Unforgiveable Sirius: Draconis Potter

10/14/2014 Unforgiveable Sirius by Severus Draconis Potter
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Unforgiveable Sirius by Severus Draconis Potter
Summary: Sirius does something to Harry that he shouldnt and he shatters the
poor boy's last hope of finally having a family. He's lost and hurt and terrfied
with no one to turn to. No one but the man who has made his life miserable
anyway he could. How can Snape help Harry,when he hates him himself; or
does he?
Categories: Healer Snape, Teacher Snape > Trusted Mentor Snape, Parental
Snape > Guardian Snape Main Characters: .Snape and Harry (required),
Remus, Ron, Sirius
Snape Flavour: None
Genres: Angst, Drama, Family, Hurt/Comfort
Tags: Snape-meets-Dursleys
Takes Place: 5th Year
Warnings: Abusive Dursleys, Character Bashing, Profanity
Challenges: Unforgivable Sirius
Challenges: Unforgivable Sirius
Series: None
Chapters: 27 Completed: No Word count: 95605 Read: 99887 Published:
18 Nov 2011 Updated: 16 Jul 2014
Story Notes:
This was for a Challenge call Unforgivable Sirius by Romanticide. The little
link for the challenge page, seems to have disappeared or something; so I
made a new one lol.

I am a HUGE fan of Sirius, and I hated how he treated Severus. I tried really hard
to make him hurt Harry, and I know that some of you might be disappointed but I
did my best.
Disclaimer: I own Nothing

1. Chapter 1 by Severus Draconis Potter
Chapter 1 by Severus Draconis Potter
Author's Notes:
Ok given the Challenge Sirius is a bit OC as is Harry and by asocciation Severus,
although I did try to keep them as in character as I could.
This was going to be a two shot, but someone convinced me otherwise.
Harry flooed into Number 12 Grimmauld Place with a flop to the ground, he hated traveling by floo. He
was glad that the Headmaster had allowed him to spend this Christmas with Sirius because he wasnt
sure he could take much more of Umbridges cruelty, expecially during the holidays. Today he was
actually on a misson, his last Occulmency lesson with Snape ended in disaster because of his stupid
curiosity. He saw his teachers memory of a day in school, where his father and godfather were bullying
Snape. It was horrible to watch because his dads gang reminded him of his cousins gang, always
picking on the weaker ones. He shook his head, why didnt anyone tell him his father was a bully? They
always said he was a great man, is this why Snape hated him? If so then he could see the reasoning of
that, but he really needed to speak to Sirius now. Speak of the devil, he smiled at his godfather came
stepped into the doorway.
Hey kiddo, are you ready for your best Christmas yet?
Yea I am, what kinds of things are we going to do?
Uh I dont know yet, but I know well think of something. Here lets go put your stuff away in your
room.
Harry followed his godfather up the stairs and into a room, that was decorated in Gryffindor colors, it
was perfect. They started unpacking his trunk and Harry figured now would be the best time to talk about
that memory, so they would have the rest of the break to have fun.
Padfoot, can I talk to you about something?
Anything, whats on your mind kiddo?
My last Occulmency lesson with Snape, I accidently saw something I shouldnt have and he got really
angry with me. I dont think Ill have any more of them anytime soon.
What happened Harry? Did that greasy git hurt you?
No he didnt hurt me, I looked into the bowl that had his memories in it. I dont know what it was but it
showed you and dad and him at Hogwarts.
Its called a pensieve Harry, what was the memory about?
You guys were picking on him, calling him names like Snivellous, and making fun of his secondhand
clothes. Then you guys embarrassed him by levitating him in the air and taking off his trousers so
everyone could see his pants. How could you guys do something like that to him? How could you guys
be bullies? Why did you do that to him?
Harry was working himself into a state, he knew exactly was Snape must have been feeling because
Dudley did the same thing to him, only without magic. He didnt know how Sirius was going to explain
their actions, but his answer shocked the hell out of him.
That greasy git deserved it, he hogged Lily all to himself when he knew James liked her. Besides he was
a slimy snake, I tell you Harry he deserved it, and anyway we were young and stupid. Kids make
mistakes all the time so calm down, your 15 surely you know what I mean?
Yea Im 15 but Im not a bully I never have been and never will. Just because dad liked mum and she
was friends with Snape doesnt give you guys a reason to hurt him.
Harry why are you defending that git, that greasy bat had it coming. Snivellous wasnt hurt, he Sirius
was interruppted by Harry.
Stop making excuses for yourself Padfoot, you guys were in the wrong. I can see why he hates me, after
all my father and godfather was the cause of his misery in school.
Harry you dont know what your talking about, we didnt do anything to him that he didnt deserve.
Deserve, who are you to tell a 15 year old kid what he deserves? He had every right to be at school just
like you did, regardless of his blood status or wealth. Merlin, you sound just like Malfoy, he makes fun of
Ron for having less too.
Dont you EVER compare me to that little snot Harry, I am not like a Malfoy.
Harry stared at Sirius as he grabbed him by the arms and shook him like Uncle Vernon used to do when
he was angry with him. He was in shock, but he could still feel how tight his godfather was squeezing his
arms and they were sure to leave bruises. It really hurt and he tried to get away but Sirius only squeezed
harder.
Sirius stop, your really hurting me. Please let go of my arms, Harry cried.
You have to understand this Harry, we were kids and everyone knows kids do stupid things. Do you
understand me? Sirius asked and then shook Harry again to get his point across.
Harry for his part was struggling to hold the tears that wanted to fall, why was his godfather treating
him like this? He had promised to never hurt him, what do you call this then? He knew in his heart deep
down that Sirius was wrong to have treated Snape that way but he wasnt about to say that out loud, but
he had to know something else just as important.
Do you regret it, what you did to him?
No Snivellous got what he deserved, why should I feel bad about that. Besides bullies are important
parts of childhood.
Your proud of that, my godfather the bully? I dont believe this, let go of me, I dont want to talk about
this with you anymore. I dont think my dad would be proud of this, not the man everyone describes him
as being.
James supported me 100% then and he would now if he were alive. You dont really act like a real
Potter Harry, and if I didnt know any better I would think that you werent James son at all.
At that admisson Sirius pushed Harry roughly on the bed and walked out of the room, slamming the door
on his way out. Harry rolled over on his stomach and let the tears fall and sobbed into his pillow. Was
that really his godfather who just said that? He stayed in his room for the rest of the day not even coming
out when he heard Ron come over with his mum for an order meeting. Ron came into his room and
grabbed his arm to bring him down for dinner, and he flinched and whimpered at the pain in his arms.
Before he could do anything Ron had lifted the sleeves of his shirt and was gaping in horror at the dark
hand shaped bruises on his arm.
What the bloody hell happened Harry? Who did this to you? Does Sirius know about this?
Yes, hes the one who did it to me, Harry replied too weary to even try to lie.
He didnt want to stay with Sirius anymore and if this is what it took to get away from his godfather he
was all for it. Besides he was only telling the truth and nothing more.
Why did he do this?
He got mad at me, are you going to tell anyone Ron?
No Im not, but you are. Lets go they probably havent started their meeting yet.
Harry let Ron lead him downstairs to the dining room where it was set up for the order meeting, he
kept his head to the ground knowing that his eyes were puffy and red, and he had tear tracks down his
face. He could hear the room quiet as they entered but he still refused to look up.
Can I help you boys with something? The meeting is about to start and you know you arent allowed in
here, the Headmaster spoke,
We have to tell you something important Headmaster, it involves Harry.
Wow big surprise, of course it involves Potter. What not getting enough attention here Potter?
Leave him alone, this is serious, Ron replied fiercly.
Whats the matter Harry dear? Mrs. Weaseley asked.
Harry knew he supposed to explain what happened but he couldnt even look up let alone open his
mouth. Sirius was in this room with him, what if he stood up to hurt him again? He shook his head, and
pulled against Rons grasp, he couldnt do this. But strangely Ron wouldnt let him go.
Well are you going to tell us what was so important, that you came barreling through here? Snape
asked.
Um..Its not my place but since he wont talk I guess I better. Ron replied before pushing up the sleeve
on Harrys arm.
He heard the gasps around the room as they took in the severe bruising on his pale skin, and he felt
rather then saw Sirius get up and start towards him. He couldnt stop himself from trembling and backing
away from his godfather and thankfully Ron saw him too.
Stay away from him Sirius, or Ill curse you good. You dont get to hurt Harry and then pretend that you
care when youre the one who did it.
At Rons accusation everyone stopped and stared at Sirius who had a expression of anger and remorse,
which Harry saw and flinched back when he looked up. That little movement cause everyone in the room
to turn towards Sirius with a glare.
Is this true Padfoot, did you hurt Harry? Remus asked unable to believe that Sirius hurt his cub.
It was an accident Moony, no big deal.
Harry shook his head again as the tears swam into his vision, this was going bad. Everyone was going to
believe Sirius and then when he left he was going to hurt him worse, thats how it always was with Uncle
Vernon. He couldnt handle being in here, he tugged against Ron again so he could let him go but he still
held on tight. His breathing was getting erractic as he he got more an more scared about what he knew
was going to happen but no one noticed until Sirius grabbed him by the shoulder, how he got pass Ron
was anybodys guess. He couldnt help it he flinched back pulling Ron with him and he screamed a
sound that made Ron wince so he knew it was loud. Getting lost in one of his memories he slid to the
ground with his hands over his head, and trying to protect himself from the blows that he knew were
coming.Everyone else in the room was frozen in shock, mouths opened with disbelief and horror on their
faces. What in the world had happened earlier? Whatever it was, it was more then what Sirius was trying
to pass it off as. Ron was trying to pull Harry out of his flashback but that only succeeded in making him
more scared, so he just held his hand.
Severus couldnt believe what he was seeing, what did that idiotic mutt do to the boy? Potter was
cowering on the floor as if he was expecting to be hit, and why wasnt anyone doing anything for the
child? Morons the lot of them he thought, he walked over to the boy and crouched in front of him being
careful not to touch him just yet.
Potter, your safe no one is going to hurt you here.
Severus watched as Harry tried to stop trembling but he responded to the sound of his voice.
He is, he hurt me earlier, I dont want him here, make him leave. Please Professor make him leave.
Its his house Harry, I cant make him leave, Severus replied softly.
Harry shook his head, since when did he ever feel safe with Snape. Now that he thought of it he was sure
that Snape could defend himself against Sirius now that they werent kids in school. And since when did
his Professor call him Harry?
Then I want to leave, I dont wanna be here with him.
Harry come on kiddo, you know that I would never intentionally hurt you.
Harry hunched back into himself when he heard his godfather speak to him, and the hand who was
holding his own tightened. He couldnt say anything to Sirius he just wanted to leave.
Im sorry for what I did Professor, I didnt mean to see what I saw. I didnt make fun and I didnt tell
anyone, Im sorry. Please can you take me back to Hogwarts with you? I dont want to stay here
anymore.
Severus for his part was floored, and he swallowed the retort he had when he remembered the
pensive incident. Something about Potters defensive positon wasnt sitting right with him, and he had
made a vow; he couldnt leave the child here. Ignoring everyone else in the room at the moment he
gently lifted up the boy, wondering at how light he was. He wasnt all that surprised to note that Weasley
had yet to let go of Potters hand.
Headmaster, Ill be back in 15 minutes Im going to Hogwarts before you ask.
Thats fine Severus, take care of him my boys.
Snivellous put my godson down hes not going anywhere with you.
Sirius stop, your scaring him and making it worse, Remus replied.
Harry breathed in the scent of potions on his teachers robes, and a part of him wondered if this is what it
was like to be held by your dad? He could hear arguing and loud voices behind them but he didnt care,
he only hoped Snape wouldnt be mad that he got tears on his robes.
To be continued...
End Notes:
I like Challenges I get it now why everyone does them there loads of fun lol
Always review please and thank you Ok I'm convinced, this is going to be a short
story no more then 5-7 chapters, hope you guys like it.
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leavea review and I'll add it in if it fits
Severus grabbed the floo powder off the mantle and prepared to floo to Hogwarts. After seeing the fierce
expression on Weaselys face when he tried to make him release his grip on Potter, they all flooed to the
school together. Arriving in his quarters he set the boy down on the sofa and went to get the potions that
Potter needed.
Harry wiped his tears away with his free hand and continued sniffling until a handkerchief was put into
his hand. He wiped his nose and hoarsely spoke a thank you to Ron who was looking at him with an
unreadable expression. Harry had never seen him look so serious, usually he wore his every emotion on
his face but not now.
Ron, are you ok?
No mate Im not, I dont understand this Harry.
Understand what Ron?
Why does everyone have to hurt you? What did you ever do to them?
Hey, Im fine Ron I bounce back quickly. Besides Ive had worse, and this is no big deal.
I know youve had worse mate, but you are definitely not fine. Ron sighed and shook his head.
Do you think Ill have to go back?
To Sirius you mean? No mum would never allow the Headmaster to allow it, besides did you see
Snapes face?
No I was kind of buried in his robes, Harry weakly chuckled.
Harry rested his head in his hands, what was he thinking pleading to Snape like that. Of all people to
choose he had to pick to the one man who hated his guts and now even more so since the day with the
pensive. Why did he take him to Hogwarts, what was he hoping to gain? Harry shook his head; hes
probably going to tell his Slytherins how Harry Potter cried in his robes of all people. He really hated his
life right now, why did it have to vary from hurt or humiliation, why couldnt he just catch a break? He
heard his professor coming back to the room, and his whole body tensed in preparation for whatever his
teacher was going to do to him. Harry unknowingly tightened his grip on Rons hand and tried not to
tremble.
Severus came back into the room and watched the boy visibly hunched into himself. His body was tensed
and every once in a while a shudder would cut through the childs frame.
Mr. Potter I need you to lift up your sleeves so I can spread the bruise salve on it. I also need you to take
this potion, its for any pain you may have.
Harry quickly drank the pain potion and sighed in relief when he felt it immediately start working.
He could see Snape gesturing to his arms, but he pretended not to see. He avoided all eye contact, and he
mused that Ron was right for once. Why did everyone want to hurt him? He never did anything to
anybody except maybe Snape, but he was treating Harry decently at least for now he was.
Severus scowled; the brat was ignoring him after he brought him to and Hogwarts and got him away
from Black. Not having much patience in the beginning, what he had was starting to wane.
Now Potter, your arms
Severus was rewarded with a flinch but the boy did lift up his sleeves. Severus hid a wince as he saw
the dark bruising on the pale skin up close. The boy would need a few more applications of the salve
before the bruising would disappear completely. He knew firsthand that Potter could be annoying but
what did he say for Black to do this to him. He was startled from his thoughts when his floo flared and
they all visibly tensed until they realized it was only Albus. What was he doing here; surely the meeting
wasnt over just yet, was it?
Is the meeting over already Albus?
We havent even started my boy; Im merely here to confirm what happened to Harry.
What is there to confirm? Black hurt him and if that wasnt enough you saw the way he reacted when
the mutt touched him. Or are you really going to dismiss this all as an accident?
Harry had zoned out before he heard the Headmasters answer, he wasnt even surprised really that
no one believed him. No one ever believed him when he told them that someone was hurting him, and
now the Headmaster was practically calling him a liar. He wasnt aware that he was gasping on his sobs,
or that all conversation ceased as they looked at him. In the distance he could hear Rons voice talking to
him, why was Ron so far away?
Harry mate, he didnt say that he didnt believe you. Anyone with eyes can see the proof on your arms,
now calm down Harry before you make yourself sick.
Severus silently turned and stared at Weasely in disbelief as he calmly spoke to Potter. Spelling a
calming draught into the boys stomach he waited for it to take effect, before grabbing Albus by the arm
and heading toward the fireplace.
Call a house elf if you guys get hungry, Weasely take care of him until I get back.
Shaking his head Severus couldnt believe he was leaving 2 Gryffindors alone in his quarters, never mind
that it was Potter and Weasely. He took the floo powder and flooed to Albuss office.
~*~*~*~Back at Grimmald Place~*~*~*~*
Remus was seething, and with the full moon only a few days away he looked more like a wolf then
human. His face and eyes were both feral as he bared his teeth at Sirius. He had watched bemused, when
Severus picked Harry up and then took him to Hogwarts. That was supposed to be Siriuss job; he was
not supposed to be the cause of his godsons pain. Remus didnt trust himself right now to talk to Sirius
alone, so he just stayed in the meeting room shooting murderous glances at his friend.
Sirius for his part was sitting at the table with narrowed eyes. The way the order members were looking
at him made him feel like he was a schoolboy all over again. So he grabbed Harry and tried to shake a
little sense into him big deal, his parents had done that to him and more and he came out all right. What
was really irking him was the fact that Snivellous of all people was allowed to pick Harry up. But he
flinched back when his godfather barely touched his shoulder. He shook his head, how dare that greasy
bat brainwash Harry like that. Everyone knew that the hatred between Harry and Snape was mutual
wasnt it? How could Harry choose Snivellous over him? He chanced a glance at Moony whose glare
was burning a hole through his skull. He was trying to come up with an explanation for Moony when an
anguish sound from the werewolf made him stop short.
Why, Padfoot?
Why what Moony?
Why did you hurt Harry?
I didnt mean too, he just wasnt listening to me.
Oh and I supposed grabbing him like that made him listen to you? Right, Ill bet the boy couldnt even
move because your grip was too tight, Moody gruffly replied.
You guys dont understand at all, Harry wasnt acting like James son.
How could he know how his father acted, he never even knew the man, Minerva answered.I hope to
Merlin that you didnt tell him that, Moony angrily replied.
Of course I did, he needed to know that he wasnt acting like a Potter.
You idiot, how stupid can you be Padfoot?
Remus saw red at Siriuss answer, was he trying to break the child? Unconsciously he drew his left arm
back as his hand molded into a fist; as he walked toward Sirius. He felt a strange gleam of satisfaction as
he swiftly punched his best friend in the face. Ignoring the gasps behind him, he turned around without
another glance to see if his friend was ok and walked out of the now silent room.
Everyone in the room was gaping at the man on the floor, who was knocked out from the blow. Each
wondering if Remus was ok, the usually quiet and non-violent man has just punched one of his closest
friends in the face. Shaking their heads, they silently headed to the kitchen for refreshments.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~Hogwarts~*~*~*~*
Albus what is going on? What did you really want to talk to me about? Surely those bruises on Harrys
arms were not accidental, is that what you truly believe?
No Severus, I am aware of what you have to do to achieve that kind of bruising. What I wish to talk to
you about is Harrys metal health at this point. He seems to semi-trust you to keep him safe, so I
wondering if you could help the child come to terms with Siriuss mistake?
Why would you ask me of all people Albus? Whats wrong with the wolf?
I dont think Remus could help him like you can Severus.
"What do you mean Albus? What arent you telling me?
Severus watched the old wizard sigh deeply before covering his face with one hand. The gesture was
so unlike Albus that it made him feel a bit guarded.
What is it Albus? Severus asked gently.
I made an error, where I placed Harry for the last 15 years.
What do you mean? Severus asked cautiously.
I placed him with Lilys sister Petunia, and I thought she would love him like her own son but I was
mistaken.
You placed Potter with her? But you told me he was with his grandparents, you lied to me. I told you
how Petunia was as a child, and yet you still put Lilys son with her? Are you mad old man?
Severus the blood wards were stronger with her and her son, and anyways his grandparents died 1
month later.
They were probably heartbroken; they had just lost their daughter and son-in-law and then find out that
their daughters will was ignored. How did she treat Lilys son?
Not liked I hoped at all.
How did she treat Lilys son?
She let her husband handle Harry; yes the same way your handled you.
And how long have you known about it? Because so help me if you knew and kept sending him back
year after year, Im resigning right now.
I only knew that he wasnt happy, Arabella informed me of this past summer. Trust me when I say that I
deeply regret not checking in on him, but back to the matter at hand. Will you help him Severus?
I cant just turn my back on the child now can I? So many people have already; I walked in on a bit of
their conversation back in my quarters. They were trying to figure out why everyone wanted to hurt
Potter, what child asks that Albus?
I know my dear boy, I know.
I should head back and see what theyre doing. I wasnt planning on staying here this year for winter
break, so perhaps I could help him when I get back.
I dont think that would be the best plan Severus, this was the first year where no students were staying
and most of the teachers if not all are gone. The magic here wouldnt protect the boy very well, and
anything could happen.
No Albus, Im not taking him. I agreed to help him but I never agreed to take care of him.
Severus you must or hes going to have to go back to Grimmald place.
Are you serious, you would send a child back to an abusive household?
Well order members would be there so Harry would never have to be alone with Sirius.
But he would still be able to see him you mean. Fine Ill take him, what am I to do with him when I go
back to the meeting today?
Nothing, he will be fine in your quarters with Ron.
Alright, Ill see you in a little bit.
Severus flooed to his quarters to find the boys sitting at the kitchen table playing with their food; they
looked up at his arrival but didnt say anything.
I have an order meeting to go to, so you are both to stay here at Hogwarts in my quarters. Dont go
anywhere and dont get into any trouble while Im gone.
Why do we have to stay here? Ron whined.
Did you really want Potter to go back to Grimmald place?
No way in hell is he going back, Ron replied angrily.
I didnt think so Mr. Weasley. When I come back Mr. Potter, the Headmaster and I wish to talk to you
about where you are to stay for the rest of the Christmas holidays.
Wait, could you please bring my stuff back Professor? Harry quietly asked.
I will Potter, Severus replied.
Harry watched as Snape flooed away, and he turned to Ron and grinned. He figured they had at least 2
hours to kill, and he really wanted some chocolate to cheer him up.
Are we really going to stay here Harry? Ron giving up on his dinner, for once he wasn't hungry.
Hey Ron, do you fancy a trip to Honeydukes? Harry asked with a sly smile.
To be continued...
End Notes:
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Severus arrived at the Orders quarters a few minutes after Albus, and he headed straight for the
wolf who was glaring daggers into the unconcious man on the floor. Wait what? Why was Black
knocked out and who did it? Severus shook his head, and his lips twitched he wanted to be the one to do
that, after all the man deserved it for how he hurt Harry. When did Potter become Harry anyway? He
interrupted his musings by touching the wolfs shoulder and tilting his head to the left before he walked
out the room. He waited in the sitting room for about a half a minute before Lupin appeared.
How is he Severus? How is Harry?
As well as anyone can be I guess, hes still scared if thats what your asking. He wanted me to retrieve
his things, but seeing as I dont know which room was his I need your help.
He doesnt want to stay here anymore?
Open your eyes wolf, of course he doesnt want to stay here. Can you blame him?
No I cant, sorry Severus that was a stupid question. Ill get his things now.
Thank you Lupin, Severus sighed like it pained him to admit such a thing.
No problem, anything for Harry, he replied before walking out the room.
He headed back into the meeting room, with his trademark scowl on his face. So many people had things
they needed to answer for, himself included. He disliked the child immensely but he would never hurt
him or any other child no matter how annoying they could get. What the hell provoked Black to the point
where he resulted to physical violence? Maybe he could ask Harry when he got back to Hogwarts, so
they could get to the bottom of this. He noticed that no one seemed to care about the man on the floor,
they just stepped over him if they needed to pass by. He watched as Albus finally took pity on the man
and enervated him, and the meeting finally started.
~*~*~*~*~*Hogwarts~*~*~*~*
Harry I know I didnt want to stay locked up in Snapes quarters either, but maybe we shouldnt go to
Hogsmeade. I mean think of what hell do to us if we get caught, and what if he comes back to Hogwarts
early? Ron asked, as they entered the secret passage way to Honeydukes.
He wont Ron, jeez you really are starting to sound just like Hermione.
I am not, I only wanted to point out that we dont have the cloak, and anything could happen Harry be
reasonable. We could always have some fun in the Room of Requirment.
I am Ron, I just wanted some chocolate and to feel happy is all. But we can go back if you really dont
want to do this, Harry replied warily.
Theres no point mate, were already here, lets just get the stuff and get back ok? Ron replied sighing
in defeat.
Cool, thanks mate youre the best, Harry replied as he scampered out the passage way.
As soon as they entered the shop Ron forgot all about Snape, especially when Harry grabbed his hand
and gave him 10 galleons before running off to get his own treats. Not feeling bad or ashamed in the
slightest he started picking out his treats. They lost track of the time, due to the amounts of candy that
grabbed their attention. As they were finally leaving Ron took a look at his wristwatch and and groaned
they had wasted an 1 hour and a half in the shop, Snape could be back now or any minute. He was going
to kill them if he got back and they werent in his quarters. Pulling Harry by the hand they ran through
the passage way back to the castle, and back down to the dungeons. They stood gasping from their run in
front of Snapes door and looked at one another in horror, how in the heck were they supposed to get
back in when they didnt even know the password? They were so screwed, oh well that couldnt be
helped now. Sitting down in front of the door, they opened their candy bags and tasted a few. Hoping that
the man wouldnt kill them at least.
~*~*~*~Grimmauld Place~*~*~*~
Severus frowned at the poor excuse for the man across the table, how dare he lay a hand on Lilys child
and then try to pretend it was nothing? He was no worse then those muggles, at least he accepted that he
was deliberatly mean to the child because of who his father was. It doesnt excuse either of them, nor
Albus for placing him with Petunia for the last 15 years. He couldnt even imagine the amount of damage
she had done to the boy, it was a wonder the boy was still functioning after all their abuse. The meeting
was over after he had given his report and was just about to floo when the mutt grabbed his shoulder. He
was already not in the mood, just having found out about Potters home life, if Black didnt remove his
hand from his person he would not and could not be responsible for his actions.
What did you do to Harry you greasy git?
I took him away like he asked, because unlike you I dont harm children. No matter who their fathers
are or how much they annoy me.
Right so you say that now, I know and everyone else knows how much you hate my godson.
Oh yes I bet they do. But I bet none of them will ever accuse me of laying my hand on him now will
they? Why did you hurt Potter? What could he have possibly done to annoy you so much to the point
where you resulted to physical violence?
As if you didnt know, this is all your fault.
I fail to see how I am at fault here. Severus calmly replied, he was confused if anything.
He was defending you, of all people you. Not James or me like he should have. Why would he do that
unless you did something to him?
What are you insinuating Black? Why would Potter defend me?
He did though, about how we treated you in school. He called us bullies, that he could see why you
treated him like you do. He sympathized with you, why would he turn on his father and godfather for a
git like you? I know you brainwashed him, you did something for him to think that.
Is that what you really believe? Then you really are just as hopeless like I thought. If you must know
your godson was a victim of bullying, and Im pretty sure he was ashamed to notice how similar his
father was to his cousin. I suggest you remove your arm from my shoulder if you wish to retain the use of
it.
I dont believe that, Harry wasnt bullied. And I know for a fact that you did something to him, I just
cant prove it. Youre a deatheater, hes probably being imperioed.
You sound like a fool Black, do you not hear yourself? Listen to the nonsense spouting from your
mouth for once.
Severus tried to shrug his shoulders to remove the mans arm but he refused to let go. He never like being
touched, years of living with an abusive father could do that to a person. He took his hand and pushed the
arm away from him and turned to walk away from the man but he really couldnt take a hint. He could
see Harrys trunk waiting by the floo, and he headed for it. He was grabbed again and this time he
reacted without thinking, but then again the man was warned. It was reflex really, his left hand shot out
and twisted the man's arm. But before Black could think of reacting Severus's right fist landed smack in
beetween in the mans eyes and down he went. There was gasps from around the room and he could see
Albus looking at him in disappointment but he didnt care for once. He did not like his personal space
invaded, everyone in this room including the man on the floor knew it. He looked around for the wolf,
wanting to avoid a confrontation with him, when he saw him smirking at him from his post in the
doorway.
Dont let Albus make you feel bad Severus, guess who knocked him out the first time?
Severus nodded and hurriedly turned around, it wouldnt do for them to see the wide grin that seem to
take over his entire face. Taking the trunk and shrinking it he flooed back to Hogwarts.
~*~*~*~*~*Hogwarts outside Snapes Quarters~*~*~*~*
Do you think hes back yet? Ron asked as he shoved his remaining treats into his robe pockets.
I dont know, can you hear anything inside? Harry asked swallowing a chocolate frog.
I dont know, maybe we should knock on the door? Ron asked finally.
You do it, you dont really think hell kill us do you? Harry asked a bit worried.
Hide your sweets Harry, this is Snape were talking about. I think I just heard the floo. Oh man, get
ready, Ron replied already cringing away.
~*~*~*~Severuss Quarters~*~*~*~
He knew the minute he landed in his quarters that something wasnt right, and one glance around proved
it. They were gone, trying to hold in his temper before he did anything rash he looked around at least for
a note. Of course there wasnt one, resisting the urge to curse he took out his wand and did a point me
spell. It led him to the front door, he opened it to find the two boys scrambling back on their feet from
where they were sitting on the floor. They looked fine, but what were they doing outside when he
specifically told them to stay inside.
Get inside, your very lucky that Umbridge doesnt come down to the dungeons often. What were you
doing, I thought I told you to stay inside?
We did, we just wanted to get some air is all, Ron replied head down.
Is there anything you want to add Mr. Potter?
No sir, what Ron said. We just took a little walk is all.
A walk you say, and where did you go. Severus asked quietly.
Nowhere special, just to HoneyI mean Gryffindor Common Room? Harry stammered out.
Harry you dolt, Ron whispered but the damage was done.
You went where? And dont either of you think of lying to me again, or you will regret it.
We went to Honeydukes Professor, just wanted some sweets.
You walked in broad daylight, with no teachers outside of Hogwarts protective wards for some treats?
Well no, we didnt were not that dumb, Ron replied affronted.
Then how did you get there?
"We took the..." Ron was interuppted as Harry shoved him him to shut up.
Just what you said sir, were very sorry. Harry answered glaring at Ron for almost giving away the
secret passageway.
"If you say so, if I find out your lying to me.." Severus answered and trailed off, he was sure they were
hiding something but for now, he's let it lie.
Take a seat on the couch, have you eaten? And Im not talking about sweets?
No sir, they mumbled.
Dont move, and I mean it this time, you wont like whatll happen.
Harry sat rimrod straight on the couch as Snape went into the kitchen, he didnt know what the man was
going to do to them but he knew it wasnt something good. Why wasnt he taking points already? Was he
waiting to scare them into thinking more horrible things like Uncle Vernon? Maybe he was going to tell
him that he had to go back to Grimmauld Place. If that wasnt the case then where was his trunk? Trying
to ward off the incoming panic feeling deep in his chest he looked around for anything to distract his self
with. He found nothing and by the time Snape walked back into the room he was barely holding himself
together.
He trusted the man yes, but he also trusted Sirius and looked what happened with him. As Snape reached
out for his shoulder he couldnt stop himself from the flinch nor could he prevent himself from ending up
halfway across the room to get away from the man. He watched his teachers expression with guarded
eyes trying to calm himself, and ignore the look of concern in Rons face. What was wrong with him? He
had worked hard to control his skittish nature throughout the years and one day with Sirius ruined it all.
Potter, I wasnt going to harm you.
I know that sir, Im sorry. Harry replied eyes downcast in shame.
Its not your fault I startled you, Severus answered calmly.
When am I going back sir?
Excuse me?
When do I have to go back with Sirius I mean?
You dont, unless Im mistaken and you want too?
No I dont, but you didnt bring my trunk back. So I thought I had to stay there.
The Headmaster would never allow you to stay somewhere where someone was hurting you.
Of course not sir, Harry replied sarcastically and in disbelief, then why did he have to stay with the
Durselys?
Fine, I would never allow it then. You wont be going back, be it Blacks or the Durselys.
Harry was now gaping slack jawed at the man across from him, how did he find out about that? He was
able to hide most of his memories from his childhood but who told him about the Durselys? Was it Ron?
No, one look at his face and he could tell that he was just as surprised as Harry was.
I dont know what your talking about sir, Harry whispered.
I think you do Potter, but I still meant what I said. You will not be going back to either. Now come
along, were about to have dinner.
Harry headed to the table with Ron in beetween Snape and himself and they sat down. He wasnt
about to touch anything until both his mate and Professor served themselves first, that was how he was
taught. But they both stared at him, when he made no move to grab the food.
Not here Harry, you dont wait and get the leftovers. If you wont do it, Ill serve you myself, Ron
replied knowingly said and grabbed his plate.
Thanks Ron but I can do it, Harry answered head down.
Dont worry about it, just eat for once.
Severus watched them quietly interact while he served himself. Those muggles had a lot to pay for,
Albus was right this child was inches away from a breakdown. He didnt know if he was the adequate
person to care for him at the moment. Damn Albus for putting this on his shoulders.
50 points from Gryffindor each for your reckless behavior and 2 weeks worth of detention when classes
resume, for not listening to your Professor when you were told to stay put.
The twin glares he received as he finished his dinner was well worth it, their behavior was not to be
rewarded no matter what Albus said.
Hurry up and eat, because we will be leaving in 30 minutes.
Where are we going?
You Mr. Weasely is going back to Grimmauld Place.
What about Harry?
Mr. Potter will be staying with me at my home.
No, he cant Ron trailed off in horror.
Harry tuned the conversation out, once again he was getting foisted off onto a person who resented his
very existent. Was the Headmaster trying to kill him before he reached majority? Why did he have to
stay with Snape of all people? He couldnt help but feel like he was getting punished for something else.
He was going to be alone with Snape for the next 2 and half weeks and who knows what the man may do
to him. Harry kept his head down, he knew from the tone of voice that no amount of arguing was going
to help. He wished Ron could come along too, he didnt want to be alone with Snape. What if he got
really angry at Harry and decided to hurt him too? He did not like Adult males for a reason, they always
prove him right.
Are you sure I cant stay with anyone else sir?
No Mr. Potter, there isnt anyone else.
Not even the Weaseleys?
No, the Burrow doesnt have the protective wards like my Manor does.
Can I just go back to the Durselys then? Harry asked dejectedly.
Are you mad Harry? You would rather go back to the muggles then Snape? What the bloody hell
mate?
Yes Mr. Potter please enlighten me on that one. Why in the world would you want to go back into an
abusive house, when Im offering you a safe alternative?
Because you can always hurt me too, at least with the Durselys I wont be walking on eggshells on what
to expect he thought. The panic feeling came back, and he wondered if anyone else felt like they had no
control over their own lives. Harry shook his head, the corners of his eyes were getting dark spots in
them, and he could see Ron talking to him but he couldnt hear him. Who turned off the sound? He was
getting dizzy what was going on?
Breathe Potter, you foolish boy. Severus yelled.
Harry calm down, Merlin what the hell is wrong with him? Ron asked.
Panic attack Weasley, surely you can see whats in front of you.
I knew that, but why is he having one now? What set this one off?
I do not know, maybe if he calms down we can ask. Severus replied finally get up from the table to
help Harry.
Harry, calm down your safe. No one here is going to hurt you I promise.
Severus sent Ron to get a calming potion from his lab and he eased the child from the chair and into his
arms. This boy needed nutritive potions at the very least he was as light as a 2nd year. He cradled him
like he did earlier and spoke soothing words in his ears to calm him down.
Harry was feeling like a baby, so embarrassed that this was the 2nd time in 24 hours that he panicked
and was once again in Snapes arms. What was wrong with him? Why did this keep happening? He was
giving the man plenty of things to use against him, and when he did that who was going to save Harry
then?
Ron looked on in amazement, potion in his hand but he wasnt going to move from his position. The
way his Professor handled Harrys attack was so reminicent of his parents care for him, he didnt want
to disturb this precious moment. This was good Harry needed Snape, and from the looks of it Snape
needed Harry too.
To be continued...
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Harry came back around the minute he felt someone elses heartbeating in his ear, the roaring in his ears
dulled to background noise as he took a shaky breath. It was the familiar smell of potions that brought
him back down to earth. Why was he in Snapes arms again? Oh shoot, stupid panic attack again, he
hated these things. Was it wrong that he relished in the protective arms around him? He didnt want to
move, he didnt want this safety to diminish when he left his Professors arms. Oh well, hed better move
before the man remembered who he was holding and dropped him like a sack of potatoes. But just the
thought of moving was starting to make him panic all over again, and the arms around him tightened.
Youre fine Harry, you dont have to move just yet. Severus murmured quietly when he felt Harry shift
his weight.
Where was Weasely with that calming draught? Blasted boy, was he being deliberately obtuse? A part
of him didnt actually seem to mind that he was still holding the 15 year old. The rational part of his
brain tried to excuse his behavior and convince himself that he continued holding him only so he could
help ward off incoming panic attacks. Even then he couldnt ignore the warm strange feeling in his chest
at that thought.
Heres the potion sir, will Harry be allowed to owl me? Ron asked quietly.
Thank you, and yes he will Mr. Weasley, why do you ask?
Because I think its time I leave now sir, Ron replied.
Dont you wish to say goodbye?
Ill see you in a few weeks time mate, or sooner if Im allowed to visit you. Harry and I cant believe
Im saying this but just listen to Snape for once ok? Ron replied rubbing Harrys back gently before
flooing to the Burrow.
Severus maneuvered the boy in his arms and lifted the vial to his lips for him to drink. Whether it be
from the potion or exhaustion Harry was out like a light. He set the boy down and cleaned up his quarters
before picking him up and flooing to Snape Manor. He had never want to bring Potter to his house and he
knew that if he hadnt found out about the childs home life he would have given him the worst room and
treated him awful. But now he knew the truth, and with his shatter perceptions he couldnt do that now,
not without breaking the already fragile child. Setting the boy in one of the guest rooms he couldnt
believe what he was about to do. Changing the rooms colors to that of a Gryffindor, he laid the boy
down and transfigured his clothes to pajamas before he put him to bed. Not ready to go to bed himself
Severus went to work on some of his potions that needed to be done.
Harry woke up the next morning, refreshed for some reason. He couldnt remember the last time he slept
that good with no nightmares. He sat up and glanced around the room and gasped in horror. Why was he
back at Grimmauld Place? Snape promised that he would never go back there, then why was he there
now? What was he going to do, what if Sirius came in here and wanted to talk? Shaking his head, he
opened his trunk and quickly got dressed before grabbing his wand and invisibility cloak. As he was
opening the door he heard footsteps coming up the hall, he covered himself with the cloak and hid on the
other side of the bed, opposite the window. Tears were coming into his eyes as he tried to stop the sobs
from the stab of hurt betrayal he felt for being left here with Sirius, when Snape opened the door. Wait
what was Snape doing here?
Potter, are you in here? Severus asked looking around the room for the boy.
Im here sir, Harry whispered sniffling.
I dont see you Potter, Severus replied getting annoyed.
Oh sorry sir, Harry answered before taking off the cloak.
Why were you hiding under your cloak? And why are you crying?
I thought I was back in Grimmauld Place, Sirius had decorated my room there just like this.
Did I not tell you that you wouldnt be returning there? Severus asked frowning.
Words dont mean a thing to me, they can always change. Harry responded wearily.
You have my word Potter that you will not be returning back there. I promise, and I do not take my
promises lightly.
Yes sir
Are you hungry?
Yes sir
Come downstairs to the kitchen. After breakfast we need to go over the rules that I expect you to
follow.
Yes sir
Harry waited until Snape had left the room to hide his cloak and wand in his trunk. There really was no
point for him to carry it around if he couldnt even use it, he headed downstairs not wanting to make his
teacher angry if he arrived late. Sitting down for breakfast was a very quiet affair. His plate was already
served, but he waited for Snape to start before he took a bite which caused his Professor to turn his dark
eyes on Harry. It was unnerving to have those eyes look at you, especially since he knew his teacher was
very proficient in Legilimency so he kept his eyes down. He didnt notice his teacher had even gotten up
until he saw something dark out the corner of his eye. Why was the man standing so close to him?
Sir, can you please back up? Harry softly asked.
Excuse me Mr. Potter, could you repeat that?
Trying to prevent the panic attack he knew was coming, Harry got up from the table himself and
walked to the furthest wall away from his teacher. He was trying to put as much distance between them
as possible so he could feel comfortable. The man was watching him intently again, and his eyes
immediately met the floor. He could feel the mans gaze on him but no contact was never allowed at the
Dursely house, and Snape always got mad when Harry did it at school. It just seemed this was the safest
way to stay on his good side.Severus just stared at the child, what happened to the fearless Gryffindor,
the defiant child. The meek and scared child in front of him was not Potter, or was this the real him that
he has just been hiding all these years?
Come into the sitting room Potter, like I said before we are going over the rules.
Harry dragged his feet and followed Snape; he really didnt want to have this talk. He didnt plan on
doing anything to make the man angry like Sirius; he was going to just be. Whether he was by himself
the entire break he didnt care, just as long as he didnt get hit. Snape went over the usual rules that
everyones houses have and he wasnt about to go exploring in this mans house not if he wanted to see
the new year.
Am I allowed to fly sir?
You can, just pay attention to the wards around the property. If you ignore them the warning signals
will not be pleasant for you.
Thinking that the man was leaving the room Harry allowed himself to relax for a moment. He dropped
his face into his hands and sighed, what was going to happen to him this coming summer? As much as he
disliked the man he hoped he would be able to stay here then as well, but would Snape even want him
around? He grabbed his broom from his room and headed outside to clear his head with a good fly. Harry
had been flying for an hour when Snape called him in, he shook his head it was getting way to dark to see
anyway. Walking in the house he didnt know what he was supposed to do so he went to his room. It was
always a good idea to stay out of sight at the Durselys and he was giving Snape that same consideration.
He changed into his pajamas and got into bed, despite his nap a few hours before he fell asleep
instantly.
Severus was drinking tea in the sitting room; he didnt know where the boy was after he had called him
to come. He assumed the child would want to have some tea but he guess he was wrong. Here he was
trying to do a good thing and he ended up making it worse, maybe tomorrow he could ask Potter what
color he wanted him room to be. Shaking his head at that thought he got back to his reading.
Harry woke up the next morning to darkness and one look at his clock showed that he was up way to
early. It was another night without nightmares for which he was grateful he knew that they were going to
return, he just hoped they would when he was back at Hogwarts and not here. He got his things and took
a quick shower, careful not to use a lot of hot water and he got dressed. Eating breakfast with the
Professor was silent and awkward and he found himself eating quickly and escusing himself to hide in
his room.
Tired of staring at the ceiling he looked at the clock and saw that lunch would probably be in an hour. He
went to the kitchen and found the necessary items he needed to make lunch and he got to work.
Maybe if he showed the man how helpful he could be, he would think about taking Harry next summer.
He stopped for a second as he contemplated that thought, since when did he want to stay with Snape. By
the time his Professor came downstairs lunch was ready and Harry was sitting down at the table waiting
for him. He saw shock register in his teachers face before his expression went back to unreadable,
resisting the urge to smile Harry bit the inside of his cheek.
Good Morning Professor
Good Morning Mr. Potter, I was not aware that you could cook.
Oh, I learned at an early age sir.
What age was that?
I was 4 sir, Harry softly said.
I see, Severus replied before sitting down and filling his plate.
He took a good look at the boy across from him, if he was being honest with himself he honestly
didnt know the child across from him, never mind the fact that hes been teaching him for almost 5 years
now. What kind of people makes a 4 year old cook, they arent even supposed to be near the stove at that
age. He didnt like the way the boy refused to touch his food before he touched his, it unnerved him.
Potter, why do you that? He finally asked.
Do what sir?
You dont reach for your food, until after everyone has grabbed for theirs first. Why do you do that? Are
you deliberatly wanting to have the leftovers?
Harry was horrified, his fork halfway to his mouth stopped in mid air. How in the heck was he
supposed to answer this without making a fool of himself. The Durselys always served him last and if he
ever ate before them they would take away the food. The question was simple, would Snape do the same
thing once he found out?
I dont know what you mean sir, Harry softly said.
When we were in my quarters yesterday Mr. Weasley had to serve you because you wouldnt touch it
unless we had first. Now Im watching you and you wouldnt even pick up your fork until I had tasted
my own food. Are you being intentionally obtuse?Harry sighed, the man just couldnt drop it could he?
Guess he would have to tell him a bit of the truth, it couldnt be that bad could it?
The Durselys didnt like it when I ate before them, so I had to wait until they got what they wanted, then
maybe I could eat. Sometimes they would take it all so I couldnt eat, and then dump in the trash after,
they didnt know I would take from the rubbish sometimes. Harry said the last part so softly he wasnt
sure Snape had heard him, but then again everyone knew that Snape was part bat.
Severus was livid, and he struggled to rein in his temper it would do no good for the child to misinterpret
his anger especially since he knew how terrified he was of adult males. It didnt take a genius to figure
that one out, the boy nearly crashed the table in an effort to get away from him yesterday. Occluding his
emotions away he settled for his blank mask before nodding to the child and returning to his own food.
He didnt miss the look of blatant relief in those green eyes and once again he found himself wondering
if anyone had really known the really Harry Potter.
He watched as the boy dug back into his food with gutso, as soon as he realized Severus wasnt asking
him anything else. The boy was so sensitive, he didnt want to put him off eating so he refrained from
commenting on anything else. As the boy reached for his glass of pumpkin juice Severus saw a flash of
something on his hand that made his insides clench. He found himself involuntarily calling the boy by his
given name.
Harry what the hell is that on your hand?
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Sorry about that cliffhanger...I hope this makes it up to you...and if not then the
next one will. I know you guys were waiting for Severus to find out about the
blood quill and plot his revenge..I promise thats next chapter. I dont know what
happen but Harry and Sev had a mind of their own lol.
Harry instantly froze and followed his teachers dark gaze where he was staring murderously at his hand.
He flinched horribly when his teachers harsh tone interrupted the silence. The scar from Umbridges
detention was red and it stood out against his pale skin. He found himself unconsciously pulling his hand
to his lap so Snape wouldnt stare at it. But that only led the mans gaze to his own eyes, and he found
himself unable to look away from the stare. His brow furrowed in confusion, Snape actually had a look
of concern on his face for once. Harry shook his head, trying to figure out what got into his teacher. Why
in the world did the man call him Harry?
This whole situation was baffling, and he no longer knew where he stood in regards to the man across
from him. Did the man really want to know what happen to his hand, or was he simply asking to taunt
him? Surely he and Dumbledore knew what was happening, he had tried to tell his Head of House and
her answer told him, that she at least knew what was going on. But she had yet to do a damn thing to save
them.
Are you going to answer me Harry? What is that on your hand? Severus finally asked again.
What are you talking about sir? Harry asked feigning confusion, but he should have known that lying
was a lost cause.
The scar that you are trying to hide from me on your left hand. Severus stated matter factly.
Oh, I just got them from detention sir, Harry whispered trying to appear casual but failing terribly.
Whose detentions caused that? Snape hissed angrily, wondering which teacher would dare to
physically harm a child?
Harry was hunching into himself, wondering why the man was so angry. He was staring wide eyed at his
teacher who was too caught up in his anger to see what kind of distress he was causing the boy. If he had
been paying attention he would have been able to see what was going to happen next.Show me your
hand Potter, Snape stated loudly and angrily through gritted teeth. Severus knew immediately when he
first saw the scar, that a blood quill was responsible. The question was who dared to use such a dark
artifact on a student and at Hogwarts no less. They had to have known this wouldnt stay a secret for
long, and there would be hell to pay when Albus Dumbledore learned of yet another injustice to his
favorite student. Hadnt the child suffered enough?
The minute Snape asked to see the scar Harry flinched nearly falling out of his chair. Before his
Professor could say a word he had bolted from the table, he had no idea where he was running to but he
needed to get away from here. Was Snape going to blame him for this, and accuse him of wanting
attention? Why did his teacher yell at him? He didnt care to hear anything the man might have to say
about him being spoiled and therefore deserving this punishment so he kept running. He ended up in a
strange corridor in a part of the Manor he had never been in, and he wished with all his heart that he was
at the Burrow with Ron and his family. Before he could do anything else he found himself being pulled
at his naval similar to a portkey and he vanished from the Manor.
Severus groaned loudly at his blunder and berated himself for his own stupidity. Didnt he just remind
himself that the boy was wary of adult males, and he had gone and scared him off. He needed the child to
understand that Snape wasnt mad at him but just the person who hurt him. How long could the child
keep getting hurt before his already fragile mind broke? He followed the boy, who seemed to just be
running to get away and had no clue where he was going. He stopped when the wards around his house
signaled to let him know someone had just apparated out from inside the Manor. He and Harry were the
only ones here, when did the child learn to apparate and where the hell did he go?
Harry landed in the middle of the kitchen where the Weasleys were eating lunch. They all stared wide
eyed at each other, and for the first time ever the Burrow was so silent you could hear a pin drop. How in
the heck did he get here? He remembers wishing he was with Ron, and then suddenly he was here. The
silence drudged on making Harry feel stupid for landing here in the first place. He shook his head; he
didnt know where to go. He didnt belong anywhere, and he never should have come here. He wished he
was at Hogwarts with Dobby at least the little elf would know how to make him smile if anything. But he
didnt go anywhere, why wasnt anyone talking. He could hear his breaths quickening and that seemed to
snap Ron out of the trance, because he got up and put an arm around his shoulder.
Calm down Harry, you just startled us. No dont you dare think that we didnt want you here it was just
a strange surprise. How did you get here anyway?
I didnt mean too, I wasnt trying to ruin your family gathering. Ill just floo back to the Manor. Harry
replied already heading for the fireplace, this was horrible idea, and he struggled not to cry from all the
hurt he was feeling.
He should have just stayed with Sirius and pretended that nothing ever happened. He knew that would
have worked, hes been doing it with the Durselys for the majority of his life. Deep down he knew it was
wrong, but he ignored it, he knew in his heart that he really was an unwanted child. After all that was
only the first time and it could have been an accident for all he knew. His godfather must hate him for
squealing on him. Maybe he should just go back and apologize to him that would work right? He reached
for the canister on the mantle but it was accioed away before he could touch it. He turned around to glare
at whoever took it and found himself, pressed into the chest of Mrs. Weasley. He stiffened at the touch,
but then he seemed to melt in it, and he found himself trying not to cry. Ron really didnt know how
lucky he was, what he wouldnt give for someone who could love him like his mum did for him.
Harry dear, it was a lovely surprise. I didnt know you could apparate though, you should have told me
you were coming, and I would have set an extra plate. No one is angry with you dear; you do not have to
leave.
Harry didnt answer, but he tried to remove himself from the embrace. The longer she held him the
harder it was to hold in his tears, and he found himself trying to stifle his sobs. She seemed to know what
he was trying to prevent but she wouldnt let go, no matter how hard he pulled away. Finally the tears
came and he found himself weeping into her apron, all the while she rocked him. For a moment he
allowed himself to pretend that this was his mum, and she loved him no matter what.
Severus was beside himself, on the verge of what his students refer to as freaking out. Where did that
blasted child go? He forced himself to calm down and think rationally. He wasnt at Grimmauld Place;
he knew that for a fact, that only left Hogwarts and the Burrow. You couldnt apparate into Hogwarts so
he had a hunch he was with the Weasleys. He grabbed the floo powder and landed in the sitting room.
The only ones in the room was Ron, his mum and Harry. He stopped short when he saw Harry sobbing
into Mollys arms as she rocked him.
His heart throb painfully in his chest as the boys cries threatened to overwhelm him. He found himself
walking towards them, without a second thought. Soon he was directly behind the boy who still had no
idea he was even there. He didnt know what had compelled him to come over to them but he couldnt
help but wish that was him who was comforting Harry. Before he could say a thing Molly had turned
Potter around and maneuvered the boy into his arms. It was instinct and he grabbed the boy firmly, and
felt Harrys tears soak his outer robe. He never noticed Weasely and his mum leaving them alone, nor did
he hear them put a silencing charm around the room. He was so focused on the broken boy in his arms,
why was he crying so hard? What else must this child go through? Did Harry even realize who was
holding him now? When he found out would he stay or pull away? Severus was surprised to find that he
would be hurt if the boy jerked away from him.
Harry felt himself getting yanked away from the warmth of Mrs. Weasley and the first thing that came
through his head, was that she had gotten tired of him hugging her. He was so stupid he never should
have let her have her way. But that wasnt it; he knew when he smelled the calming scent of dreamless
sleep on the robes in front of him that his Professor had come for him. How did he know where he was?
Why did he come after him if he was angry with him? Was this all just for show? He couldnt stop
himself from gripping the man tighter, and didnt care what happened later but he needed this now. He
couldnt process his thoughts quick enough, and for the moment it didnt matter. When the Professor
hugged him like this, it almost made him feel cherished that somebody wanted him.
But he knew that it wasnt true, he was the boy-who-lived nobody wanted him, they just wanted a
savior. Severus picked the boy up; once again shocked at how light he was and how small he fit into his
arms. He walked into the kitchen to inform Molly of them leaving. He grabbed the floo powder and
headed back to his house. He was about to set the boy down when a quick look at the childs face,
showed that he had cried himself to sleep. Oh well tomorrow was a new day, he would ask him about the
quill, and why he ran then. Even thouh it was only after 3:00pm he knew that the child would probably
sleep well into the night. He carried the boy to his room and dressed him for bed, before tucking the
covers around him. He spelled his room just in case the boy needed him in the night. Unconsciously he
found himself carding his hand through the messy mop of black hair. He stopped when he felt Harry
move his head, but he was only leaning into his touch. There was an unidentified sensation in his chest; it
had been a long time since he had felt this particular emotion. Not since Lily had he felt this for another
person, it was love. His heart swelled as he pondered that thought, before bent down and lightly brushed
his lips against the childs forehead before walking out of the room. But not before speaking softly to the
boy on the bed;
Goodnight my child.
Harry waited until the door was firmly closed before taking his fingers and softly brushing them across
his forehead where he was sure the man had kissed him. Did that really happen? He could still feel his
Professors hand in his hair, the action was really soothing. Of course it happened he had even heard the
man call him his child, did he really mean that? Harry wished it could be true, and he slowly closed his
eyes. He found himself replying back to the mans parting words; after all it was ok to pretend right?
Goodnight Dad.
He whispered in the darkness before rolling over and falling asleep. He fell asleep with a smile on his
face, imagining Snape once again carding his hands through his hair.
To be continued...
End Notes:
I fixed the timeline,
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Sorry for that bad timeline last Chapter..I went back and fixed it, this is long
overdue and really not the best Chapter but I needed to get something on here.
Happy New Year
Harry woke up the next morning in his room, with a goofy smile on his face. He remembered quite
clearly was Snape had whispered to him, and he was extremely pleased. His smile faded into in
embarrassment as he remembered the rest of the day, running away from Snape to the Weasleys who he
knew didnt appreciate him crashing their meal. He groaned in frustration, when would he stop making
such a fool of himself? He stilled when he heard knocking on his closed door.
Potter time to get up, breakfast is in 10 minutes and after that we need to talk.
Harry slowly got out of bed, he exactly what his teacher wanted to talk about but he did not want to
deal with this conversation. What could he say to the man? Well sir I ran away because I was afraid
that you were going to somehow blame the scar on my hand from me wanting attention? Oh yes that
would go over smoothly with the Slytherin, he could see it now. Shaking his head he quickly got dressed
in his best clothes which wasnt saying much, and headed downstairs.
Sitting across from the man at the table, Harry couldnt find a trace of the person who comforted
him last night. He glared angrily at his food, of course he couldnt this was Snape and the man was a spy.
How did he know that the man wasnt trying to trick him? Harry was confused and hurt; he hated the
feeling of helplessness that he felt in his situation. Trying to eat as slowly as possible wasnt an option,
not unless he wanted the man angry at him this early in the morning. He sighed before walking towards
the sitting room.
Trying to prevent his self from panicking over nothing he thought about what Hermione was doing at this
very moment. He didnt have long to wonder, because Snape walked in and sat across from him in a
chair.
Severus could tell the child across from him, was tensed and frightened. Trying to talk to him yesterday
was futile because he lost him temper and the boy ran away. If he couldnt get anything out of the boy
from this talk, he would contact Weasley surely the boy and his brothers knew something about the scar.
Ok Potter, why did you run from me yesterday? Severus asked deliberately keeping his tone light and
calm.
Harry raised an eyebrow in confusion; this is what the man wants to talk about? He was sure he was
going to get question about Umbridges detentions.
You were yelling at me, Harry replied simply.
I was yelling yes, but not at you. I was angry that someone had used a dark artifact in Hogwarts and no
one knew about it. Why havent you told one of your Professors?"
What do you mean, McGonagall knows already. Harry stated much more calmly then what he felt at
that moment.
I can assure that you are wrong Potter. If the Headmistress knew something like this was going on, she
would have stopped it by now.
Harry shook his head; there really was no reasoning or explaining to this man. Especially if your name
was Harry Potter, the man like his relatives assumed he was a liar. There really wasnt anything else to
say on this subject now was there? Time for him to move the conversation back to where it was it
started.
Severus watched the boys face blank over, he never knew Potter could hide his emotions well,
especially if Occulmency was anything to go by. Just thinking about the last lesson made his anger
bubble, but fear would not help the boy at all. Yesterday was proof of that.
How long have you been able to apparate Potter?
Harry was getting confused, why was the man jumping over the topics like that? What the heck was
apparition was that what he did yesterday?
What is apparition sir?
When you went from my Manor to the Weasleys, was a form of wizard transportation. How long have
you been able to do it? Usually you arent allowed to become licensed in it until you are age, but you
Potter has once again surpassed the odds.
I dont know sir; I was just wishing that I was with Ron yesterday.
Oh I see accidental magic then that explains it all. Severus answered looking thoughtful.Besides me
scaring you yesterday, why did you try to hide your hand from me? You said Minerva knows, but when I
countered that remark, you pulled a mask over your face. Would you care to explain what that was
about?
Harry shook his head; no he didnt care to explain anything to the man in front of him. Maybe if Snape
was as gentle as he was last night then Harry could talk to him.
Severus sighed he knew that the boy wasnt going to explain anymore on that particular topic anytime
soon. His trusts in adults were fragile at best, what was Dumbledore thinking? Severus was inadequate
for this job; Potter was not like any of his snakes. No he was worse, Severus thought. He hid his abuse
for the past 5 years with no one the wiser. How could he help the child when it didnt see like he would
accept it from the man who gave him hell for the last few years?
Forget my previous question; Ill talk to Minerva myself. The Headmaster thinks that you need to talk to
someone about the Durselys. Severus stated switching topics once again.
And you think youre the right person for the job? Harry sneered very similar to Snape although he
didnt know it.
No, Albus volunteered me for the job. Severus asked willing his lips not to twitch at the expression on
the boys face.
Why did you say yes then? We both know you hate me, so why in the hell would you want to spend
your Christmas Holidays with me, the bane of your existent?
Thats not true Potter, I just told you I had no choice, Severus started before he was interrupted.
Oh so Im here because you were forced to take me in? Because I dont have anyone else who could
take me in? Well dont I just feel so special, unwanted and unloved at Christmas, but hey thats nothing
new. Harry replied bitterly.
Enough Potter that is not what I said, and that is not true in the slightest. No one can force me to do
anything I dont want to do. You are here because you need to be here, and I want you here, Severus
said through gritted teeth.
Even if that sentence was only partly true at the time, he needed to establish a bit of connection with
the child or this would never work. How could they learn to get along if they were always fighting with
one another?
Oh isnt it? Hogwarts has ears everywhere sir; you of all people should know that. But dont worry Im
used to not being wanted, and after the holidays we can go back to our normal behavior if you wish.
Harry responded dismissively, and rolling his eyes to the ceiling.
You insufferable brat, would you just shut up and listen to me for once? He yelled finally unable to
hold his anger in.
Taking deep breaths to calm himself he looked down at the child to see that he was for once listening to
him, but he also had his arms covering his head like he was expecting a hit.
Im not going to hit you Potter, not now, not ever. I may be a greasy git but I dont hit children, no
matter how annoying they get. Severus said tiredly, running his hand through his hair.
Thats what Sirius said, and look how that turned out. Harry murmured softly.
I am not your godfather, have you ever known me not to keep my word? Severus quietly said.
No sir, Harry answered softly.
And I wont start now, you are not the first child to annoy me and I doubt youll be the last.
Then why do you teach, if kids annoy you so much? Harry asked curiously.
Thats complicated Potter, Severus answered vaguely.
Whats so complicated about it? Harry asked casually changing the subject.
That was a Slytherin move Mr. Potter, but do not attempt to change the tone of the conversation when
we are in fact here to talk about you.
Harry flushed red, if it only had of been anyone else, he could have gotten away with it. Running his
hand through his hair, he really did not want to have this conversation.
Sorry sir, he whispered.
Its fine Potter, why didnt you inform anyone of your home life?
I tried to tell the Headmaster, but he brushed it off.Why didnt you tell another Professor then?
Who would I have told, my Head of House is Dumbledores friend, and Im not really close with
anyone else except Hagrid.
Severus stopped himself from voicing his question, on why the boy didnt think to ask him. He knew
exactly why Harry didnt come to him, he had made this childs life miserable his school days, and of
course he wouldnt allow himself to be vulnerable against and enemy.
How did you find out about the Durselys Professor?
Dumbledore got a floo call from Arabella.
Harry nodded to himself, wondering why the man didnt do that sooner, like back when he asked in
his first year. They lapsed into silence where Harry sat there feeling awkward about not saying anything.
Something was on his mind though, and he couldnt help feeling like he was at fault here. He found
himself wanting to ask Snape about a solution to that problem.
Professor, do you think I over-reacted? Harry finally whispered out.
About what Potter? Severus asked looking up at him from his book.
About Sirius, do you think maybe I should have just let it go? Harry asked genuinely wanting to know
what he thought. Since when did he care what Snape thought of something?
And why do you think you are at fault Potter? Severus asked tightly.
Because I think I over reacted sir, so he grabbed me sir. But Ive had a lot worse, and maybe he didnt
even mean to do that. By the end of his explanation Harry was trying to justify his godfathers actions to
himself.
But you shouldnt have Harry, what he did even if it was an accident was inexcusable. If you dont think
Im right, then for once listen to Mr. Weasley because he and I seemed to be in agreement for once.
Harry said nothing he just nodded that he did understand what the man was trying to say, but there was a
part of him of him that didnt truly believe what the man had said. If only he could talk to Sirius for just a
few minutes and they could straighten everything out, and maybe they could go back to normal. But how
was he going to do that?
To be continued...
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Author's Notes:
I updated this...YAY! I had to get in a state of depression so I could write how
Harry was feeling. RL is currently in the way at the moment, but I will try to
update as soon as I can.
I was listening to My immortal by Evanesence when I wrote this so I could
capture the sad mood.
Dream Sequence
Harry stood up silently as Snape returned to his book. He didnt wanna be in the man's company
anymore, especially if his Professor decided to ask some more questions he couldnt really answer.
"I'm gonna go lie down," he murmured, unsure if the man even heard him.
As short as that conversation was it seemed to have tired him out, then again it could be from him trying
to figure out what to do about his godfather.
Though Snape had said he was staying with him because he wanted him there it still very hard to believe.
Against his will Harry found himself convincing himself that Snape calling him his child last night was
all a dream. By the time he reached his room, he was borderline depressed. Falling on his bed
dramatically, he tried to think of a plan to visit Sirius.
He knew he should have agreed with his godfather, even if he didnt actually mean it. Sirius was
probably feeling like Harry was betraying him or something. He really needed to speak with him; he just
didnt know how to go about it. Harry laid there on his bed, drifting off into an uneasy sleep. He woke up
to Snape calling him for lunch, and he sighed softly before wiping his sweaty forehead. He had a pretty
nasty dream and was grateful that it didnt progress that far. What was putting him on edge was the
possibility a nightmare occurring that night.
He knew from the boys in his dorm that he could be pretty loud depending on how severe the dream was.
He figured Snape wouldnt appreciate that in the slightest. After all who would enjoy getting woken up
from a blood curdling scream. He frowned unconsciously as he made his way to the kitchen and taking a
seat at the table. Out of habit he waited for Snape to serve himself, but he looked at the man in confusion
when he didnt move to grab anything. 30 seconds went by before Harry finally spoke, confusion clear in
his tone.
"Um Professor, why arent you eating, Harry asked curiously"
"I dont think I'm hungry today," Severus replied neutrally.
Harry frowned as his stomach growled softly, what was he supposed to do now?
"By all means Harry, dont let me stop you from enjoying yourself," Severus replied, hoping Harry
would grab some food on his own. Though Harry explained to him, he still couldnt understand how nor
why the Durselys demanded he wasnt allowed to eat before them. So if they didnt eat one day, did the
same apply to Harry?
Harry's stomach clenched painfully, whether from hunger or nerves he didnt know. He sighed to himself
he had been without meals before he could last until dinner. If anything this was nothing, sometimes he
had to go a whole day without food.
"Arent you going to eat Mr. Potter?" Severus asked casually.
"No sir, I guess I'm not too hungry either," Harry replied softly, before forcing his gaze away from the
food.
Severus inwardly moaned, this wasnt what he wanted to happen. The child had to know that he could
still eat, even if he didnt."Are you sure?" Severus asked skeptically.
Harry glanced up at the food, his eyes lingering on the mashed potatoes especially before shaking his
head and responding.
"No sir, May I be excused now?" Harry asked, knowing he still had quite a bit of treats from their
Honeydukes trip. Though it wasnt filling it would take the edge off his hunger.
Severus quirked an eyebrow, did the boy even realize what he had said?
"Youre not sure Mr. Potter?" He asked.
Harry blanched before shaking his head once.
"I meant I am sure sir; can I be excused?" He asked uneasily just wanting to get out of here.
Severus shook his head and groaned inwardly before getting up from his chair and deliberately coming to
stand next to Harry. He felt the boy tense next to him, and not wanting to cause another panic attack he
quickly served him.
"Professor what are you doing? I said I wasnt hungry remember?" Harry asked swallowing hard as he
looked at the food on his now full plate.
"Just eat child," Severus murmured tiredly before going back to his place.
Harry stared at the man in shock, what was the catch? He could eat but what did the man want him to do?
He nodded gratefully hoping it wouldn't be too hard, before grabbing his fork and scooping up some
mashed potatoes. He noticed the man serve himself and Harry relaxed ever so slightly. Unconsciously
moving his free arm in a defensive position; lest his plate get taken away, he slowly started eating.
Severus noticed the position but ignore it for the time being, not wanting to upset him.
Harry finished his lunch quietly before waiting to be excused. He was surprised that Snape wasnt giving
him any chores but he just assumed the man would eventually. He grabbed his broom and flew around
for a few hours. He came in about an hour before dinner exhausted. Walking to his room, he flopped on
the bed and was out like a light. He didnt even stir when Snape was calling him for dinner.
Severus growled silently to himself as the boy ignored his calls. If the child wasnt so skinny he wouldnt
care if he skipped a meal. But seeing as the boy couldnt afford to skip a meal this was a problem.
Trudging up the stairs he walked quickly to Harry's room and opened it. Walking into the room he could
see the crooked glasses on the boys face, but his breathing was even.
Severus nodded he wasnt about to wake the child up when he so obviously needed his rest. Hoping the
boy would sleep through the night he gently removed his glasses. Gently flicking his wand and he
changed him into pajamas before tucking him under the covers. By the end of the break he would
probably be good at this child caring thing. Unable to resist he brushed the soft hair from Harrys
forehead, wishing that for once this child didnt have to suffer anymore. Lilys child didnt deserve this;
he didnt deserve to carry such a heavy burden. Sighing softly he headed out the room closely the door
behind him, before going back downstairs.
Harry slept peacefully for awhile until a little bit after 1:30am, when he was suddenly tossing and turning
in his bed. Snape had already gone to his room and was in bed asleep. He groaned as he tossed as his the
images played out in his dream.
Harry was in a forest, he was lost and he couldnt get out. He heard something behind him and he took
off running, glancing back he saw the giant spiders from his 2nd year. As he was running he couldnt see
through all the brush and he tripped. When he tried to stand up he was shocked to find himself in a dark
cramped space, which he recognized instantly as his cupboard. Allowing his heart to slow down, as he
contemplated what he was doing here until he heard the thundering footsteps above him. He swallowed
hard as he heard his Uncles voice get closer and closer to him. He tensed up and froze when the door to
his cupboard finally opened and he was yanked out. He brought his hands up protectively knowing that
they would do no good, as his Uncle prepared to teach him a lesson. He learned early on not to scream,
that only made it worse. He couldnt stop the silent tears that poured freely down his face as he was
beaten.
When his legs gave out he was kicked and he found himself unable to get up, just wishing that the
darkness would take him. Harry laid on the floor, his hands covering his head, only looking up when the
shouting stopped. He felt a sense of dread overtake him as he recognized his bedroom from Grimmauld
Place. Harry could feel footsteps on the stairs and he dragged his already bruised body to try to hide by
the bed, but he didnt make it. Sirius had entered the room and came straight for him, his tears never
stopping, not that he had noticed a thing, his eyes only on the man in his doorway.
Harry was yanked up to his feet, his sore body protesting as he godfather held him tightly, he was so
scared. Why was Sirius doing this? He saw a hand out the corner of his eye and he flinched back and
watched in horror as his godfather turned into Uncle Vernon, before changing again into Voldermort.
Harry screamed in fear, before falling to his knees, burying his head in his hands wishing that someone
would help him. As the monster came toward him he couldnt prevent another terror-filled scream that
escaped his mouth, as he sobbed. He was alone, so very alone.
Severus jolted out of bed instantly as a scream pierced the air, and through his consciousness. Grabbing
his wand from under his pillow he ran to the only other person in his manor; to Harrys room. He didnt
know what he would fine, and within minutes he had reached the boys room. Opening it up carefully he
looked around for an intruder but saw nothing, before reaching over and turning on the light.
He walked into the room and saw the boy tossing and turning on the bed, he was trembling and crying,
but he seemed to still be asleep. Severus reached out one hand to shake him only to wince as another
shriek penetrated the air.
Potter, wake up. Severus said finally shaking his shoulder, frowning at the wet cloth he was feeling.
The boy was sweating profusely; this might be the reason for the trembling.
Harry groaned still locked in his mind, he was vaguely aware that someone was calling him but his fear
had frozen him and he couldnt respond.
PotterHarry wake up for me child. Wake up, Severus said shaking him more firmly, hoping the slip
of the name would help.
Harry looked up as Voldermort shifted back to Sirius, and his eyes widened as Uncle Vernon appeared
right next to him. Could this get any worse? He shook his head at his stupidity as Voldermort reappeared
next to Uncle Vernon; now all 3 of them were glaring at him. What was he going to do? He heard
someone calling him and for a second he thought it might be Snape. Harry brushed that thought away;
he had to have imagined it.
Severus was getting a bit worried it shouldnt take the boy this long to wake up, and he had a thought of
the Dark Lord locking the boy into his mind. That couldnt be what was happening right?
Harry child, Im here. I need you to wake up for me now, Severus said louder and shaking him even
harder.
Harry heard that loud and clear and he smiled softly despite his pain and tears. Glancing once at the
men in front of him, he forced himself to get up. He had no idea what he was doing, or what exactly
would happen. He scooted as far away from them as he could, before opening his mouth.
SNAPE! He screamed loudly before the darkness finally over took him.
Severus felt his heart stop and then restart when he heard that chilling call from Harry. The boy had
bolted from the bed, and launched himself into the mans chest. He cradled the child carefully, rocking
him instinctively as he tried to shush his cries. He didnt know how long they sat there, him muttering
nonsense and Harry crying hysterically before they finally turned to sniffles. Pulling the boy back gently,
so he could look at him and see for himself if the child was ok.
Are you alright Harry? Severus asked softly.
Uh huh, just a nightmare, Harry replied hoarsely as his breath hitched in remembrance.
Its alright, you dont have to tell me now, Severus reassured him gently.
Harry nodded gratefully into the mans chest, calming down as the scent of potions started to relax him.
He tried to stay awake because he didnt want to fall asleep again; he had no intention of wanting to
revisit that horrible dream. He shook his head as his eyes started closing on their own accord; the feeling
of being safe in the potions Masters arms was just too much for his weary mind. Harrys closed his
heavy eyelids for a second, before his breathing evened out.
Severus felt the boy completely relax against him and knew that the child had fallen asleep again. He was
curious to know just what the boy dreamed about but he knew that now was not the time. Taking his
wand he threw a refreshing charm on the bed and on the child before gently starting to lay him down. He
frowned as Harrys hand seemed to be attached to his pajamas and not wanting to risk waking the teen up
he settled himself onto the bed as well.
He had no intention of falling asleep on the bed; he just wanted to wait a few moments when he knew the
boy wouldnt wake up. Carding his hand through the soft raven locks, Severus found his own eyes
closing involuntarily. He fell asleep, never releasing the protective hold he had on Harry.

To be continued...
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When Harry woke up the next morning he was aware of two things. One he needed the bathroom and
two, someone was holding him tightly. He opened his eyes to find himself face first into someones
chest. He was confused for obvious reason as he tried to figure out just who this was. The smell of
lavender and chamomile brought him back down to earth though. It couldn't be Snape could it? He froze
as images of the night came back to him as he remembered that awful dream and the feeling of
helplessness. But his Professor was there for him and he even let him cry on him. He shuddered slightly
in remembrance and the arms tightened around him and he sighed happily. Harry didnt really want to
move, he liked the feeling of being safe.
Shifting as his urge made its self known he tried to figure out how to move without waking the man up.
Harry refused to dwell on the fact that Snape would most likely go back to treating him mean again, after
they talked. He slowly kicked off the covers and tried to ease himself out of the man's grasp. It didnt
work. Harry froze as the man shifted and started to wake up himself. Fearful emerald eyes stared back
into sleepy obsidian ones.
Severus sighed inwardly as he gazed back into those green eyes that still haunted him so. He hadnt
meant to fall asleep in the first place. Releasing his hold on the child he sat up on the bed, noting those
green eyes never leaving his face.
"Good morning Mr. Potter," Severus said quietly.
"Morning to you too sir," Harry softly replied before shifting slightly on the bed.
He ran a hand through his hair, well this was incredibly awkward. He didnt really know what to do at
that moment. Would it be rude to just leave? What if Snape wanted to talk now?
Severus gazed intently at the boy, what was he waiting for?
"I thought you needed to get up Mr. Potter?" Severus asked referring to what woke him up in the first
place.
"I do sir," Harry replied blushing slightly before standing up. Hurrying quickly he headed to the
bathroom to relieve himself.
Severus shook his head in amusement before getting out of the bed. He quickly made the bed before
walking to his own room, to get ready for the day.
Harry finally emerged from the bathroom having decided to take a shower that morning. Not wanting to
be late for breakfast (he didnt know if Snape would refuse him if he was). He was still extremely
confused about his teacher's behavior last night at dinner, not even mentioning the fact that the man was
there for him last night. Walking into the kitchen he looked around but didnt see Snape anywhere. He
headed over to his chair and glanced back behind him. Harry stood there contemplating whether or not to
sit down. He didnt have to wait long when he heard a weary voice behind him.
"Have a seat child," Severus said softly as he took his own.
He set nutrient potions in front of Harry, telling him to take them first. He watched the boy shudder as he
drank them and kept them down. Thankful that their plates were already served, he quickly took a bite
knowing the boy across from him would of course follow suit.
Harry finished his food fairly quickly and he looked longingly at the food in front of him. For some
reason he was feeling hungrier today, did Snape put something in his potions? The real question was he
allowed to have seconds?Severus smirked to himself, as Harry finished his plate. He had given the boy a
mild appetite stimulant, knowing the boy needed it. He sighed when the child sat quietly in his chair
though he knew he was still hungry.
"Did you want some more Harry?" He asked.
"I...could I maybe have a little...amIreallyallowedtohaveseconds?" He finally blurted out bowing his head
and clasping his hands tightly in his lap.
"Of course child," Severus murmured, wondering if the wolf would be against a Dursely visit with him.
Harry nodded gratefully and re-filled his plate. After breakfast Severus banished the dishes away to the
kitchens, he motioned with Harry to follow him. Leading him into the sitting room he sat down on the
couch before glancing to Harry to do the same. Grabbing a potion from his robe pocket he passed it over
to Harry, who looked at it casually before drinking it quickly before handing the vial back.
Severus pocketed the empty vial, waiting for the potion to take effect before he started talking.
"Mr. Potter, I want to talk to you about your nightmare last night," Severus said in a gentle voice he
normally reserved for his Slytherins.
"What about it sir?" Harry croaked out.
"Can you tell me what it was about?" Severus asked.
Though the calming draught allowed him not to have a panic attack he couldnt stop the panic feeling he
felt. Harry didnt want to talk about it, what if Snape thought he was a freak? He could feel the man
looking at him, and he remembered waking up this morning to a feeling he never felt before. He scoffed
at it, but for a moment he had felt loved and cherished. The man deserved some type of explanation.
"I was...hurt," he whispered.
"Why were you hurt Harry?" Severus pressed.
Harry looked up bewildered at what he heard. Did the man realize that he switched between his first and
last name?
"My..," Harry shook his head and trembled as he remembered the actual beating his dream was based off
of. He had been 12 at the time, right after his first year at Hogwarts.
"What happened?" Sev asked again.
"Cant I just show you?" Harry mumbled piteously.
"What?" Severus asked shock in his eyes.
"Can you legimise me, like you did before?" Harry explained softly, his hands clasped tight in his lap.
Severus looked at the boy next to him, before taking his hand and gently prying apart the child's fingers
before grabbing them with his own.
"I can if you want me too," he replied.
"I want," Harry said sniffling softly before lifting his watery gaze to Severus's. He remembered how
much it hurt to have his mind invaded. But he couldnt think of any other way. Though Snape seemed to
be helping him now, he didnt wanna bring up anything that reminded him of the pensive incident.
"Alright, this wont hurt at all," Severus murmured performing the spell under his breath. Because Harry
was actively thinking about the dream it was on his surface thoughts and within seconds he had seen it.
He came out of Harry's mind with a sense of guilt, the child had 3 tormentors. He couldnt help but think
if he himself mightve been another one.
"Thank you Harry," Severus replied, a bit unsure on how to go about this conversation now.
"Your welcome sir," Harry replied still gripping the man's hand.
"Harry was a part of this dream based on true?" Severus asked gently.
"Could I maybe visit Remus?" Harry blurted out about a half a second after Snape.
He cringed as he waited for the man's reaction. It was no secret that he hated Remus almost as much as
he hated Harry or at least he did.
Severus stared at the child for a moment, he didnt appreciate much the change in subject but he knew
the child deserved an answer.
"Where would you visit him Harry?" He asked, the werewolf stayed with the mutt, and Sev didnt think
that would be a good idea, but he sure as hell wasnt allowing the man at his manor.
"At Headquarters," Harry said simply.
"Mr. Potter, I know that you are aware of that being the current residence of your godfather," Severus
stated narrowing his eyes.
"I know sir, but he cant touch me if your there too. I just wanna see Remus," Harry replied eyes starting
to tear up again but this time for effect.
He knew playing the sympathy card would work on most people; he hoped that it would tug at Snape's
heart too. He felt kind of bad that he was technically lying to Snape and using Remus but it was
important that he talk to his godfather as soon as possible.
"Harry this isnt a good idea child," Severus stated calmly, as alarm bells went off in his head. Hadnt
just yesterday the boy had been asking him if he overacted to the whole incident?
"I know I'm just a little freak, it was stupid to ask for something I knew I couldnt get," Harry replied
softly before trying to pull his fingers from the man's grasp, but Snape held tight.
"That not at all what I meant, and youre not a freak. Those muggles were wrong child," Severus said
trying to soothe the boy.
Harry just shook his head; he shouldve known he couldnt outsmart a Slytherin.
"Its ok, I'm sorry I asked," Harry answered as the tears started falling down his cheeks. His only chance
to see his godfather again had failed. Now he just knew that Sirius was gonna hate him forever.
Severus growled under his breath hoping he wasnt making a huge mistake in this. But he honestly
couldnt bear to see those eyes filled with tears. The child was hurting, who was he to deny him another
form of comfort.
"Alright, we'll go. Go get ready while I make sure the wolf is there," Severus sighed before gently
ruffling Harry's hair.
Harry smiled a teary smile before nodding and getting up quickly. He didnt want the man to change his
mind.
Severus floo called the wolf who, while he wanted to see Harry he noted was also apprehensive about
Sirius being in such close proximity with Harry. After assuring him that they would both be there Remus
reluctantly agreed. He waited by the fireplace as Harry came barreling downstairs, and he shook his head
at his antics.
"Have you flooed before Harry?" Severus asked grabbing the canister.
"Yes," Harry replied.
"Ok, I'll meet you there," Sev replied wanting to be there first to make sure Black was nowhere near
them.
Severus landed smoothly before looking around the room; it was empty save the wolf.
"Wheres the mutt?" He asked quietly.
"Last I checked he was asleep upstairs," Remus replied before standing up from his seat.
"Where's Harry?" He asked.
Harry had tumbled out the fireplace and currently was sprawled on the floor.
"I hate flooing," he muttered as Severus reached a hand down to pull him up.
As Severus was helping him up he suddenly felt pain flare through his arm and he hissed as he grabbed it
tightly. He looked at the child on the floor anguish in his face as he stumbled to regain his footing. He
couldnt be late for this meeting, he knew what the consequences were if he was. Turning quickly to the
wolf he addressed him.
Dont let that mutt near him, protect him since I cant. Dont let anything happen to him, Severus said
quickly already heading for the floo.
I will Severus, Remus said solemnly.Harry was watching with wide eyes, he knew what was
happening but he didnt like it one bit. He found himself caring for the man, what if Snape didnt come
back, what would happen to him? He felt kind of selfish at that thought and he turned to look towards the
man.
I will be back for you Harry, Severus promised gently before he disappeared in the fire.
I hope so, he replied softly before turning to look at Remus.
Remus motioned for Harry to come closer and have a seat. He didnt know what Harry wanted to talk to
him about, but it must have been important if Severus would risk him coming back here. He wasnt
going to pressure him to talk; he knew Harry would eventually get it out on his own. There was no use
denying it Severus cared for Harry, and not just because he was Lilys child.
How have you been cub? Remus asked softly.
Ive been fine, Harry replied, resisting the urge to turn around. It was much too quiet in the house, was
Sirius even here?
Is Sirius here? He whispered almost inaudibly.
Remus had a pained expression on his face; his cub looked so frightened as he voiced his question. And
once again he tried to understand how Sirius could do something like this? Yes he was hothead and
unpredictable, but what set him off? And why the hell did he think he could get away with hurting his
cub?
He is, you dont have to worry hes asleep. Remus said reassuringly.
Harry nodded, not at all worried. He just had to figure out how to get away from Moony for a couple of
minutes. They sat there and talked for a few moments, allowing Harry to figure out a plan. He only
hoped that the man didnt insist on following him. He shifted like he was uncomfortable in his seat as he
continued talking to the man. He squirmed more and more his seat waiting for the man to catch on. It
only took a couple of minutes before Remus was staring at him curiously.
Are you alright cub? He asked looking a bit concerned as he took in the tight expression on Harrys
face.
Im fine, Harry replied wiggling a bit more for measure.
Yes I can see that, Remus replied looking at him in disbelief.Harry looked behind him before looking
back at the man, hoping the man would catch on. Though he was pretending and all he was starting to get
a bit embarrassed, as looked at the man with pleading eyes.
I cant help you unless you tell me Harry, Remus calmly replied.
I have to go to the bathroom, he mumbled fidgeting a bit more and feeling his face heat up.
Oh, um well let me see. Stay here until I come back, Remus replied standing up and walking out the
room.
Harry nodded that he understood, already knowing that the man was probably checking on Sirius. At the
present time he was thinking of what if the man locked his door, then how would he get in? He couldnt
use magic; maybe he could pick the lock? He knew how good Remuss hearing was, he could be caught
at anytime. He knew Snape wouldnt be the least bit happy with him either.
He stood up and shifted his weight back and forth like he was desperate as Remus appeared in the
doorway.Remus took in the obvious tension in the boys face, he had told Severus that he would take
care of him and he would. He didnt feel comfortable with their current situation; the bathroom was only
a few doors down from Siriuss room. He had checked and seen that Padfoot was still asleep but he was
anxious anyway. He sighed loudly; he couldnt deny the child this right could he?
Can you wait until Severus gets back Harry? Remus asked, wincing as he asked the question, already
knowing the answer. They didnt know how long Severus was going to take, and therefore had no way of
knowing when he was coming back.
Harry grimaced as he nodded his head, knowing that he was a horrible liar anyway, and it came in handy
now. He couldnt wait until Severus came back; because then his chances of seeing Sirius was, slim to
none, that man wasnt a spy for nothing.
Are you sure? Remus asked skeptically.
Ill be fine, Harry said with a strained voice before sitting down awkwardly. He wasnt trying to lay it
on to thick, but it didnt seem like Remus was going to believe him.
Remus sighed loudly hoping this didnt come back to bite him in the butt before gesturing to Harry to get
up.
Come on cub, was all he said.Harry jumped up quickly as a smile graced his face for a moment before
he remembered himself, but thankfully the man didnt seem to notice. They walked quietly up the steps
towards the bathroom, where he could see his room and Siriuss. He hesitated as he opened the bathroom
door, before looking to see what Remus was doing.
Ill be right here cub, Remus said leaning against the wall opposite the bathroom.
Harry nodded, though he didnt know what he could do now. He didnt know what he could say to get
the man to leave him alone up here. He closed the door behind him and locked it for good measure trying
to figure out how to get Remus to leave. Knowing the man could hear him he just decided to use the
toilet to be safe. Fate must have been on his side because as he was heading towards the toilet he heard a
knock on the door.
The floo flared Harry, so Im going to go see who that is. I will be right back cub, stay there until I
come get you, Remus said quietly.
Ok, Harry replied before listening to his footsteps fade away. He knew he didnt have a lot of time, and
he had to move quickly. Opening the door and closing it quietly behind him, he forced himself to take a
deep breath and calm down.Harry figured that Snape would be proud of him for coming up with such a
Slytherin move.
He ignored the part of his brain that said the man would be angry with him for doing something he would
consider being a Gryffindor move. He ignored the nagging voice in his brain that was telling him this
was clearly a stupid idea. Harry shook his head as he walked towards Siriuss bedroom, he had to do this.
He had to be sure, he needed to know. He liked the new Snape but this was his godfather, surely nothing
would go wrong, right?
To be continued...
End Notes:
I know what your thinking...Harry NOOO!! Because I was thinking the same
thing...please review..as you can see they make me update faster lol
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Author's Notes:
Heres the confrontation between Sirius and Harry. In actual cases of Abuse, the
victim usually blames himself. I speak from personal experience, since everyone
reacts differently.
As you know this story has angst and although I dont wanna lose any readers, in
actual life it gets way worse before it even starts to get remotely better. The
process of healing has already began and next Chapter, it continues..on to the
story.
Severus arrived at the meeting around the same time Lucius did, and they hurried to rush to the Dark
Lords side. He didnt feel comfortable in the slightest about leaving Harry alone in the house with Black
with only the wolf to protect him; but there was nothing he could do now. In fact he wasnt even
supposed to be thinking about Potter, and he quickly occluded his personal feelings away. He valued
both his life and the boys too much to be thinking on it right now. Thankful for his mask for once, they
positioned themselves in front of the Dark Lord.
Harry could hear Remus talking to someone, and he couldnt pinpoint their voice but it didnt matter as
he had something to do. He walked quickly but quietly to Siriuss room door and tried the knob, it was
unlocked and he breathed a sigh of relief. The room was dark despite it being morning and he saw that
the curtains were drawn. He could hear his heart speed up, as he closed the door behind him. Turning on
the light by the door, he allowed a small smile to grace his face as he saw his godfathers arm and head
nearly hanging off the bed as he slept. Harry walked closer to the bed and cautiously reached his hand
out to touch his godfather. He took a deep breath before shaking him awake.
Sirius? Harry called softly before moving back a step as the man on the bed opened one eye to look at
him.
Harry? Sirius said tiredly as he moved himself to sit up.
Harry swallowed hard, the thought that this was a horrible idea finally penetrated through his thick head,
but there was nothing he could do now. Harry stared at his godfather trying to control his pounding heart
and breathing.
Can we talk? Harry croaked out; his body trembling slightly in fear.
What is there to say? Sirius asked narrowing his eyes at the boy.
I think I might have overreacted, Harry said quietly.
He missed his godfathers laughter and his hugs. He didnt like feeling alone in the world, Sirius was his
family.
No shit Harry, Sirius replied annoyance clear in his voice.
Harry flinched back unconsciously from the tone, before turning his face neutral.
I miss you, he mumbled out.
You should have thought about that before you chose Snivellous over me. How could you do that to me
Harry? How could you hurt me that way? Sirius hissed angrily back.
Im sorry Sirius, I didnt mean to, Harry replied tearfully as his eyesight blurred from his tears.
Well you did, you caused me so much grief Harry. Im beginning to think that you arent worth it. Why
should I fight for you if you wont fight for me? He said crossing his arms childishly.
I am, Im here now, Harry pleaded; he had to get his godfather to understand.
So I see, but for how long? You chose a snake over me Harry; and not just any snake either. You chose
Snivellous; do you know how that felt?
You hurt me Sirius, I was scared and I panicked. Harry replied trying to quickly explain himself.
Thats not good enough Harry, and I didnt hurt you. I was trying to toughen you up kiddo; youre too
soft as it is.Sirius explained.
Harry swallowed audibly as he stared at his godfather in silence.
What do I have to do for you to believe me? He asked his tone borderline begging.
You wanna know how you can help? Sirius asked before standing up and walking towards Harry.
Harry backed up instinctively before forcing himself to stand still. He flinched back as his godfather
grabbed his chin roughly, forcing him to keep eye contact with him. His petrified green eyes stared back
into his godfathers wild blue ones, and he shuddered.
I want you to take back what you said to everyone. Were family Harry, families help each other right?
Sirius asked gripping his chin tighter as he tried to bring his point home.
Harry nodded as best as he could, and forced the tears that tried to fall to stay where they were. He was
sure that Sirius would not appreciate him crying, Uncle Vernon never did. He could do that, though he
wasnt sure if Snape would believe him in the slightest. Harry was a horrible liar, and they all knew it. He
was so lost in thought that he missed the fact that his godfather was still speaking to him until, he felt
himself get shaken.
Are you even listening to me Harry? Sirius asked quietly. He looked into the boys eyes daring him to
lie to him.
No Sirius, Im sorry. Harry said apologetically, ridding himself of his thoughts.
Then I dont think this is gonna work Harry, you obviously have no respect for me. Youre better off
with Snivellous; youre lucky James isnt alive. Sirius replied releasing him roughly.
What do you mean by that? Harry asked stumbling a bit as he caught himself; a tormented expression
on his face.
He would disown you, your shaming the name of Potter. Sirius said simply as he glared at the boy.
Harrys eyes were wide as saucers when he heard that, and his tears immediately started falling down his
face. Did his godfather really mean that? Is that what his father would have really done? He didnt know
what to believe since he never knew the man, but Sirius had grown up with him so it must be the truth,
right?
Now get out of my room, I have no intention of getting punched by Moony again, Sirius said gesturing
with his head towards the door.
You just said we were family, and families love each other right? Harry pleaded as he tried to stop the
tears.
I do love you kiddo, I love you enough to tell the truth. Whether or not you believe me is up to you.
Sirius said grimly.
I believe you, Harry sobbed.
Then you know what to do, Sirius said simply.
When I do it will we be a family again? Harry asked hopefully through his tears.
Of course we will, as long as you remember this one rule: what happens in my house stays in my
house. Sirius said quietly.
Harry cried harder and he couldnt resist the urge anymore as he ran to his godfather and hugged him as
tight as he could. He allowed himself to get lost in the feeling of having a family again. He wasnt
surprised at the one rule to remember; the Durselys had told him basically the same thing. He felt arms
tightened around briefly before he was suddenly shoved away. He glanced up at Sirius who was shaking
his head in the negative.
Whats wrong? Harry asked sniffling.
Tough love kiddo, when you tell them the truth then you can hug me. Sirius said eyes flashing with
anger.
Oh, Harry said nodding his head in understanding.
Youd better go before Moony comes in here, Sirius said voice sounding unexpectantly gentle.
Harry nodded before walking out the room and heading for the bathroom again. He had just closed the
door when about 5 seconds later someone knocked on it. Looking in the mirror he frowned, his eyes were
bloodshot red and his face was splotchy.
Harry is everything ok in there? Remus asked a bit concerned. The visitor had taken a lot longer then
he thought they would. He glanced back towards Padfoots room to find the door open, and his heart
flipped upside down.
Im fine, Ill be right out, Harry replied trying to keep the tears out of his voice.
Harry was so confused at the moment, and he had no clue what he was really supposed to do. Sirius said
to tell the truth, but didnt he already do that? The truth is what landed them into this mess, wasnt it?
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