Amanda Hart is an intuitive consultant helping people to access their

power and voice. Clients often reach Amanda as a last port of call
where they discover their purpose and potential. She was diagnosed
with meningococcal septicaemia and near death was told by doctors
she would not survive. The Guys Upstairs not only showed her how
to heal herself but how to access the blueprint of your best self to live
your destiny. Amanda lives with her children in Suffolk and is now
writing her second book, the sequel to The Guys Upstairs and finally
honouring her dream to leave a legacy in this world. If you would love
to work with Amanda go to www.thesoulsearchingcentre.com.

This book is dedicated to my three children, Georgina, Amelia and

Anthony, for they have been my true teachers and motivators to seek
the truth.

Amanda Hart

THE GUYS UPSTAIRS

Copyright Amanda Hart (2015)

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Acknowledgements

I wish to thank and acknowledge the following people who have assisted me on
my journey: Suzanne Corbie, for without your encouragement, this book would
not have existed. Adam Fronteras at My Spirit Radio for giving me the courage
to write this story and Kim Farnell for her merciful and dedicated editing. Jane
Bidder, best-selling author, her inspiration was the catalyst for my story telling
urges and her support in my book, regardless of the odds against it getting
published kept my faith alive. Everyone at Austin Macauley Publishers who've
been involved in the unfolding of this book and my journey, especially so those
who gave this novice a chance. Special thanks go out to Kat Byles and her
amazing creative ability as it is her gift to understand and translate my dreams
into being that is what this book is all about. Joanna Brady, to you I owe a debt
of gratitude for you gave me a chance that many wouldn't. You affirm my faith
in humanity and have become very dear to me. Kizzi Nkwocha for your endless
advice, support and friendship through my multitude of changes and also all
those people who've been a part of my journey and witnessed my transformation
who are too numerous to mention, but know in their heart who they are. My
mother Valerie Clift who has always held unwavering faith in me and loved me
unconditionally regardless of much of the turbulence my life has created for her.
I have learned so much from her inner beauty, as she's held me through the
darkest moments. My step father Bob Clift, who although I often thought didn't
understand me, has always been a rock and my family's anchor and accepted me
even when I didn't make sense to his world. To my wise soul and daughter
Georgina who never lost hope we would find each other one day, who never
judged me nor gave up faith in our reunion. Her spirit and strength rings
volumes. My daughter Amelia (Millie) and son Anthony who have both endured
the momentous changes they've coped with throughout their childhood and their
acceptance of their unconventional, weird and whacky mum with our roller
coaster journey. I hope one day they both understand why I fought so hard to
help them find themselves. To my old friends and new...there are too many to
mention as some of you I have known a lifetime and know every crack in my
armour and the depth of who I am. Kim Chisholm, Lisa Elmore, Yvonne
Simpson, Fiona Levitt, Katie Dermott, Jill Kerry, Amy Day, Mandy Errington,
Michelle Bevan, Steve Bishop, Scott Keeble, Coral Fortune, Elena Chambou,
Lynne Roullier, Wendy Dadd, Sara O'Dowd, Alex Francescou, Menchu
Soriano-Vilchez. Each one of you have helped me become the person I am today
and all hold a special place in my heart which will never leave me. There are so

many other friends too, old and new that have touched my life and too many to
mention but you are always in my prayers each and every night. To Mark
Batchelor, I know meeting you was a blessing and for that I will be eternally
grateful. To my clients and students over the years whove motivated me to dig
deeper through your own personal transformations, I thank each and every one
of you for teaching me so much and sharing my journey. For those Ive loved
and lost, I thank you for teaching me to reach the depths of which I can feel my
souls purpose. And to you, The Guys Upstairs who have been with me from the
moment I was born and carried me endlessly through a world I sometimes didn't
understand, to a place where I have found the magic you instil in me each and
every day. To you I will always remain your faithful, if not sometimes stubborn
servant to help make this world a better place. I have written this book with the
assistance of The Guys Upstairs to each and every one of you who are searching
for that peace, their power and their voice and to quote the words of Leanne
Womack May you never fear those mountains in the distance...I hope you
dance.
Love and blessings to you all.

Birth Chart Summary

by Felicity Karena, Astrologer
www.felicitykarena.co.uk

Amanda was born through challenge and had to fight as she came into this life
and then find the courage to go out into the world to bring some kind of
harmony, justice and balance.
Her chart shows she makes a good therapist and seeks the challenge to help
other people to make adjustments in their life so they can find their own
harmony and sense of fairness. She feels the need to fight for good causes and to
communicate. Its through her childhood challenges that shes gained the
emotional stability to help others.
Amanda has a deep understanding of emotions and feelings and has the
ability to intuit through her deep psychic senses. This shes put into a career and
has built something with it, especially to help women. Her work is not just on a
one to one basis but has been brought out to make the world a better place.
She is a hugely caring person and forms relationships with everyone she
meets. This caring nature has to be balanced with her family and ability to create
foundations. In other words, she has become this all-encompassing nurturing
person and created structure and foundations out of this.
Her ability to communicate is very strong and she has a unique quality as
she has the most amazing chart. Its very complex but theres a continuing
theme through it as she is the most remarkably sensitive, feeling, psychic and
intuitive person its all there. Shes become an initiator and leader as its been
easier for her to fight for other people than it is for herself.
Theres a lovely harmony between what she values, what she desires and
how she goes out and gets it. What she desires and what she values are social
welfare and a better world. This is greater than herself and her lifes work, why
she does the things she does and why shes written her book. Her birth chart
says she can make a difference to other people. She has these gifts and talents
but equally very earthy and grounded with it.
Amandas here as a revolutionary to make changes that have a knock on
affect to help other people. These are deep changes but at the same time theyre
very subtle.
A relationship for Amanda is incredibly significant whether it be as a
therapist or in any other capacity. Relationship obviously stimulates her to get
on. She has a challenge though and can be a little indecisiveness when shes

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involved in a personal relationship as shes not quite sure whether she should let
them lead or for her to lead. So theres a dilemma there and shes looking for
harmony and the perfect mate and perfection. Some people are happy with
whats not right but shes always looking for balance and fairness and looking
for an equal to her.
Somebodys going to have to be as well balanced and as strong as she is to
be her perfect match. It doesnt mean to say doing the same things as her
though. She became the healer in her younger adult relationships and didnt get
nurtured herself, so she needs to find someone whos equally as strong as her
now. This person maybe in another part of the world doing different things to
her but can stand up for himself and can give her the nurturing she wants. She
desires someone quite courageous, strong and dynamic.
She may go for a fiery kind of male who needs her earthiness and equally
she needs that fire as it will lift her out of herself. This will address the balance
as sometimes, she can get bogged down in the emotions and feelings of dealing
with other peoples stuff.
So the fire element and communication is the foremost thing for her in a
relationship because if she cant communicate, the relationship cant even get
off the ground and it doesnt necessarily have to be in the field she works in.
They have to be unusual, artistic, creative and different in some way.
Amanda is now achieving her goal to make this world a better place to live
in, through her understanding and guidance, which shes honoured since the day
she was born.

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Introduction

When I was first asked to write this book I had no idea how much it would
change my life. I naively thought the process would be simply a creative writing
exercise, all be it a little challenging. What I didnt expect was to find myself
plunged back into a world of recreated negative habits from my past and when I
finally emerged from the depths of those challenges when the book was
finished, I was not surprised to find myself broken and beaten from the
experience.
When I look back at my life the only thing that I know thats real is the fact
that every step of the way it has been a series of choices. In my youth those
choices took me to a very dark place, not because I wanted that but because my
negative conditioning was my pre-set behaviour of choice. I thought at that time
I had no choice.
My journey has consisted of some unbelievable challenges, many of which I
chose simply not to write about for many reasons. Some I felt were too graphic
to mention, some would compromise people who still exist (and I have no
intention and never have had the intention to prosecute anyone for any wrong
doing) and some would affect my loved ones who I wish to protect.
This book has become a journey of choice in itself. Only recently I was told
by a health professional that I can now give myself permission to live. My
desperate compulsion to create a better world for myself was the very
destructive process that I was driven to follow, that was actually killing me. It
was therefore inevitable that a sequel to this book would emerge from the
process of unravelling my existence and finding what was left of me.
Throughout my life I have been plagued by what some would call bad luck.
I know now that luck had nothing to do with it. Ive come to understand through
years of seeking inner wisdom that what we focus on we attract, and much of
that is all housed in the subconscious.
Through all my experiences I have at many times in my life called out for
help, reached to others in times of need and spoken out against what I felt was
injustice. Not only was it incredibly violating to have gone through some of the
experiences at the hands of those who hurt me, but worse was the injustice of
those systems and organisations that failed to hear my pleas or take action.
When I was a child, teachers, neighbours, police, family members and
friends knew of my violation but no one spoke out and no one took action. As a
child I questioned this over and over and in the end learned to shut down that

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voice as it became evidently futile to ask for help. I learned coping mechanisms
which was all I could do to survive.
Looking back as an adult I dont blame those I reached out to for help who
didnt want to know, nor do I blame the systems that failed to protect me. This
book however enables me to share my story in the hope that people will ask
questions themselves so we can cut the cycle of deprivation that lurks in the
shadows of our society.
I finally learned that choice allowed me to find my innate power and my
voice to help others help themselves. We all have that power.
Transparency and authenticity is now at last being recognised as a necessity
in all walks of life yet still we exist with systems that need to evolve. Its not to
point the finger or to blame the failings of those that are supposed to be there to
help us in society. It is more so for us as individuals to start taking responsibility
for our own destinies and co-exist with each other in a more authentic way,
which will ultimately encourage overall change.
No one is infallible. No system or organisation is failsafe. We have
witnessed so many exploitations in so many organisations of late that have come
to light through the media. We either bury our heads in the sand and pretend that
its not happening or we take a stand and look at our own worlds, our own
colleagues, friends, family, neighbours and ask ourselves, are we doing enough
to take responsibility for what were experiencing in our world, or are we
ducking out through fear of challenge?
Each and every one of us have a part to play in this world, regardless of how
big or small that may be. Each one of us is a link in a bigger picture which,
when we live authentically through making good choices which come from
knowing ourselves, then our lives attract good in all ways. When we fight
ourselves through fear we will never find that peace within and nor so our
world.
Rather than looking at fixing the world that is going wrong, Ive discovered
that if we go back to the root cause we can remove the negative habits and
ultimately create new positive habits that create the world we are destined to live
in. We can teach that to children from an early age which enables them to use
their mind intelligently to make better choices. Only by going to the grass root
level and working with that generation can we consistently start to change
through the generations to come.
This is not to say that it is only through education of children that we can
change, but through the way digital media, the internet and communication
systems over all are changing today, its inevitable that more and more people
are sharing vital information that can lead to radical change. How we use that
information is key. By becoming our authentic self and living our truth, by using
our power and our voice we can share information that leads to change. It is up
to us however. We can either live in fear of what could happen in the future
based on what experiences weve had in the past (which no longer exist as its
an illusion) or we choose to become our best self by honouring our truth and
take action to change our world in any way we can to honour our true self. Only

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then can we truly be free and never again be a slave to what weve suffered in
the past.
Life is a series of choices. Each and every one of us have a choice in every
moment of every day. Becoming aware of our world is a start. As soon as you
choose to change, your world will offer you opportunity.
In 1975, The Maharishi Effect established the principle that individual
consciousness affects collective consciousness. Nearly 50 scientific research
studies conducted over 25 years verified the unique effect and wide-ranging
benefits to a nation produced by the Maharishi Effect. These studies have used
the most rigorous research methods and evaluation procedures available in the
social sciences, including time series analysis, which controls for weekly and
seasonal cycles or trends in social data.
Increased coherence within a nation expresses itself in improved national
harmony and well-being. In addition, this internal coherence and harmony
generates an influence that extends beyond the nation's borders, expressing itself
in improved international relations and reduced international conflicts.
Based on this study we believe that we can build a community beyond
100,000,000 (over 1% of the worlds population) considering today's awakening
culture and that collectively we can inspire great change through united focus.
The aim is to awaken more souls, those without a voice or who've fallen as
victims and need a helping hand. We've all had help from those who've inspired
us at some point in our lives. It's time to pay it forward and help those who need
our support.
If you want to take part in making a difference in this world, please help to
build this incredible web of inspirational people and like, post your message and
share our page, at www.facebook.com/beautifulmindsinspirebeautifulpeople.
Best wishes on your journey
Amanda Hart
www.thesoulsearchingcentre.com

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Chapter 1
In every tragedy theres a moment where theres a
possibility for triumph.
Oprah Winfrey

The first time I experienced fear was just before my fourth birthday.
It was 1971 and I sat in the back of my mothers Mini, surrounded by bin
bags filled with my belongings. She drove in silence. The only sounds were the
hum of the car engine, the noise of passing traffic and my sobs.
Mummy, please dont take me. I dont want to go!
She ignored me. I begged her to turn the car around and take me back home,
but she continued regardless. I knew she was crying as I saw her hand wipe tears
from her face.
Please Mummy, I begged. Please dont make me go. Ill be a good girl, I
promise!
What had I done to deserve this? I searched for answers in a desperate
attempt to find something to make her stop the car, pull me into her arms, hug
me, and never let me go. But she didnt.
Id only once been scolded. That was when Mummy had left me in the car
parked outside the launderette in Muswell Hill where we lived. Id climbed from
the back seat into the front to get a better view of her talking to a neighbour, and
had accidently stood on the handbrake. The car started rolling down the hill and
ran into the back of the car parked in front of us.
Frantic with fear I jumped out of the car and ran up the hill screaming,
Mummy, the cars crashed!
My mother stepped out of the launderette and found a man shouting and
yelling at me about the damage to his bumper her Mini was jammed against it.
I was legging it towards her as if it were nothing to do with me.
Mum took me in her arms and passed me to a neighbour who hugged me
until I calmed down. She then went and dealt with the angry car owner. She
didnt speak to me all the way home. When we got to my grandparents house,
my grandfather told me off whilst Grandma consoled my mother.
Later that day when the bar opened (the expression the adults in my family
used to say when it was late enough for a drink), and everyone had had their
customary late afternoon gin and tonics (more gin than tonic), they fell about
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Until then, Id been raised by my mother and grandparents, and life was
filled with pure love, happiness and lots of laughter. Our family always laughed,
especially when Great Uncle Charlie (my grandfathers brother) was over. He
was always cracking jokes and tickling me until my sides hurt from giggling so
much.
That morning, Mum had announced that Id be going to live with my dad.
Id panicked as I didnt want to go, and I hid under my bed. Mum had packed
everything I owned, clothes, toys and all my memories, into black bin liners and
loaded them into the car as if she were clearing me out of her life for good.
Although my grandparents were usually around in the mornings, on that
occasion they werent so I couldnt plead with them. They would have stopped
her. They loved me just as much as Mum. And Aunty Hardwick would have
stopped her. She wasnt my real aunty but she looked after me when Mummy
worked at her public relations job and I loved her to pieces. She made lovely
home cooked food and baked delicious cakes and biscuits, things Mummy never
had time for. She read me adventure stories and we lay down in the afternoon
for a nap together and cuddled whilst listening to The Archers on the radio. Life
was blissful and I was cherished and safe until that day.
Please Mummy, I dont want to go. Please dont leave me, I cried over
and over again.
Id been to visit my dad a couple of times, but only briefly. Each time I
longed to be back with my family as soon as possible. He had a new wife and
baby, but his wife ignored me and Id felt unwanted each time. I wasnt going to
be loved and protected at my dads and I was petrified.
The drive took two hours and I sobbed for the entire journey. Every now and
then, Mum said, Everything will be OK, sweetheart. I love you.
She didnt convince me.
When we arrived, I screamed harder. Mummy no, I begged. I dont want
to go, please no.
The daunting large white detached house had ivy growing up the walls, a
circular drive and two lions either side of the front door. There was a white van
parked on the left hand side of the drive, which I knew was my dads.
Mum turned to me in the back of the car, tears streaming down her face. She
got out of the car, opened my door and took me in her arms. Sorry, baby, she
said.
I clung to her, but I knew this was it. Sobbing, she carried me to the front
door and rang the bell. She put me down and stood me in front of the door. Noone answered at first, and as I stood there, she went back and forth from the car
to the door carrying all my stuff until eventually the door opened just slightly.
Go in sweetheart. Everything will be OK, I promise you, Mum said as she
ushered me in.
Dad, a stocky, well-built, dark curly haired man with piercing brown eyes,
arrived in the hall as my mother walked off.
Lets go up, he said, taking my hand and leading me up the stairs. Im
going to show you your new bedroom.

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