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MIKE GALLANT
mike.gallant@bristol.ac.uk
Fe b r u a r y 2 0 0 7
An experience of inscribed collectivity
Abstract
This paper is an attempt, through text and other visual techniques, to convey
and through the use of writing as a methodology I have created a paper that
This is a „Rites of Passage‟ story. After setting the context, I give a short
God, this paper has been a challenge. My body feels tense right now – why
was it that yesterday, when I knew that I must finally put all my notes
together and create a text fit for my peers (and the academy), I inexplicably
know that the typing would in any case be painful? Why is my breathing
selves?
1. „A text fit my peers‟, I say in passing, and perhaps that is one crucial
savoured after the tedious main course. I‟m bloated by the vastness
desserts. And then there is a desperate fear that, while I look on, the
An experience of inscribed collectivity
make a difference.
„… it kind of irks me to see boys sit down unnecessarily. Stand tall and be proud. With a
little practice they can help extinguish a campfire because believe me, until you have experienced
that little gem you haven't really lived.‟
As Mikhail Bakhtin suggests, “…I become myself only by revealing myself to another,
through another and with another‟s help…. I cannot do without the other: I cannot become
myself without the other: I must find myself in the other, finding the other in me (in mutual
being in spaces that add little sense of a history – at least, of a history that
reaches as far into the past as the stories that we shared. This in itself
knew nothing much of each other. Sue, Sophie, Malcolm, Mike and Christine
– I salute us all!
recorded visual forms (e.g. cave painting, photography etc.). What has now
The very simplicity of the idea, in the sense that it directly replicates a
the concept has no definition as such, having developed from the Memory-
(Haug et al., 1987; Haug, 1992; Onyx & Small, 2001), who carried the concept
to Australia and into the hands of Bronwyn Davies and others (e.g. Davies &
„You forgot to mention being able to write your name in the snow ;-)‟
“The term, “collective biography” is useful because it both describes the method of
working with personal stories and the oxymoronic implication of the phrase
foregrounds the tension between the individual and the collective that is both the crux
of the method and the source of its dilemmas.”
Gannon, quoted in Onyx & Small, 2001
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So it was that Jane Speedy (2006), in her work as a narrative therapist and
brought home the concept to colleagues and students in the Graduate School
members of the research group (or collective) share personal stories of their
own experiences around a theme (in this case Explorations of Gender and Power).
continuing the feminist tradition of Frigga Haug and her colleagues. The
of time that the collective (in my own case, Group C) was physically together.
It was generally recognised by all participants that ten hours or less was
the experience would engender some understanding of the process, and offer
research has long been recognised (e.g. Richardson, 1997, 2000; Richardson &
St. Pierre, 2005) and is central to the Collective Biography process. However,
written work has crystallised out from past experiences of collectives, for
many participants it seems that the simple presence of “…our bodies together in a
particular place and time” is crucial to the process (Davies & Gannon, 2006,
p.118; see also Park, 2005). Susanne Gannon goes on; “… our collective writing
in cyberspace … has been sustained by the deeply embodied experience of these bodies
Journal Day 3
I’ve worked in many groups, Oh, what a surge of excitement as I read this –
therapeutic, training, definitional that my own body is not mistaken in its feelings
ceremony, supervisory, but this (though how can a body be mistaken in what it
group was different. The feels?). I‟ve worked in many groups, early
experience so profound is difficult encounter groups in the 1970‟s through to
to put into words. The difference facilitating therapeutic single gender groups and
between feeling ‘a connected personal development groups for professional
individual’ within a group of other training in counselling and psychotherapy.
connected individuals with varying I too found the experience of Group C
group dynamics, to what went something beyond words – so I‟ve freed myself
beyond this description towards from words and let myself create a picture to
collective experience. This express this „something‟ that we speak about
‘something’ held between us deep in our bodies5. For now, as I write I can
created a feeling deep within my surely feel that experience, and can touch some
body as if these other stories part of you, Sue. And now I‟m feeling Malcolm
became embodied within my and the sun; now Christine, always upright,
experience. Hearing the stories always held in tension, so perfectly book-learnt
again, becoming that giggling boy Chinese - and little girl so, so valued; I feel
in the cupboard, the girl left water (where is that intervening image seeping
behind crying ‘don’t go with(out) from right now as I become aware of this
me’ ‘the boaters on elastic and tingling sensation of real living shooting
the chest high elbows reminding through the physical body of mine?) and a duck
me that I don’t belong here pool6 in the courtyard square; and Josie‟s
anymore’ that small boy who was budding breasts and confusion; and my own
‘too big’ and ‘who should have been little self, peeing up the shed wall as high as I
a girl’ that ‘invisible’ child can, and then, yes, how could I ever be what
ashamed. There was for me a was demanded of me?7 To be a girl in the body
sense of becoming multi-gendered. of a boy – to become multi-gendered.
The brutal betrayal of ripping As I sit for a moment, contemplating the „brutal
him/her apart, the bewilderment, betrayal‟ I become aware that my left hand is
the flatness. The movement pulling my shirt and fleece clear away from my
towards individual (ness) within a throat. A constricted sense of being suffocated
group which hurts so much. by this demand to …
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After I read it out to you, you gave your first impressions - and I jotted
down some of the words and phrases that resonated with my own
experience and added to it.
This material should perhaps be the starting point for my contribution to the
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I recall the joy of really writing something that hit home in the pit of my
stomach; the pain of re-writing and the sense of validation as the collective,
each voice alone, agreed: my work was better for the immediacy, the
simplicity, the sheer uncluttered emotive phenomena of the first version (see
Appendix 2).
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Mortal, invisible
In life inaccessible
Explorative
Shame
Group Process
Inexplicable connection
Possessiveness
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>
Yes, let‟s get back there! And the
> Back to the collective. Plgiarism (can't sooner the better …
even spell it!) is always a I know that I‟m using your ideas and
even your words – and I know that I
> problem to me in that as I listen to
will sign a form saying that these are
other peoples stories, they become
all my own words except the ones
> part
that aren‟t – though God only knows
> of my own story and it is very difficult where my words come from if they
to separate me from them - does don‟t come from you – and you – and
you – and you
> that make any sense? This unit is a
And yet, of course I know
minefield of shared experience and
(connaissance or savvy?) what
> I'm plagiarism is – it‟s not this.
> not sure that it would be right to take This is my story – and this is your
out the collective stuff. story – this is the „riparian zone‟14 that
is such a nutrient-rich area close to
>
the flowing waters of the river of my
Sue Dale email 27:11:06 8:34
world.
work of one author (for example, the writings of a member of the collective
savouring (savoir) the text of others that creates, through the distanciation,
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experience of gender and power has been both embodied (through primary
more painful of the two processes, though most of the time I can‟t feel it.
I have found another “thin place” – it is a place I can carry with me into any
sprout, nurture and fertilize – a thin place where I can touch you … through
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Notes
1. Group C was one third of the student and tutor participants of the October
2006 Collective Biography Unit of the Bristol University EdD (Narrative Strand)
course. Meeting over two and a half days, the „taught course‟ contained
substantial input from tutors and students in addition to approximately ten
hours spent in the small group Collective Biography workshop on Explorations in
Gender and Power.
3. Our tutors, Jane Speedy, Tim Bond and Malcolm Reed, set the „rules‟ for our
Collective Biography workshop before we began (see Appendix 1). In practice,
Group C discovered such delight in the story-telling aspects of the process, and
such a sense of immediacy in our first written work, that we ignored rules and
created an intimate group experience that perhaps led more towards personal
growth than a Collective Biography. I was happy to take such a rare opportunity
to share intimate life experience, and to enjoy the feelings engendered. For us,
Collective Biography appeared to be about the outcomes suggested by Bronwyn
Davies and colleagues (2004) though without the ruthless qualities of
questioning and without the fuzzy empathy. Empathy was not what I, at least,
felt – connection and intimacy describe my feelings more accurately. The
difference is certainly subtle!
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4. The left hand column is the work of Sue Dale - shared with the collective (by
email) November 2006. I have written a commentary of my reactions to her
words in the right hand column.
5. In 2002 I kept a „Visual Diary‟ (see, for example, Ganim & Fox, 1999) that
involved a daily meditation on a particular aspect of my experience before
translating the feeling of that experience into a visual piece of „art‟. Since that
time I have occasionally used the technique to clarify my experience without the
use of language and/or text. I began the process on this occasion by writing the
question “How do I feel when I experience Group C?”. I meditated on this for
five to ten minutes and then created the image, first with an extravagant pencil
„doodle‟ and then using this series of shapes as a base for pastel colour.
7. Appendix 2 is the text of the story I wrote on the first day of the Collective
Biography Unit at Bristol on 16th October 2006. It concerns my early experience
of being aware of my gender, and how I learnt that I was the „wrong‟ gender.
8. This interlude celebrates what has been termed the rhizomatic qualities of a
research methodology that includes „writing on‟ rather than „writing up‟ the
available data (see, for example, Amorim & Ryan, 2005).
9. “The second album by Al Stewart received early notoriety for including the word "fucking" in
its title track, and reprinting the word on its inner gatefold sleeve for all to see. Shocking. The
controversy thus gained was probably useful in garnering sales of the record, but, truth to tell, it
overshadowed the real reason why 'Love Chronicles' was as vital to the student population of
1969 as Heinz beans, matches and marijuana. It was, and is, for the most part, a very fine
record.” Accessed at http://www.headheritage.co.uk/unsung/review/599 on 3rd
February 2007.
10. After an introduction to the theory and practice of Collective Biography work
the large group of the Collective Biography unit was split into three working
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collectives. I found myself in Group C. I was not aware of any particular choice
in the division of the large group. There was an initial period of extensive story
telling and conversation around the theme of „my earliest experience of gender‟,
before we spent twenty to thirty minutes writing a story of an early experience of
gender (Appendix 2). We then read these stories to each other, one at a time,
giving limited feedback on our immediate cognitive and visceral reactions to
each others‟ material. That evening I re-wrote the contemporaneous notes I had
made as the other members of the collective gave me their feedback on my own
story. It is that which is reproduced here as the starting point for this section.
11. This quote is from the Guidelines for Collective Biography given out to
participants as part of the pre-reading for the module (see Appendix 1).
12. The final two lines of „If‟ by Rudyard Kipling accessed on January 20th 2007 at
http://www.allspirit.co.uk/kipling.html
15. I visited the island of Iona whilst travelling with my partner at the age of
seventeen and it made a lasting impression on me. The Iona community, based
at the Abbey church on the island (though now comprising members worldwide)
was founded in 1938 „… by the Rev George MacLeod, is an ecumenical Christian
community of men and women from different walks of life and different traditions in the
Christian church that is committed to seeking new ways of living the gospel of Jesus Christ in
today's world‟. Text is from http://www.iona.org.uk/abbey/main.htm accessed
on January 27th 2007.
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Appendix 1
By removing the general, the vague, the unclear (as far as the collective
imagination goes) we are not trying to get closer to the ‘real’, but rather,
exposing more of the discursive processes and imperatives that are at play
To quote Davies, et al: (2000:19) this process is not the ‘warm fuzzy pursuit of
empathy’ and ‘The questioning and challenging of each other’s stories can take
on a ruthless quality’
This perhaps seems a little stark but the purpose is not to tell the original
storyteller’s story to their own personal satisfaction, it is to tell it in a way that
can be vividly imagined by others (for which sharply accurate and specific
reflections and questions from others are required)
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Davies, B. (2000a). A body of writing 1989-1999. Walnut Creek, CA: Alta Mira
Press.
Bronwyn Davies, Jenny Browne, Susanne Gannon, Eileen Honan, Cath Laws,
Babette Mueller-Rockstroh, and Eva Bendix Petersen (2004) The Ambivalent
Practices of Reflexivity, in: Qualitative Inquiry, 10: 360 - 389.
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Appendix 2
I‟ve lost control. I‟m not who I thought I was. I was … I was me. I was a child if I
was anything at all, and now I‟m not who I should be – and there‟s even worse. But
I‟ll come to that later – first things first.
It slipped out. My father speaking, “you should‟ve been a girl. One boy, one girl.”
Maybe I looked aghast. A dumb pause. He‟s speaking again, “after your brother,
mum and I wanted one of each.” He looks thoughtful for a moment, “and now she
can‟t.”
Blank silence. I‟m not understanding. I look up to his matter-of-fact face, curiosity
written in my young child‟s frown. “She got so damaged having you, she can‟t have
anymore children - you were too big.”
The shock, the momentary re-writing of a life so far. I am the guilty one, The one
who has taken away everything that my father and my mother want. How can I put
this right? I have to please them. They don‟t want me. I have to please them, “the
doctor said it would be fine – you were a month overdue.” But I wasn‟t listening
now. I was wondering how to make amends.
The car pulls up outside the school gates and I pull open the door. It‟s a boy‟s
school. A boys preparatory school. Can I be prepared anymore? How to please my
parents, to be the girl they want but somehow can‟t have because of me?
My God! If I‟m not going to be a boy, perhaps I can‟t be part of this. The noise of
the slammed door.
The car pulls away, the engine gently moving things on. The exhaust still steaming in
the autumnal dampness. The leaves, perfect symmetrical figures, intense orange and
red, fallen on the tarmac – now marked with the tracks of tyres.
I become aware that the rain is not so gentle as I thought. The heavy drops are
tumbling on my life. I put my satchel over my head, the smell of comforting wet
leather closer to my face. I check in both directions and cross the road.