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Karen Xiang
NELC 159
20 April 2017
In his book, My Michael, originally published in Hebrew in 1968, Amos Oz writes as the
narrator, Hannah, the poetic, self indulgent, bored and increasingly unstable wife of Michael. A
thirty year old woman living in Jerusalem in the 1950s, Hannah tells us of how she met her
husband, Michael, a calm, pragmatic, hardworking but boring geology student. Upon marrying
Michael, Hannah gives up her literature studies and eventually has a child, who to her disdain,
resembles Michael in every way. Lonely and uninterested, she yearns for excitement by drawing
on her rich store of childhood memories and escaping into a fantasy world. As the marriage and
Hannahs sanity deteriorate, she dreams more and more about the same pair of twins from her
youth. Her thoughts are repeated throughout the book, along with the jokes that Michael made in
their earlier encounters together. It almost seems as if the verbatim jokes taken from the past are
the sole way for Hannah to express her frustration with reality. Moreover, there is a
preoccupation with remembering the past, but for Hannah, it is not one of nostalgia but one of
disappointment. In this paper, I will focus on the effects of Hannahs fantasies on her everyday
life, her relationship with Michael, and ultimately her happiness. I will also address the point of
view that Oz uses for the novel and the implications it holds.
Throughout the book, I found it difficult to feel empathy towards Hannah. She is
incredibly selfish, so much that even she seems to realize it to some degree: I cannot even kill
an ant on the kitchen floor without thinking of myself. (Oz, 103). Her impulsive shopping
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expenditures for new clothes, electrical gadgets, and expensive modern furniture further
exacerbate her obsession with control. Because she lacks this perfect control in her marriage,
Hannah resorts to fantasies. In her dreams, she has control over the Arab twins. Later, in reality,
she tries to exert her control by torturing the neighbor boy, Yoramembarrassing him and
making him so uncomfortable to the point where he is often fleeing from her. Hannah recounts,
He was mine. All mine. He was at my mercy. I could paint any expression I liked on his face.
Like on a sheet of paper. It was years since I had last enjoyed this grim game. (Oz, 232). I found
Hannahs pleasure in bringing about such torture on the poor boy even more disturbing than her
All the while, her fantasies are composed of characters that reappear and events with
glaring similarities. Take the scenario with the bleak Russian steppe and the driver with icicles
hanging from his mustache or the Arab twins she bossed around as a child for examples. Her
dreams sometimes showed her fatalist fantasies (earthquakes in Jerusalem) or simply reflected
her everyday musings. After one crazy dream she had after giving birth to her son, we see the
first glimpses of Hannahs struggle to find the line between sanity and madness: I begged the
nurse to explain to me how it was that the baby was still alive, how my baby had survived the
disaster. (Oz, 83). Later on when Hannah becomes physically ill, she clings to these sick
moments longingly because she wants to stay in her fantasies. She says, The power to make my
dreams carry me over the line that divides sleeping from waking (Oz, 84). To me, it seemed
that the status of her physical condition was very closely tied with her mental insanity. My
assumptions were confirmed when Hannahs doctor realized the same: The body is trying to get
Part of Hannahs madness stems from the fact that she holds some kind of expectation of
what her life should be like. When her reality does not clash with her expectations, she then
resorts to dreams and fantasies to escape the mundane actions of everyday life. Throughout the
book, we keep seeing these expectationswhether it is who she thinks she should marry, And
you know, Michael, still, to this day, I sometimes think that I shall marry a young scholar who is
destined to become world famous (Oz, 14), or when she feels that life as a wife and mother is
disappointing, I cried like a schoolgirl. I had not lived up to my professors expectations. I had
never fulfilled the hopes he had expressed for me shortly after my wedding. (Oz, 114).
The fate of Hannah and Michaels marriage was foreshadowed early on in the
relationship, on one of their dates to a movie: The heroine of the film dies of unrequited love
after sacrificing her body and her soul for a worthless man Her suffering and his worthlessness
seemed like two terms in a simple mathematical equation, which I was not tempted to try to
solve. I felt full to overflowing. (Oz, 25). To Hannah, the solution was so obvious in the
moment, but she never anticipates that the same might happen to her. I think that one of the most
critique of Michael and ultimately how her insanity ruins their marriage. My Michael is
essentially a book of Hannahs critiques of Michael: but he could not think of a reply; he is not
a witty man (Oz, 6) to his joke was not funny (Oz, 8) to I was ashamed of my husband
because he was not amusing (Oz, 97) to I was sorry that Michael was a geologist and not an
architect. (Oz, 113). Hannah is so busy being unhappy with her life and who Michael is as a
person that she fails to truly appreciate his goodness and sacrifices. When Michael gets an upper
second on his first examination for his first degree, Hannah remains unmoved by his success.
(Oz, 66). Michael even declines on her account to go on important geological expeditions, while
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all his fellow students participate with their families. And when he tells her of his dream to
expand his essay and publish his own research, she once again can not give a single word of
encouragement. Michael works a part time job at the library to bring in a little bit more money,
but Hannah squanders this hard earned money on extravagances. He takes care of her and the
baby when she is ill and depressed, standing for hours in the line for free food for nursing
mothers and never utters a word of complaint. It is only when she realizes the reality of what
their relationship has become, My husband and I are like two strangers who happen to meet
coming out of a clinic where they have received treatment involving some physical
embarrassing intimacy, wearily groping for the right tone in which to address each other now
(Oz, 252), that I too, as a reader, finally come to accept the truth as well.
Hannahs strange fascination and musings about time and death comprise a large majority
of the dense symbols and imagery in the novel. Time would be ever-present; a tall, freezing,
transparent presence hostile to Yoram and hostile to me, boding no good. (Oz, 236). Hannah
often recalls the same past remarks that Michael once made, cats are never wrong about people
(Oz, 5) and how he always like the word ankle. She is increasingly aware of her depressing
aptitude for remembering everything (Oz, 147) by clinging to her memories and to words as
one clings to a railing in a high place. (Oz, 84). As readers, we are unsure whether she is
trapped in her memories or merely just contemplating them. The contemplation leads Hannah to
more morbid thoughts as many of her friends and acquaintances pass awayrealizing that she is
afraid of dying young and afraid of dying old. (Oz, 258). Her fear and fascination with death
shapes how she views the world further creating this cycle of unhappiness. To escape the
suffering, Hannah claims to Michael that she buys the new clothes to be happy and the electric
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razor to make him happy. Who says Im not happy? Michael asked quietly. And what about
you, Hannah, arent you happy? (Oz, 188). Hannahs dilemma presents a universal problem that
the novel constantly brings up. Sometimes our expectations of what reality should be disfigures
our version of what happiness should be. But in Hannahs case, I want to ask: If you dont know
In conclusion, I want to discuss Amos Ozs choice in using Hannahs point of view to
write the novel. As a reader, I did not sympathize with Hannah in the same way as one normally
would with the narrator of the story. Perhaps, although not intentionally, Ozs writing from
Hannahs point of view forces us as readers to not feel apathetic towards her inner thoughts and
feelings. In fact, this particular point of view may have mirrored Ozs personal feelings towards
his own mothers depression. Was Oz trying to make us feel the same way he did about his
mother who suffered from mental illness? Was he still mad at her after all those years? Once
again, Oz leaves that to the readers imagination and interpretation. Even though, I, as the reader
could not always empathize with Hannah, the issues that the characters in My Michael deal with
are genuinely relatable and the emotions they elicit from readers are just as true and affecting.
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