I get it!

For three years I have lived and virtually breathed the Haleigh Cummings case. I have cried and fought, hurt and been hurt, assaulted and defended and finally, today, I give up. I am not giving up on Haleigh Cummings, I am giving up on the folks that I relied on to get the justice that this babe so deserves. I have no confidence left in either parent, grandparent, relative on either side, and finally law enforcement. I was shocked by the carefully worded and almost hidden fact that Haleigh's mom, Crystal, has now took up residence with her former in-law and the mother of Ronald Cummings. Though words poured out of my keyboard in furious quips and angry posts to any and everyone that was interested, I found all the barking I did empty. Several hours ago I said ' good night' to my 'internet family'. The same people I have kept company with for the past three years. Amazing people who only because they saw the face of an innocent child, took up the their 'virtual swords' and went to battle in hopes of finding the truth of Haleigh's demise. Valiant warriors of words and facts that I am proud to call my friends. These people aren't just avatars and screen names to me. These are my comrades, my allies, and my fellows. My brothers and sisters in that we believe in a generally common goal and endeavored to achieve it, using our gifts as they are. Some of them are great sleuths, others incredible records finders, photographers, videographers, stick men artist, truth finders, comedians, sharp tongued rebels and just generally good people. None of us come with credentials to investigate any crime, much less a missing child cases. Seperate we were but a voice in a crowd, but together we are a mighty nation, the Haleigh Nation. We all draw from on our experiences and lifes lessons and bring that to the common table in our attempt, however disjointed, to find the truth. Unique gifts that some of us had

never realized or tapped prior to this case. For example, I never knew I had such a 'smart mouth'. I never thought three years ago tonight that I would still have the conviction and energy to keep this fight going. I wonder what all of you have found out about yourselves through this investigation? I finally had that moment of clarity that let me see what has really happened here and how I have been blind all along. Over the years I have had many theories, some of them good I think. I still stick by some of them. They are well thought out and at least as plausible as the ones I have seen elsewhere. What I didn't see to some extent (though I knew there were games afoot) was who was driving this bus. As I said my prayers tonite, I asked God to forgive me for being so angry that I had wasted my time on someone so undeserving. The answer came that I had not wasted anything and had gained all. I told my God how I was disappointed and angry and poured out my heart to Him. I lamented that I ever got involved at all. I questioned my motives and understanding and finally I said to my God that I had cast His pearls to swine. I poured out my heart to God and begged for understanding. Be careful what you ask for when you are sincere and in need with God. I got my answers and more. I got understanding beyond my intelligence and I got peace. Bear with me and let me explain. I have been on the "Ron did it dammit train" the whole time. I still think he did it. I just didn't see the whole picture. I didn't see the 'machine' that was working in this case. I haven't quiet identified this machine, but it is there and here is why. None of us reading this have any doubt that by negligence or violence, Ron is guilty of the death of Haleigh. There is no doubt in my mind and likely yours, that his family is in part and parcel with him. They all know. I stand by that. What I didn't 'get' until tonight is just this; everyone single person who spent their time and money, professionals and lay people, wound up chewed up and spit out like bad beef! Every single person was attacked, slandered, libeled, and left with their

reputations in tatters or at least defending the same. Everyone. No exceptions. Why? I see it! A common enemy is the most powerful weapon. We saw these people, we all know who I am talking about, come into town with open hearts and wallets open, to aid in the search for Haleigh. We saw them put it all on the line in an effort to save a lost child. We saw them give of their gifts and in return they were attacked and ridiculed and left, at least some of them, discredited and dishonored for their troubles. Tim Miller is first to mind. He is generally considered a good fellow that does good work? I always thought so. Yet, he comes to Florida and he is a idiot and an alcoholic. Why? That is what haunts me even as I type. Why indeed? Well, I have had a realization that it has been a concerted campagine by those that would protect Ronald Cummings. So far no suprise, huh? Indulge me. Kim P. came into Satsuma to defend a mother who had been wronged. She did it for no pay and at much expense to herself. What did she get for her trouble? She was thanked with a complaint to the Florida Bar Association. She was villified by the Ronettes for defending Crystal and then by the Crystallites for defending herself and her reputation, career and livelihood. If she wasn't already dirty enough from this, she agrees to take responsiblity for a fund to help homeless people entangled in this case. Someone had to be legally responsible for those funds! I see it! She did it! For this deed, she was further maligned and villifed by both sides. Yep, she became the common enemy of both the Ronettes and the Crystallites. I had no horse in this race and let it slide as it was none of my business and only brought on grief for anyone who spoke of this fiasco on any level. I won't go into all the others that I feel were wronged by this "machine" as it is a long list and I am not as well enlightened on their circumstances. I will say that Cobra Staubs was maybe the most pitiable of all these. He had the least to gamble and he lost it all. This man, whatever his motives, left Satsuma with his freedom in jeopardy and his livelyhood stripped. The

'machine'. What did all these people do that made them the object of so much ado and chatter? They dared to speak the truth. They called a ass and ass! Period. I had not seen this until tonite. I admit I was less than compassionate about the woes of these people because I was short sighted and it was really irrelevant to me as I was only looking to find Haleigh without the drama that has played out on the web. I can honestly say that I almost did that. Almost. Either way, I hurt no one and wasn't hurt by anyone. Confusion and chaos did it's job and hurt many people. I was one of the lucky ones that didn't wind up in place where I was tossed to and fro because I was a party to the drama that played out over the past three years. I was lucky to not be called out and belittled because of my concerted efforts to stay above the fray and innocent of pot stirring. I had missed all this because I was geniunely on a mission to find Haleigh! That was my sole purpose here and in doing so I refused to be distracted, even by the truth. The truth is hard to see if someone is always diverting your attention to other possibilities. I explored every avenue that was presented by both sides and the middle. In the end, tonight, I have come to the realization that it is as simple as this next paragraph. Ronald Cummings has a network of those that have done nothing except deflect and distract me from what really happened in this case. I well remember the crushed hopes I had when the first year passed and no news of Haleigh came. Now, I ask myself why I was suprised that nothing was achieved in finding her. The bottom line is, Ronald and his machine used everyone and anyone to deflect from his guilt and did so successfully. I really believe tonite as I type law enforcement were unable to solve this case. They were stalled by the very things I have discussed above and the refusal of allowing himself or anyone else to be questioned further. That is my big epiphany! They had shut down the investigation of the case. There was no news because there was no progress! Law enforcements can't make up facts and evidence to charge someone. I wonder

at their desire to do so even now, but techinically, they had tried and failed. Case closed. But then there was an outcry from us. We demanded answers and hounded PCSO into submission to at least make an effort. We would not be denied and in answer to our plea, we got drug busts. I think the 'machine' was suprised when they wound up smack dab in the middle of another media frenzy. I seldom give my husband the credit he deserves but I woke him to hear my new revelation and ask his opinion. I outright asked him if he thought there was any possiblility that Haleigh was kidnapped and alive somewhere. I won't tell you his reply as I have just a few hours ago gotten back in good graces with my God. He told me plainly 'No, she is dead and Ron Cummings did it!". In three years I had heard his thoughts but dismissed them because he isn't the learned one on the internet with all those that are privy to the links and documents that make me smarter than him. I heard him loud and clear tonight and this is what he said. All Ronald, Misty, Tommy, and Hope had to do was behave. They had essentially beaten this charge. They had shut off communication and as long as they all laid low and kept quiet, they were clear of this case. I see the reasoning in this. He went on to say that the parents and grandparents of Ron, Misty, Tommy and Hope had went to great lengths to get them out of this. They had! They were going to get away with the charge of a missing child if they remained as their parents advised. The drug busts were to pacify the public and to get what they could on the ones they felt had participated in the crime or the concealment of the whereabouts and or death of Haleigh. When they were busted, my intelligent mate says, the parents couldn't drive that bus and told them to stop whining and be glad it wasn't worse. He went on to tell me that this is exactly the advise he would give his son if he were unfortunuate enough to wind up with these circumstances. Finally he told me 'they had to get them off the street and get the public off their backs.'.

He isn't a brillant man, but he is a intuitive man with good sense. I totally buy that. He is right. In the months since they have been incarcerated, there has been no media attention, little web attention and seldom a mention of Haleigh except on a few boards that I have been privileged to belong to with my fellows. Only a few people online still speak of Haleigh. It is finished unless by some act of God or slip of the tongue by one of those in jail. If those in jail could have behaved and stayed clean of drugs, they would be free today. There is no new evidence and no leads. It is over until someone speaks or finds a body. To add to his wisdom he threw in the fact that the state of Florida already had a fiasco that was draining funds from a wealthy county and Putnam is probably not as flush with cash to play to the cameras as the county in which Caylee happened to disappear. I get it! Finally, I lamented the trouble I went to earlier when I mentioned pointedly the mother of Haleigh in my prayer on a certain forum today. I did it in the wrong spirit to begin with and for what? A big ole slap in the face. I can report that I did not waste my time with those scriptures at all. One said basically, nothing is hidden that won't be revealed. I think I got my return a thousand fold. Shortly thereafter I googled Haleigh Cummings on a hunch from out of nowhere, only to find the story I shared with all of you saying Crystal had moved in with Teresa Neves. It was revealed and I have been enlightened. They are ALL horrible people who have no regard for a child or the law. There are no innocents, good parents, good people, well-meaning people close to poor Haleigh. They are all just spokes in the wheel that drives the machine. Horrible horrid people. I will end with this paraphrased statement from Tim Miller. "Nothing is as it appears in this case.". I fear that is so true.

Thanks for indulging me if you read all of this and I hope you all got something in the way of answers as I did.