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5-This quotes says, When one is knocked about by the troubles and tribulations of earthly existence and
is tired of all this, he seeks refuge from all this.
I suppose that is one way.
One can be pushed about by the negative, until one is tired of suffering, and so one seeks another way.
However, one need not walk on such a difficult path.
One can choose the path of love.
Instead of going against the difficult, go for the easy.
They both point in the same direction.
Simply find the stream that feels right, and let it carry you.
Trust it.
If one chooses the path of love, one must learn to let go.
You cannot take yourself on this path.
Love takes you.
You have to let go.
Letting go is your only role.
Let go and be carried, over and over again, until the destination is here.
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Be quiet.
Be aware.
Follow intuition rather than meaningless thought streams.
With everyone and everything, stay in the heart.
9-Who am I?
What is the truth?
These are my questions.
How do I find the answer?
Can someone tell me how to find the answer?
I think not.
I think this is a journey I must take on my own.
For me, this journey is unchartered.
All I can do is commit to taking it, and then let the journey unfold on its own.
To my commitment I must be true.
I can trust my commitment.
Intention is everything.
10-There is a sadness that has come up, and attached to this sadness there is anger.
When I look at this sadness and anger, the only cause I can attribute to it is that the temporary is angry
and sad that it cannot become immortal.
It does not want to die.
It does not want to end.
It wants to be immortal.
It is pulling out all the tricks, trying to be immortal.
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It is thinking loudly, and thinking is going in all directions, because only through immortal thought can it be
immortal.
It is trying to figure out how to save itself, and yet there is also this idea that if it saves itself, it has failed to
become immortal.
This is circular reasoning from which there is no way out of thought.
12-Genuine truth realization, which is genuine Self-realization, feels like a worthy value to me. I will value
only that.
I cannot find anything else that has as much value as this does.
13-Am I too concerned with hiking up this mountain the right way?
Sure, there are tips from previous hikers that are helpful, but couldnt concern for the right way cause
me to second guess what feels natural and lead to confusion?
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Maybe it is best to forget all judgments of right and wrong and instead, just focus on up.
Up is in.
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16-Do I want things done right, according to my interpretation of right?
Is that important enough to call me back down the mountain?
Will that, as a value, call my attention out again?
20-What is there for me to contemplate or pay attention to regarding the process of being liberated while
living?
One is not liberated through partial attention. One is liberated through total attention to the goal or
purpose of liberation.
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This goal or purpose has nothing to do with time. It is a goal or purpose that is outside of time, in this
present moment, always.
Only by being here with the goal now can one realize its completion.
21-The quote says, As a result of the rising of pure wisdom, ones consciousness moves in reality.
What is here in this portion of the quote for me to see?
Pure wisdom is natural, unadulterated wisdom that is not learned. It does not come from books or
teachers. It is spontaneous clear seeing and known intelligence that arises from clear seeing.
Consciousness in this context is awareness. When ones consciousness moves in reality, awareness is
not muddled by or immersed in illusion or personal perspective. It is above personal perspective, beyond
personal biases, and seeing from unattached clarity. Seeing is streamed from reality. Speaking and acting
are spontaneous reflections of streamed seeing. No person can be said to be there because there is no
personal perspective or biases.
22-How does one know if the pure wish to attain liberation has arisen?
Ask honestly, What do I want?
Watch honestly:
How do I spend my time?
Where does my attention go?
How long do I remain lost in thought?
How much natural effort is spent seeking for truth?
As I look at this list of questions it seems the last one is most potent and will reveal most clearly if the
pure wish to attain liberation has arisen, especially when coupled with the question directly above it.
24-I notice more now that there are people who cannot understand me.
I see how they see me through their beliefs and conditioning.
Their understanding is limited by their point-of-view.
And so, I let go of a personality-characteristic that has always been a part of this conditioning.
I let go of any and all desire to be understood.
That was important before.
Now it is irrelevant.
The body-mind has reacted to this decision with sadness.
I know this was important to this personality, because I have memories of how fiercely it sometimes
fought to be understood, especially in close relationships. There were the words, I need you to
understand
Not feeling understood put a strain on relationships, because it was important.
Some friendships ended, because she did not understand me.
There was contraction in the chest when my words/intention/perspective were misunderstood. I wanted
to correct misunderstanding until understanding was achieved.
It is okay, little self.
You can cry at this letting go.
I know understanding seemed important to your sense of self.
It was integral to your sense of self-value.
Go ahead. Be sad.
Letting go is occurring.
(I am reminded that the Wicked Witch of the West cried as she melted in the Wizard of Oz, but melting
happened anyway.)
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It is looking at itself. Dont lie to me.
It wants honesty and truth here.
No! it says. No! I will not settle for something that isnt truth no matter how much it shines, and no
matter how fun that pretending may be. I want only truth now genuine, authentic, real truth. Fully
realized. Nothing less.
29-The quote says, the mind seeks the Self only in order to dissolve itself in the Self. This indeed is in
the very nature of the mind.
When we are called home to the remembrance of our Self, a homing device is activated. That homing
device is the desire for truth, know thy Self, awakening, the end of ego.
One who hears the call of this homing device must (because she cant not) seek for that truth, awareness,
realization, final end, awakening.
This is how you know you are called.
You arent interested in distractions now.
You are only interested in seeking until you find.
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30-The quote says, inquiry into the nature of the Self dispels this ignorant self-limiting tendency.
True inquiry into the nature of the Self requires one to look in.
Attention is turned around, to in, during heart-felt inquiry.
Looking in may take practice and training, because looking out is such a strong habit, but this path isnt
just a path of retraining attention.
Through looking in, something happens.
Something changes.
I wont say what changes, even though I have been told.
I have ideas about what changes since I have been told.
However, I dont want concepts.
I want direct knowing.
This change is the goal of meditation.
I trust that experiencing the change directly is worth persistence.
31-The quote says, It is this ignorant self-limiting tendency of the mind that views the infinite as the
finite.
What is this self-limiting tendency?
Once upon a time I would have said that it is believing false ideas, and thats true. It is believing false
ideas and false appearances. However, it seems helpful to look at this in a new way now.
The self-limiting tendency is looking out.
Or said another way, it is being mesmerized with objects.
I make this clarification because I notice attention loves to go out is addicted to going out even if
there is no belief in what it is focused on. A wild never-will-be-true fantasy story in the mind still captures
attention in an addictive way, just because attention loves to go out.
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But truth be told, I dont know what right is.
Awakening from illusion is unchartered territory for me.
All Ive got to guide me is my intuition.
So,
I think I will just be quiet,
& follow the only thing Ive got.
33-I want to make one more comment before leaving the topic of desire for the world.
This is something I discovered on silent retreat in New Hampshire many years ago, and I recently ran
across a quote where Ramana Maharishi was making the same recommendation.
I want to say I to myself.
Just I.
When I say I to myself, it reaches down, deep into the heart, beyond the heart and into the core of the
belly, into the gut, and it sends back a reminder of who I am, which is not the mind.
Practicing I can help genuinely bypass any apparent desire for the world, because those desires are the
minds thoughts, not mine.
This is the quote from Ramana Maharshi, which I ran across just yesterday:
If you can do nothing more, at least continue saying I, I to yourself mentally, all the time, as advised in
Who am I?, whatever work you may be doing and whether you are sitting, standing or walking. I is the
name of God. It is the first and greatest of all mantras (repeated sacred words or syllables). Even OM is
second to it.
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I dont need to answer that question with the mind.
The minds answers are completely irrelevant.
Instead, as with awareness, I let the question linger.
I let the question be, open.
It is the heart that answers this question.
It is not at all important if the mind hears the answer or if it seems to the mind that there was no response
to the question. The hearts answer may reverberate in a realm that the mind cannot access.
37-I feel it is time now to turn self-honesty to look at my desire for truth.
It makes sense that my desire for truth is not yet complete if I still have desire for the world. Therefore, in
order to examine my desire for truth, I must also examine my desire for the world.
What is the best way to examine my desire for the world?
I can look at any thinking that the mind dwells on unnecessarily.
I can also look for any motive that may lay hidden under that thinking.
Any motive that has caused attention to get stuck in thinking is something I desire in the world.
38-The quote says, Abandon your latent tendencies even as a bird wishing to fly into the sky breaks out
of its shell.
The feeling of small and limited person is my shell.
To discover the infinite to break out of the shell meditate.
The kingdom of God is within you. ~ Jesus of Nazareth
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40-The quote says ego tendencies are hard to destroy, which means I must remain persistant.
There are outside voices that discourage persistance.
Funny most of those outside voices are spiritual friends and acquaintances.
I must stay with my heart, be true to my own calling.
(I am reminded of a story in the Bible. Jesus knew he had to go to Jerusalem, even though it was
dangerous and would result in his death. Peter wanted to keep Jesus safe, and so he said, Master, you
must not go to Jerusalem. Jesus responded with, Get thee behind me, Satan.
Jesus was not rejecting Peter. Jesus was rejecting the outside voices that were urging him to go against
his own inner calling.)
41-It is important to note that the quote says ego tendencies are born of ignorance.
Therefore, the mind that says there is no truth is ignorant of truth.
It knows not.
It speaks from ignorance.
If one wants to know truth, one must follow the hearts calling to continue to seek, to continue to try, to not
give up.
Listen to the warm, loving heart.
Trust the calling of love.
Believe not the meanness of ignorance.
Meanness comes from fear.
Love comes from knowledge.
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