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A Saint-Germain Book
A Saint-Germain Book
Dan Bennack and
Alexandra Mahlimay Dan Bennack and Alexandra Mahlimay
ISBN 978-606-504-058-8
A New World Awakens:
A Saint-Germain Book
A New World Awakens:
A Saint-Germain Book
ISBN 978-606-504-058-8
We would like to thank our families for their love, support, and
encouragement in the preparation of this book: Aaron Bennack,
Gene Bennack, Jane Bennack, Jeremiah Bennack, Steven Bennack,
Patty Roach, Alexandru Moldovan, Ana Moldovan, and Mihai
Moldovan.
Thanks are also due to Nicole Mocellin for offering us the
sanctuary of her home during the early stages of this project; to
Jane Cormack for her wonderful friendship and editorial skills; and
to Ray Higgins for his kindness and generosity.
Table of Contents
Acknowledgments V
Table of Contents VII
Greetings from Saint-Germain IX
What This Book Is About 3
Section 1: The New You
Chapter 1: The Truth About You 9
Chapter 2: Birthing the New You 13
Chapter 3: Your Spiritual Sovereignty 17
Section 2: New Relationships
Chapter 4: From Conflict to Harmony 25
Chapter 5: New Relationships 31
Section 3: The New World
Chapter 6: Master Creators in the Making 39
Chapter 7: The New World Awakens 47
Chapter 8: Prosperity in the New World 53
Section 4: The Transitioning You
Chapter 9: Who Is “Not Good Enough”? 59
Chapter 10: Shame, Blame, and Money 65
Chapter 11: Choosing Life or Death 73
Chapter 12: Conscious Creation 79
Workshops and Resources 85
About the Authors 87
Greetings from Saint-Germain
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What This Book Is About
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as many of the landmarks in your personal life begin to change.
Relationships, family ties, jobs, and religious values will come
under your closer scrutiny. This may create disturbing experiences
for you, especially if you are unprepared.
What is happening is that your ego (the person that you think
you are) is being deconstructed, so that the New You can be born.
When this happens, trust your inner guidance. It will assist the
Transitioning You (Section 4) in this passage. Know that by releasing
beliefs about yourself that do not serve you, you will be able to
express more of your Divinity than ever before.
In the New World that is awakening (Section 3), you will
discover people just like you; individuals who have chosen to
align themselves with their Divinity, and then express this in their
human lives on Earth. Like you, they have decided to deepen their
relationships with themselves and others. Together you will learn
that your unified experience of God is truly greater than the sum
of its parts, and that by living this way, you can create societies
that will serve you better than any that have come before.
This is the New World that awaits you. And it is our pleasure, in
preparing this book, to introduce it to you.
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Section 1:
The New You
You have inhabited a world of false beliefs for too long. For too
long you have imagined yourself to be unloved and rejected by
God. You may believe that these thoughts have no consequence
in your life, but you are mistaken.
In a world such as this – a state that exists solely in your mind
– the best that you can expect from yourself is failure; the attacks
of others are unavoidable; and God prefers your obedience to
your love.
You have allowed these lies into the holiness of your mind and
given them a shelter that does not correspond to them. In this
unhappy home, the images you hold of yourself keep you feeling
weak and vulnerable, and believing that sooner or later even the
people closest to you will harm you.
In this confused state, you are unable to employ even the
simplest tools for right living. General principles that would
improve your life, if you would only apply them – such as “Love
your neighbor as yourself” and “Do unto others, as you would have
others do unto you” – are meaningless to you.
In this nightmarish world, the thought of trusting your neighbor,
or communicating with God, is as frightening as the prospect of
knowing yourself. This frightens you because you have forgotten
Who You Are.
This world is changing now, and so are you along with it.
You Are God, Also
When you are ready to leave behind the world of lies and
uncertainty – of not knowing who you are, or what you should be
doing – you will rediscover the Truth About You. You will remember
that You Are God, also, and that God is your innermost Self.
By engaging the truth of your identity at this fundamental level,
you will begin to disentangle yourself from the complications of
living in the world. You will find that the challenges you faced
were only imaginary. They only reflected the energy you were
expending by keeping your masks in place – masks that hid your
true identity.
When you stop pretending to be something that you are
not, you will free yourself from the illusions of forgetfulness.
The constraints imposed by your beliefs, and by the people and
situations around you, will lose their power. They will no longer
prevent you from expressing your Divinity. You will remember the
Truth About You, and never deny it to yourself or the world again.
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You are a Child of God, and God also.
This is the Truth About You.
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grows with the summer rains, so remembering the Truth About
You, will awaken it in you. All that is required is your patience.
Know that this Truth shall be revealed. There is nothing you can
do to prevent it. The Truth is inevitable – just as You Are. Take heart
in this, and be glad, and let this knowledge bring you peace.
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Chapter 2: Birthing the New You
There are many in the world like you, who are here to experience
life on Earth in a new way. You have come to remember the Truth
About You – that You Are God, also – and then to live your life that
way. You are opening to the broader range of experiences that is
possible for you, when you consciously choose to engage your
Divinity. By embracing your oneness with God, you begin to live
life as the New You – the Soul-centered you.
Living as the New You is not about having a perfect life. It’s not
some angelic ideal, and it’s certainly not about being free from
faults. It’s about living with the simple awareness that You Are God,
also – that God lives in you, as you. When you live this way as your
Soul does, you can immerse yourself in the physical world, but still
remember your origins in Spirit. You can express your Divinity in
every moment, while enjoying your humanity to the fullest.
When you take up life as the New You, you come into conscious
relationship with your Soul. As you do, you are confronted with
everything you once believed to be true about yourself that is not,
and by any fictions that you have used to define yourself until now.
If you feel that your life is coming undone when this happens, it is
because your Soul is deconstructing your old identity in order to
birth the New You. Nothing will be excepted.
For example, if you once considered yourself to be a good
partner because you lived to fulfill the expectations of others, your
Soul will encourage you to release this. As a consequence, you may
no longer know how to respond as a “good partner,” or even what
it means to be one. But if you allow your Soul to assist you in this,
eventually you will find yourself relating to others, and to yourself,
in ways that are more loving and honorable.
Completing the transition from the old to the New You may
challenge you. It can defy your beliefs about who you think you
are, and about the purpose and meaning of your life. To embrace
the New You, you must be willing to let go of all that is not real, and
all that you are not. You must dispense with the self-deceptions
that have allowed you to function in a world conditioned by fear,
and not love. This is what your deconstruction is about.
How do you feel when you read these words? Are you ready
to relinquish control over everything you imagined yourself to
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be, in order to experience Who You Really Are? Or is this just one
more thing you have to work at? Be still and go within for answers.
Ask yourself if this is yet another leap of faith, or if something else
might be going on.
Perhaps this is not about leaping into the unknown at all, and
that living as your Soul does – in this body and in this lifetime
– is not as far-fetched as it sounds. Maybe you are not throwing
yourself into another endless process, but you are done with
processes altogether. What if this was true?
Consider that you no longer need to climb the ladder of
spiritual attainment, hoping to reach the top. Perhaps there is
no ladder at all. Have you ever stopped to contemplate this? Ask
yourself if ladders are even necessary, or if they simply materialize
before you each time you doubt yourself? Each time you feel that
you aren’t good enough, or believe that you haven’t done enough
to deserve a wonderful life.
If you’ve had enough of ladders, and the need to perfect
yourself to feel better about who you are, then answer these
questions honestly, because ladders place the appreciation of
who you are, always just out of your reach. When the illusion of
climbing no longer compels you, then you can give yourself over
to the spontaneity of birthing, instead.
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or worried about what is happening. But if you can relax, then it
doesn’t have to be uncomfortable. The best thing to do is trust
yourself and your Soul to ensure an easy delivery.
Remember that the expectant mother does not labor
throughout the delivery of her child. Instead, she rides the waves
of her contractions. She pushes, when it is time to push – and rests,
when it is time to rest. She breathes in a conscious and rhythmic
way, and this assists her in staying calm. This is not striving. This is
allowing. And this is what you shall do, as you birth the New You.
With the coming of the New You, you will begin to notice
greater freedom in all areas of your life – from your relationships,
to prosperity, to the way your body functions in healthier, more
balanced ways. Although you may feel discomfort from time to
time, you will find that good things appear more frequently in your
life, and with greater joy and stability, as you continue to embody
the New You.
Rest assured that this transition will be very natural. It requires
no great effort on your part. Just remember Who You Are in Truth,
and remind yourself to hold a focus on the light and love of your
Soul. This is all that is really necessary.
Allow the New You to emerge into this reality. Permit this
birthing to take place, and know that you have made it possible
through the clarity of your choices, and the love in your heart.
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Chapter 3: Your Spiritual Sovereignty
Spiritual Sovereignty
When you welcome the New You into your life, you will be
choosing a life of sovereignty, too. But the sovereignty that you
will experience has nothing to do with your political or economic
situation. This kind of sovereignty is spiritual in nature.
What does it mean to be spiritually sovereign?
Does it mean that you feel superior to others? That you are
more evolved in consciousness than they are? That you have more
power, creativity, or authority? Does God enlighten your choices,
but not those of another, or make your prayers and petitions the
only ones of consequence?
No, it doesn’t mean any of these things.
Being spiritually sovereign means only one thing – that you are
free of the illusion of being something that you are not.
When you are spiritually sovereign, you remember that You Are
God, also, and not the collection of false personas fabricated by
your ego. You know that God is your innermost Self, and as close
to you as your own heart; and because of this, you do not allow
yourself to be persuaded otherwise. You acknowledge that the
reason you are here on Earth is to embody the life of your Soul
– to give voice and creative expression to that unique focus of
consciousness that You Are Within the Mind Of God.
When you take up life as the New You, you will learn to
express many aspects of your Soul’s sovereignty. Some of the
most notable of these are majesty, autonomy, authorship, power,
and freedom.
Majesty – As the New You, you will come into deeper
communication with your majesty than has ever been possible
before. Majesty is the greatness and grandeur that your Soul
experiences all the time.You will feel that you are living majestically,
when you are absolutely aware of Who You Are – when there is no
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doubt in your mind about the love and well-being that is yours by
birthright.
Autonomy – Being autonomous is another aspect of living
as the New You. When you are spiritually autonomous, you are
not independent of God, but you ARE Self governing. Spiritual
autonomy means that God, acting as your innermost Self, has
empowered you to live your life as you will. Because God is the
ultimate authority in your life, you won’t allow others to control
you, and this frees you to experience life in any way that you
choose.
God empowers your choices this way, so that you might fully
experience Who You Are. Your Soul knows this with certainty, and
revels in it – and as the New You, you will, too.
Authorship – As the New You, you are going to realize that
you are the author of your own life. God has vested you with the
authority to create your life experiences according to the thoughts
and beliefs that you hold in your mind. You will see that God
supports you in this, by molding the Universe around you in order
to provide you with the experiences that you have requested.
Because you are aware of the potency of your thoughts, you
are vigilant for the truth. You do not allow any doubts or misbeliefs
about who you are, or your place in the world to enter into your
mind. You choose to experience the Truth About You, and nothing
more. You know that by living this Truth, you will have the greatest
opportunity to experience the joy and fullness of your Being.
Power – Power is another attribute of the Soul-centered you.
But this is not power as the world knows it. The New You is not
interested in forcing its way upon the world, because power has
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nothing to do with dominating or manipulating others. Real
power is the ability to create. It’s as simple as that.
The New You recognizes that turning essence into substance
by using the creative power of the mind, is the greatest game
in town. It’s the game you were born to play. It also knows that
any other use of your talents would lead you to boredom and
stagnation.
Freedom – Sovereignty gives you the freedom to live your life
right now. Right here and now, you can enjoy the fact that you,
as your Soul, are having a marvelous human experience. The New
You is anchored in this awareness. As the New You, you can walk
into situations that would have shaken you in the past, and remain
calm and unperturbed. You are fearless, yet free – and responsive
to love in a way that is appropriate for each moment.
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Life, in which you are all equally loved. Anytime you need to make
a decision that affects others, remember to connect with this
awareness.
Ask that your individual desires be aligned with God’s Love for
all life, and invoke the best possible outcome for everyone involved.
It’s not important to know what this is. Just trust that it will come.
By clarifying your desires, and then releasing them for the
benefit of all concerned, you will fulfill the only mandate placed
upon you by your Creator – “Love one another, and do as you
will.” Remember this, and you will hold the key to your spiritual
sovereignty in your hand.
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Section 2:
New Relationships
Letting Things Be
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resolution to your problems. You will find reSOULution. A Soul-
inspired resolution.
When you call upon the New You, your Soul-centered aware-
ness, to help you in this, then stepping out of conflict will be
the most natural thing for you to do. It will be the path of least
resistance. Your willingness to go higher will automatically move
you in that direction. When this shift takes place, you will discover
how you were emotionally and intellectually entangled, and
determine what new road you might want to take up, instead.
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limitations you’ve imposed and become more than you’ve been
before.
When you forget that you share God’s Life with those around
you, then you are lost. All you have are conjecture and opinion
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to navigate your way through life. Ask yourself, what else but
misunderstanding can ever come from this?
Practicing Non-Judgment
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situations. Then inwardly choose to go higher. Allow something
greater than understanding to penetrate your perception. Choose
to remember the Truth About Them and About You. Then silently
offer this remembrance to everyone involved.
Once you remember your Common Divinity, then grant
everyone the freedom to express themselves, and evolve those
expressions as they will. Free them to go higher with all they
say and do. Offer yourselves a place for respectful, unrestricted
exchange. When you suspend judgment, let go of expectations,
and stop blaming yourselves at every turn, you will come to
see each other As You Truly Are, and appreciate your love and
magnificence.
Mastering Conflict
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Chapter 5: New Relationships
Does stepping into the New You mean that your life will be
trouble free in an instant? No, not really. Instead, it means that you
are willing to accept the world just as it is, troubles and all, and act
from a place of loving discernment toward it.
When you love and embrace people in a way that is
appropriate for you, without demanding that they change, then
you free yourself from the difficulties they face, and offer them the
best opportunity to find their own resolution. By loving them as
they are, and then releasing them, you show them the way to the
healing power of their self love, while maintaining the integrity of
your own.
One of the areas where you may be challenged to do this is
with relationships.
Rules of Engagement in Relationships
When you decide to live as your Soul does, some people may
see you differently and fear the changes they observe from lack
of understanding. This may provoke conflict and resistance in
them. If this happens, don’t be alarmed. You are undergoing an
important shift in how you perceive yourself, so why wouldn’t
this alter the way you are perceived and treated by others, as
well?
Rather than fall prey to self-doubt when this happens, realize
that you are still in contact with the old world, and that relation-
ships in the old world operate by “rules of engagement.” The use
of this term here is not casual.
Rules of engagement are used by your police and military
bodies to determine how, when, and under what circumstances
force or persuasion should be used to disable a conflict. They do
not ask why harm should ever be directed toward another human.
They only assume that hurting another may be necessary to bring
a conflict or disagreement to resolution.
New Relationships don’t work this way. And this is why you
may experience difficulty functioning in old relationships now.
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forgotten Who You Really Are – A Child of God, and God also. You
call this love, but it is not.
When the conditions of these alliances break down, you blame
each other for it, arguments begin, and before you know it, you are
engaged in conflict. And what is the first rule of engagement during
any conflict? The right to attack another in order to defend yourself.
These are the beliefs that govern old relationships. And this is
what you have chosen to leave behind.
You might wonder if old relationships have served you at all.
The basic answer is yes, they have. Old relationships have provided
you with ample opportunities to remember Who You Are.
By experiencing conflict and dependency in your relationships,
you have come to remember what is essential about you – that
you need nothing from anyone else because You Are Everything.
You are a perfect and sovereign reflection of God’s Love for all
life. Grounding yourself in this knowledge is the basis for forming
New Relationships.
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This realization is the key. When you recognize that nothing
can be taken or denied you because You Are Everything, then you
will share Everything You Are without hesitation. You will give and
receive God’s Love from each other freely and without fear.
When you decide to live as your Soul does, taking up life as the
New You, you may feel drawn toward others who have made this
commitment, too.
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The most important thing you can do to invite New Relation-
ships into your life is to remember Who You Are. Remember your
Divinity. Do this on a daily basis, and you will attract relationships
of high quality and beautiful resonance into your life.
It is not about whether you will find them or not. It’s about
trusting yourself enough to know that you deserve them. When
you are able to do this consistently, you will see how others are
drawn to you by the love and trust that radiates from you.
Do this without expectations, and then watch your life. See
who comes and goes, and be prepared for miracles and surprises.
Know that you can experience all the joy and satisfaction that
relationships provide, simply by being the Love That You Are.
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Section 3:
The New World
When you dare to blend with your Soul in this lifetime, you
express the Truth About You. You acknowledge that You Are God,
also, and that you are willing to live your life that way. Neither a
statement of false pride, nor spiritual superiority – it is the simple,
earnest recognition that you are the Source and Author of your
own life. It is a declaration of your mastery, and a marvelous leap
forward in your awareness.
When you take this step, you recognize that you are an
individualized focus of Self consciousness within the greater life
of the God Source – uniquely you, but God, also.
Resolving this paradox in your mind is a sign of mastery. You
now understand that all of God’s power is vested within you. And
because of this, you know that you can create realities, love them,
and experience them fully – just as God does.
This IS mastery.
Conscious Creation
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Fear of Creating
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Michelangelo
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ceiling; and most importantly, creating brushes and brushstrokes
that convey the drama and pageantry of his Biblical themes.
This he did with consummate mastery.
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You find yourself standing before something vaster and
grander than you have encountered before. But this is a natural
occurrence. Major advances in awareness are often accompanied
by new and unusual opportunities, so don’t be afraid.
Yes, you may feel like an artist without his or her familiar
tools. But know that you have the possibility to create something
completely different now – something that combines your
knowledge, skills, and mastery in a new medium of creation.
What confuses you is the feeling of something unusual.
Until now, you have created your life with familiar tools – with
misperceptions about who you are, and the emotional highs and
lows of your daily drama. Your efforts have generated masterful
results. Perhaps not ones you are happy with now, but masterful
ones, nonetheless.
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Of course not.
Instead, he took inventory of his mastery. He realized that
his ability resided in his knowledge, not in his tools, and that his
creativity could be expressed in many ways – using multiple skills,
not just one.
His mastery did not disappear with the absence of the marble
he loved to carve. He could still envision form and symmetry
as before; his grasp of perspective had not changed; and his
appreciation of color was intact. Nothing had changed.
He was a master creator.
He was able to adapt his knowledge to the change in his
circumstances, embrace the expansive medium that was offered
him, and create again with renewed inspiration.
He was a master creator. And so are you.
When you have accepted your mastery, and realize that your
creative ability transcends anything you may have experienced
before, then you will no longer fear creating again.
Instead, you will hold a vision of your Divinity and make it your
own, breathing deeply into it and calling it to life. You will charge
your brush with color, trace a line, and begin a course of movement
across the canvas that is uniquely yours.
You will stop comparing yourself with anything you have been
before, or once desired to be, and give birth to new expressions of
Who You Really Are.
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You will feel relieved at the mental level because you will know
that you are guided by your intuition, and not your expectations.
And you will feel relieved at the emotional level because you will
be free of self-judgment and criticism.
You will realize that you have entered a New World – a world
of flow and ease, where freedom of expression is yours by
birthright.
And when your creation stands before you, whole and
complete, you will marvel at what you have done. You will look at
the New You with the eyes of innocence, almost not recognizing
that it was you who gave it life and inspiration.
You may even ask, “Was it me who created this wonder?”
And the answer you will give yourself is, “Yes.”
For indeed, you are a master creator.
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Chapter 7: The New World Awakens
If you step aside for a moment and consider the history of life
on your planet, you will see that something has changed. A New
World is awakening.
In the old world, you permitted many abuses. You let greed
substitute for happiness, and allowed your self-interests to
motivate your acts of kindness. In the New World, you will no
longer do this.
Now you know that happiness is not acquired at the expense of
others, but comes within a framework of unity that uplifts all alike.
In the awakening world, your Divinity will provide this framework
for you.
In the New World, you will discover people just like you, who
have chosen to deepen their relationships with God, themselves,
and others. Together, you will form societies that bring your planet
into greater relation as a whole, without denying you the personal
liberties you desire.
What will feel “new” about the New World will be a commonly
held vision of peace and goodwill. What the world will experience
as new will be harmony, instead of chaos.
The Human Tapestry
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coming into resonance with your Soul; and as you do, you will
touch others deeply, and you will need to listen carefully to their
responses. All good musicians know this. Accomplished members
of an orchestra know that to express themselves fully, they must
also listen to those around them. Soon, you and all of humanity
will use this skill to create communities and societies that serve
you better.
Enough of you value harmony and flow now, that you will find
it easy to come together. You have reached a critical mass. Soon,
this will allow you to build a world that is supportive of your needs,
without having to struggle to do it. But first there is a clearing away
of that which no longer serves you, and this can be disconcerting.
When this happens, don’t be fooled. Be patient, instead.
Whenever you fall into doubt, remember the orchestra and
ask yourself this: When one musician meets another who values
harmony as much as the first – is it not natural for them to unite
in their love of music and create something together that neither
could do separately?
If your answer to this question is “yes,” then know that this
response will serve you well – for this is the spirit that will build
your New World.
Much as a symphonic movement depends on each orchestra
member playing well and in harmony, so your New World will be
built by individuals who express themselves fully, within a context
of unity that actually works. Encourage each other in this, and
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soon you will find that you live in a better world. All of you can
bring this greater awareness and sensitivity to the reconsolidation
of your planet.
Believe this, and it shall be so.
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Chapter 8: Prosperity in the New World
Soon you will experience what the rest of the Universe already
knows: That prosperity begins with charity, and charity begins
with the heart.
You will learn that what you give to yourself, you can easily
give to another. But what you deny to others, will be denied to you
– not because you are being punished, but because your hearts
are closed. A closed heart, like a tightened fist, can neither give nor
receive.
Shutting the doors to your heart does not protect your
treasures. Instead, it locks you inside and denies you everything.
You imagine that you are safe and secure, but you are not. You
inhabit a prison, where your only concern is survival and you
jealously guard everything you think is yours for fear that it will be
taken from you.
How can you ever hope to know joy and comfort this way?
Know this. You are interdependent. You are individual points
of consciousness within the greater life of the God Source. This is
your joy and your prosperity.
Are you prepared to accept this now?
The opportunities that are upon you as a global community
will advance you greatly in this, if you allow it. Stand united in this
desire and it shall be so.
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others to become dependent upon you, and you do not allow
yourself to become dependent on others.
Instead, you remember to share your Divinity. You expand
yourselves in the only way possible – by sharing God’s Love with
each other. This is the meaning of New Relationships.
Finally, you acknowledge that you are interconnected, and you
welcome it. Just as a symphony depends upon all its members to
create a unified musical experience, so your complete experience
of Divinity depends upon each of you expressing yourselves
fully, but in overall group harmony. You know that your unified
experience of Divinity is truly greater than the sum of its parts, just
as God Is – and you relish this.
All of humanity must come to an understanding of your
Common Life. The only way this can be accomplished is through
direct experience. There is nothing theoretical about it. It is that
simple. Soon the mass of humanity will experience the reality of
your interdependence around issues of prosperity.
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Because God is the Source of your prosperity, and collectively
You Are God, also. These facts are undeniable. One cannot exist
without the other. You can choose to remember this as indivi-
duals, as many of you have done, but that alone is not enough.
Collectively you must decide to live that way, too. Again, it is as
simple as that.
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Section 4:
The Transitioning You
How many times have you asked yourself, “When will I receive
the goodness I deserve, especially after all the good I have done
for others?” Too often to remember, is what most of you would say,
and this would be essentially correct.
What about all the times you were told, “Do what you love,
and the money will follow,” – only to find that when you did, you
weren’t valued by the ones you chose to serve? Again, more times
than you might care to recall.
What does it mean to feel that you’re “not good enough,” no
matter how hard you try? And why do these feelings seem to keep
good things from happening to you?
Feeling that you’re not good enough – or that you’re not good
at what you do – means that somewhere deep inside, you feel
unworthy of love, and you believe that you must do something
about it.
This misperception formed the first time you felt separated
from the love around you. For many, this happened during
childhood. Perhaps you were criticized for something you did or
said. Often the words, “You’ve been a bad boy” or “Don’t be a bad
girl” were heard. The circumstances were not as important as the
feelings they evoked in you. Feelings that reside within you, even
now.
When you are told that you’ve been “bad” by someone you love,
how can you ever hope to feel “good” about yourself afterward,
especially if you are punished for this, too? Instead, you internalize
the hurt. And as more such painful experiences accumulate, you
begin to believe they are true. Soon, you accept that there is
something wrong with you, and that you must try harder to win
the approval of those around you.
And so, your journey into suffering begins.
Any time you feel that you’re not good enough, you can be
certain that part of you is convinced that you must try harder to
be loved. This isolated portion of your self-awareness seems to be
in direct conflict with the core part of you that remembers your
worth and goodness.
This internal conflict is common in children, and unless it is
healed with love and understanding, it will be carried over into
adulthood. Inner conflicts like these can paralyze your capacity to
feel love, and they can prevent you from enjoying the things you
value most, whether at work or play.
Lightworkers are especially susceptible to this dilemma.
Although you feel motivated to serve with compassion and
understanding, what you do never seems to be quite good enough
for you or others.
You have high hopes that you will be appreciated and even
rewarded for who you are, and this encourages you to give more
of yourself, but again with negligible results. Your mind tells you
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that you’ve done everything correctly, but the empty feeling in
your heart tells you that it wasn’t enough.
The truth is that you are on a treadmill. You are conditioned to
keep trying harder and harder to get things right, because deep
down inside, you believe that you’re “not good enough” for good
things to happen to you. This belief can be traced back to the
rejections you experienced as a child, simply because you felt the
disturbances in your connection with others so profoundly.
“Not Good Enough” is the part of you that feels that you don’t
deserve good things to happen to you, or to be loved just as you
are. It is a portion of your living energy – the Spirit that you are –
that was convinced in early childhood that it had been separated
from God, you, and those around you. It still feels threatened
today.
This part of your awareness believes that it is you, but it is not. It
is a sub-personality or fragment of your ego. It seems to have a life
of its own, but it is only active when you focus your attention on it
– whenever you accept its belief that you are not good enough. In
truth, it is only a misperception of who you think you are.
“Not Good Enough” is one of your important sub-personalities.
It is so convinced that you are unworthy, that it can’t imagine that
you exist outside of this experience. Because it believes this so
completely, it waits for these conditions to be fulfilled, knowing
that sooner or later you will be hurt by someone who finds you
flawed and unlovable.
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“Not Good Enough” is also a saboteur. It will not allow you to
escape its beliefs about who you are. If you dare to do something
that you love – something you’re good at, or something that you
feel good doing – it will feel threatened by this, and not permit it.
It will tell you that who you really are is “Not Good Enough,” and
because you are, you cannot possibly feel good about anything. It
will remind you of this over and over, until you believe it again.
“Not Good Enough” will undermine you with doubt, suspicion,
and self-judgment to the point that you abandon what feels good
to you, or what you might enjoy doing. If this doesn’t work, it will
draw down the disapproval of others upon you, so that you can
blame them for your discouragement, instead of dealing with
your own feelings of unworthiness.
Lightworker Illusions
Does this sound familiar? Many of you struggle with this. The
tiredness, the discouragement, the pretty dreams that don’t come
true, no matter how hard you try to manifest them. You like to
attribute these setbacks to your ascension process, but this is not
always so. Sometimes they are lightworker illusions.
This kind of illusion lets you continue sabotaging yourself with
feelings of unworthiness, without having to bring them to the
light of consciousness. It lets you pretend that ascension is about
sacrificing what you love to do in order to grow in consciousness,
when what you are really doing is sacrificing your consciousness
in order to not grow at all.
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Many of you want to serve. You like the idea of it, and you can
imagine that it would feel good, if the world would only appreciate
you while you are doing it. But wait. Who is this talking? Is this you,
or is this “Not Good Enough” speaking on your behalf?
“Not Good Enough” is perfectly happy to let you be inspired by
lightworker ideals, and to even let you get involved in these kinds
of activities. But it will only let you enjoy yourself to the point that
it feels threatened by your growing happiness and pleasure. Then
it will remind you that you are “Not Good Enough,” and because
you are, it is impossible for you to feel good about who or what
you are.
It will tell you that no one knows how to appreciate you, or
what you have to offer. It will tell you that an employer doesn’t
value your work, or a parent or spouse doesn’t love you, as you
deserve to be loved.
Perhaps it will tell you that the world isn’t quite ready for
someone as sensitive, aware, and loving as you. And when it has
finished telling you all this, it will conclude by asking you to stop
doing everything that you feel good about. And that’s what you’ll
do, because by now you’ve been convinced, once again, that “Not
Good Enough” is who you are.
You’ll find yourself believing that you don’t deserve to be
happy, or to have good things happen to you; and this is what
you’ll wind up creating, if you don’t put a stop to it.
So, what do you do then?
Do you sit in a corner and wait for things to fall apart? No,
dear friend. It’s time for you to see the game you’re playing with
yourself.
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What You Can Do, Instead
Know that that you are good enough to live a life of love, fully
connected to your Divinity. You are more than good enough. You
are your Divinity. God lives in you, as your innermost Self; and
because God does, you can assume this perspective any time you
like – anytime you hear the voice of doubt telling you, that all you
are, is “Not Good Enough.”
When you consciously choose this higher perspective about
your Being, you take up the position of the neutral Observer. You
can look at the part of yourself that is confused, and offer it love,
instead. You can have compassion for its suffering, but you won’t
allow it to continue devastating your life. You gently remind it Who
You Really Are – a Child of God, and God, also. Then you welcome
it back home, into the integrated family of God’s Divine qualities
that you embody as the unique person that you are.
The greatest gift of kindness and reintegration that you can give
to “Not Good Enough” is one of re-purposing. You can tell it that you
are whole, and wholly loved, just As You Are – and that it is welcome
back in this place of Wholeness with you. Remind it that you are in
charge of love, and that you will give it all the love it needs. Then ask
it to be vigilant for your goodness in a different way.
Ask it to be watchful for all the opportunities you will have to
feel good about yourself, to do the things you enjoy, and to feel
good about them as you do them. Let this part of you safeguard
your goodness, instead of sabotaging it. Take it back to the truth of
your connection with God, and know that you will be supported
in this. And as you do, your life will be blessed in many ways.
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Chapter 10: Shame, Blame, and Money
Client’s request: “For most of my life, I have had issues with money
and finances, or more specifically, issues with financial institutions,
banks, and creditors. This has filled my life with stress, fear, and an
acute sense of powerlessness. At this point, I no longer want to play
the game. I want to release it, and be free. Please, help me release
this illusion of form and exchange I play with financial institutions. I
want to feel powerful, free, and abundant. Not fearful and powerless.
Thank you.”
In truth, God has never left your side. God’s Love is always there
for you because you are Its living embodiment. And your belief
that you have violated God’s Will is equally invalid. It is impossible
for you to violate God’s Will for creation because you ARE God’s
Will for creation.
You and all of humanity are God’s creative agents in the
Universe. Your belief that you have done otherwise is nothing
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more than your misunderstanding of how co-creating with God
works.
Even so, this misperception has provided fertile ground for the
appearance of the ego.
The ego was born the moment that you first imagined, and
accepted in your mind, that God had abandoned you. In that instant,
the ego appeared and promised to be your friend, if you would only
pledge your allegiance to it, and agree to accept its help.
The ego said that it would show you how to survive in a world
without God’s Love – in a world where you lack what you need,
and what you already have can be taken from you by others.
But because the ego’s assumptions about God’s Love are
wrong, it has never been right about anything it has offered you.
As a consequence, its promise to help has only sabotaged your
efforts to be happy in the end.
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In this lifetime, your ego with its entourage of sub-personalities
began to assemble the first time you felt unloved or abandoned.
For many, this was in early childhood. At this time, you likely
experienced an interruption in the flow of love between you, your
parents, or someone else you trusted.
You may have said something or done something that did not
meet with their approval, so they withdrew their acceptance of
you. You were made to feel bad about it; accept responsibility for
having caused it; and then have to do something about it to make
things better. You internalized this unlovable image of yourself
and accepted it as your true identity.
From that point forward, this internalized image has acted as
a sub-personality. Now it appears every time you are confronted
with similar circumstances.
It is there to remind you that you don’t deserve to be loved
because you have acted contrary to the wishes of another. It
frightens you with the possibility that you will be abandoned
by this person, and then it tells you that you must do something
about it, despite the hopelessness of your situation. This fear is so
similar to the shock you experienced when you first believed that
you had been abandoned by God, that it cannot help but have
consequences.
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obligations to financial institutions. This is because for you, and
many like you, having money is a measure of worth. Not monetary
worth, but self-worth.
By allowing yourself to feel unworthy, you are giving the ego
silent permission to sabotage your experiences of prosperity, as
well as love. You are projecting your inner doubt, “Am I worthy of
love?” into a world of money lenders, and then expecting it to be
resolved there.
Your fear of financial institutions can be traced to the first
moment that you ever felt unloved. To the first time that your
worth was questioned by another, you felt ashamed of it, and
then you blamed yourself for it. In this moment, you created a
sub-personality called “Unworthy” – and then you identified with
it completely.
Once you accepted this misperception about you into your
mind, it became possible for it to spread to other areas of your life.
You granted it the right to pattern your experiences of worthiness
in every situation, including in your encounters with money.
How does this sub-personality offer to help you now?
“Unworthy’s” strategy is to encourage you to seek love and
support from sources of authority and validation that you also
fear. As improbable as this sounds, “Unworthy’s” secret hope is
that if you can gain the approval of your accusers and critics, you
will be able to heal the wounds of your past.
Unfortunately, your experiences have been very different from
the fairy-tale ending imagined by “Unworthy.” Instead of feeling
supported in your dealings with financial institutions, you have
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needlessly suffered. The control they have exerted has seemed
harsh and arbitrary, whether it really was or not.
You are right in saying that you are playing a game with yourself.
The real problem has nothing to do with getting their approval.
Instead, it’s about recognizing that your own validation is what
you need to reinstate, and not your financial worth. Until you see
this connection clearly and heal your mind of this misperception,
you will continue to struggle.
You say that you want to feel powerful, free, and abundant
again. Not powerless and unworthy. But to dispel these illusions in
your mind, you must first reclaim the awareness of Who You Really
Are.
You must remember that You Are God, also, and not “Unworthy”
– and that because of this, your worth is beyond doubt or question.
You must dedicate yourself to recalling this truth, each time you
are inclined to doubt it. As you do, you will untangle the thoughts
in your mind that hurt you, and find the love and healing that you
desire.
There are really only two steps involved in doing this. The first
thing that you must do is stop fighting with yourself. Every time
you struggle with the illusion of your unworthiness, you only make
it more real in your mind.
Understand that each time you allow yourself to feel ashamed,
blamed, or guilty about your financial situation – whether
by another or through self-condemnation – you are actually
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confirming that your unworthiness must be true. It is NOT. You
must step out of this cycle of reinforcement completely.
End the illusion with a simple proclamation, “I Am Perfectly
Whole; and wholly loved, worthy, and complete.” This is the second
step you will take, and it will heal your mind with the Truth. As you
do this, you will invite “Unworthy” back home, and give it the love
and acceptance from you that it needs.
Repeat this affirmation often, and then live it with all your heart.
Make this a daily practice, and you will see that your struggles fall
away, along with any beliefs that you’re not worthy enough to be
loved just As You Are.
Once you have taken these steps, there is nothing more you
need to do. Simply anchor yourself firmly in the remembrance
that You Are God, also, and then live your life with confidence and
joy. Know that you are fully supported in this and deeply loved,
and that your value before God is beyond question.
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Chapter 11: Choosing Life or Death
Dear friend, thank you for your courage in writing about your
recent experiences, and about wanting to release your trials and
your body through death.
I feel it’s important to honor our choices, even those we make
to exit this world. I also think it’s important not to romanticize,
mythologize, or otherwise misrepresent death or suicide to
ourselves.
Death is a transition from one state of consciousness to another.
This passage can be accomplished by releasing the physical body.
But it can also be accomplished while we are still living in the body.
It’s all a matter of choice.
Death happens all the time. Think about it.
Oftentimes when we enter a process of deep, transformational
change, we suffer as though we are dying. We engage in a process
so profound that it requires us to relinquish apparent control over
the direction of our lives in order to feel the true leadership and
direction of the Soul.
Yes, deep transformational change can feel like death and
resemble the experience of dying. But when it happens to us, we
are still living. This is the paradox. It is not confined to the moments
in which we approach, contemplate, or experience physical death.
It hits us, full stride – right in the middle of the life we’re living.
The experience of psychological death requires that the ego
be still and surrender before the greater reality of the Soul. This
may be what you are feeling now. It can be quite overwhelming.
(The ego is the fragmented, distorted perception of your
personality that you experience in your day-to-day living. It is
driven by inner conflicts, strong desires, and beliefs in unmet
needs.)
At certain times in life, we realize that the ego-driven personal-
ity can’t resolve our problems. That’s when the obstacles to our
progress seem insurmountable and our lives become heavy with
burdens we are no longer willing to carry.
That’s when the ego panics.
Its fragmented, helter-skelter approach to life is not working,
and it knows it.
Its habitual way of rationalizing, sentimentalizing, and doing
whatever is expedient to control our lives is falling short, and it
can’t handle the news.
That’s when the Soul approaches.
That’s when we hear the “call.”
That’s when we know there must be something better than
the challenges we’ve been facing, and we long for it.
We begin to feel the Soul’s presence and respond to it.
But at this critical time, especially when sadness, depression,
and desperation are running high, the ego may make one last
attempt to wrestle control from the Soul.
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It feels the Soul coming to comfort and guide. It knows it
cannot beat the Soul because the Soul offers something real and
priceless, while the ego offers nothing but trinkets and illusions.
The ego believes that it will be replaced or eliminated by the
Soul, when the Soul steps in to consciously direct our lives. The
ego fears that it will cease to exist, as the Soul takes over where it
has failed to resolve life’s challenges.
In a moment of vulnerability and desperation, when we are
ready to concede that there must be a better way and then choose
it, the ego may play one last trick – one that will allow it to retain
influence to the very end.
It will agree.
It will say, “Yes, the Soul is what you need. I agree completely.
You do need to be comforted and sheltered from the harshness
of this world.”
“Go and rest. Welcome the Soul into your life. This is what you
need.”
“And by the way, I will take you there. I know exactly how to
meet the Soul and find the peace you have longed for. It’s easy.
Just listen to me.”
Then the ego will suggest the preposterous. It will say that there
is no other way to take up a Soul life, than to join the Soul in death.
The ego may sound comforting and truthful while presenting this
information, but it’s a lie. There are other ways.
The ego will tell this lie because it knows that when we choose
to join the Soul now in life, the ego will cease to exist. It knows that
when we embody the Soul in our physical form, that this will be
the ego’s undoing.
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When the truth and reality of the Soul consciously take up
residence within us, all that is unreal vanishes.
The ego – that vast amalgam of sub-personalities competing
for our attention, with incompatible interests and unreasonable
demands – ceases to exist.
It returns to Source. It becomes part of the greater life of the
Soul.
This is terrifying for the ego. It would prefer to kill us than cease
to exist itself. Rather than relinquish control to the Soul, the ego,
with its twisted logic, will propose suicide as a way to return to
God.
My advice, dear friend, is to welcome the changes that this
challenge is bringing to you. Allow it to initiate a process that is
part of the evolution of your consciousness.
But rather than undertaking this transition through death,
consider allowing your Soul to come closer to you in life. Give your
Soul permission to operate, where the ego cannot.
My friend, I honor your choice, whatever it is. Just remember
that whether you choose life or death, you will still find yourself at
the same place.
You will find yourself having to dismantle your ego.
In order to make the transition in consciousness you long for, so
that you can live a Soul life fully, you still have to reclaim the power
and control that you have ceded to the ego. And then you will
have to put this back in the hands of your Soul, where it belongs.
This is the “price of admission” to heaven, whether you choose
to experience it here on Earth, or somewhere beyond the veil of
death. There are no short cuts in this process. None at all.
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So my advice is to go to the depths of your current experience.
Make a commitment to see it through, even if you feel frightened
or discouraged. Promise yourself to see the other side of this
challenging time. You may feel like you’re dying along the way. But
when the ego is finally undone, and the psychological death and
suffering you are experiencing has ended, you will awaken closer
to your Soul than ever before. And you will be amazed at the New
You that you have become.
In closing, please remember this: You don’t have to die
physically to live as Spirit. You can take up a Soul life, right here
and now in the body. That’s the whole point of being on Earth.
That is why we are here.
With love and honor for a life well-lived.
Dan Bennack
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Chapter 12: Conscious Creation
Dear friend, please take a moment to receive the Love That You
Are. Be still, and listen to the whisperings of your Soul.
Many times you have felt a desire to contact Spirit, and many
times you have asked to manifest a better life for yourself. You sit,
and wait for a connection that inspires you – one that gives you
hope and fills you with zest for living. You may experience a bit of
an opening at first, but soon you feel that you are shutting down
again, and you wonder what has happened to you.
Perhaps you are expecting guidance to strike you like a bolt
of lightning from above, when more often it speaks to you from
the “still, small voice within.” This is the voice of your Soul. It is
the sound of you, when you are untroubled by your worries, or
by your desires to improve your current circumstances.
The expectations in your mind, along with the strong desires
in your heart about what you would like to create, are keeping
you confused and tired. They agitate your mind and intensify your
emotions, without giving you any clear idea of what to do next.
This has created a sense of futility within you, and an inability to
coordinate right action.
My friend, you have come here to receive the voice of Spirit. To
partake of the love and wisdom that it freely offers you. Turn this
matter over to your Soul. It knows exactly what to do. The only
thing that is required of you is to listen quietly to what it says.
To hear your Soul, you first must calm your mind and curb the
intensity of your desires. Remember that troubled waters neither
reflect the clarity above them, nor reveal the depths beneath
them.
And so it is with Soulful communication. You don’t need to
seek it. It will find you, instead. This is a natural condition. When
your mind is quiet and your emotions are calm, you will perceive
the guidance that satisfies all your true desires.
Perceiving Guidance
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To open the channels of communication with your Soul, you
must first be willing to touch the old hurts that reside within you
still. These are the parts of you that were made to feel isolated and
unloved in the past. To reintegrate these aspects from your past,
you must honor their traumas, but without identifying yourself as
them.
When you allow yourself to feel past wounds in this way, you
can welcome them safely home, and give them the love that they
desire. You can accept them as they are, and allow your love to
transform them into something better.
Healing your past this way will restore your ability to feel
without fear, and this in turn will improve your capacity to perceive
the guidance that comes to you from your Soul.
When you touch upon emotional wounds, please be gentle
with yourself and accept the love that comes to you from your
Divinity. Allow it to embrace you, and comfort you. This will
remind you that you are not alone, and that you are loved, safe,
and secure.
Once you are able to love yourself As You Are – without
judgment, expectation, or regret – then you will open widely to
assistance from the angelic realms. You will enter a place of quiet
contemplation that is the point of reconnection to your Soul.
From there, the inspiration that it brings you will permit you to
create things easily – things that bring you joy, and reassure you
that the world is a safe place to live.
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The Seven Steps to Conscious Creation
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forms. You can do this along new pathways if you like, or simply
maintain or increase what you are already enjoying now.
7. Remember to focus on essence before details. For example,
if you would like to experience more peace in your life, then
identify the peace that you are already feeling now; give
thanks for it; and ask for more.
Indicate your preferences, but be willing to accept what is
delivered. Trust that your Soul will provide the perfect match
for you.
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About the Authors
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A New World Awakens A New World Awakens
A Saint-Germain Book
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