
(female
dharma
protector) of
Drepung Podrang
would leave
this
neighbor
woman
his
alone."
Rinpoche
a double,
left
me
to
and returned to
own
story.
degree,
The
discipline there
weren't allowed to wear shoes, although the streets of Lhasa were very
poorly paved.
tered.
I
had
to walk to
and
after a
I
my feet developed a
I
thought of a
so-
lution:
to the
bottoms of
He laughed, remembering.
to him.
came
in
an ap-
pointment.
He would be
SANDY JOHNSON
8 J
Over
tel
lunch
of
momo
[Tibetan dumplings] and rice at the Holived outside Tibet half her
herself.
life, if
Tibet,
asked Choedon,
who had
phenomena
She smiled
brightlv.
"Oh,
yes. In fact,
who
has been to
Shambala."
We
went to
the
home
is
of
Khamtrul Rinpoche,
and
ritual
Khamtrul Rinpoche
words
He
lives
daughter
in
desk in front of a window, his head encircled by the light behind him, he
reminded
me of a
Buddhist painting.
"My
tle
is
Jamyang Dontrup;
refers
as a
lama
my tito my
kham
in its
name. The
trul
is
was born
as Litang
on Decem-
Most
of the families
made
I
their living
age of four,
entered a monastery
known
It
as Litang
Gonchen, which
means the
Lama, and
til
my birth,
a place
because
people
my parents moved
prophecy said the search would take a long time, they kept looking. The
abbot of a different monastery
made a
my rebirth,
and
but
in Litang.
born that
list
party.
went around
singing.
They
told
me,
all
us
who we
are
and what
are
names
of our horses.
men and
their
horses,
satisfied.
no matter where
lived,
tried to
go someplace
SANDY JOHNSON
89
else.
Always
at sunrise
and sunset,
would have
life.
a very clear
it
memory of my
rec-
So
was no problem to
ognize the
"I
would discover
past-life
and
five.
of eight
up
studied in the
Nyingmapa
ophy. But
and
philos-
when
was
I
sixteen,
my mind
many
and unbalanced.
help me. Finally,
consulted
I
seemed
able to
consulted
my
Jamyang Khyentse
I
a divination. It
make
a pil-
site in
recite
400,000
Padmasambhava.
the pilgrimage, but being young and
lazy,
I
made
the prescribed
sacred cave,
I
amount
more
beautiful
in clothes
girl.
than any
girl
appeared
to
different
from those of
Tibetan
She
me that all
the atoms in
my body began to
I
all
sorts of things,
although
can't
remember
was so excited.
visit
When
calmed down
to
me,
I
'Brother,
we should
known
in English as Shangri-la.
searched
had
Buddha Sakyamuni
it
to the
kingdom
C)0
of
Shambala
in
Kalachakra Buddha.
The
twenty-one lineage-holders,
all
of
speech, and mind, as well as gradually to release the imprint of the karmic
patterns in our mindstreams.
The
when
Shambala
the dharma
forces.
practition-
are to rise
up
as
Khamtrul
me his reaction to the girl's invitation: "When this beautiful girl in my dream said that we could visit there, my first thought was, 'Wow!' Then realized that she had called me Brother, hardly what my excited atoms expected. As her brother, couldn't
Rinpoche told
I I
tell
I
her
how I
'My
tell
really felt
I
about
said,
friend,
very
I
much want
to go to
have to
you that
have no idea
how to get
me Brother, and
I
said that
my courage,
how
she
knew who
my eyes.'
and on her palms. In
"She showed
me
her seven eyes: two in the ordinary places, one besoles of her feet
me
White
Tara.
She
said
that
if I
looked straight into her eyes, this would create conditions for
my
it
I
now
it
sixty-five,
and
my
predecessors didn't
also told
make
that
past
fifty
or fifty-five,
me
benefit
of
many
or Dolka.
None
my
when I had
Chinese presence,
SANDY JOHNSON
Khamtrul Rinpoche
everything changed.
in order to
It
became necessary
lines.
I
for a
number
of tulkus to
mam
gave back
my
married, but
"I sat
remained
a lama.
on
much
mind.
bliss that
had no questions, no
my
What
felt
And we went
so fast!
If I
could
visit
day
"We
had
snow
lion
on
it.
'Look, there's the Dergey Printing Press. At the time of vour predecessor,
Pema Lundrup,
Lhamo and
carved
some
of
there.'
air in
we
sailed
through the
my
dream-vision,
we saw Mount
area that
looked looked
like a
We
out
flat, as
well as too
many
seem
other places to
to support any
mention, including
form of
life at all.
until
we came
to a great circle of
petals.
mountold
She
me
had thirty-two
itself
each the
size of
New York.
Fur-
cities;
a thou-
sand great
cities.
splendid golden-roofed
and
lovely rainbows.
me
"The
families in
parks, with
ponds
filled
came from
their wish-fulfill-
and cows.
No one had
had
are,
to work, for
and
healthy, free
wombs
like
we
was that
in the
kingdom
and
I,
no competition
and harmony.
this
I
"Some
not
all
From
concluded that
ce-
lestial
beings or
maybe nagas
[water gods]
heart of the
kingdom
of Shambala, ringed
by
mansion
it
Shambala
I
subdue the
evil in
the uniall
verse with
bows and
arrows,
and
of
II.
the
destructive
modern weapons
World War
When
9 3
SANDY JOHNSON
asked
come
The
weapons
in
"When we
He
the
dissolved
directly at
him.
of
who
gave
me
number
empowerments. After
girl
rainbow except
and myself.
"Then
suddenly, in
it
dream,
in
my
cave.
was dawn.
to the
don't
know if dreams
of
but
as
this
dream
of
my
visit
kingdom
my
asked Rinpoche
if
knowing such
a place exists, in a
dream
or in fact,
helps
him
in times of difficulties.
He thought
moment;
his expression
grew
serious.
"The most
Tibet,
difficult period of
making
in 1956,
I
their
unwanted reforms.
I
was twenty-five.
went
to live in
Lhasa
better.
but
couldn't go back to
just for
me, but
my faith,
"I
made
stronger.
have no specific feeling about the Chinese today. The people were
It
it
ignorance.
They thought
it
was good
9 4
but that
people.
is
feel
bad
for the
Chinese
anger, desire,
and ignorance
I
suffering,
will
A person who has anger for his enultimately suffer. We all should
in religion or not."
whether we believe
She asked
a
matter-of-factly,
cup
of tea,
all
poche complied
My mind automatically
as
flashed to
a silver
table.
box and,
He
gave
I
Choedon
asked Rinpoche
I
art of divination.
He nodded, and
"Both the diviner and the person seeking advice must have pure motivation.
Together they both must pray to the Buddha, the Dharma, and
dharma
pro-
personally visualize
call
myself as
my
I
on
it
Palden Lhamo.
again until
dice. If the
answer
is
not
clear,
throw
am certain
said
of the answer."
Rinpoche
you
like
Rinpoche to do
felt
my face red-
den, flustered by
my eagerness.
"Yes.
Thank
you."
SANDY JOHNSON
9 5
"On what
my health
I
now and
my
a
Rinpoche nodded,
listening.
held
and mentally asked the question. He then threw the dice and studied
them. "The
illness
will
not return,"
he
said.
I
"You are
fine."
I
forgot for a
moment
to
had an
illness.
may
stared at him.
We were
same
hotel
firm
following dav.
I
realized
my notebook was
all
missing.
we
minute
grew more
frantic.
We had
I
in the restaurant.
was about to
leave,
decided
sitting.
there,
and so had
offer-
Choedon
me
'And vou
9 6
"What""
He laughed and
said,
offering now."
Choedon
elderly,
and
walked up the
hill
me many
of
them do
an old
We passed
Choedon took me
to the
is
a wrathful
mean
and
angry;
it
protective."
placed
my
offering of rupees
and asked
protection.
SANDY JOHNSON
9 J
Once back to my
again,
Choedon
and
walked
monks
in
and
his
dancI
thought:
Do
It
was
real
a disturbing thought.
had
marriage
I'd
me
for
I'll
your
or even your
as
while,
it
would seem
we had found
refuge in
each other. But then, when the illusion faded, we'd both
feel betraved,
hoodwinked.
Is it
possible
I still
could get
it
right?
"
Have yo u heard
his
asked Father
I
Bob,
who was on
way
to the patio to
joined him,
is
when she
hears a
You
there!
If
you
kiss
me,
I'll
looks
down and
says.
Doubtful, the
sorry.
I
woman
walks on.
It's I
The
'Please,
you won't be
promise.
whole
life.'
"Finallv she
bends down, picks him up, and tucks him into her
You forgot to
kiss
me!'
The woman
takes
him out
of
him
for several
think
Father Bob threw his head back and laughed, then asked,
told
believe
what he
about
my health,
don't
also
would think
so.
He
lasting.
me
For a
moment
felt
cheated.
that.
We watched the sun begin its descent behind the mountain. A hawk
wheeled out of the north and swept down into the shadows,
wings catching the
light,
its
great
and dived
SANDY JOHNSON
9 9
NOMADIC LIFE
Not
of sheep
large,
all Tibetans
live in
original
inhabitants were
nomads
living in high,
their herds
lived in
low-slung tents
to trade
made
of yak hide,
meat and
cheese.
They spoke
their
own
dialect
and
charm boxes
at their
necks
at their waists.
his
so
much
a part of old
Tibet that
"I
area of
come from
it
Mount
Kailash, an
year
When
was
five
cars old,
sisters
of us
lived in
one
large tent
made
of yak hide.
"In the middle of the tent was the fireplace, a sort of iron grate big
enough
to hold
two
pots.
we
The
rest of
On the floor
keep
when
it
rained so the
stay outside to
watch over the sheep, to make sure they weren't harmed by wild animals
or stolen
by
thieves.
The
They were
pirates
and would
steal
"Our
and
goat.
And
Then
at Losar
we
al-
We
didn't
lived like
nomads
"Once
many
as seventy families
would come
together to decide
mals.
The
in the
herd and
how
Some had
when anyone
Up until this point, most of the people I had met centered their lives
around monasteries and temples.
I
being con-
on the move.
are quite religious.
"Nomads
We
do
practices
and pujas
daily.
visit
We We
animals
SANDY JOHNSON
too
much
stress
on the
eyes. If
someone wanted
My friend Tenzin
become my
we
wife,
and
My
sister,
who had
sheep
all
we had
to
studied at night.
I
reached seventeen,
wanted
to
do something more
I
my
life,
I
so,
without asking
as a
my
family's permission,
went
to a
monastery.
was ordained
monk
at a
Bonpo [pre-Buddhist
animistic
old.
tradition] monastery,
my
would invade.
Namtak showed me
about the mystical Bonpo
a picture of his
a yellow
tell
When
asked
him
to
me
in Tibet,
Namtak seemed
reluctant.
against teach-
My main
teaching
was Nyingma."
"When did you decide not to be a monk?" gave back my vows and married. "I was a monk for five years. Then Her family was much bigger than my own. Thev had two or three tents, as opposed to my family's one, and more than a thousand sheep, twelve yaks,
I
These long-haired dogs would herd the sheep and protect them from
thieves
in nature, the
ef-
fective than
human when
it
came
could
as the
10
Even though we
many
had an
for Tibet.
which we used
as
wanted
slip
to go over
Nede
pass,
but
backward on the
it.
icy track, so
we had
to go back
It
It
go through the
fill
ports to be issued.
These we took
Lama hadn't
ers
arrived yet in
after
"We
the Dalai
tries,
were sent
first
Lama had
USSR
many Tibetan
years.
refugees
had
settled.
or
two
there in 1963.
in his
mother's
womb.
That's
why he
looks so strong!
My
wife
had no
in a hospital.
She'd never
been
in a hospital before.
She found
it
we were
we found
house
as no-
with a
little bit
of land
We left
on
a pilgrimage to
Bodh Gaya,
and
finally
up
to the north.
money we
had.
the heat.
My wife and
SANDY JOHNSON
building roads.
how
how
we
to survive.
enough
to eat on.
We worked for three rupees a day, and We had to repair our trousers nine or
new ones.
Red Cross from Switzerland would
which ones wanted to emigrate.
of the families were too big
"While we were
come and
Most
of the families
wanted
to go, but
many
to be taken to Switzerland.
younger
our
the
sister,
who was
sick.
told
them we
later,
little girl.
two years
agreed.
I
When
I'd
again,
we
was hesitant
because
E L D E
heard that
in
Switzerland
we
wc could
do only Christian
I
practices.
asked
about being so
far
away from
his
homeland.
"Our family
is
very
happy
living in Switzerland.
We have everything
like all
like to
be buried
free.
in
I
would
like
my country to be
[in
Padmasambhava prophesied
The
text doesn't
it
if
Tibet can
cently
we heard
"We are very happy also that people around the world have been exposed to Buddhism through our refugees. Our one concern, though,
that the younger generation of Tibetans does not
in
is
seem
to be as interested
in Tibet.
elders.
Buddhism
as they
We're
A whole
new
generation of Tibetans
is
depressing.
"On
study
my
wife,
who
never had
much
of a chance to
to hear
Buddhism when we
many
main
My
wish
is
that
people
who are
able to read
and think
positively
SANDY JOHNSON
O 5
That evening,
wonder these people
belong in the
as
sat writing in
my journal,
thought,
Is it
any
fell
Communists? They
don't
real world,
God
Shambala.
I
made
a stab at meditating.
had
my
in sweat-lodge ceremonies,
It
was forced to
my mind
be cooked.
sat cross-legged
on the
floor
and quieted
it
my
06
MEDICINE AND
ASTROLOGY
Medin-
and Astrology.
name
as a translator for
my
My first
I
my
appointment. But
"What
in his
book In
methods
of Tantric meditation
and
visualization.
ical illness
had given
me some
the
spirit.
"miraculously" cured
believe
later
documented
in a
my own recovery was profoundly helped by healing techniques taught to me by Native American medicine men and women.
So with considerable
curiosity
and
a very sick
stomach
was
to the
Dalai Lama's mother; following the Dalai Lama's flight to India, he was
imprisoned
1980.
in his
own country by
Two
Lama and
Dharamsala
as chief
Since 1984, Dr. Choedrak has been involved in research programs with
in conferences
on global
is
from the
large
We
The doctor
looked up,
I
was written
on the doctor's
O 8
Hon
in a
maximum-security Chinese
was damaged
during one of those prolonged beatings, the retina detached, the eyeball
man
prison and stood on the red line that marks the border on the Nepal-
"Now
all
you Chinese
Kelsang-la explained to
had
a "very
reached for
the
he explained, "the
and the
third
sions,
enough
Each
Then he looked
that could easily be cured by "precious pills," which detoxify the blood.
Precious
pills are
made from
first
have been
boiled with certain plants, then ground into powder and dried in a cool
place away from sunlight.
of the eighth Tibetan
I
full
moon
my
if
Tibetan
"There
a cure,
is
it is
the same.
I
We can't find
feel that these
and
it is
an effective treatment.
am familiar with
have a powerin
radiation
and chemotherapy
are
as a
methods
ful effect
good
in
France
who had
When
gave
helped to
SANDY JOHNSON
Dr. Teniin
Choedrak
Dr.
to give
me
"Tibetan medicine
is
Bonpo
tradition, a
a.d.,
famous teacher taught medicine near the time of the Buddha. In 253
an Indian sage came to Tibet and taught his medical system, which was
then practiced by a single family
who were
Around the
from
Iran,
time
and taught
system in Tibet.
Then between
eighth centuries, the Tibetan king Trisong Detson, and the Tibetan father
of medicine,
first
medical confer-
many
They
The
different medical
a very impor-
own
specialties.
They compiled
first
medical college,
"Then
in the
happen
in the future. It
was
prophesied that in the coming time there would be a great change, the
coming
of industry,
which would
air,
water,
and
would find
it
"Our
era
are
"Our medical
sons.
There
by snakes or
dogs;
certain plants
when one
not in
it-
poisonous but,
when not
there
is
the stomach.
Then
atmosphere
sun.
I
"When
visited Russia,
learned about
many gas
treated
many
people there
who were
working as
officials at that
time, survivors
SANDY JOHNSON
III
All of
cine.
my
twenty-four patients were completely cured by Tibetan mediso well that they
hope
Russia,
problem
medicine
there.
am formulating the crucial medicine here, but it is very expensive. The ingredients call for gold and several ground-up jewels, including emeralds,
rubies,
I
and diamonds."
had read
To
understand
how
fit
together, students at
Illustrated Tree of
Medicine, which has three roots, nine trunks, forty-two branches, two
hundred twenty-four
this
and two
how to associate
the tantras with different parts of the tree, and then go on to study each
root, branch,
and so
on.
Buddha explained
in the first, or
all
three
humors
human
read
humors
of the
body
something
Dr.
tome.
"Subtle energy accounts for the
movement
for flexibility.
There
each of these
re-
humors
in the body,
and
if
The movable
part of the
bodv
is
body responds
is
classify,
when we want
we need
to
to
hundred
different types.
If still
deepen the
analysis,
we go up
to sixteen
study many,
"If
many years.
is
excessive, then
body
gets hot.
there
is
too
little
12
gets cold.
Phlegm
is
by nature
like
if
you have
heat,
a dis-
enough
and the
abdomen
get cold.
mouth,
is
movable
due
Lung functions
like
an
electric current
which vou connect so something can move. Healthful lung energy pushes
the blood and gets
a very easy
it
is,
in general,
it
way
gets very
complicated.
"Lung
the
is
also intricately
in
mind
affects
lung
activity,
and disturbance
When you have a problem in the mind, like unhappiness, if you are frightened, then your heart starts to beat very
body.
fast.
That
is
"When
fat
much
so
and
is
forms
in the body.
Then
down
com-
"When
suffer
people
become
much
blood in their
sys-
tems, mostly
this
We call
When
a per-
fat,
energy.
As
consequence, he or she
isn't
when
son
is
very pale.
"Many
diets.
The
categories. Ideally,
empty, one should be liquid, two parts should have food. 'This
the cor-
SANDY JOHNSON
113
energy. In the
West
es-
many people
can't
be digested
properly.
that en-
good
will
the factor
re-
"The body's
is
is
phlegm.
If
there
too
develop a
there
is
too
little,
you begin to
shiver.
a simplified explana-
He
told
me
and methods of anesthesia. But when the mother of King Muni Tsenpo
died after an operation to lessen the water around her heart, surgery was
officially
that
it
Choedrak
cited a reference to an
He added
much
specific
knowledge.
In addition to
tors
at
humors and an
must
learn also
how to
on the
is
wrist,
taken
then the
left;
is
used
presses
the middle three fingers of each hand on the flesh and bone of the patient.
Each
hollow organs
14
thus twelve
These
relay information
of a patient's organs. For example, with his right index finger, the doctor
left,
reversed for
pulse" of a patient
bile
whether he
or she
is
or-
gans.
Through an
clude
in the
if
is
able to con-
the illness
body can be
investigated.
Each humor
and
humors
has
a characteristic pulse.
The
pulses
is
The pregnancy
after six
weeks
the
and "quivering" to
grain."
hen eating
Imminent death
also
pulse reading.
but
critical
Tibetan medin-
Tibetan medicine.
of taking the
first
incredibly bitter-tasting
water,
I
which must be
I
partlv
was
symptom-free.
in
SANDY JOHNSON
situation,
life
Tibetan
is
The
span
calcu-
and divided into nine periods, each ruled by one of the heavenly
Each period
is
bodies.
chart,
interpreted in relation to
it
its
at
which
occurs.
life
span, over-
bodily and physical condition, economic and political power, and over-
made
for
marriages and births. Astrologers also forecast the general welfare of the
country.
week
for treatments
The
patient's life-force
and
life-spirit
mined from
to
span can
be calculated, one's
person's
life
life
also
earthquake
is
written in the
stars.
As
ney,
I
seemed
on
this jour-
willingly agreed to
have
my
I
astrological chart
done by Jampa
Kel-
sang.
The two
charts I'd
promote
and
residence(!);
love to
My weakness could be
I
impatience, and
use lots of
money
unnecessarily;
and
am
advised to control
my
temper;
my health was
in
am coming now
peace and happiness. Jampa Kelsang also told me, "You have good
dren
who
who are
sup-
You have
much
although
had no way
of
forme).
On the whole the reading was surprisingly accurate. requested that he not give me the date of my death, lest wake up on that day and be litI I
Jampa Kelsang
didn't,
to a rather abrupt
see.
. .
of spicy noodles
and tukpa
at the
Hotel
began
my interview with
in
Professor
"I
was born
1939
in Lhasa.
I
had
tion,
completed
astrology, poetry,
astrology,
went to
village
"Our
went out to
began to
know
all
would make
my
escape.
termine
when
a Tibetan
SANDY JOHNSON
move
it
a little
down
day.
Tibet in
December
1960.
waited
I
till
dark, then
all
strapped
my
luggage to
my
walked
Lama, where
when I came
to Dharamsala.
When
I
the
com-
my studies,
and
am now teaching.
earth, metal,
elements:
Wood,
fire,
and
water.
composed
elements.
"These
verse: the
five
you use
on which
we
live,
the metal
we use
for
fluids are
is
the
fire
vital organs,
is
wood element;
water element.
of a
weak
liver,
he says there
is
wood element. At
when
in the
as-
wood element, he
trologer
says there
is
problem
in the liver.
Thus,
Tibetan
and
Tibetan doctor reads pulses but also thinks about the patient's animal
sign,
when he was
make
is
good.
We consider the
we
life
and fourth,
the husband has to go out and find food for the family. So for him, his
life
to give birth, so
her health
So we compare
these four different aspects in each of them, and calculate their compatibility.
"If for
is
unfavorable,
we might
suggest to
day.
to his birth-
Or
if
unfavorable,
amulet
for her. In
some
will
lems."
I
wanted to know
if
if
trologer
they
felt
out
if
"I
have found
this
problem
in this
There
ried
are couples
first
who
are very
much
So
in love,
get mar-
without
lem, they
come
to
me
for help.
draw up
where they
make an amulet
tain text to free
them
or ask
them
do
them from
their obstacles.
"In the olden times, the amulet would contain a scripture or mantra
of the astrological deity
It all
would be drawn
have
as
in ink
made from
much
time, so
then we
write the
mantra of some
Each
sign has
its
SANDY JOHNSON
119
Professor
is
first,
so that
he himself
I
asked
were true that his calculations can predict the date when
someone
will die.
"We can predict when a person is going to die, but generally it is not
good
to
be that
specific. Instead
we recommend
life
offerings be
made, and
to save the
of an animal.
We
do
good
karma
we
is
is
when
a person
We
when
breathing on
its
own.
"We
2 o
and capacity
for
THE
spiritual
will
tell
do
spiritual practice
and
if it
will
And we look
I
to see
some
life."
asked
if
one
for Tibet?"
"Since there
is
problem
in
what changes
problem
lations
it is
are
disunity.
Given
is
no chance.
my calcuresult,
appears that
maybe
is
we
are going to
have a good
but
negative."
interview to a close.
If
the asI
SANDY JOHNSON
12
The desk clerk told me there was a message for me, and handed me a slip of paper. Tenzin Geyche Tethong, the Dalai Lama's private secretary, had called. My audience with His Holiness would take
place the following day at one o'clock.
I
ttell
him.
He was on
|
enough
I
,owedmine
woke
them
I'd
at
dawn
the morning of
filling
two pages of
I
with questions.
read
over; in despair
had
be alloted, but
was certain
it
wouldn't be
went
for a
walk to
try to quiet
my
head.
The
ven-
stalls;
empty and
cloudless as
buddha-mind.
I
match
front
car.
They
One
little
it.
open
a bot-
of soda pop,
hill
with
what looked
I
like a hairdryer.
tell
someone
at the
monkey
invasion,
when
shouting.
in
The man
I
yelled:
"They've taken
it: I
couldn't help
. . .
laughed.
.
My
concerns
The
laughter
arrived early,
thorough security
a pat
search,
down. The
woman
my
sat in
an anteroom until a
monk
attendant escorted
me
along a
breezeway to a veranda and through the wide doorway that opened onto
the Dalai Lama's receiving room.
cently returned from Tibet,
It
re-
me
Lama walked
smile,
directly
beaming
katak,
his
famous
and
said, "Hello,
welcome."
fumbled
for a
my book
almost
falling,
SANDY JOHNSON
hands.
The moment
of his gaze,
relaxed
to be enveloped in the
warmth
was
fully
filled
moment.
in large,
in a chair
who was
con-
And
"No,
think
like
my word better."
spacious, filled with fresh flowers, altars, statues,
clutter.
The
Dalai
Lama lis-
tened with rapt attention to the Swiss couple's report of what they had
observed while in Tibet. They were describing what happened while they
toured the Potala, the Dalai Lama's winter palace in Lhasa. While they
lights
suddenly
The
Dalai
Lama
asked
if
When
Lama my
on Tibetan
lighted
that
know."
He
when he recognized
faces of individuals
he had met.
He
agreed
my
definition of "elder"
had
less to
When
cup."
I
confessed
for Tibet.
12
The
lieve
Dalai
Lama nodded
"I
be-
one day be
freed.
Our
dedication,
sacrifice,
will
dom. However,
lence."
"What do you
tion?"
I
say to
asked.
are our
"Enemies
most important
is
teachers.
They
im-
we meet
dha
of
and com-
passion
meaning
to a person
who
is
me
was a
man
of such ordinariness,
instantly
in the
such unself-consciousness, a
forgets
man
All
so
words seemed to
was
presence of pure
Afterward, on the way out, we stopped on the steps, and monk attendant offered to take a picture. stood a step below the Dalai
I
my
hand, hugged
I."
it
to his chest,
and
"We
I
are
just
on the same
bought
it
level,
you and
He
ring
it
had
at a stall.
The
small, aged
I
sold
to
me
sold
said that
(I
must wear
when
go to
don't
know how
she
audience).
little,
She
me
this
compared
the Dalai
"Where
Lama
asked. of the
"From one
women
in the stalls,"
answered.
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
"I
I
know this
ring,"
he
said quietly,
and blew on
it
to bless
I
it.
will
wear around
a
my neck until
tery.
disintegrates.
And
now held
mys-
Whatever had gone before and whatever lay ahead, I thought I would
I
OUT OF INDIA
bet
in a
needed very
little
persuading to
change
my
my
would be
me
in Delhi
when
tried to get
on
Now
I
people
flights
out of
walked
several blocks
from
my hotel
The
sights
on the
street
were
terrifying.
noses crowded the sidewalks; the heat was suffocating. Splatterings of spit
who
stared at
me
when
and grabbed
I
my
skirt.
Too cowardly
turned
away.
At the
canceled.
airline office
all
flights
An
I
me
I
suggested, in a
quiet voice,
lars).
five-hundred-rupee note
(less
street,
groomed
flight
the money.
last seat
on the
last
out of Delhi."
I
When
gone.
as
an English
my
bags.
I
On
the
it
five
beggars
saw,
but
did
little
I
my conscience;
had
a
the
little girl
2 S
In
illegally
like
the tailor
What fol-
i
their horses,
til
"When
fair
the Chinese
attacked
Chamdo, we were
af-
dishes.
We saw our hosts suddenly ride off toward Lhasa on We didn't find out untroops had arrived. In
[the Dalai
Communist
and
December
1950,
was
asked to
pants and a
I
a layman-style chuba,
but not to
anyone.
When
me
to
come
day and to wear an ordinary chuba and leather shoes, that we would be
leaving at four in the morning.
'As
in
we mounted our
noticed tears
I
Gyalwa Rinpoche's
for
I
eyes.
He was
had made
away
from Lhasa.
we
I
stayed in
Dromo
we had brought
little
with us,
with India, so
ordered
was
nere-
dyed
it
Many
I
my sewing that
felt.
never
understood them.
in
Chinese,
many
The Chinese
paid well
less
up
government paid
than a tenth of
in
me
accompany
was a
his
entourage to China.
"It
difficult journey.
to travel
first
by mule or on
who had
led the
came with
and when we
put up a red cloth fence around Gyalwa Rinpoche's tent at night, the general
demanded one
as well.
We explained
I
made him
had brought
along.
He
13
for
he suspected some
it.
sort of discrimination,
about
"About
five
including lamas and their disciples, government officials and their families,
cooks, valets,
no
as usual to see
They seemed
tourage continued overland with our luggage, three planes carried the rest
of us to Shingang. After this noisy
and cold
journey,
we were
joined by the
his
we
house
in a
complex
built
a lovely garden.
cooks, servants.
Our
own
servants
factories,
schools,
and other
We'd
stay
up
late,
if
they
place."
I
asked.
rarely
at meals,
and we
seemed
terrified.
and
stores,
all
about
how much
material progress
China had made, how poor the Tibenefit from "help" from China.
Some
new things
SANDY JOHNSON
13
but
my lama,
told
of the
modern
technology.
faster,
airplanes
if
meant
that
we
the
And
a lot quicker.
So I was not
impressed
when
how
destitute
we
were.
To me, they
like a hell
seemed obvious
to
me
that
we were
Our temples
with
all
and
lavish ceremonies
mous
artists
enlightenment
or a better rebirth.
Where
else in the
your
money
remember
all
of our treasures
and
felt
that
I
we
but be aware of the mounting tension around me. As the years passed,
things got worse
and worse,
until, in
March
1959,
meeting
at the
Tsuglakhang.
rebellion
and
had heard
and wanted
to
we
advised
for
them
rit-
our
my
because
to visit
at the
time
had gone
my
mother,
132
who was
old
and
feeble.
He had
this.
With
heavy heart,
returned to Lhasa.
relieved
and was
when
From my window,
could see
many
resistance
they came
to
my
up
their quarters in
my
upstairs
dif-
served
them
tea,
thinking that
it
might be useful
later on.
When they left, they thanked me for my hospitality and told me they had
been very comfortable
at
my house.
was soon
Later
"The Lhasa
way
rebellion
found their
there.
Many people were killed in the last pockets of resistance. The Chinese celebrated their victory by releasing thousands of paper flowers from a plane
as
it
my house to go pay some bills, a Chinese official and Tibetan translator came to my door and told me to
'A few days
later, just as
I
was leaving
a prison.
They knew
me already, so there was not much to say. At the prison, they took my money and put me in a room with fifty other prisoners. The condiabout
tions of our
in like animals,
given only a
all
for sanitation.
The
we were used
"Since
I
couldn't sleep,
rolls
had
a great deal of
I
time to think.
remem-
bered
all
the
SANDY JOHNSON
13 3
clients,
did this
keep up
had put
punish
me in me for
my morale. Then started to realize that all of these things prison. It made me shiver to think that the Chinese would
I
contributing to a way of
I
life
vowed
if I
would make an
great temples.
'After ten days,
I
had
Although
so
several people
still
had
died, the
in
more people,
we were
overal-
crowded.
And
lowed to send
but
after a
in a
thermos
bottle,
store-
They began
rooms
left
was inedible.
not waste
survival.
I
felt
that
if I
my
situation,
it
would
toward
my
"When I was called for interrogation, the head of the prison, a fierceme that had spent most of my life exploiting the
I
tailor.
He
fist
I
on the
he talked to me.
Finally,
all
when
got a chance to
to,
talk,
told
him
that he could
bang
his fist
he wanted
I
but
was only a
I
tailor.
When
in
had complied.
in politics.
said,
'I
had cooperated
me, when
am
jail.
"Where
that
I
all
that,
don't know.
Then added
I I
had been
Lama's
old,
and
When
he asked
if I
could
13
said of course
could, they
would be nothing
at
all
and
fitting of the
brocade
A few
days
later,
he brought
me
a shirt that
to
mend, then
a pair of
me
send
home
for
my
tailor
working
for
came pouring
in so fast that
he decided to
set
up
but
We
packed
in a cell.
"In
mid
1959,
had
to
undergo a public
trial.
These
harsh
affairs of
The
prison authorities
had
told
me
that they
wanted to exempt
me from this, but since they could not, they would recDuring the
trial,
I
had
to
units, people
nounce
few of the
women
said that
when
had
a woman apprentice. They tore my clothes, beat me with their fists, and pulled mv ear until was sure that it would come off. think they would have killed me except that my nose began to bleed profuselv. Then they remembered
far
with me, so
they
let
me go back to prison.
about a
year,
I
'After
was back
in the
work-
put in
SANDY JOHNSON
day,
we were
sent to
Mem
more
made me
feel desperate.
The
many
secret,
one of the
bearer,
men who had worked for me so he told me about it. His job was to
them
at night to the cemetery.
in 1962.
found rooms
in
another house.
taken from the
was
in prison, the
me red wool me
and
arrived
home
in
my
red chuba.
My mother's
in
friends told
like a
public, that
anyone dressed
what seemed
punished.
'After a
few months,
was
summoned
I,
who were
was told
because
hat.'
being in
jail,
who wore
we
ers
I
said or did.
to get information
from
mv
friends:
if
if
as a tailor.
And
they
found that
made
a mistake,
method
of
among
odd
was required to do
sorts of
jobs,
such
as
up
so
much time
couldn't
that
I
mand
sew
I36
different families
They
all
were Tibetan,
it.
for the
had made
for the
tributed as loot.
ings
paint-
clay ones
and
in the
float in the
swamp
an eerie
for
for several
effect.
months,
their
heads
visible, eyes
smoked
turned into a
filed.
"I
all
and bad
things that
karma that we reaped during the Cultural Revolution. But the Chinese,
whether they knew
it
some
future date.
I
it
had believed
and worked
for
go up
tried to accept
it
it
in order to retain
"By 1967,
In addition to
to go to
sions.
to earn a living.
I
all
odd
jobs
had
to
do
as a hat wearer,
was required
many denunciation
itself
or ideological meetings
self-criticism ses-
Lhasa
was
in turmoil,
"In 1969,
had been
my
apprentices,
worked
as a cutter
and
SANDY JOHNSON
3 J
my ex-
my salary was
more
those of us
who wore
up and brought
had been
to
re-
the
Meru
we were
again
we had the
right to talk to
whomever we wished
to go wherever
we wished.
In 1980,
ports,
ordeals
The
International
Geneva-based human-rights
the Chinese: hundreds of public executions aimed to intimidate the population, including dragging the accused to their deaths
behind galloping
them from
airplanes.
It
were forced to shoot their parents and religious teachers. Monasteries were destroyed and looted, their sacred images desecrated; monks and
in public.
The
People's Liberation
Army
an-
When
the Chinese
first
Wandu
Phala
as well as in
1950, Radio
Beijing
announced
that the
Army would
liberate Taiwan,
Hunan, and
Tibet.
Our
and
amount
of artillerv
3 S
Dorji
Wandu Phala
Britain, the
"When the Chinese invaded Chamdo, headquarters of Tibet's eastern front ten
months
later,
The war
Our
but to no
avail.
The UN's
posi-
"In
December
Lama by
him
the Chi-
if
necessary,
we could
get
into India
ment
ter
Zhou
SANDY JOHNSON
3 9
sign.
a Seventeen-
all
Tibetan government that were forged in Beijing. With the signing of that
so-called agreement, Tibet lost
its
identity as a nation-state.
"We
troops
troops.
The
Dalai
Lama had
just
turned sixteen in
The
Red Army
marched
into Lhasa. By
December
"Soon
Lama
up
maintained strongholds
mountains.
people.
One
Lama and
summer
teries.
The
who
Lama on
seven-month
China.
orga-
we were
We
common Chinese people were, and how severely they were controlled by Mao and Zhou Enlai (they used to call him Chew 'n' Lie). That whole
year,
I
felt
very unsure.
to Tibet.
Although everyI
wasn't afraid
felt
extremely uncom-
140
fortable.
The Chinese
I
did not
to be feared.
felt this
very strongly.
"On March
Dalai
7,
Lama
Chinese camp.
His Holi-
come
unarmed body-
The
"We could not agree to this. News spread quickly, and a rumor swept
through Lhasa that the Chinese planned to kidnap the Dalai Lama.
earlier,
to
arrested
Lama was
if
summer
that
their ruler
let
him do
We
They wouldn't
It
let
the Dalai
clear to us
Lama
became
Lama must
es-
cape.
It
I
was very
then,
didn't
tell
anyone,
to the crowds
Lama would
de-
invitations to
PLA headquarters.
demonstrations decrying the Sev-
"The
was in a
state of turmoil;
The
PLA mounted
heavy
artillery
valley.
The
Dalai
SANDY JOHNSON
in his autobiography:
likely to
'I
felt as if
erupt at any
moment
between
My
most urgent
my unarmed people
"On March
at the
15, a
Two
days
later,
the
first
shots were
Mortar
shells fell
"This was the moment. With no belongings, only one cup in our
pockets,
we
left
The
Dalai
Lama
dis-
guised himself in a layman's robe and hat, a gun slung over his shoulder,
and removed
ter,
his glasses.
all
One
the provisions
we could
bring.
The
Dalai Lama's
a tarp in the
how we
Khampas, underground
fighters,
Khampas
we
The
trip
took more than two weeks by horse. At one point, Chinese planes
spotted.
We expected they'd be
just
on us
in
no time. But
behind
us,
con-
and we were
image of that
protection.
I
act of divine
asked
He
and nodded
silently.
"Some
officials
followers could
come
into
142
We settled first in Musoori. There we organized schools and settlements until the government-in-exile moved to Dharamsala in 1960. We
India.
in different places.
went
to
Europe
was
a big change,
I
went to Sussex,
England, where
"My
and
well.
brother,
Thupten
first
Phala,
who had
settled in
Geneva,
in
Switzerland,
became the
Lama
I
Europe
as
my
moved
to Switzerland.
So eventually
came here
"When
Afterward,
retired.
I
first
arrived here,
helped
ill.
went to work
I
in a textile factor);
I
until
Now
live
an ordinary life.
I
get
up
me more than
an hour to say
ping, take
lot of
my prayers. Then have my breakfast and do some shopmy walk, and write letters. After that, read scriptures. I have a
I
visit
each other.
It's
a large
Tibetan com-
munity.
I
The
The time
I
passes quickly."
interviewed thought
about the future of Tibet. Namtak Yundung's concerns were about the
next generation of Tibetans,
who
are
growing up
in the
West and
receiv-
ing their teachings from Western-educated lamas; while Mr. Phala's were
who seem
to be
more Western-
more
system
in
China
will
SANDY JOHNSON
14 3
change.
The younger
also
seem more
my last
if
you ask
if
Tibet
is
we must
say
we
don't know.
My
my homeland
is
how I can
our
With
can face any hardship. The Tibetan community has the Dalai
is
Lama, so there
have
this.
I
is
privilege.
tell
my
must
and not
lose
sets
an example
for the
We
him and we
feel
much better. No
was beginning
to bring
to understand
how
had managed
enough
of Tibet with
them
to sustain themselves.
14
WA
HEROES
Ngawangthongup, known
March 20
as
Kuno, was
took
place three days after the Dalai Lama's escape to India. Twenty-eight years
Kuno was
the youngest
of Lhasa, a post to
He had
fought
victory,
he
was to overcome
his
Educated
as a
monk
both
in
Lhasa and
produced
by Remington Rand
in 1976.
He
numerous
books and
articles in
Kuno
be-
came
the official biographer of His Holiness the Dalai Lama. Tall, reed
thin, with
lives
an aquiline
in
face, his
Kuno now
and works
of the Dalai
Lama
in
Dharamsala.
is
Ngawangthongup.
My nickname,
Kuno,
when
it
also appears in
a different
meaning. According to
my
horoscope,
rid of obstacles in
my life.
I
was born
I
in 193
was their
realized that
was good
for
my
religious, while
"As a child,
lived with
my mother
home
in the country. It
in construc-
tion to
and
larger
than most.
Across the front there were two big steps, then a courtyard.
"I
my
family.
When
my grandmother began teaching me Tibetan me that when you eat, you must look
and shape, and ask where
it
produced
it.
In Tibet,
all rice is
My
grandmother would
say,
A single
one
one grain
Think
of the people
you waste a
you are
she'd
really
say,
went into
producing
it.'
Then
Taste things
individually, don't
mix them
146
together.
And
it
to your
at least a prayer' It
first
taught
in
it.
me how
interdependent the
world
really
is,
my
my father took me from my mother's home because he wanted to put me in school in Lhasa. My grandmother and mother were training me as a medical doctor, you see, but wanted to be a monk.
"Later,
I
Buddhism.
I
had
go,
wanted to
became
"You know,
polyandry.
If
married
somebody,
after that,
two or
I
three. Also,
one
My
my mother
Sometimes
all
three wives
all
would gather
Each
woman
called
I
took care of
all
of the children as
"
we
them
asked
'mother.'
if it
him
I
was hard
for
I
him
to leave
home
at
'At
first,
wanted
to see
my
[biological] mother.
for her.
I
also
loved
my
grandmother
very, very
college
had
"Drepung monastery
like a
whole
university,
Lama or his
was
SANDY JOHNSON
14 7
one of those young monks who were brought to the Potala palace school,
where
I
lived
Lama,
But
times
when we were
him
giving
him
went
to offer
scarves.
we
much
about the
far reaches of
the world.
gland.
and En-
We knew nothing of the Americas. We didn't know about other inlike this: Russia,
Mongolia,
face;
then on
this side
was
ear. It
Second World War that we found out how much we didn't know.
wanted to see something
"After
of this world.
completing
this college,
monk
official
ferent offices.
was placed
all
religious sites.
That was
oracle
in 1948."
had
said
I
about Tibet's
polit-
ical
state.
asked
Kuno
to explain
this to
me.
in
"Only
officials join
monk
officials
and
lav officials
except
the
1642,
and
Lama
is
the families
The
Fifth Dalai
Lama
invited
of the
4 8
Kuno
children of the aristocracy to reform the government. At that time the lay-
Dalai
the government should work for the peasants and the noof the people
the majority
different
monasteries,
to join in the
justice.
'At
first,
those
monks were
elderly,
well.
Then
the Dalai
it
Lama and
a
his assistants,
train
who were
like
prime ministers,
thought
ficials
would be
good idea to
monks
So
monk
officials.
Thev
selected
SANDY JOHNSON
4 9
monks from
cap and
traditional monasteries
who
who were
varied back-
grounds
peasants, nomads,
and
common
"During the
litically,
and the
teenth Dalai
Lhasa,
Lama had
we
already
of
among
official,
And
later,
when
had become an
felt
we needed
to
move
in a different direction.
The
pres-
Lama
also
United States,
staff
clerk of the
Holiness there as
monk
official.
We
us, ordering us
They
told us to
and
wait.
We
went on.
summer,
when
China
The
tween our two countries. The Dalai Lama even gave us money
like
pocket money.
Institute.
At
first,
we Tibetans had
The Seventeen-Point
all
Tibetan traditions
we
the custom
Other students, even Mongolians, had bunk beds, but Tibetans had
5 O
beds.
we
don't eat
or mutton.
"But
change
rapidly.
At
first
we were
al-
religion, language,
stu-
Even the Chinese were learning the Tibetan language, but not our
culture or religion.
They taught
Long
afraid to
to claim that
a saying:
A hundred
flowers can
bloom together
At
at once,
and
ones in the school to make a poster that questioned the Chinese polof 1956,
icy
trouble began.
we
began to
realize that
we were
in danger.
a foural-
month
my mother.
I
If
that
had not
was on a
blacklist.
One
of
my
teachers, a
Chinese
to guar-
who had
lived in
London and
Paris,
advised
I
me
to leave.
He had
So
but
"The
time
met
the Dalai
Lama was
in
China.
The
so-called
Communist Chinese
worked on the
When
the Dalai
Lama went
to Beijing at the
SANDY JOHNSON
end
of 1954,
as
a book,
and wanted
know about
China.
the project.
He
also
wanted
to hear
in
me
alone.
and
told
me
that he
wanted
to bring
more changes
Lama had
tution and even invited village people to Lhasa to be specially trained, but
also
manipulated by the
who
sup-
as their benefactors.
1
we were not
prepared.
Lama
fight.
"We
machine-gun post
we
tore
square,
and
rein-
them with
old chairs and tables and bales of cloth from the nearby
else
we could
and
lay
On
top of
we put hundreds
of flower pots
earth
some
early flowers
blooming
in
them.
"Just after
two
in the
in the
distance at
first,
side, the
western side of the building; just before sunrise, we saw that the\ were
shelling the
tall y
institute; within
destroyed
many
peo-
ple lived
totally destroyed
They destroyed
The
5 2
THE BOOK OF
B E TA S
ELDERS
soldiers
fight,
many women.
We
us.
all
worked together.
We
had only
women were
"Then,
closer,
so brave.
fire,
They brought us
The
temple was on
at
and the
women went
to help put
out.
in
found an open
was
We
if
we
could keep the Chinese out of the temple within the Potala, he could
make
his escape.
and we followed
He was
I
in charge.
and
much hope
But we
never thought that the Chinese would be so hard on the Tibetans or that
they would destroy so much.
if
we surrendered
to the Chi-
would
either
kill
we would be put
into
and
killed.
but
I still
believe
I
we
"Until 1986,
fight
Chinese and
really
wanted
fight,
to
them
was wrong.
but
now I
this way.
"They
washed
Lama
my brain.
initiation
fully received in
deal with
my mind, to counter
but
it
had studied
this before,
hadn't
SANDY JOHNSON
if
we hold anger
we
for a
country or on a
If
practice patience
and
tolerance,
in every
then
there'll
be peace within.
When we
as a
single person's
I
whole
will
have dropped
we
emies,
we should
them.
I'd
"Before 1986,
would be earthquakes
I
China
or
"They
Local
is
say,
Think
wherever you
are.
your mind. You can clean up the environment in every way, but
you
also
responsibility,
your
own
self."
It
could not
negativity
from
their minds.
I
Where
in the
pline?
flight
thought back to
Dharamsala:
"Since
had
spent so
much
of
my
time studying,
I
wasn't really
finished with
Gyume
I
Tantric Col-
began to think of
in 1956.
One
day
Gen
Nyima
you
called
me into his room. He burst out, Are you going around saying
Maybe you
just
want
an airplane?'
told
him
he
54
just
me
that
Gyalwa Rinpoche
[the Dalai
Lama],
his
tutors, the
up with
you?'
know what
to say, so
in the monastery.
I
Once
College,
Communism and
nism was
asked
my
opinion.
it
except
PLA
local
at
[People's Liberation
Army]
people the price they had asked for food and so forth.
always
He didn't reply
in public.
,
all. I
made
it
and an offering
for
When
I
asked the
Gadong ora-
me, he
said
A family gave
we
pass that
villagers
snowed.
When the
The
came
charm was
been stuck
nately
of
its
very powerful,
there.
cleared. Otherwise,
we would have
fortu-
Beyond the
pass, the
we met
a yak
We did a divination and decided to press on through a few more passes. We finally reached the Indian border and were
path through the snow.
among the
I
first
American shaman
it
divert a storm, so
knew
was a
gift,
but
now I was
SANDY JOHNSON
5 5
Denma Locho continued: "Then in 1967 His asked me to go to Manali to serve as the abbot of a
in
Holiness's
two tutors
1978
Jeffery
Hopkins
The
felt
to
dharma.
to California
initiation,
and
to
the choir
These Indians
liked
it
so
much!
They
are very
I
fond of rainbows."
smiled,
I
it
was the
first
time
mentioned to
that so
many
of the teach-
ings
had heard
tell
first
"Anger makes you and other persons unhappy, and creates enemies
and animosity.
will
maybe
there
is
a misunderstanding. Besides,
is
other person, he
onlv going to
become more
angry. Instead,
try to
understand him
better.
You have
to think
sion."
He
"If
his lap.
you
hit a
dog with
a stick, the
doesn't
know
no control over
it is
itself.
So
if
you
it is
of
no
use,
but
it
if
you
feel regret in
your
if
it is
very fortunate.
sin,
your regret
sin
will
doing
it
about
and
regret,
think,
I
is
the
this
Christians.
When
went
to a church in
London
if
saw
you confess
asked what future he saw for the Tibetan people and for the world
in general.
"Both
my
teacher and
it
feared
to
seemed
without
Many Many
have gone to
bet.
abroad.
me
who
me that
"But
is
heading
My fears
is
have been a
less
lessened
now that
the Cold
War
is
SANDY JOHNSON
5 J
"My main
flicts
interest
is
many con-
pray that
all
my
meditations
I
will
be to end
am
be
safe. Al-
ways
And
in turn,
of
their country
and continue
beings.
5 8
targeted
as the
most
was the
fire
women
of Lhasa
who
on them. And
in the
at-
when
t
to Ind 1a.
tendance
show
inside the
Chinese camp)
it
was the
down on
taking
him
These same
Dharamsala. Someone
shot later
in the pit. in the
her,
A nun from her abbey was imprisoned and grew very sick.
hospital.
She died
"I feel
and
and
am
praying for
lust for
that.
am
If
And I am
justice,
same.
there
is
truth
and
much.
I
the whole
girls
to avoid haas
maybe
I've created
a people
collectively, so
we have
Please,
may the
long
"When
volved with
it
came time
to escape,
it
was always
in
my mind
that
I
if
the
Chinese caught
me they would do very bad things to me, since was inthe women who started the movement. The border in the
and there were
I
traders,
had
to
to go through,
had
to
up
like a beggar.
such a sorrowful
mood
that
a little
somegoing
who was
out,
and we managed
to slip by.
We
It
Dharamsala.
"In
well.
Also at that time, Christian missionaries were giving out milk powder
and
oil
useful. I'm
still
alms.
"In Dharamsala, His Holiness held
day.
talk to
just
who had
come from
said that
had been
nun
in Lhasa.
He
I
When
knew how
to read
gave
in
my name
to his
I
sister.
Dharamsala;
exchange
Then an
offer
to bring
young
girls
there as
went to Sweden
and
was surprised
at
how
how
blonde!
And
the bathing suits and the things they wore, everything was so different.
My sponsors
taught
cake,
and
taught
them
dishes.
went
came back
I
ment
was put
charge of the
nursery. After
some
time,
came
here, to Dharamsala.
"At
first
we were
offerings,
build and
make
repairs.
We
received
SANDY JOHNSON
enough donations
of food so that
could do a meditation
retreat.
was
It
we
will call
"Dolma."
Dolma
which
are dark
is
still
young
twenty-fourthough
cruelty. Yet, strangely,
in her eyes,
and enormous
heroism.
of 1988, five of us
On
May
15,
monks from
a secret meeting.
We decided to stage a protest march calling for Tibetan independence and the release of Tibetan political prisoners. We vowed we
activities peaceful in
We
also
vowed
no mat-
to us,
our
lives
if
necessary
secretly
our abbey.
"At ten o'clock
on the morning
of
May
17,
we met
in front of the
Jokhang temple.
On
Thev made
but
still
slogans.
angry,
rifle
to bleed profusely.
"We
Then
in Lhasa.
Guards photographed us
and took our names and the names of our nunneries and monasteries.
they began to interrogate us one by one.
"They asked
ringleaders.
me
I
for the
names
of the ringleaders.
said
we
all
were
When
dog
to attack
my
arms and
legs
whenever
moved.
to another room,
where
Two women
beat
me
me
in the
vagina and
mouth with
prisoners
They did
this in full
I
view of
some male
iation
felt
such humil-
lost consciousness.
When
came
was
in
another
cell, still
naked.
"Sometime
young
came
for
was too
the people
who
did.
refused to give
body.
toes,
Then
with
made
Each
and
me
squat, balanced
I
on
my
my
time
fell,
came
until
I
in
and beat
me
kicked me.
They
twisted
my arms behind me
fainted.
and
in a cell; there was blood on my face my body. The pain was excruciating. During the next ten days there was blood in my urine. asked to see a doctor. When two women doctors came to see me, told them about the blood. They slapped me in
all
had no food
for
two days
after.
"Three months
later
we were
released
When
arrived
SANDY JOHNSON
63
of the
Communist
sys-
tem and
head nun and administrators were threatened that they would be held
sponsible for any future demonstrations by the nuns. During the six
there,
we were forbidden
"On
We were ordered
us.
reli-
in the fields,
and
all
other nun-
"When
reached
ill.
my home on
found
my
mother desperately
ice for
three days for shouting slogans against the Chinese for their policy of ban-
My
sister
had served
nine-month term
in
Gutsa
decided
tell
left
home
without telling
my
parents where
was go-
to Lhasa,
collected
there,
I
Mt. Kailash
in
western Tibet.
From
clothes.
summer of
1990."
In
October 199 3,
up
to seven-year sen-
up
to nine
on
a tape recorder
The
164
is
the Panchen
Lama.
When
he
lived, prisoners
Tibetan prisons:
Our
food
is
like
pig food;
treated brutally,
We
But
are beaten
and
And
It will
remain unfaltering.
And
iron
on the doors.
us.
Where
is
the freedom
we once enjoyed?
free.
Now
Sacred Conqueror,
is
your birthplace,
is
no freedom.
SANDY JOHNSON
6 5
The unending
We
did not
die.
is
6 6
ARISTOCRACY
who held their ancestral estates by grant from the government. Men
dressed in lavish
silk
and
women
robes; the
jewelry;
women braided
monks
turquoise and
a large retat
w
we
inue of servants.
They
also hired
to perform pujas
most
all
had country
tests
estates,
"When we heard
Lama
fled in 1959,
My mother was too old to travel; my daughter decided to stay behind with
her grandmother and look after the house.
"We
we
"We went
of Sikkim
is
first
the queen
all
a relative
officials
government
jobs,
work building
roads.
My
husband supervised the more than 600 people who were assigned
construction in the
to road
Chamba Valley
in India.
"We
we had came
difficult.
Durof
down from
many
my husband
had an administrative
posi-
and look
We
we moved
five years.
We
all
my husband
taught
religion.
We
in a separate
apartment.
The expenses
"The
a
came from
to
Tibetan school in Musoori and seen the hardships the children were suf-
fering.
He went to see
the Dalai
Lama and
asked
him
if
he would consider
sending the children and teachers to France. His Holiness consented; the
6 8
Frenchman and
morning, then
fields,
French students as
ing
well.
and cooking.
When
had completed
"Finally
their studies,
we came
to Switzerland.
of Tibet.
She
lives
here in Switzerland
we had no contact.
up
was
who went
seen
my daughter?' until
still
me that
work
in
she was
alive.
all
members
of aristocratic families to
They were
and had
to
wade
even in the wintertime. They were treated very badly; they were even
for-
bidden to look up
years old,
years.
at the
Chinese.
My
daughter,
who was
only thirteen
problems. She
"I feel
married
now
Communist government,
do."
who harmed my
children
had
re-
little,
scenes that
mained
vivid in their
memories.
He
The
is
for tar-
SANDY JOHNSON
69
get practice,
The woman
standing behind
him
is
the mother,
"In this one, these children are being forced to shoot their parents. In
this, a
young man
is
committing
tissue.
suicide."
a dozen,
my husband
we
live
was a government
offi-
com-
in Tibet,
extremely well."
The more
wondered
for their
if,
h e a r d about
I
life in exile,
the more
my heart broke.
in their place,
could
feel
MOVING ON
don't know
at
made
the decision to
move on
to California to continue
my research.
draw
visiting teachers
all
my
into
was
in the
I
files
boxes when
and something
about
my moving
Had
the
my mind
I
then, or
had
a seventh-cena perfect
my return to the
story?
If so,
we
who
the author?
Karma? Destiny?
fires,
It
seemed
land of earthquakes,
and
mud
slides to
in
Los Angeles,
my
Zen Center is
the old-
Zen
Wendy
has lived
many of them
as
We
zendo (meditation
Wendy told me
wisdom,
the one
other.
who
The
wisdom
in those
whose gaze
explained.
told
said,
"came dressed
as you."
and
my son Billy's, and said, "It stands to reason, since I'm the Buddhist in
are yours."
the family and there you were in a Buddhist country writing a book on
With
young
a gentleness
girl,
born of
we explored our
step, she felt,
feelings
for
It
was a necessary
my own path.
own karma,"
she
re-
minded me.
She had grown wise and compassionate
in this
garden of hers.
was eager
to see
Lobsang Lhalungpa
again.
I
Tenzin Wandrak
I
had given
me
re-
could
come
He greeted me as an old
with great care to
friend, delighting in
I
my
had met.
was summer
Cristos,
when
last
had
visited Lobsang's
Santa Fe home.
The Sangre de
gold.
are
called, for the flattened leafstalks that catch the least breeze, causing the
leaves to flutter.
The mountainside
if
robed
in
As before, an
minding
on the
me now
told
Lobsang
my
Most
of
the time
felt like
one of those
slugs stuck
slow,
I
on Ani Gomchen's
I
steps.
asked, or was
when he
looks at the
problems of
his existence
growth, old
at
life.
and
is
sees
his
own
"And
minimum
level of spirituality.
spiritual life
much more
own
not
and
fam-
he
is
not in a posi-
tion to
do anything,
at least
he has a
oh,
God, there
are so
many
suffering beings,
develop
my spiritual
may
SANDY JOHNSON
17
become one
to
my source of spiritual
growth. Eventually
is
the heart of
spirituality.
"It
is
not enough to
say,
or
Tm worshiping in a temple,'
only self-concern.
for oneself to
is
To pray
for
hap-
be someone im-
"On
out
the other hand, a layman, a poor man, sitting in a corner withmaterial support,
'I
much
may have an
extraordinarily sensitive
is
mind,
and
thinks,
don't care
so
much
spir-
to
grow
spirituality.
So
those
still
in Tibet,
my
Or how
the meditations of ten yogis sitting twenty years sealed off in caves change
the world.
"Many people
enment
others
is
in the
not
itself
an end;
only a beginning.
The
lies
ahead.
The
bodhisattva
I
vow
is,
'I
do everything possible
all
achieve enlightenment so
beings,
can work to
their
alleviate suffering of
sentient
own
and
will take in
the future.
Out
of the great
mass of
it is
many have
You can
IJ4
become
like
them,
join the
army
of the great
masters
who work
for
humanity.
a basic education
"Buddhism provides
environment
about
life:
Life
and the
living
and sensual
gratification
serious destabilization
and
distress.
for their
for
what
'I
can do
what
like
its
impact on society or
life.
the ecology.'
is
Buddhism has
view of
it
a protection
comes.
derstand
why we
many
factors
if
a per-
son
illness
becomes worse.
The more
"But
the
more
suffering.
I
this
same person
wrong
is
habits,
wrong
is
diet, or
maybe
In any case,
now that
sickness
here,
in
have the
how do
meditation
comes
in. It frees
pact on the body apart from conscious efforts to face the problem. People
who
many
overcoming physical
illness,
mental
distress,
emotional prostration.
"Appreciating the fragility of
disillusionment. There
is
life
hope and
to live
long enough to enjoy your wealth. You might pop off suddenly because of
SANDY JOHNSON
J 5
1 f
^4
!#"'
H
wH.
WR
41
-i-4
mHM
Hf
;
1
1
-.
zLJ
\
WziL,
^IS
if
1
^
to sustain
Lobsang Lhalungpa
a heart attack.
this body,
think
we should
we need
and
fill
up
spiritual life.
be only a support
for
balance as long as you have that clear in your mind, as long as you
that you can use this extraordinary vehicle for spiritual purposes.
know
really
interviewed Lobsang,
asked
him now
years.
"I
was born
in
not
that rich
but
on
good
family.
My
THE
and had
a great influence
me
7 6
O O K
OF TIBETAN ELDERS
and
my
personal
five.
life.
became
monk
at
the age of
For a while
my schoolI
began to
my monastic teachers.
I
the
youngest. Soon
af-
staff of
an
a minor.
to His
and
for
many
from them.
woman,
Jet-
"My background
sis
in secular
appoint
the Tibetan and Buddhist studies in the Indian Himalayan towns of Darjeeling
add
number
in the
modern
ization.
schools in India
I
the
I 1
first
on horseback
This was a
turning point in
my life.
little,
"From 1947
tion.
to 1951,
benefits none,
and the
life lonely.
My
students
hundred. Not
my
refused to
duty, a
most
would be
1
serious,
both
for
myself and
my family in Lhasa.
of China.
In 1950
and 1951,
lost
Red Army
SANDY JOHNSON
17
"During the
faced lack of
employment and
means
ter in
and
my
began.
started to teach
scholars, linguists,
Tibet,
came
to Kalimpong,
where
lived.
my
1948 proposal to
set
up
Bud-
Ghoom
monasteries, and
decided to
set
up
We
Tibetan children
who were
Communist
by Beijing. Before long, the children joined our charitable school. That
made
to the Chinese!
nerable.
Although they
still
they were nervous. India could do nothing for Tibetans politically or militarily,
in
pursuits.
The
new cultural
some
relief
food
to eat
and clothes
this
terrible
Some
TB
and
all
was asked to
start
New
side of Tibet
about conditions
in India
and
how
pro-
India and other world aid agencies were helping the Tibetans.
The
7 8
gram
concerning education,
religion,
and our
diffi-
it
continued as almost
assistant,
worked without an
off. It
devoting
all
we
discussed
felt
most
bet,
strongly:
a
'We
are
now
and
trauma
in exile.
Our
hopeless, with
no na-
distract us.
We
lives, re-create
and foremost
vital
and
schools.
With-
out these
decided to
move with my
family to Canada.
taught at
Columbia
for a year.
Then
began to translate
I
Buddhist
lished
all
many important
books, but
of them. Tibetan
West,
to
but with so
much
misinformation, so
much
distortion, that
wanted
had
fundamental teachings
"While the
the good that
loss of
Tibet
is
great to us Tibetans
is
and
came out
of this tragedy
that
many
which
how Buddhism
and
partly in Nepal.
SANDY JOHNSON
17
"But
believe that
when you
ture, religion,
cul-
Ti-
bet
is
dharma!
in
and out
of Tibet.
And
What will
be Tibetan people,
but
how much
"That
is
anybody's guess.
it is
how things
impermanent.
Still,
hopeless,
we have
to go forward
and do whatever
children."
I
told
I
was
in India,
I
people
and
spirits
kept
didn't
telling
me must
is
find a teacher.
it.
And
felt
think
we
will see
more and
self-ap-
unfortunately,
some
emerge
locally.
who were
own
who had no
is
following in their
community
West
come with
somebody and
declare themselves a
gum
is
or a lama.
They
are publicized
and develop
are not
is
a following.
That
is
the prob-
a teacher
more than
a learned person.
all
teacher
very different.
embody
the essence of
he has read
in
I'm
much more
them
in
dhism
is
and downs,
telling
pitfalls
you
to
lot of
people
who want
make
their lives
more
8 O
it,
and going
or shave
on about
their lives.
is
name
dhism doesn't
care
how many
is
It
cares only
how each
individual
benefited."
When
Of the
flew
east
stopped
in
my eldest son.
He goes
stopped
spiritually curious.
to church regularly,
ships, for
and he meditates. He
which
am
time,
now
to consider that
maybe my
children's
karma
is
sumed by mine.
I
gave
him
that
would improve
mv
relationship with
my
mother,
whom
I
he had
always
always defended.
felt
me?
my father's death, my mother controlled the purse strings. She did not feel the need to support my writing, as my father had, or my habit of marrying and divorcing. Mark
was often money. Ever since
pointed out that his grandmother
I
is
a very
am
Gone with
the
the
Wind
My
Gone with
Wind. Or get a
SANDY JOHNSON
Buddhist Temple in
Geshe Tharchin is the abbot of the Rashi Gempil Ling Kalmuk New Jersey. He was born in Lhasa in 1929, the Year of
full
name
is
Tharchin.
"Now
am seventy-five
its
years older.
entered
more than
and
hundred to
thousand monks.
were mischievous. Our house tutor would send
up
to the rock
spring,
cliffs
from the
throwing rocks.
We liked
the long
and
slide
down
Some
wall
of the
monks
and wait
for a victim.
Then we would
and
flying in the
us.
called pakda,
dough
ball.
at firing
dough
balls at
our teachers,
especially in the
we would
stick.
unter-
the housemaster
came
at us
with his
"My house
rible goof-off
was a
and had
give
up
on
me and let me bow out before the toughest course of study, when a glorious master, Phabongka Rinpoche, came into my life.
"Phabongka Rinpoche was
a reincarnation of a
Khenpo
of the small
monastery atop the famous rock formation, which was about three miles
It
more without
off.
one of
his jokes
and
startle
the daydreamers.
of meditation in a small cell built
around the
a high
mouth
The
central
chamber had
vaulted ceiling, in the center of which was an odd natural triangle that
looked exactly
like
secret teachings.
"In the corner of the cave, an underground spring flowed, and above
SANDY JOHNSON
8 J
it
this
one
we
see
We
believe this
and that
home
I
of a dakini
first
a sort of
Buddhist angel.
a wild teenager,
I
had the
just returned
from a
When he saw me he
'
put his hand on my head and said, 'Now this one looks like a bright boy! From
that day
on
felt
pursue
my
studies.
human
life,
and
the world.
Why was
I
wasting
my time? What if
to
suddenly died?
for the
"In
efit
my heart made
and
others.
a decision to
I
ben-
of myself
remember going
my
bad boy
is
come
a geshe
the day
become
the
He
Lord Tsongkapa, attained only by reaching the highest rank of geshe, the
lharampa, and then serving as head of one of the two colleges devoted to
the study of the secret teachings.
"I
him
that
a geshe,
but
lharampa geshe
I
as well (a rank
reach). In
my
honors, Geshe
Namdrol used
me
a little sheepishly
if I
would help
him
"Before
It is
our custom to cremate the body of a holy person and preserve the
8 4
I still
and
a great
many
of us
monks came
and
make our
final offerings.
"We
since
tually
it is
matter
comes
new body,
born
as a
human.
We believe
and teach
again
if
them. Thus
it is
custom
the help of
some
great wise
men and
who
is
the
and
is
in
south India.
"We
will
in the universe,
thev each can appear on one or more planets at the same time,
this
is
who
live there.
all life;
We
believe that a
buddhahood
all
that a
things, but
all
power.
The Buddha
ample
(this
force of our
own
past deeds,
good and
these
too
we
believe
b\ ourselves.
we mean
that
any being
all
his suffering
and gained
knowledge can
SANDY JOHNSON
8 5
us, in
may
ulti-
mate
state ourselves.
'At fifteen,
thirty years old.
which continued
degree in 1953.
I
until
was
finished
my Lharam Geshe
for the final
"When
so
for
it
came time
that
I
Geshe examination,
I
had
to read
many books
two weeks
very painful,
some
sort of infection
got
unbelievably
sick.
My mind
I
became
imagined people
coming out
couldn't study, so
my
teacher told
me
to go
home,
"I
two-day
trip
wasn't frightened.
We had been
The
re-
sults of
me
to
become
stronger.
All of
"The
final
in Lhasa, in the
main temple.
They would
who
is
a great scholar,
I
was
there.
By
extraordinary luck,
automatically
finished there,
went
I
worked
an administrator.
I'd
been
them
I
Lama.
If
they
would have to
what
then
believed,
me.
If
said
thing
I'd
worked
and believed
in
So
in 1959,
chose
to go to India.
traveled
on
foot,
tain to India.
up, but
With
the melting snow, the water would be icy cold, and people's
frostbitten.
would get
Some
took us almost a
set
month
to go over the
India.
We'd
up
a tent
to sleep at night, or
stay in.
little
farmhouses we could
in a little cave.
The
only thing
carried
Do you call
of
them
goatskin.
We'd
"We
saw Chinese
We
it
it
killed
to stay in Lhasa.
Seven or
was very
close.
They
SANDY JOHNSON
Some
none
of
We covered ourselves with blankets so they couldn't We would find the casings from the shells and use them for
to
candle holders.
"I
went
first
Assam,
in India.
Then
to Delahousie,
and eventually
on
and
translate.
Nehru
agreed that the young Tibetans needed an education, so he arranged several schools for
me
to teach in
I
one of these
to learn En-
wanted
came
New Jersey, in
1972.
A friend
had come
Holiness.
and requested
a teacher
from His
When the consciousness goes to a bad place, this is a result of karma. Only karma. My previous life must
[die],
this
time around,
manv
to
me.
to take
as
I
it
from the
top.
who want
to learn as
much
many members
of this temple
fifteen or
twenty families, a
hundred
in all
but they
me
yet
if I
He
one,
I
asked
had
told
him
did not.
If
was to have
had not
found him or
"How
shorter.
can make
it
Find a teacher
who
only
He laughed. 'And
8 8
THE BOOK OF
ELDERS
halls of
I
Gyalrong house,
played
knowledge and
my
tricks
bombed
some
The Rinpoche's
like
all
down by
the Chi-
The monk's
cell at
mouth
fills
now.
"As Buddhists,
we Tibetans do not
feel
deep sadness
at the loss of
the deaths of
more than
a million of
more aware
of
religion while
we
alive to
do
so.
Our loss
now reach
all
time.
the emo-
tions of like
and
dislike
SANDY JOHNSON
LESSON
IN
JUDGMENT
elder I'd
met
might
talk to,
his opinion.
Often he thought of
someone
too,
for
me.
Los Angeles
seemed
He
is
called Geshe-la.
He
reached
sure that
told
him
that
it
He
A teaching came
in
met with
Geshe-la. Before our interview, we'd had lunch at an outdoor cafe near the
studio where he meets with students. At the adjoining table sat four
men
all
but
soft,
accented voice.
in the
hard-edged way people do when they are trying to top each other's
I
stories.
strained to hear
all
Geshe and
my
I
mind
The
had forgotten
I
and
went inside
to get some.
at Geshe-la,
commenting on
monk's
robes.
"Must be hot
in that
getup," he said.
"What
are you?"
He
chuckled as
fumed.
After a while the
said, "I
men
sir, I
got
up
to leave.
One
must
tell
you,
couldn't take
man mentioned
that he
had
a friend
who
trips.
Communism.
bet in
five,
had misted
over.
He
profusely.
The man's
face
was
of wonder.
bowed
I
like a
off.
I
had witnessed
"
wa s
orn
in
943
in eastern Tibet,
a big farm,
SANDY JOHNSON
yaks, deer,
gious man.
means
only
sixteen
yet she
criti-
understood
how much my
father
needed
a spiritual
cized him. I'm very lucky to have had such good and gentle parents.
"I
lost.
When
was
six,
my
father
a teacher for
me
from the
He
and
a half.
learned
many of the
sutras
by memory.
"When
the
was eight,
first
my
father asked
me
if I
wanted to go to the
monastery. Most
home
would
go.
Since
wasn't needed,
I
chose
to go.
a
could share
I'd
think about
my
mother and
I
marveled
the stories
knowledge imparted to the people when they were only children; the
time, attention, and devotion of the families and teachers to the spiritual
education of the young. Gelek Rinpoche would later explain that the reason for the focus on children
prints in the
is
because
it is
easier to
are formed.
"The founder
Lama Tsongkapa,
Gelugpa
sect:
a great fourteenth-century
summer, without
Sometimes we
a
would be invited
place to
stay.
to a benefactor's
192
"My
invasion.
session.
I
I
studies
left
in
1960 but
I
for the
Chinese
14, after
had gone
to the evening
I
One monk
me
He
in the
said,
was going.
said
was going to
'If
you
you should go
will
He
me some
"My
light clothes
and
a coat.
was very
difficult to leave
my
robes.
book and
some-
we
took.
And
we
The
strongest person
went
first,
to
make
narrow
we
followed.
It
snow
snow
to keep
we dug
a hole in the
the fear that the Chinese would chase us with machine guns from their
airplanes.
From
a distance
in fear. Finally
we
grass
in the countryside
welcomed us
went
and finished
my degree.
His Holiin
monks
had done
the monastery.
"I
heard nothing of
my family until
1981,
when
the government-insister,
They found my
and
my
father
my
family were farmers, they were not torto get food; they were of the
was hard
for
them
more than
some
areas of Tibet
now you
find
some
SANDY JOHNSON
19
cities,
the streets
even the
me
When we
arrived at the
we were overwhelmed by
television
per reporters
who had
surprised
in the
"What
dia
In InI
we were
had
never seen so
many lights.
when
I I
"Some
cars that
years later,
it
was the
came
to
California.
at the
thought
how
verv
good
it is
much freedom
so
here.
'At
first,
had
a very difficult
my Western
students.
skills.
many
things to
say,
but
lacked language
dharma I could
them.
like
When
am quite
get to-
amazed.
Somehow
We'd
would
give instruction
m meditations.
in the
dharma
West, with
its
busy-
in the
is
That
not
The problem
West
that people
results right
few
vears.
Even with
19
takes
mam
it.
is
the
So many
start to practice,
drop
They
lose energy
all
results.
People
to
want
it
come
fly
A miracle
is
if
someone can
"What
made
in fact
to get rid of
If
wants to see
just
how much
progress he or she
in practice,
check to see
how
their
mind
If
is
The dharma
pure, but
isn't
be no
positive result.
If
there
is
a positive change,
is
there
is
a useful result.
It
show off to
is
others,
but
if
more
positive,
if
then that
many
Westerners,
else.
come
something
And do
all
over again.
live very
lives
do not practice
lifetime,
But
if
they
they
will
lifetime."
among
gions.
who
and
reli-
this
to be just another
rebellion."
SANDY JOHNSON
9 5
like a prison,
of that prison.
Our
parents can
for,
show us
great kindness,
greateful
From
that
jailers.
"When
life
story of
find that
when he wanted
and begin
ther did everything he possibly could to stop his son from doing this. So,
"When
of view,
it is
doing
is
But from
a spiritual point
"In the
is
Lamrim
texts
the Stages
to the child.
it
to re-
alizations as the
mother
is
If
"That
is
not so
is
who
stimulate your
whose company
friends.
inspires
you to create
These
are your
dharma
the activities that you engage in are endless. You will never com-
plete them.
are
is
So you should
be
less
more
lives.
Do something that
meaningful
19 6
THE TEACHER
Guru devotion s a concept have a hard time understanding. When was in France and met with Sogyal Rinpoche at his retreat ceni
ter, I
asked
him
to explain
it
to
me.
itself
that
Lerab
ling
is
Tibetan
Ti-
name
founded
in
southwest
meadow and
retreat
woodland.
I
middle of a summer
in tents
many
of
whom stayed
and
referred
to the
summer
camp. Rinpoche's
secretary, a
me
in
dozen or so recently
built
two-bedroom
"chalets,"
which
would share
chair,
bed,
who
and
the
swimming
pool, a natural
moun-
tain spring.
tall,
shy
German
fellow
smiled and
in the hall.
there; they
were everywhere
trees, splashing in
into
water pitchers
I
and seemed
hill
to be of
evening, at
twilight,
walked up the
to the
a teaching.
He
young elder
in his forties.
rec-
ognized the round, bespeckled face from the movie The Little Buddha, in
on
and
a pair of
Dalai Lama.
The
He wore
fell
a gold-colored
in soft
waves around
A small
l
camera on
9 S
room
floor
simultaneous translations
sat
on the
wondered
me was a woman with a child at her breast, if the woman had given birth during the
telling a
an incantation: "Please,
but which turned out to be a simple request: "Please pass the water."
His students clearly adored him.
lighted
ries
They
listened,
amused and
desto-
Rinpoche called on
for help.
few rows,
The
talk
session.
me a cushion, and
fly,
decided to
stay.
sat cross-legged,
and
tried to concentrate
on
my
breath. But
my mind
buzzed and
other. Like
flitted like a
many
Westerners,
no other word
will do.
whose
lives
in his writing.
He
my
day.
But the
well, writing in
my noterotund
chalet.
watched, amused,
as the
rinpoche walked past in his bathing trunks and sandals on his way to the
SANDY JOHNSON
19
swimming pool
swim.
He was
always accom-
whom hurried
The
first
in
it's
and
my eyes.
Ym
not;
Ym
in
an earthquake
in
I
What
Run
reached for
my shoes.
I
Suddenly
had
a definite rhythym;
it
couldn't
be an earthquake.
in the next
nerian calisthenics!
continued
for
At breakfast
was
sitting.
He was
please
carrying a
With
elaborate politeness,
asked
if
he would
do
He
hind thick
he
said, "Yes.
suppose
can do
my prostrations
in the
shrine tent."
I
who were
smiling patiently,
this
and dropped
1
my head
in
my hands.
"I
book,"
mumbled
miserably.
On
tary,
the afternoon
Rinpoche and
appeared at
residence.
sat across
at a table in the
shade of
Gaffney,
bridge.
by his
whom
he'd
known
Cam-
A copy
of
my book
rested
on the
told
him
gum
if
this very
reallv possible in
Western
culture.
"Yes,
it
is.
is
actually a
is
way
of
and
of healing
it.
Our task
in life
really to learn
in the past.
Devo-
follow.
who have
really
them
and
that
Sometimes
am
surprised
moved by
is,
not blind
to
meet
a master,
"What
is it
that
makes devotion
possible, then?"
"Devotion
really
is
possible
when you
really
engage
in a training,
when you
from
a
work with
a living master.
a master
say,
it
'The Dalai
will
Lama
is
my
teacher.'
Of
be
difficult for
He
is
the master of
all
the masters.
Some
when
all
they did was go to a few talks or a few seminars. Whatever they claim,
they could not have fully studied, because their basic being
is
not trained.
Then
"What happens
comes
to the
as pure
it
West? Doesn't
become
distorted, corrupted?"
is
"It
automatically
corrupted once
there
is
The
it's
West
is
that
it
lacks
stability.
SANDY JOHNSON
includpro-
of your history
and
all
all
of your projections.
Sometimes students
master
with a
gets
mixed up
lot of
their problems,
them
lives.
be
him
They
get frustrated
when
they can't talk to the teacher whenever they want. But the relationship
with a teacher
lives in,
is
it is
spiritual
and
is
the teachings.
this
it, I
am
is
amazed
at
how many
what
distorts
..."
is
so
much
betan Buddhism.
masters
If
who
like
rock
itself
seems to discourage
we need
is
good
because the
is
real
teacher
in the teach-
What
It is
not following
gives.
West, there
Is
often a lot of
fear:
When
you follow a
master,
is
he trustworthy?
when we meet
comes very
need to be
"You
Sometimes
it
be-
clear
how much
these fears
we have
are our
own
fears
and
purified.
see,
on the
can come.
Why?
ter
A mas-
can bring up
our weaknesses.
If it's
a special master,
he or she can
push many buttons. That's normal. Even a master who's very calm and
gentle and
fits
the
bill will
push
all
we may not
It is
We deny
it,
get
angry,
and
it
ugly faces.
"When we
we
we
refuse to accept
and
a very
Western phenomenon.
it.
we
really
the great
Ornament of
Mahayana
Sutras taught by
Maitreya Buddha: 'Rely on the message of the teacher, not on his personality.
real
mean-
ing,
not on the provisional one. Rely on your wisdom mind, not on your
ordinary,
judgmental mind.'
exactly
it
"
"What
is
"Very simply,
Dzogchen
saint
Longchenpa
said that a
trust
and
is
disciplined,
compasis
others' well-being;
and
open-
visionary, stable,
is
"The student
ognize
is
someone who
is
able to see a
when
a master
special. Usually
we have
concept or
idea about
how a master
should be.
If
you look
SANDY JOHNSON
2 O
one
disciple.
"We need
If
to
we have
this capacity,
means
that
we have something
special.
When
fits
you go to McDonald's, you know exactly what you are getting. You cannot
expect the master to be
like a
master
is
an authentic master, he
will
situation.
The
many
the
rest:
is
with bod-
the
it is
real desire to
is
become enlightened
beings.
Compassion
it is
"Of course
lineage
difficult to
When there is a
easier to find
is
special qualities
rare.
I
my experience. You
been so fortunate:
my
and
has been
filled
with masters.
I've
I've
ter master,
all
mv
first
principal master.
to
me.
we can come
to
Authentic mas-
embodv
clarity, certainty,
and
faith;
you
feel
celebration.
if I
felt as
was no longer on
"What you
thev have.
giving.
also realize
they
They
you?
gift,
wisdom.
do
for
It
frees
you from
yourself,
but
now
as
yourself,
dissolve. That's
why
many
great dohas
hymns, songs
in the
of experience,
composed spontaneously
wisdom
is
moment
vourself.
of realization.
That great
gift of
more
you'll
find that the very beings of the masters resonate with the truth.
When-
ever
to
think of
Guru Padmasambhava
or the masters
Jamyang Khyentse, Dudjom Rinpoche, Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, Karmapa the Kalu Rinpoche any them the
or or
of
masters,
see
all
as
all
are
as all the
no longer
is
a personality;
really
he
is
the
em-
what an incarnation
compassionate vehicle
happen
for
may even
need any-
thing
else;
if
your devotion
is
'And what's
in
interesting,
is
your
life,
is
votion
the
means
to purify
all
SANDY JOHNSON
2 O 5
means
of development.
this devotion,
"If
you have
It is
quickly.
realize
the nature of our mind: meditation, the accumulation of merit, and devotion. For
me, devotion
I
is
it is
only because
I
have
this de-
votion that
there
is
because
devotion, there
it is
If
devotion,
"So
tionship.
it's
the greatest
human
It is
the spiritual.
in a sense,
It
purifies;
it
empowers; and,
it is
and
direct.
"When we
principle.
talk
it is
something universal;
is
it's
The
us,
we meet,
who shows
know how
teacher'
but actually
its
life itself is
But we don't
to listen to
teachings. This
us and
we know the
have learned
how
to listen to
life
and how
is
our teacher?
The
truth
our
is
was moved by
his
sincerity,
but
still I
had doubts.
We are
such a young
society,
too hungry
we
stars.
2 O
HEALING
On
physical
Wednesday morning
I
in late
May,
for
just before
Memorial
Day weekend,
went to
a doctor,
new to me,
exam proved
fine; in
another year
mark, the doctor cheerfully reminded me. She then ran the usual blood
tests,
among them
tumor
if
sure a
there
one.
The
office
would
fax
me the reI
sults in
I
said.
was out
much
when
came
home
tor.
at 4:45
my voice mail from the docto say she wanted to talk to me about one of the
on
I
tests,
until five.
I
froze.
in that strange
is
other place
where one
instantly re-
moved from
decided.
I
all
that
is life
looked at
ist
told
my call
to
and asked
tionist
could talk
The
indifferent recep-
but obliterated
I
fear. "Is
there
no way
asked.
would be out
town
until Tuesday.
its
Cancer creates
be nose cancer
of a holiday
own
particular paranoia
catch
in
a cold
test
and
it
must
so a mysterious
phone
call
about a blood
on
a Friday
which to contemplate
impermanence.
reminded myself
a
of
"The
fine."
illness
said
was
fine then,
his
told
me
about
came
to mind:
"If
you look
what
it is,
then
you have no
garden
illusions. Life
is
itself,
means
that
life itself is
unreliable.
is
calm and
found
in
new way,
for
discovered
was thinking
and
rebirth.
in his
book Gates
to
Buddhist Practice,
Buddha used
human
birth:
"Compare the
3,000-fold universe to a
wooden yoke
208
floating
turtle.
somewhere on top
of
it.
lives a blind
air,
Once
comes
down
to the bottom.
The
later,
the
moment the turtle surfaces the wind will blow the yoke
turtle will
this will
happen
is
just
finding a precious
I
human birth
before?
are
even
took notice of
never noticed
them
drama;
just
do not
way
it
may come:
I
helplessly
and with
fully
And
before
When Tuesday finally came and the doctor called me, she suggested
I
have the
I
dures.
jor
to be angry.
me a weekend of wondering.
were perfectly normal.
But by
results that
also
had
new mind.
illness
and
health.
"Healing
make
you
is
an essential
We
the mind,
is
when you
impacted and
feel at peace.
others;
it
influences
how
is
you look at other people. You don't have to pretend when your inner world
secure
are doing.
what you
are
SANDY JOHNSON
0$
inside.
There
is
no
division.
is
pure, not sensitive enough, then you pretend to be kind, sure, but you pre-
sent a different kind of face, a different kind of smile. Very soon sensitive
is
not sincere.
Dharma
is
not pretense.
Dharma
is
really
being what
it is.
"From
settled,
in the
unresolved
mind
or unresolved karma.
There
is
something there
way, this
is
gradually built
tact
result in disease.
"Therefore there
cine, so
is
need
for
something
specific in
terms of medi-
Buddhism
is
A balanced
approach
needed.
The power
of the
mind
is
The combination
"This
is
recovery.
because of
my
lifelong
devotion,
said
all right.
had
pre-
how natural
all
things work,
how dis-
when
en-
didn't take
it
for granted.
I
had
cancer, asked,
'What did
for
it.
you do?'
This
is
as
if I
somebody out
somebody
more money,
it's
When
somebody
gets cancer,
punish-
ment. This
is
It is
a total
misunderstanding of
had
a long course of
like a skeleI
radiation.
became almost
but country
ton
still,
my mind
was peaceful,
slept well.
I
Even when
lost
my
it
was a great
I
loss, a tragic
shock. But
derstand things.
come and
is
ask,
'Is
there
something that
can do or not?'
If
something that
it.
and destabilizing
so nauseous
pills.
I
it
was.
The
first
day,
was
fine,
day,
felt
some
took four or
Then
said to myself,
treatment,
my meditation
I
practice.
Then I would
go to
my
So
I
so powerful.
It
I
did
my meditation
at
I
home, then
and
would
sit
five or
"I
me
in to the radiation
room.
This meditation
table, they
unlike anything.
It's
On the
I
my
stomach while
lay there
doing
my
ill
effects of radiation.
I
was doing
and
did that
every day,
SANDY JOHNSON
was gone.
the end,
I
ill
At
was
weak but
a waste
Is it
of time, worrying.
going to work?
If it
not
If
going to work?
it
works, okay.
well
plus spiritual
to
modern people
People have a
tendency to look
of treatment.
If
for
But
ef-
it is
more
itself.
"My practice
ing
mean
I
sit
my
meditation.
My
practice
means whatever
dharma
am
doing, daytime,
nighttime, even in
my
is
an incessant flow of
stability in
generosity, understanding,
the in-
ner world.
and
clear,
when you
confusion, there
always
joy."
was no stranger
and
I
to the
power of
prayer.
When
a
was
in the
hospital
knew
Pete Catches was praying and doing ceremonies for night before
me,
felt safe.
The
my
operation,
had
dream
in
which
"You
well.
You have
George Bush."
nurse, hear-
ing
tion.
and asked
if
the off chance that Pete would be at his son's house, where there was a tele-
phone,
called.
when
it
12
swered.
told
Republican
to burst
him
into laughter. But he was silent. "Isn't that funny, Grandfather?" Finally
is
exactly
do, Granddaughter.
You
He
my operation.
SANDY JOHNSON
DHARMA DYNASTY
From Tibet to the West
me
to
in India.
According to
history, the
who
entered the
human
realm more than one thousand years ago and has remained unbroken
since then. Rulers of
much
many
years,
inherited, the
men
are
permitted to marry.
In June
I
members
of the
Sakya family,
all
is
Born
in
His Holiness
Dagchen Rinpoche
Khon lineage, he
is
the imminent
He
is
two boys
was
care-
and
five girls.
his
fully
to enter a
monastery until
Rinpoche and
in 1961.
his family
were the
first
They came
Washington,
home and
was found on
dharma center
Tibetan
and American
dence
I
flags serves as
temple,
and
for
some
of the
if
members.
wondered
Jigdal
for
to
SANDY JOHNSON
"When
is
am asked how
to approach the
dharma,
my
teaching
and speech
die,
When
it
you
the
mind
body
as a
temporary
just re-
dwelling, a hotel.
And
speech
is
like
an echo
off a
mountain;
sounds.
"Mind
buddha
is
foremost.
Its
become
Mind determines
all
actions,
good
or bad. Therefore
king.
The
mind
dharma
is
the anti-
dote.
"When
what
teachings,
we should avoid
we
we
are like
we
it;
we
are like a
bowl with
is
a hole in
If
we
are lazy-minded
and
sleepy, this
it
similar to us-
holds.
We
should also
avoid the
six
by the
faults in that
environment.
"On
we should
viewing the teacher as a physician, seeing oneself as a patient, understanding the dharma to be medicine, and resolving to practice the dharma
as
our cure.
"In Tibet, a student usually starts with the foundation practices.
These include
mandala
mantra
recitation,
offerings,
tell
practitioners to
sit
with a
The
legs
left, left
on the bot-
"The mental
stages.
tion,
and
of Application,
which
is
like
seeing the
moon
new
it
becomes
a full
moon, which
buddhahood.
without thinking of
or distracin a
union of
clarity
and emptiness
mind
is
dental stains. These stains can't be removed like spots from a teacup.
To
when
meditating,
amazes
end
of every practice,
We
do
SANDY JOHNSON
this to express
at
for one's
own
but
for
all
freedom from
suffering,
and attainment
of
buddha-
hood."
a small
boy
barely
more
rushed
into the
room and
lap.
"Meet our
of
littlest
lama," he
said. "Tulku-la.
He
is
the reincarnation
my wife's
The
who founded
us.
this
monastery with
is
me. Tulku-la,
writing a
book about
Her name
Sandy."
bright,
to-
Mickey Mouse
shirt,
and
lap
and came
were serious.
I
ex-
wasn't
realized. It
was
my head.
"Tulku-la wants to bless you," Rinpoche explained.
Dutifully,
I
to
I
make
to his reach.
smiled
a bit patronizingly,
admit
felt
the small
my head.
But then
my as-
saw not
yes,
a child's expression,
mature
I
and
compassionate.
I
Tibetan
firmed
in
two,
pro-
reincarnation.
father was killed in an auto accident.
"Not unusual,"
Caroline
oline
said.
"Many
when
would soon
Nepal to begin
She
would
visit
him
among
for Tulku-la to
go
promise they
could stop at McDonald's for a shake, he flew out of the room and
came
"Lil
Monster" written
it
to me.
to help
I
him on with
it,"
Rinpoche
it.
said, smiling.
am honored,"
I
said, strangely
meaning
As
the
left,
was handed
at the
this
poem Rinpoche
Washington:
The
Has
From within
Can
Therefore,
events.
SANDY JOHNSON
bees,
Who
I
search
and
and
others
live.
With
of former times,
imagine
this lecture
HIS
From my earliest
depending
memories
or blessed,
by
So
my early childhood
my
parents took
me
to doctors,
one of
whom
an indication of petit mal, a mild form of epilepsy. The idea must have so
horrified
I,
with
my mother that she refused to hear any more of my dreams, and my child's innate sense of survival, stopped talking about them.
still,
They continue
heed
and
their teachings.
in tears
I
from what
had met an
there noth-
ing
called after
him
in vain.
He had
evaporated.
I
me
enshrouded
in a cloak of
doom.
felt as if
had
a terrible sentence.
But then,
as the
2 2
gloom began
to
lift
If
I'm
can stop
No need anymore
would
am
I
free to get
on with
my life.
I
That afternoon,
as
wondered
if
was beginning to
the desire to
meet
is
alongside
women
(Path and
Its Fruit)
is
also
known
for
ing
on Vajrayogini,
I
female meditational
deity.
found her
in her
modest home
in the
is
Kusho
Ling.
Thubten
"They
ens,
many eons
ago,
we came from
say.
the heav-
women
don't marry.
side.
I
We
all
become
I
nuns.
The
line continues
took
If I
my
first-level ordination.
to,
I
The
teacher
came
had wanted
"The palace
grew up
in
was quite
big,
SANDY JOHNSON
2 2
offerings.
but
in a religious sense.
Generally the
families,
"I
girls
government
service people.
I
am
my
head.
fled,
Lama had
we
My
left
Maybe
twelve people in
lived there.
At the time we
there were
no Chinese people
in
our
re-
gion, but
many spies
for the
Chi-
nese.
I
still
was
difficult
their
They
didn't understand
became
decided
ways, so
at a missionary school.
"My husband's
was
also
from
He
my
brother's student,
my aunt. My husband
very, very rich
and
in school,
woman would have a one-month wedding party 'Astrologers tell a woman what color to wear when she marries. My
was a
bit awful, a blue dress
dress
It's
been
good
marriage.
age.
We have four boys, and a little girl who died at three months of
told
They
me
did.
think
little
we
do.
Then,
slowly, slowly,
they
weeks
2 2 2
w sm
Jetsun Kusho
is
because of memories of
is
thirty
and owns
a carpet
few months ago, to a Japanese Buddhist. The second, who will be a lama and
the lineage-holder, lives in India.
twenty-six
The
third
and
is
design company, and the younger works in a photo shop. I'm a weaver.
"It hasn't really
been
difficult to raise
my
One
of
them
tried drugs,
but
it
made him
sick.
We
I
my husband
them
that
and
don't like
they'll
it,
so
With
drinking,
tell
maybe
I
tell
them
"People ask
me how
is
to instill
compassion
in their children,
just
but
have
SANDY JOHNSON
2 2
patience. Tibetan people tend to have lots of patience, not like Westerners. It's
and espe-
cially
from
My older son
is
his
as a child.
in
"The
role of
women
become prominent
right
now
in this par-
think
it is
very
much
a function of the
which we
live.
When
the
Buddha taught
was quite
different.
to regard as inherent in
the teachings.
we can
see,
if
we examine
and
other countries,
women and
monastic
religion.
Within the
tradition of
Buddhism
majority of lamas and teachers have been men. But this does not
that only
mean
men can be the teachers. There have been, in fact, many women
Buddhism, there
is
a very strong
"Certainly
among
people, regard-
my
family, the
blood
lin-
eage played a very important part. All sons and daughters are regarded as
potential teachers by virtue of having
legal
this family.
Both the
and
social situation in
2 2
men
in
in
terms of their
also in terms of
and
"In the
Nyingma
school, the
of Tibetan
Bud-
One
of the
to
mind
is
Menmo. Not
"Machig Labdron
practiced today by
there haven't been
all
Her teachings
are
many women
the teachings of
are a
women have been revered over the years. Presently, there few women teachers in the Nyingma and Kagyu traditions, though
combined
histories of
not many.
"In the
all
of the schools,
women
also
have
women
practitioners in Tibet,
women who
were known
for
the sincerity and the intensity of their practice, was a very strong force in the advancement of the religion.
"In the household,
women
husband always
don't believe
woman being a slave to the husband and happens too much. Sometimes a woman doesn't
very smart,
isn't
is
in charge,
but
woman who controls the house. "My husband and are equals. He works as a school janitor.
the
I
Every day
he by
travels
car.
work
My husband never worked in Tibet. In India, as a refugee, he didn't either. When we came to Canada, we both worked. For the first
SANDY JOHNSON
2 2 5
stayed at
my
I
older son was twelve years old, he looked after the younger ones and
worked.
"However,
women
men, except
for the
head of
the 1950s,
I
when
Sakya, as
women
women
good
afraid.
My father's
my
my aunt,
when
is
a very
and
father died,
room except
empower-
ment
to
my brother
shy."
"Do you
are in the
"It
is
think
women
now
that they
West?"
only natural that people in a different culture, one
new to Bud-
dhism, begin to wonder about female role models and stereotypes and so
forth.
Buddha, there
is
no fundamental
distinction made between male or female. The same processes they ob-
served in India, in Tibet, will also be true in the West: that a student will
go to
a qualified teacher
and
receive
di-
rection.
And through
their
own
practice they
may come
to
be worthy,
at a
on that
particular lin-
eage.
'Also,
it is
conceivable that
women
in the
West
will
be recognized
as
practitioners in for-
2 2
mer lives,
require
much less
it's
important that we
recognize and respect the authenticity, the validity of the process of a stu-
in
the tra-
"Buddhism
is
so
new
to this culture.
We
We
practical.
On
we might
say
we want
immediately.
there are
On
we cannot
Western lineages
There
are
West-
ern lamas
who
trained in Tibet,
and
trained
West. Perhaps
be West-
ern
of Sakya, Gelugpa,
ing from the Tibetan Buddhist point of view. But in order for these
lineages to establish themselves, the lineage-holder
must go through
be
rig-
orous training.
It is
self-arisen
lineage-holders, that,
of a sudden,
It's far
more
likely to
handing
its
"Maybe Western
to
it,
many
to
difficult for us to
ers,
do
that;
we have
to have permission
ers
like
when you
finish studying,
you get
a degree. It's
not that
in the
is
very
SANDY JOHNSON
2 2
tricky. It
does
all
kinds of things.
why we have
wisdom teaching
of
how to make
doesn't actell
mind
stable. If
you have
a stable
learn.
If it
I
is
difficult.
my stu-
dents that
my mind is very dull, not very sensitive, and I'm very fortunate
minds tend
things.
It's
if
they pick
"When
ing back
immediately
I
try to
understand
that
is
in
terms of karma.
com-
others, but
many
lifetimes.
own
longevity.
in
Van-
where
else.
The
though he took
worse. But
X rays.
it
involved?
Maybe
in
another
hit
helps
me
ill
"When I came
think that
I
to
Canada,
it
became
but
it
contracted
in India
didn't
show up
until
got here.
The
left
I'd
have to stay
all
for
two
years.
in
let
I
my
my
right
one was
cloudy.
didn't
want to do
that.
began to
Within
five
their size.
My
If
brother and other lamas offered prayers for me, and that
If
then
it
does.
it
doesn't.
2 2 S
sad that
in the hos-
That
part
was
difficult,
the hospital
my husband 50 miles to see me. Every me English. At first, all did was eat and sleep. Then, after a month, they told me to do things like embroidery, knitting. A teacher came every Thursday to teach me how to do handicrafts. The ladies in the room taught me to play a card game called crazy eights, and we'd watch movies together. My brother told me to do meditation and sent me scriptures. My husband brought me a tiny flashlight so could read without disturbing the other women in the room.
Sunday they brought
dav someone would
come
to teach
we
about the state you enter right after death, called the bardo.
ple,
if
Some
peo-
if
they are very good practitioners, go right to the pure realms. Others,
after the
time of their death and before they are reborn into the next
In this lifetime
transition.
The bardo
a kind of
judgment
purgatory.
When you are in the bardo, you encounter the contents of your
fantasies, as well as places you've visited in your
Then you
"If
you
and very
ghost realm.
God
will
send them to
hell.
you
if
you
then
you'll find a
good human
re-
birth.
"You never know about your karmic relationships with other people.
SANDY JOHNSON
2 2
If
in this lifetime,
maybe
Buddhism teaches
We teach the ten virtues and the ten non-virtues, similar to the Judeo-Christian ten commandments. We have
always be mindful of other people.
three in the body, three in the mind, four in speech.
are killing, stealing,
The three
in
in the
body
lying,
speech are
The
three in the
mind
are having
will,
and
harsh speech. Killing, stealing, and lying aren't too hard. Slowly, slowly you
learn these things. In Buddha's time, he learned
So did
well.
his students. If
we learn,
then, of course,
we become enlightened
"If
you
are guilty of
any or
all
of the non-virtues,
teacher, again.
The
Buddha
said that
any non-virtue
no matter how
again.
severe
can be
become
tell
purified.
again, don't
you
I'll
yourself,
made
a mistake,
not to do
it
slowly learn to
her
Female energy
is
get-
wisdom
aspect,
and
Now that things are going faster and faster, this female
wisdom
is
very important."
We were
an earring,
a
A young man
wearing
long ponvtail,
to inquire about
teachings. Jetsun-ma
and
exchanged smiles.
"When
people
come
to
me,
tell
them
to go to lots of teachings:
All re-
Somehow we
Hindu
or
Mus-
feel very
you
stick with
"Once you
Tibet,
it
as often as
you
like.
In
two times
once a
year. If
"How do you
as
if it
dharma
husband.
People think that they are lonely, but they are lonely only in their
minds.
I
if I
came
I
to
Canada.
ei-
say no.
was
lonely,
and
tell
them
that
wasn't lonely
ther. In
is
your birthplace.
it
Whoever
We
if I
have
that, so
me
want
my
nothing to go back to there. But places are the same; people are the
same."
As
no-
happen
in threes:
in the
spiritual teachings),
is
and Sangha
(the
community of practioners);
practice
done
in
SANDY JOHNSON
inner, outer,
and
secret levels.
I
Then,
just as
thought
the nine yanas; ten virtues; ten non-virtues; and seventeen points of
training. Vajrayana
is
mind
so
full
of enumerations that
it
is
no wonder the
seemed
to uncover
com-
plexity. But,
Lama
comes down
to
good
heart, to de-
Meditational deities, or
the Vajrayana path. As
outer, inner,
I
understand
yidam practice
is
done on the
and
secret levels.
On
of a yidam's representation
often
painted on
jump
assist
number
help to con-
On the
which
is first
some aspect
of the psyche,
meditation, assimilated.
The
one
gradually incorporated back into the psyche and recognized as our own.
a teacher thinks
for in-
stance, they
Manjushri
initiation,
which
Manjushri
in all of its
On
practice
is
own
buddha-nature, which
is
Yidam
used as a technique to
Born
first
in
southern
Jet-
the fortya.d.
The
title
He
inherited
the
when
and East
Asia,
and established
He
also
where
in
San Francisco
I
asked
in
San Francisco,
is
the principal
deity of the Sakya order. This highest Tantric deity basically represents the
if
he would
tell
his
life.
"The Sakyapas
are the
Manjushri tradition-holders.
When a child is
SANDY JOHNSON
J J
letter string
is
DHIH,
nectar
made
of saffron, butter,
all
early
prophesy
and Vajrapani.
"I
was born
in
used
to have
many
friends as a child,
pujas. People
means
it's
that
was a
my
previous
life.
But
personally think
because such
television or
in
We didn't have
in
our
summer house
had
windup gramophone.
also
British military
all
marches although we
a few Ti-
monks
as a child,
had
a full
box of
I
would have
toys,
but
I
in
do
in the
West.
think that
in
how you
act early
on depends on the
sur-
rounding or atmosphere
"In the early
fifties
when I was
knew
English, so
we taught each
other.
Then,
I
in 1959,
fled to Indiffi-
didn't have so
is
much
less
than a
it
hundred miles
farther on,
all.
is
and
a road
"My
came
wife's family
there.
They
to visit us in Sakya
and
Her father
is
a cabinet minister,
3 4
His Holiness
Sakya
Tri^in
also a
a spiritual practitioner.
My
auntie ap-
My oldest son already teaches and is very serious almost too serious.
"I'm living
Dehra Dun.
do
a little
administering,
advice. Also
for
some
dharma
know their
and
it
future,
is
do divinations
them with
was trained
as a lama,
come
to
me
about problems
in their relationships.
Even the Tibetans who live here come with these kinds
have learned from the Americans!
It's
of problems.
They
The more
dis-
in
you
will have.
other
woman."
SANDY JOHNSON
J 5
how he
regards
if
they
One
up
is
like a prophesy.
or, say,
You know
till
experience.
Up
more
until
midnight
are
like
old. After
my
mother
when
was
very, very
young,
my
my mother,
practitioner,
took care of
me and my sister.
me
now My father was married to her before he married my mother, but they
never had any children. She
'At first
I
came
to India,
and died
in 1975.)
I
just played
learned
how to
text,
use
them
dice,
but
it is
not always
like
many
who
does divination
of each die,
will
have a
numbers
depending
on individual experience.
is
destiny,
would have
to
believe that
When
If
things are already at the ripening stage, then you can't change them.
the
crop
is
just
how well
it
will
for instance,
is
Whether we
we
to ripen, the
life
ahead of
us, this
how we
you
236
all
Even
if
can be changed.
yet to
come.
life.
it is
"When
people die,
is
because of three
factors:
is
your life-force
If all
is
ex-
exhausted.
if
three are
it is
only one,
still
eas-
prolong
life; if
two,
is
it is
more
difficult,
prolong. In
is
an
oil
lamp,
if
the light
it.
low,
if
in
more
oil. If
the wick
used
But
oil are
"What do you
hope
and the
rest of
the world's?"
I
it is
seem
moment. China
we
are seeking
We
should
it's
not so
polluted: the
These create
of the prophesy.
The
and other
think
we should do more
and
purifica-
purification."
I
was having
I
difficulty
tried to
in
match
his
had
read,
my days
Dharamsala
when I decided
years
They
ahead of
us.
Evolved beyond us
spiritually,
emotionally, mentally
SANDY JOHNSON
3 J
New Age
is
own
reality,"
and
it
me
that that
of.
passion. In
tice.
Buddhism, these
practices
compassion within
mind can
himself and help create peace and harmony within his family, his neigh-
city.
In this way,
people's practices
can increase peace and harmony throughout the world. So therefore, whatever religion or philosophy you have,
I
think
it is
sentient be-
this just
it is
from
a very
own
feeling. If
physically or mentally,
painful thing.
So through
this experience,
you learn
how
who
share our
human
nature
up
in lovingkindness.
When we
it is
compassion.
think
human nature
for you.
As
you love
It is
you benefit
then
think that
is
so clearly wrong.
"Once we
dinary people
create
and do
time.
evil things.
same
J 8
the teachings.
negative karma
It is
even someone who has mother; own nephew; who harm him may be cured through
tried to
ings.
or Buddha's
With
that understanding,
all
our
own country
back.
it
We
no
matter
I
how long
takes."
asked
how he
reacted to the
many homeless
country of America.
"When
beggars there
the Dalai
Lama came
to
Bodh Gaya
and
is
there are
many
he decided
Do
you know what happened? Even the owners of three huge buildings came
to get these five rupees.
poor and
who
not?
Of
when you
"Sometimes
live very
fly
luxurious lives
have so
much
They
The
more time.
been to
restaurants with
them
eat,
they were given, chairs and tables covered with grease and
had lunch
all
in a luxurious hotel
And I have
traveled
over India.
On
on top or hang
derful foods.
And
I've
flown by
is
air: first-class,
and
also in
army airplanes
in
no
circulating oxygen
you
No
If
No
is
seats! Just a
is
bench.
I've traveled
ousine.
If
your mind
your
mind
not happy, then you aren't comfortable even in your fine lim-
ousine."
SANDY JOHNSON
J 9
the Sakyas. Dagmo-la and her husband, His Holiness Dagchen Rin-
poche, and three sons, as Dagchen Rinpoche had told me, were the
first
Tibetan family to
settle in the
United States
after the
exodus caused by
a treachsoldiers
still
They made
their escape
Leaving Lhasa
the youngest
aircraft.
and
by Chinese
Their
horses,
snow 4
feet deep.
Weeks
on the brink of
marking the Bhutanese border. But thev were refused entry by the
Bhutanese,
who
The
heard of the plight of some 1,700 Tibetan refugees and asked Nehru
240
to
make
last,
the Tihetans
were permitted
Mother
of the
of five sons,
Dagmo-la
is
much-loved
I
teacher,
and author
book
Princess in the
Land of Snows.
she had
come
to
I
America
in
We
a fourth
on the way. The children attended school, so they picked up the language
faster
than we did.
A vear later
five boys.
"Learning the language was the hardest part, but the University of
Washington assigned
ping. In
America
it's
so easy
you go
to,
to
one
store
problem was,
learn
in India
here we had
to
was
difficult to find
we were used
We were al-
much
but
or not enough.
it is
we
left,
to ask something.
much
ties
or people
dumb. So we got
we'd
take the
all
way home.
fast.
SANDY JOHNSON
she would leave toys for the children and give us vegetables from her garden.
We couldn't even thank her properly. Then we didn't see her for a while and wondered what had happened. We noticed newspapers had piled up in
front of her door. Finally, they
went
inside
family,
who all lived far away, came back to claim the house. Thev didn't seem
They just argued over the things she had left behind
ture,
sad.
the house,
the furni-
really
shocked me.
I
know
all
Americans
way, but
thought:
don't think
want
when
get old.
our
I
society looks
down on people
who
my
great-uncles,
"I really
my grandmother, grandfather.
don't understand Western society's fear of age. In Tibetan
for the first time,
society,
America
I'd
...
mistakes. I'd
meet somebody
like yourself
ask how old you are. They would be shocked. women care about how they look, but the difference is, if you tell a Tibetan woman that she is looking older, that's fine. But don't think a Western woman would like to hear that. In Tibet if some-
and
ask your
"Of course,
body
And
even
if
someone
very
good
you
say,
Thank
you.'
had
to learn
is
special to
be a hueveryone
man
being.
242
Why
try to
make
yourself
seem
younger?
"I
was raised
in a
dharma
family.
cle
now my
just to
son
a lama.
lives
not
save our
I
we wanted
home
If
there
no
don't
know any other country where this exists, but in Tibet a woman
may not work out to have two wives live in one house. They may
sisters to live
no
recitation of
what
you
call
is
commitments.
We
couple
wed by
the
Buddha and
friends as witnesses.
of divorce
is
pretty
much
Westernized. In the
if
they don't
still
together. Soci-
ety looks
different.
make
things so public. Instead the two families get together and settle
If
things.
mother
takes the
daughter.
will leave
The man
will leave
the dowTy,
everything.
SANDY JOHNSON
4 J
split
up.
Thev have
if
it
somebod)
close to family.
in
Marriage
the
further,
They
when
dea
apart. In Tibet,
commitment,
not just to sleep together but to care for each other, to have
know
they
stir [
to
it.
In
America, marriage
is
and
then
maybe
a
separate. Divorce
very rare in
on to have
here
is
The community
don't nec-
looks
down on
rid of
it.
The women
first
the dharma?
"When wc first came to America, there were no dharma centers. When wc tried to talk about buddhadharma, people were not interested.
Just
one
They wouldn't
I
take
it
seri-
ously at
and
I
was
made a
trip
back to India.
going to
ited
I
knew
that
I
we
we weren't
I
live in India, so
I
At that time,
I
vis-
lis
cried,
and
said there
no trouble
in
America, everyis
no
dharma.
We
have our
shrine and
we do our own
praying,
to go for teachings.
later.'
lis
be some
few years
244
II
BO
later,
my husband and
who
own home
I
for
people
went
told you.
told you.'
it
asked her
how she
was
like to raise
first
all,
is
dhism, we would
call it
Bud-
dhism
"I
says,
money. So they
some
a
religion. I've
noticed that
many parents
meal with
own way, to
too busy.
at the table
and
talk.
was a very
strict
would
water,
which they
that they
would
did.
call
'Mother's champagne.'
Of
course,
didn't
I
know know
all all
They were
teenagers
my boys were
really
good.
"They
homes, and
all
I
are
When
had
in
our background
and they
and
in school they
were
embarrassed.
was not
easy,
when we need
and
had
if
SANDY JOHNSON
2 4 5
game
are
or something.
Now
more
"I
was when we
first
moved
here.
Many
students
to talk
woman to woman. With a lama, they have difficulty asking certain women have more feelings and a different kind of wisdom.
are
I
questions. But
We are the ones who go through the pain of giving birth, and maybe because of that
we
more
sensitive.
Now we have
more freedom
to stand
up and do
things.
think
women
much money as
is
women's movement
work
in a
I
blood bank.
I've
hours a day.
portant;
it is
my work
I
not so im-
just part of
do love teach-
Tara
is
verv important in
Buddhism. She
a deity aspect of a
in
and pray to
her,
very swift.
Whenever you
all re-
Mother Mary
like
I
She
is
embodied
in
all
women
I
who
help beings,
women
was
when
"There are
that
is
lots of deities in
is
the one
like
any one of
us.
246
six
our
"To do her
a pure lineage.
a qualified teacher
who has
in
Then you
Then,
if
an
oral transmission.
it is
good
to receive an initiation.
That
gives you permission to visualize yourself as Tara, recite her mantra, and
concentrate on her
as inseparable. That's
initiation.
what the
whole
initiation
is
is
and mind
"Tara
She helps
stories
you to calm down, subdue your mind, to make harmony. There are about her
tragedies,
even
from
see,
fire,
earthquake.
beast or
"You
creature.
And when we do
many
negative things
angry.
ronment, nature
it
So
it
begins to move.
as
pray.
your
someone you
down and
inside,
recite
mantras, and show compassion and love to others. You can practice
driving, walking, cleaning.
I
the
dharma while
done
didn't find
much
time
lier years.
But
to meditate.
I
lost
I
much:
my
country,
my home, my
my
family,
but
got through
it all
SANDY JOHNSON
4 J
GREEN TARA
It
that
to the airI
mentioned that
would be
visit
my
my
voice, urged
me
I
to talk about
my mother.
I
were
ill-suited
from the
first. It
we had
to find
conflicting ideas
and
sensibilities;
admire
in
my
father
and
my brother dead,
warm
my mother
with
little
and
are
all
that
is
left of
We
are strangers
Dagmo-la reached
and
withdrew
"I Icre
Green
Tara teachings.
The
ten-syllable
mantra
is
her
photograph." She pointed to the right foot, which hung over the
"See? She
is
pillow.
ready to
I
know, Sandy,
think
it
to yourself
to ask
Green Tara
for
help
of the practices."
try to
Touched by
this gesture,
teach
was
in a bookstore, waiting in
when
went over
There,
among
the various
moon, her
She
her
hand was
at
on her knee
sublime realizations. In each hand she held the blue utpala flower; jeweled ornaments adorned her hair, her neck,
face radiated love
and compassion.
That evening,
a table in front of
and photograph
at eye level
on
I
me,
I
my practices. However
her of
me
into a
telling
my progress.
had also been reading Sogyal Rinpoche's Tibetan Book of Living and
I
Dying, which
ticularly
took with
fond of the
poem quoted
'Autobiography in
street.
There
SANDY JOHNSON
4 9
I fall in. I
am
lost
am
hopeless.
It isn't
my
fault.
street.
There
I
pretend
don't see
it.
I fall I
in again.
cant
same
place.
But
it isn't
my
fault.
It still
street.
There
I
see
it is
I still fall
in
it's
a habit.
My
I
know where
am.
It is
I
my
fault.
street.
There
I
walk around
street.
wa slate when
arrived,
but
2 5 O
was
in
We
are always
at first;
it is
versation
settling:
"Why
can't
my mother
had
a
tried to
come up with
"Why"
In
my
made me
somehow
in the
ashamed;
my
now
same tone
of voice, they
work
as a
me
into a four-
before
my mother
ritual:
I
was awake,
This was a
so,
Except
this
turned right on
The
just
same
in
both directions;
it
it
was
was observing
the words
"I
how
feels to
change even so
a different
small a habit,
street"
when suddenly
I
am
walking
down
came
to mind.
a run.
During the week of my visit, there was such a marked change in my mother that wanted to say, "Look, you're a very nice lady, but where is my mother and what have you done with her?" She expressed interest in my work; she even asked me to tell her something about TiI
betan Buddhism.
poster
rebirths,
when
the imI
who
called herself
my mother
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
thought
turing
would
I
like to
be
a nur-
and
ning into a
new
it.
was
last in
My mother, who
drive on,
It
was about to
when
one that
seats
four.
tag, "Rose,"
if
appeared with
a tray.
if
we'd mind
empty
chairs.
tags.
name
nique that combines massage with assisted yoga, and that she was one of
the teachers. Yoga
is
a favorite exercise of
I
mine, one
wanted
to
know more.
She showed
told
me
When
Rose
am
a writer, she
if
by any chance
I
am
the author of
told her
we
finished lunch,
we had exchanged
tele-
to see her
myself to a yoga/massage.
I
From my
are
no coincidences: other
meeting. Months
later, after
my
life
a sharp turn in
say,
an unex-
pected direction,
"Yes,
it
was that
moment."
2 5 2
A few
DAYS
later
went to
theirs, Joyce.
The
waiter
at
me and
said,
is
name.
"Your blessing cord," he
said,
my
neck.
Next
members
of a Tibetan
was incredulous.
had been
visiting
my
many
years be-
of
it
as a staid
and rather
classes in
Saranath,
India, in 1980,
at Varanasi
me
but
am
in Florida.
I
it
was
in Florida
where
visited Pete
Catches
had
first
met
He had been
Palm Beach,
ill,
and
his daughter-in-law,
who had
house
them.
just
north of
I
insisted Pete
come
When
told
moIndi-
we have any
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
could
now
tell
it
through some of
my
fa-
ther's things
still
in the
life
my mother began
we had learned.
together.
our
own
stories
about our
failures,
Come to think of it, we are quite alike. Before left, my mother presented me with a string of pearls her mother had given her on her fiftieth birthday.
a different street.
Om
soha!
2 5
D H A R M A
IN
THE MIDWEST
in
1939 in Lhasa on
to the
Demo
Dagchen
to
Drepung monastery
first
teacher was
Gen Yundung,
Denma
During
While
visiting
Ngagpa Datsang
at the monastery,
from
his
poche
more
day,
when
if
the son of
Demo
When
to
they learned that he was, the nuns offered the group some tea and a
night's rest in the nunnery.
last
As the party
left,
them food
When
the party arrived in India and told others of their good for-
found no trace of where they had spent the night. Rinpoche believes
father's protectors
after
him.
In 1960, Gelek
Lama
to join a small
Dharamsala to con-
tinue his studies and also to learn Western languages. Eventually they
would be chosen
to teach the
dharma
"
wa s nineteen
or twenty then.
tage,
in at night. In 1964,
went
to Cornell in
Ithaca,
New York,
as a student,
and learned
my ABC's. Through
made
and other
the an-
for eight of us to
be
economics,
English,
subjects.
went back
House
in Delhi.
By
this
in Tibet,
and
had to
things.
my robes
took
went
Norbu
Chen. But
in India,
went through
a sort of
teenage
2 5
rebellion.
everything.
I
how it
felt.
And wanted
some-
how that
felt.
mv
ing,
come
was looking
for
thing,
some kind
some kind
body and
it."
soul,
everything. That's
what
think
was looking
for?"
for.
didn't get
"Was
"I
it
a high
I
don't think
for highs so
much
as for
some kind
of an
Or maybe
and
I
"Then
went back to
During the
I
India,
eighties
students.
Then by 1987
came
to Michigan.
We
have
a small society
It is
a Tibetan cultural
I
and Buddhist
center."
told Gelek
Rinpoche that
of guru devo-
Rinpoche when
interviewed
him
in France,
and asked
what
his
thoughts were.
is
"Guru devotion
is
These misIt
mean doing
do.
hands
which
it
a lot of
Western people
physical gesture.
They think
that
is
that
it
doesn't help at
guru devotion,
which
that
find disturbing.
Almost
like a cult."
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
Geleh Rinpoche
can culture.
in,
understanding.
is
is
when
pro-
found love
in response.
Sometimes
good
to
not
all
the
among
you have
be
a renunciate to gain
enlightenment.
Do you
think this
I
is
true?"
tradition,
you do have
this
vow of
poverty, right?
"Being rich
may be
5 8
of
it.
Of course,
if
it
can get
in
is-
and
if
for
it
is
nothing wrong
you use
"I've heard that people can change the habitual patterns of their
tell
me about
we have
that?"
a beautiful, kind nature,
human
beings,
no matter that
Sometimes we do
act funny.
that by nature
we
are loving.
made
what
we would
one
"What we have
that
to
remember
is
that
it is
we have
Our problems
are
impermanent.
but we have to see where they come from, what the causes
reverse those causes.
and then
"Karma
is
The karmic
principle
is
this:
You can
When
at the
But
work with
it.
"We
in
like
making a
deal
with the
tive
devil.
You
will lose.
So we
emotions.
SANDY JOHNSON
2 5
"We
how
to get angry.
Anger
is
part of a strong,
comes
automatically. But
if
effort.
yourself;
nobody
else
can
help you. You can seek help from somebody outside, but the true help
comes from
yourself.
am
responsible to myself,
is
and you
are responsible
are too
to
faults.
is
"The
true
way
of helping ourselves
If
you don't
it
becomes
like a
inside a
museum. The
or a Ver-
monkey might
over a Van
Gogh
rare,
and
great things.
is
mind
is
as
good and
monkey
to go there
all
over
it.
With
jealousy,
he paints
on red
over.
So
it is
time
the
monkey
it
he has
Then
a right to
it
be there
to
watch
it
and
train
properly.
awareness. Awareness
keeps the
ings;
it
"Of course,
easy for
They
are
embedded
in
at
noon,
if
you
will
you
make
vourself
do
it,
then
it is
"The
first fight,
then,
is
with resistance.
that,
then
things are a
little easier.
Then
you de-
velop love or compassion; instead of getting jealous, you develop the ability
If
what
is
away
from
negativity,
"If
it is
make
to yourself.
you keep on watching your own mind, sometimes you might em-
barrass yourself.
When
that happens,
It is
it is
good
sign,
it
means you
are
fin-
faults everywhere,
a little bit.
"The essence
to develop as
possible,
much
virtue as
possible, to avoid as
much
when
negativity as
mind.
anger
finds
He had
is
patience. But
is
at its peak, a
is
person
it
very difficult to
try to
remember
that you
should
embarrassed, a
little
maybe
a little shy.
And when
"Some
of time.
feel
it.
will
it.
be able
avoid
is
Some
therapists
do know one
thing:
Anger
is
It is
fee that
therapist,
much
more. For example, say that you've had a good night's sleep; you're happy,
relaxed, in a
to the day.
Then you
get an
irri-
SANDY JOHNSON
tation.
is
at
gone,
mood with
it.
That's
why
it is it
expensive.
costs
Spiritually,
costs a
you a
is
clean and
clear,
lucid mind;
and
it
mental
the
difficulties
is
very
When
mind
dis-
turbed,
When we
we
start to get
hysterical.
"So
it is
lot of
body
need
mind
healer,
The way
to
do
it is
then think,
then meditate, and then acknowledge your thoughts. Through that you
And when
to have a
wonderful
life."
D E
His Eminence
at
was recognized
in Tibet,
a centuries-old
Communist
invasion.
Son
of
Dawa Drolmaone
of Tibet's
most
Rinpoche
and
received
extensive
came
the
in
Now
United States
citizen,
lives at
He
a lot
how to
The
we use what we
call
karma.
first is
in front of us, or
we can
of
our head, either way. However we visualize, we confess our negative actions to that
wisdom
being.
is
regret.
We
recognize
We
have
and very
sincerely re-
and
Then
the
third
power
is
we
what
we won't do
it
again.
We make this
Then
this
where we
visualize that
from
down through
purifying
all
sins
is
and obscurations;
all
negativity
is
washed away.
It is alive.
"There
karma.
Some-
thing happens
when we
our
tion
own
experience.
some
wisdom-mind,
buddha-nature.
"Through
The same
outer conditions can occur, and yet our response, our perspective, our
will
be different."
"How do you
264
"I'll
speak a
I
little bit
from
my own
age of two,
was recognized
as a tulku,
Even
Most
from teachand
but also
from
The
point
is,
we
and relationships
we
crucial to start
by contemplat-
ing impermanence.
"It's also
portunity
this
lies in
having a
human
birth.
realize
because their
lives are
painful,
ties,
and they
is
human
capaci-
which
a grave mistake.
it,
river,
and
to cross over,
Then maybe
you'll
never
is
Once
is
In this
we
at least
others.
we can
of progress.
Even
better,
we can help
And as a
minimum we can realize profoundly that we mustn't make other peo"There's a kind of ease that comes
ple miserable.
illusory
nature of
reality,
SANDY JOHNSON
6 5
it is, it isn't,
and someday
it
won't be at
all.
This
mean
it
that
life,
proach
a sand castle
washes
out to
sea,
though compassion
is
"Compassion
we have
we need
to cultivate
it
by contemplating
solidity.
velop a sincere, compassionate desire that suffering will cease, that every-
life
"Coming
to an understanding of
a gen-
make
steps to true
And effective
be
true.
what we know
to
This
The
great Buddhist
life in
came
to a sin-
That
is
mind and
being, and
we
begins
in
the morning and rejoice that you didn't die in the night, in knowing that
you'll
you
altruistic intention to
commitment
I
yourself,
day
as
I
will
do
right
by other people
much
am able.'
2
6 6
HF
Chagdud Tulku
Rinpoche
"During the
day,
How am
behaving?
What
is
my
real
intention?
When you
may
find that
you were able to make others happy Maybe you gave food to a
moment of patience.
to.
do better tomorrow,
be
more
skillful,
more compassionate
in
beings,
whoever they
are,
in,
thinking,
short-
'May
this virtue
may
it
cause
them
and long-term
happiness.'
"Whenever you
find that
you have
no
benefit,
The
point
is
to observe
what
SANDY JOHNSON
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purified.
When you
being,
and downfalls,
I
in practice
you
call
upon
wisdom
just
there
is
not heard.
It
doesn't matter
a deity, as long as
when
From
the
intellect;
that
beyond thought
the
faculty,
human
let
Then you
lies
the
all
mind
beyond
relax.
exclusively,
like
sitting
on
You pay
at-
tention to your spiritual process throughout the day. You meditate this
way anywhere
while
driving a
car,
mind
is
home
or sleep
bed
of stone.
"What
meditation produces
is
bring pure intention back again and again; check that your motivation includes helping
all
is
like
the
impermanence, lovingkindness
a part of the cloth
is
sewn so strongly
garment.
it
becomes
entire
6 8
"When
in
mind on
you
are
you
mind
is
on the pen.
If
mind on the
stitch.
on what hap-
the future.
doesn't matter
it
closely,
comfortably in what you do, and in that way you train the mind as
it's
very
mea-
perseverance.
"If
all
everything has
an
illusion, like a
something to teach. In
movie.
It just
fact
it is all
dream,
like
comes and
goes.
Now we
we
it.
to suffer extremely.
fall
and
dream.
"We simply don't have time to argue with other people, to fight. We
don't have time to lose patience.
It's like if
we were going
five
for a
long walk
and we stopped
to rest
on
bench
for
maybe
came
to
sit
next to us.
Why
this short
larger sense,
we have such
really well,
a short
reminded
me of a teaching
classes
who gives
on one-
SANDY JOHNSON
269
all
"Traditionally,
alytical
ject, to
in
teaching Tibetan
meditation,
we use
an-
a meditation obI
my
I.
ask
they find
it
hard to
choose one,
let-
famous
ego.
ask
my students to divide this letter into five small parts, each rephuman body. Then
I
ask
them
parti-
hundreds of thousands of
still
I.
like
the
cells in
tell
my
whether the
/ is
in
I
would you
say the
the head?
"Or
if it is
in the
mind,
in
reside? In the
mind
of
stand
still; it is
in the
The more we
try to locate
I,
the
more we
does not
usually
own.
What we
is
formed of three
"I
and interdependency
emotions
if
teach
my students that
like
greed and hatred lose their targets and slowly dissolve. Likewise,
you
feel
strong attachment or greed, this practice helps you discover the true nature of the
phenomena and
to let go."
JO
"If
to hate, can
you find an
to love?"
Love
in that
to
do with the
/.
which
is
extended to everyone.
for her,
my
be very upset
her. If
but
I'd
out of
do
it
peaceful dieties.
faces
seem enormously
threat-
love,
not hatred.
similar,
dif-
self-nature, that
a solid thing
it
you
are simply
happy to be near
ourselves from
we have
neutralized our
minds and
are
in a position to
about changes.
"When
tached.
this I
does not
exist, that
is
the
first step.
for
at-
on the
J,
yourself,
but also
family,
and
be
you
If
can't find an
in yourself to
J,
the same
true of others.
a person's
then
what
this
is it
When you do
down on
SANDY JOHNSON
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Dagsay Rinpoche
ment.
"My students
happy
they
feelings
tell
Other times,
become
They
what
it
reveals
about them-
selves.
tell
them not
to
go.
At the beginning,
it is
Go
you'll feel
As soon
as
you're seeing things you don't like about yourself, then drop
sign that for the
That's a
too deep.
"It's helpful,
of course, to have
someone
open
you have
to the possibility.
If
the karma
is
right,
is
takes care of
When
the teacher
a
tells
then you
good
teacher.
is
"My
personal message to
my
students
is
universal."
as a nurse in a local hospital, said
who works
someone has an
illness,
good time to begin to meditate. You can help the healing process
faith in the
goddess or a
are dying,
deity.
it is
Of
when you
teach
are
who
just
very
difficult to
them how
Then
sit
there with
them
and hold
ing. Just
their hands,
will let
is
being present
when
a person
is
dying
thing."
SANDY JOHNSON
J 3
PROPHECIES
What
had so intrigued me at
the beginning of
my travels was
The
will
is
upon
us, that
we
be forced
is
purification
will survive.
When
asked
him
if
"I
think
we
are
coming to
when
said,
we
all
it's
the people.'
If
The
we
people
make the
time.
It's
up
in
our hands.
only
can change.
things that
Some
prophecies can be
we can do
to prevent them,
and
we do
nothing, they
will
is
up
The
influence
is
so strong,
it's
dif-
'The
is
that
it is
sometimes
people don't
people
know how
and
hard to find
who
it's
can.
tunately,
come
to realize
what
they meant!"
"But
is
this particular
named by
the Hopi
and
it's
called Kaliyuga;
Tibetan
it's
It's
when
everything
become
more
life
span degenerates;
are said to dere-
Everything
is
become less
sequences. That's
why karma
ripples,
is
so important.
There
are
mas, many,
many
which
interconnectedness.
The
ment
affects
all
of us.
What happens
karma
you
take the
we must
listen to,
and
if
we
take these
SANDY JOHNSON
personally responsible
of a sense of
community and
ples of love
forgiveness.
The
basic
spiritual teachings
ourselves.
this
world coming to an
end
just yet.
still.
There
are
many
many
is
phases within
them
very
much up to
us, finally."
"Why,"
tion,
try to
is it
asked, "however
much
do they experience an
internal resistance to
What
resis-
that
makes us
overcoming that
tance?"
"Generally speaking,
tion,
it's
when people
habit. Ego-habit.
I
And
it
fests as
what
I
we do
if
everything
we can
to avoid the
main
issue.
we put
we
invest in
end of
it all,
we have
no other
to
choice.
let go."
When we come
we cannot
resist;
we have
"How can
"That
is
our personality dissolves, and the unique quality of our buddha-manifestation shines.
will
to
worn
that
egoless you
up
as nothing, or float
around
in
J 6
Sogyal Rinpoche
outer space.
really
The amazing
thing
is
that
when you
you
who we
"For example,
conceptually.
is
difficult to
do
The
nature of
all
buddhas
is
them manifests
unique and
rezig
ergy.
is
special qualities.
Manjushri
is
the
Buddha
is
of
Wisdom; ChenBuddha
of En-
the
Buddha
of
the
They
are the
same
special qualities.
Look
Khyentse Rin-
Dzogchen
teachings; both
come from
tradition;
different.
SANDY JOHNSON
7 7
"One simple
bring you,
it
thing
is
that
when you
wonder-
ful opportunity.
we need
Buddhism,
re-
teachings begin to
come back
to you.
resis-
to
guide you, advise you, and inspire you to overcome your resistance."
278
telephone conversations,
plans.
I
Soon after my return from Europe, during one of our weekly my mother raised the sticky subject of my future
was
still
reeling
she asked
me
if I
would
when
this project
was finished.
paused, held
my breath,
tion
I
know/'
I
said.
My
was time
owned my own
help
make
would be nice to
we can
start to
know each
other."
thought about
I
all
the years
bicycle
I
mv
Was
mother,
got
my
I
first
Then
even learned to
I
reallv
my mother and all thought she stood for that ran from? Or from Me feared might see in her? Now she was inviting me back into her life. The teenager woke
I I
.
. .
the
up.
It's
a trap,
he.
dummy. She'd be
telling us
what
to
should
my mother
voice quite
said, "I
new to me,
woman
know you have your work, and you'd have your friends.
some time
together."
in
would be
us
Whatever I do
not
my
only on
society,
life.
my own
is
life,
but on
life
I
my
environment,
is
my
friends,
everyone whose
touch. That
That
karma
repair.
to "walk
down
different street."
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The packing goes slowly, but have learned patience. will be in Florida in time for Christmas. My sons and stepdaughters, their chilI I
We
are a fractured
The
to
make
we each form
give our chil-
our
own
puzzle. Jetsun
Kusho had
all
said,
"We
we
are ca-
among
think:
The Wanla
oracle
of
to their voices as
I
Moments when
listened care-
fully
heart,
strains of the
song
of Shambala.
quickly, as
able to glimpse
as
it
from a speeding
still
images
of that
kingdom
slipped by:
a cloudless, turquoise
in the
and flowering
wisdom planted
time
before time.
To some, Shambala
called Lost Horizon
better.
I
is
a mythical place, a
movie
in black
and white
I
and
know
few other-
know how to
and
have come
to the
end
I
have listened
heart.
The people
of
we can begin
to expect peace
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thousand
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nothing
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