When you're 6, everything is a fairy tale, you see things from a pleasant point of view, and everywhere you

look has a happy ending, but when the most important person dies, and then your happy fairy tale suddenly turns into your worst nightmare. That's what happened to me, one of the most important people died. My Parents, They both died in a car accident, the engine died and a truck ran into them. From that day on my life was hell. It was almost like Hell on Earth. My older brother Mike and I had to be separated. He was the only family I had left but we were separated. He was sent to live with foster parents in L.A. If was his dream to live in L.A, at least someone in the family got what they wanted. I was sent to live in an orphanage. I was the odd one out. I never face people, I was teased by kids , and I was led to believe that there was no thing as a perfect life. I lived at the orphanage for 5 years. No one wanted to adopt a sad girl. No one wanted a girl who will curse at you for being happy, who cries every night, but all that changed when these two couples came to the orphanage and decided to adopt me because I was individual. So I was sent to live with my foster parents Bill and Iris Kennedy. I thought they were very nice. They made me feel welcome and they understood what I was going through, they felt my pain. For 2 years, my foster parents helped me recover from my parents death, they got me into therapy and rehab and even though I was treated like a psychopath, I started to recovered. All angelic acts ended when Iris got sick. Even though Iris and Bill treated me like their own daughter, I like them but I couldnt let them replace my own parents. I was coming back from school when I saw my foster dad Bill. He walked me home. I thought he was lost in thoughts, probably worried about Iris. When we reached the house, he told me to go into my room. Then out of nothing, he came into my room while I was changing and slapped me. I had no idea what he was doing, or what I did to provoke him. I have never seen him this mad. The first thought that came into my mind is that the sickness of Iris was driving him mad. Before I could ask him what his issue was he stomped out of my room muttering something. Later that evening, I went downstairs, hoping Bill was feeling better. Unfortunately he wasnt, he was worse than ever. He kept on asking me uncomfortable questions. About my relationships and other personal stuff. I told him that I didnt have to tell him anything and even if I had to, there would be nothing to tell. That night, I couldnt sleep. Bills questions were stuck in my thoughts. I was scared. I thought he was going to come in and rape me, and just when I thought I was finally going to get some sleep, my depression disorder kicked in. I kept thinking about my relationships. I was the school weirdo. The Emo Who would be interested in me? I couldnt get a friend let alone a boyfriend. When I woke up in the morning, my pillow was wet. I had cried for so long that my eyes were red, my skin was wet and my eyelid was wrinkly. I didnt want to wake Bill and Iris so I slowly put on my uniform and crept out of the house and started to walk to my school. On the way to school, I saw the school bimbo, Clara. We used to be so close. We went into rehab together, she had a complete freak, she was always yelling and threatening people, I still have pictures of her from my album, but after she went out of rehab, she changed everything, she pretends not to know me but I know she

remembers me, she is probably ashamed that she had a friend like me. She was with her girls, actually pets Chavs and Chelsea. They like to call themselves The 3 Cs. How pathetic. I know Clara doesnt want to remember me but I dont get why she and her pets hate me. They tease me every chance they get. Clara was the boy magnet, she used to be brunette but she died her hair blonde and she always wears contacts. Guys seem to like her double D, her real size is actually B cup. She wears lifts and wonder bras. God knows why. Have you even wondered how most guys are attracted to girls because of their breasts and the girls try to make it look big? How stupid! The three Cs spotted me, their lucky day! They started walking toward me. Physically Im stronger than all three of them combined but one word from their mouth could cause one innocent girl to commit suicide. That actually happened. Someone committed suicide because the three Cs. Unfortunately the judge was Claras dad and he just sentenced the three Cs to a day in community service. Spoilt brat! I dont really care what others think of me or say about me unless they are talking about my past. The three Cs surrounded me, for a minute I thought that they were going to gouge my eyes out with their sharp high heels, but again they are probably worried that theyll break a nail, what they actually did was tell me Oh look its Freaky J, if ignorance was a bliss, youd be the happiest girl on earth, I mean youre parents are probably happy now that they dont have to take care of a weird Emo, Jacintha. I knew I had to control my anger but no one and I mean no one is allowed to talk about my family, and get away with it so I said with half a smirk on my face, did you get that of the internet? The if ignorance is a bliss crap is so old, youd think the class whore would be aware of that by now, once a fake, always a fake and with that I winked at Clara and just left then standing quietly with the Oh no she didnt face. Unfortunately, the schools second gossiper saw me owning The three Cs and now everyone at school is treating me like the new Clara. It didnt bother me much, at least people arent bulling me except for Clara, she told her parents that I called her a whore, which she is and now Im suspended from school for 3 days and Bill is angry and says that Im just trying to make things worse for him. How could he say that? I helped him and Iris, how does he repay me? By telling me Im making things worse. I ran to my room and slammed the door behind me. I had a strange feeling I shouldnt trust Bill. I was so tired I went to sleep as soon as I lay on the bed. I kept having night mares where I was Bill trying to have his way with me. I thought "He wouldn't do that to me, he loves me." The next morning, Bill came into my room while I was changing. I yelled "EXCUSE ME!" but he just stood there, looking at my body with a paedophile grin on his face. I quickly took the nearest clothing and covered up. I asked him what he wanted; he said Iris is feeling much better and she would like to talk to you while examining my room. I politely asked him if he could leave while I finish changing. He slowly went out of the room. Suddenly I felt like I was in those lame mystery movies.

Iris said that she was feeling much better and that she had some good news. She wouldnt tell me and said that I had to wait until noon. I dont really get the point of calling me if she wasnt going to tell me anything. Seriously, I just dont understand some people. Iris went out to meet up with someone at the airport, leaving me alone with Bill. I don't know why but I felt like he was going to hurt me. I thought to myself that my night mare was getting into my head. So I decided to go into my room and stay there until Iris comes back. It was a hot evening so I started to change into my summer clothes, when Bill barged into my room again with a cup full of my favourite drink, Lemonade. I took the nearest blanket and covered up again. He has a serious case of Bad Timing. Bill handed me the lemonade and said that he was sorry for yelling at me last night. I didnt really care if he was sorry, what happened cant be erased. I told him I wasn't thirsty, and for some reason he got angry and took hold of my arms with one hand. His hands are like made out of steel, his grip was so strong. I couldn't move. He forced the lemonade into me. Suddenly I felt a bit dizzy and all I could see was darkness. After an hour, I woke up. I felt empty and stuck. I realized that my hands and legs were tied up. I felt cold. I soon came to realize that I was also naked. All I could remember was seeing Bill. I couldnt believe Bill did this to me. I was uncomfortable. My leg was getting really itchy. I couldn't scratch. I called for help. I yelled "IRIS! BILL! HELP ME!" then Bill came.

I was relieved when I saw Bill until I realised he wasnt there to help me, but to make things worse. I was scared. TERRIFIED! I was hyperventilating; the last time I hyperventilated was when my parents passed away. I have never felt this terrified. I hate this feeling. He started to take his pants off. I wanted to yell or scream but suddenly my throat was blocked, all that could come out was small and hoarse whisper. I couldn't talk. What Bill did was unimaginable. It made me feel dirty and disgusting. He kept on smiling at me telling me everything would be over soon. I have never experienced such pain. It was worse than ever. Every time I tried to free myself, Bill slapped me or hit me with something. When he finally finished, he whispered in my ear "If you speak of this to ANYONE, your brother will suffer the consequences." I finally could speak, I stammered "HE IS IN L.A YOU SICK BASTARD!" I didn't know I had the guts to say that. Bill untied me with a twisted grin on his face and left the room. Teenage girls usually think their life sucks because of simple thing like, being grounded but when you lost your parents, had your virginity taken away from you and knowing your only family member could die because of you, you don't think your life sucks, you know it does. That night Iris came home with my brother! I was happy to see him but I felt more scared. I understood what Bill meant. I gave him a hug. Even though we havent seen each other for some time, Mike could see there was something wrong. He asked me what was wrong? I knew I couldnt tell Mike so I told him nothing.

At dinner I sat quietly, I didn't talk while Mike, Bill and Iris talked on and on. Bill kept on giving me a look every 10 minutes. Then when I got up without touching my food Iris suddenly asked "What's wrong darling? Is the food not to your liking?" I mumbled "It's nothing" and went to my room. Later on Mike came into my room while I was crying. He came in and gave me a hug. He asked what was wrong again. He asked if there was someone bulling me at school. I told him that I thought about our parents and it made me cry, Mike didnt buy it, but he thought I needed time alone so he left the room. Just ask Mike left the room, Bill came into my room and asked me if I told Mike anything. I yelled No, you fucking asshole just leave me alone. Mike heard me yelling and came into my room. Times like this makes me wish I had a best friend, but what kind of person would want to hang out with a freak like me? The next morning Mike came into my room and asked if I wanted to talk about last night. That was when Mike realised the mark on my face and arm. He asked how I got it, I thought of telling him that I ran into a lamp post but it wont be any good since he is doing medical studies and he would realise it wasnt. I decided to tell him half of what happened. I knew if I told him, I would be risking his life, I didnt want to only person I cared about dying. The next thing I knew, I was telling Mike everything that happened. Mike was devastated. He wanted to kill Bill but when I told him that he would get himself killed. Mike was very strong but compared to Bill, Mike would look like a fly, so Mike decided to tell the school councillor or the police but I didnt want to discuss it with anyone. Mike thought it would be good if I went with him to L.A. I agreed it was a good idea but I couldnt leave without Bill and Iris knowing. Mike said he would think of something. Also, that morning my school called and said my suspension has been lifted and I can go back to school. I couldnt believe how relieved I was to be leaving the house. At school, people were looking at me like I just told them I killed their loved one. People were giving me the look that clearly says What a bitch! For once in my life, I cared what people thought. I thought they knew my secret. My face was red, but I still pretended that I didnt care. Turns out that the three Cs started a rumour saying that I was a bitch, and that I ask men for money and that I sell my body. What in the world gave her that idea?! I barely went outside. ARGH! FUCKING BITCH! Winner of the most boring class trophy is Science. My teacher was going on and on about how chemical reacts when it mixes with something. I was so bored, I actually went to sleep. I was in a white room, there was blood everywhere, the three Cs were there, the teachers were there, my real parents where there, and some people at my school where there. They were calling me a whore. Chatting Bitch, whore, slut on and on. There out of nowhere Bill came in. I felt liquid flowing on my face. I heard a voice. It was yelling my name. Jacintha! Jacintha! That person sounded pissed off. It sounded like a female. She was also saying something else. I opened my eyes. My face seemed to be soaked in tears. People in my class were murmuring.

My teacher said that if I was going to doze away in class then, I shouldnt come to class. Out of nowhere I yelled Fine, who the fuck would want to be in this boring class! Who is their right mind would enjoy science? and with that I barged out of the class. I cant believe what I just did! I took my anger out on her! I just swore at a teacher! Poor woman. Must have scared the heck out of her, sadly it didnt seemed to stop me from crying. I sat in the hallway and cried. I cried and cried until I felt like my tears would run out. I had a major headache. I felt like I was going to pass out. I saw someone or something coming over. I thought it was my hallucination. The person/thing was asking something. I finally figured out what the person was saying. Are you alright said the guy. I looked at him with a raised eye. He asked again ARE YOU ALRIGHT?! I replied DO I LOOK OKAY?! Anyways, why should you care? Didnt you hear? Apparently people seemed to thing that I am a bitch The boy looked at me. He said sorry for bothering you, I just thought you were sick or something, and no I dont think you are a bitch, Im new to this school I looked at the boys eyes. I said sorry, I didnt mean to snap, I'm just having a hard time He sat next to me. He let me lay on his shoulder. I wanted to push him away but I felt so safe. I wanted to pull away because I felt like he would push me away but I also wanted to stay. After a while, I asked him whats your name? He said Im Anthony but you can call me Tony. I said nice name, I'm Jacintha and after that we had a random conversations that made me laugh like mad. Tony wanted me to show him around the school. He was gorgeous, he was the kind of guy Clara would do anything to get, but the difference is, he was my friend. I felt special and needed. Without even thinking I agreed on giving him a tour of the school. I never thought I would feel this safe around a guy that wasnt my brother after what happened with Bill. I just cant wait to see the look on Claras face when she sees me hanging out with Tony. I showed him around some parts of the school without contacting the principal or any teachers. We talked and talked. All of a sudden there is a big smile on my face that made me look like a total stupider than usual but I didnt care. Tony was really nice to me. He didnt ask why I was crying. I am so freaking glad that he wasnt nosy. One thing I hate about people is when they keep on asking nosy questions. All day, I skipped class with Tony. He didnt seem to mind skipping class and since he was new, he has an excuse. I just couldnt be bothered going to class and facing the teacher. We spent all day walking around talking and talking. It was the end of the day and it felt like I just met him, well I kind of did but it felt like we only spent a minute together. I didnt want to leave his sight. He walked me to my house and hugged me good bye. Again I had an urge to push him away but I also had a stronger urge to keep holding on. If he was someone else, I would have pushed him off but I didnt, instead I hugged him back. TONYS POV That girl was beautiful. She was somehow different from the other girls Ive went out with. You could tell she was vulnerable which made her look really sweet. I cant believe how nice I was to her.

If she was the kind of girl who would want to show off her ass or something, I would tell her to piss off and not bat an eyelid saying so. There was a big smile on my face. I was thinking about my old school. HA! That old hag principal finally got the guts to expel me. What a jackass! Good memories! The time when I broke into the principals office and sent the interesting videos the principal had on his laptop to the whole school. JACINTHAS POV For once in my life I understood what friendship is! Even though we only knew each other for a day, I felt really close to Tony. He actually listened to my problems and he made me laugh. No, I didnt tell him about Bill, but every time Im with him I forget about everything else. Dont get any ideas about me liking him. HA! Its a miracle I can be close to another male, let alone like him. I went inside the house with a stupidly big grin on my face. I went straight into the living room. The whole family were sitting around the dinner table with a concerned look on their faces. Oh good! I thought to myself. I thought that Mike had talked to Iris and Bill about my problems. Mike asked me to sit. Thankfully he didnt tell them anything. Instead, Iris said Darling, the school called today, they said you skipped school, is there something youd like to talk about? I shook my head slowly with curiosity. Mike said Jacy, we think that youre going through a bipolar depression I looked alarmed. What do you mean? I asked as calmly as I can. Bill said Well, a girl called Clara and her friends came by and told us you were angry in class and the next moment you were depressed then here you are now smiling, we are concerned I mumbled Yeah, right, and Im the queen of England. Bill said What was that, sweetie? emphasising the sweetie I shook my head. Mike looked at me and said See, you were just smiling like your lips were being stretched and now you are gloomy, I think you should see the school councillor tomorrow, for your own safety I quickly shook my head and I told them I had a headache then went upstairs to my room. The first thing I did when I got to my room was sleep. I had the best dream in a long time. It was just Iris, Mike, My parents, and Tony. No one died, no one left me, I was happy. You could see my innocence in my eyes. I was like the sun, shining on and on, no one to bully me, no one there to hurt me. Thats when I woke up. I hate it when I wake up from a pleasant dream to realise that this is reality. Dont you ever feel like you can go back in time and change the past? That was how I felt, like I could go back in time. It was time to get ready for school. I had a reason to go to school, Tony. For once Im gonna dress to impress. Yes, its just the uniform but I can make something work. Im not really dressing for Tony; Im also dressing to piss Clara off. Im not exactly flat chested; Im more like bigger than normal. Clara is just smaller than normal. I wore the school skirts that happened to be 15 centimetres above my knee, my top which I made look a bit tight to show off my curves and all. I wore the transparent tights and unfortunately I had to wear those ugly leather school shoes. I straightened my hair and put a little make up on. I snuck out of the home slowly and went straight school. On the way to school, I saw Tony, walking alone. His brown hair was all over his face. He was handsome, walking so carefree.

TONYS POV WOW! Was that Jacintha? She looked hot! Usually if I saw a girl who looked like her, first thing that goes into my mind would have been, SLUT, or SHOW OFF, but she was different. I walked up to her. She looked at me and smiled. Her smile is adorable. I was shocked with my thought. I have never thought of anyone as cute. What has she done to me?! She said Hi in her sweet voice. I asked her, Do you usually dress like that? Jacintha shook her head and asked back dont you like it? I looked at her body. I answered You look nice She looked at me with curiosity. She asked Nice as in hot or nice as in just nice? I looked into her eyes, I said Hot She blushed and looked away. I smiled and asked her is there a reason youre dressed like a goddess? She blushed again and said Im planning on making this girl at school look like the exorcist next to me, youll meet her soon enough I didnt ask anything so we kept walking. After an awkward silence, Jacintha said Thanks for yesterday, basically youre the only friend Ive even had. I looked at her and asked How come? She looked sad. I said sorry I thought we were going to be in another awkward silence when she said Since my parents died, I couldnt get over it, I hid my face and stayed in the corner. I mumbled sorry and gave her a hug. I did it again. I dont do hugs but when its Jacintha, I never want to let go. She returned my hug. I saw a smile spread on her face. If my home boys saw me hugging, they will think I went soft but I wasnt embarrassed, I was happy. When we reached the school, I saw this flat girl with a ton of make up with made her look like a Barbie doll. She looked so plastic. She looked at Jacintha and I, and she opened her mouth. She walked over to us with what looked like her twins. For some reason, I thought whatever comes out of her mouth would be shit. I was right. She laughed like a witch and said to me Why are you hanging out with this bitch newbie? Then she looked at Jacintha and said Why are you dressed like that? She sounded a bit shocked. I expected Jacintha to be shocked or something but instead she said Afraid Im prettier than you? Oh and another thing, stop wearing lifts and wonder bras, Im pretty sure theyll grow soon, Tony tell her why you are hanging out with me I looked at who happened to be Clara and said Jacintha doesnt look like a barbie doll who overdosed her makeup and she is nice I guess. Jacintha added And Im respectful, there thats a new word for you right, you better learn it It was class time. Luckily Jacintha and I had the same class for first period. We didnt listen to anything the teacher was saying. We were whispering and passing notes and stuff. TONYS POV Son, its youre duty as a member of the Lieberman family, to become a priest, you know your grandfather was a priest, and so was your great grandpa, when I die who is going to carry on the family tradition? I scoffed at my dad. Tradition, tradition and more tradition! Dad, I dont want to become a freaking priest! Dad begged Son, please, at least try it, who knows you might actually like it Then his voice got tougher and said if you dont try this, then I will confiscate youre phone and laptop. I had no choice. He gave me a list of things I could do at the church. I choose the confession box, where I can peacefully listen to music while others talk about their life story.

I left the house and went to the place Jacintha and I met. For some reason I feel so calm. There was someone sitting in the space Jacintha and I met. I got closer and closer. It was Jacintha. She was crying again. I went over and gave her a hug. You know, I think Im actually getting used to the hugging thing. I asked her what was wrong, she answered Things at home, I was hoping I could go to L.A with my brother, to get away from my foster parents, the passport agency said that I needed my guardians signature, and my foster dad refused, so now Im stuck here with him, life is unfair! I gave her a hug and asked her why she wanted to leave her foster parents but she told me it was personal. I had an idea. I told her, if she wanted to let everything inside out, she could write a diary or tell someone she trusts. She thanked me and showed her gratitude with a hug. She cleared up her face and said I have to go, my foster mum wants to go shopping with me and with that she left. JACINTHAS POV Maybe Tony was right. I should keep a diary or something, but if I kept a diary, Bill could read it. I saw him a lot of times sneaking into my room. I wish I had someone to tell. Then I thought I could go to the confession box tomorrow. It would help and the person on the other end wont tell anyone. I got home and Iris came to me and said, Jacy, are you ready to go? I nodded my head and waited for her outside. We went food shopping and well, no one need to know our grocery list, know do you? After we finished shopping, we went straight home and I went straight to my room to find my room totally messed up. I was getting used to the fact that Bill will come into my room every 3 days to check or something. I couldnt be bothered cleaning up so I got the rubbish of my bed and went to sleep. TONYS POV Argh! What time is it? My dad was trying to wake me up so I can get dressed up for the work experience I got up and put in my clothes, fixed my bed hair and brushed my teeth. I stuffed my MP3 player in my pocket and went outside. The church was only a three minutes walk and since dad wants to arrive at the church looking sharp, he took the SVU. In a minute, we arrived at church and people were greeting my dad and mum and looking at me and possibly said Is that their son? or He looks just like his dad Its actually true. I look exactly like my dad. I told my dad that I would be in the confession box, just in case someone comes in with a confession, but the real reason was so I could just sit there peacefully while listening to music. Some men and women came. This guys confession was that he was gay and is ashamed. Some of the confessions were actually interesting, and then it got boring. So I put on my earphones and started listening to my favourite song, Numb by Linkin Park. After listening to some other songs, my dad came in and caught me red handed. He confiscated my MP3 player so know I have to listen to the confessors or whatever they call themselves. JACINTHAS POV

WOW! I wonder if the pope is Tonys dad. They look so much alike. Id ask the priest later. I checked at my phone and looked at the photos again and again. I was so bored. I wanted to go into the confession box. I was getting so frustrated! I fell asleep. I had a dream. It was just Tony and I. We were kissing. I whispered I love you and he kissed me passionately to show his love for me. Suddenly I woke up. I thought about my dream. I dont like Tony, let alone love him! I finally got up and went into the confession box. TONYS POV No one came! So bored! What the heck do the guys do in here? Sit around hoping someone would come and whinge about their problems? After a while, someone came into the box. It was a female. She sounded like Jacintha. Funny, she got the same name as Jacintha. The lady said Hi, sir. My name is Jacintha Williams, and I'm 16. I am not here for a confession but just to let out my anger and fury and depression. I cant believe it! This might actually be Jacintha! Jacintha was here! I wanted to tell her it was me but I also wanted to hear her confession. She continued 2 weeks ago, my foster dad, sexually abused me, I havent been able to forget it even though I would love to, I just want to go back in time and erase that moment, I dont think I will be able to go near another man for my entire life, I thought if I could take my mind of things I could forget it, and now I am really scared, I dont really have more to say but thank you for listening and with that she left. I wanted to go and hug her. I could hear her sniffing. I poked my head out to check if she was really the Jacintha I know. HOLY SHIT! It was! God forgive me for swearing in your holy place. I suddenly regretted doing this. How am I going to go near her without feeling that she will push me away? I dont think I should see her anymore. JACINTHAS POV I wiped my tears and went to the priest to ask if he was somehow related to Tony. I said Excuse me sir but are you related to Tony Lieberman? Its just that you two look so alike! The priest answered my question, a bit surprised that I didnt know Yes actually, he is my son, are you his friend from his new school? I smiled and answered yes, where is he? He answered oh he is in the confession box, call it work experience, I hope he was having fun in there I froze. The world was going in circles. I might have just told Tony my secret! Oh no! God why do I keep getting tortured? I was shocked! GOD DAMMIT! I barged out of the church and went running! I ran and ran, my tears were dripping. I wanted to die! Im cursed. I calmed down a bit and started to walk home. I went inside and ignored what Iris said. I went straight to my room and pushed my stuff against the door. I wanted to die, but I have learnt to control my anger. What I felt when I was 6 came back. I can feel mixed emotions inside of me just dying to get out. Only way I can push them away is by sleeping, and so I did. To my surprise I actually slept. I had no dream. Just peaceful and quiet sleep, something I havent got in a long time. It was morning time. I put on my dirty uniform and went downstairs and left the house. When I got to school, Clara came up to me and said Ugh, you smell like a dead rat, I see that your friend isnt here anymore, what drove him away, your odour, personality or look? Im guessing all of the above

I was in a bad mood. I bitch slapped that cunt so hard I swore I heard her facial bones crack. I said GIVE ME A BREAK! JUST BECAUSE I HID BEHIND THE WALLS DOESNT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO BITCH ABOUT ME! SO FROM NOW YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! YOU THINK YOU ARE SUPERIOR DONT YOU? RIGHT NOW I COULD SHOW HOW MUCH OF A FAKE SILCONE BITCH YOU ARE! YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE NERVE TO CALL ME A SLUT WHEN YOU SLEPT WITH HALF OF THE GUYS IN THE SCHOOL AND THAT INCULUDES THE TEACHERS! SO SHUT YOUR BITCHING MOUTH! She just sat on the floor whimpering. Everyone was scared. A guy called the principal and when he barked at me to go to the office. I looked him in the eye and pulled up the rude finger at him. Even yelling at Clara didnt help. I got suspended from school and I have after school detention today. Who cares?! The principal said I could stay for the day. Tony avoided me all day. I guess he thinks I am a bitch. He was the only friend I had and he thinks I am disgusting and cant stand the sight of me. TONYS POV I hate being away from Jacintha, but I dont want her to push me away. I have never felt about a girl this way. She seems sad. I heard she broke Claras jaw or something. What a badass! The more I keep thinking about her the more I miss her! I cant stand being away from her. I guess I failed my exam since I didnt answer any of the questions. I tried to say something to Jacintha but I cant. What is this feeling? Is it guilt? It is depression? Clara tried to come up to me and tell me I did the right thing by avoiding Jacintha so I said do you want your nose broken as well? Because Im not scared to hit a girl unfortunately the principal was behind me and heard everything so I got after school detention for threatening a sick student JACINTHAS POV DETENTION TIME! I walked into the detention room. OH SHIT! Tony is in detention. SAD! Life cant get any worse. Oh wait it can. The teacher made me sit next to Tony. It was one of the most awkward moments I have ever had. We didnt talk for the whole half an hour. I went out of the detention class crying. I ran to the girls toilet. I locked myself in the toilet and sat against the door. I cried and cried. My tears were like a water fall. They wouldnt end, but they did. I ran out of tears. I actually felt much calmer. I went straight to home. I still hated this feeling. I was sick. I wanted to die. I went to the bathroom to check if I looked uglier than usual. I checked in the mirror and saw a disgustingly ugly face staring back. I wanted to break the mirror. I opened the cabinets then I found pills. I didnt care if my doctor didnt subscribe me anything. Pills are supposed to make you feel better. So I overdosed it. Next thing I knew I was suffocating and everything went black. IRISS POV Jacy Im home I shouted. I saw her bag in the living room. I shouted Jacy? but there was no answer. I went upstairs and straight to her bed room. She wasnt in there. I thought she went out for a walk or something so I went to the bathroom to take my medications. As soon as I stepped into the

bathroom, I saw Jacy lying on the floor. I found pills. I quickly took the grabbed the phone and dialled 000. After sometime the ambulance got to the house and they took Jacy away. I was worried. The police got involved. They thought Jacy attempted suicide because she was bullied. Bill looked like he was guilty. I can see the regret in his eyes. After 2 days, the doctors got Jacy to wake up. We were so relieved. I hugged her and said I never wanted her to leave Bill hugged her but Jacy pushed him away. I dont know what is going on between them but whatever it is, they better patch up things. JACINTHAS POV WHY?! Why did Iris find me? Why couldnt she just leave me to die? Now the police are on my case! The last thing I wanted was the police getting involved, and how dare Bill touch me? Let alone give me a hug? BASTARD! The nurse came in and said You have a visitor I asked her politely who is it? She said its a young man; he says his name is Anthony Lieberman. Before I could say anything, he came in. The nurse said Id leave you two alone and left. He looked at me for a while and said How are you feeling? I looked at him and said bad He looked back at me and said Im sorry. Before I could say anything he said Im sorry for what your foster dad did to you, and Im sorry for avoiding you, I thought that you hated the sight of men and I didnt want you pushing me away so I stopped hanging out with you I looked at him and said So it was you in the confession box My tears started producing. He looked at me and said If you need me to do anything, just name it The nurse came in and said visiting hours are over. He looked at me and smiled and I smiled back. Before he left he said Dont ever try suicide again